Long time no see, ex-wife!

Chapter 88

She can't even satisfy herself, but she still wants to satisfy others.

Nesting on the sofa, he carefully looked at everything about himself.

His feet were broken, his hands were shaking, his face was full of sorrow, his mind was still full of shadows, and even his heart became extremely sad because of his words.

Is this still me?

Is it still the Elling who can face all kinds of things with a smile in the past?

Love makes her humble, lacks self-esteem, does not understand self-love, blindly begs, like a vagabond stretching out her hands, hoping that the person can give her a little warmth, she becomes beyond recognition, giving in again and again, compromising again and again , Throwing herself at his feet again and again, watching him raise his legs and step on him with pity eyes, what is she doing for? !

Is it because you are the one you love? !

It was because she took a step first, but the man was still standing in the same place, she would keep running, turning around in circles just to confirm his intentions for a few seconds passing by him, and he Shaking her head, she will start again, keep going forward, and then return to him, the road ahead is endless, and the matter of loving him has become a runway with no exit and can only continue endlessly.

On this day, she didn't receive his call until very late. She was silent here, and the receiver only said that he would pick her up tomorrow. She was noncommittal and said good night softly, and the receiver hung up again. .

Back in the room, with the light reflected from the corridor, I saw a person sitting beside the bed. Yaling turned and closed the door, sat beside him, wrapped his hands around his waist, and rubbed his shoulders with his forehead: "dad."

Dad didn't speak, but raised his hand to stroke Aling's arm. Aling was greedy for this warmth, his eye sockets were very hot, but he never shed tears.

"dad?"

The cold sweat that fell on the back of her hand was obviously not her own, and the slight trembling of the man's body was also clearly felt by Yaling. She let go of her hand in a hurry, but the man's hand on his arm was violent. Hurry up, a muffled hum that has been suppressed for a long time escapes from his mouth.

"Dad! Look at me, what's wrong with you? Dad!"

Yaling was flustered, although her father's expression was not clear, but the inadvertent groan of pain and the hand that was gripping her arm more and more tightly reflected his feelings at this time, it must be painful Extreme!

Her mind was in turmoil, and only the man's body was getting weaker and weaker in front of her eyes. She tried to talk to him, tried to ask him what he could do to relieve his pain, but he just grabbed her arm and kept repeating in a low voice: " No, tell your mother, lock the door."

"Dad, let's go to the hospital. We can't drag on like this any longer. We're going to the hospital."

"No, make noise, she will, hear it, it's okay, it's not in the way, yes, close the door, stay with Dad for a while, be good, go quickly"

Yaling shook her head and tugged at her father's sleeve, but Yaling's father was even more stubborn than her. He turned his head and fell on the bed. A man in his prime now shrank into a ball, clenched his teeth and remained silent. The body twitched from time to time.

Aling looked terrified, but didn't dare to open the door to let her mother know, despair accompanied by helplessness covered her like night, she could only sob and climbed into bed, hugging this pain tortured, almost lost her original The man who looked like this kept talking to him, hoping to ease his pain.

"Dad, I'm Elling. I'm by your side now. The door is closed. Mom must be asleep. She won't know. Don't worry, she won't know. No. Dad, do you still remember?" When I was naughty when I was a child, my mother chased me with a branch and beat me, so you hid me secretly on the branch, and then looked for me with my mother as if nothing had happened. My mother always said that you spoil me too much. In fact, You love your mother too much. You know that she has a bad heart. I am young and ignorant. I am afraid that my mother will feel distressed after beating me, so I keep lying. I have been a peacemaker for many years. You love my mother , I love my mother, but I don’t like sweet talk. The things my mother mentioned will quietly appear on her desk in a few days. You should take it for granted that what your mother likes becomes your favorite. My mother said she likes it The soft life in a small town, you just quit such a good job, left your hometown, and followed your mother here without complaint or regret. Dad, you love your mother so much, why are you willing to leave her alone? So give up, what should mother do? She has to face the house life full of memories of two people every day, you must know how painful it is, Dad, we will not give up, we will find a way, and we must be able to do it like others Live till your hair turns gray, okay, okay."

"Yaling, be good."

At night like this, she didn't have a hug to cuddle to. Her fear and uneasiness were enough to bury her, but she didn't say a word: "Ya Ling, it's okay, I'm here."

Why is he always not by her side when she is helpless?

I don't really want to be strong, but if you are the only one standing in the boundless desert, your weakness has no one to pity, and if you lose your strength, you will be buried here, how can you not be strong?

Su Wei, you have gradually become a star, shining so beautifully in her night sky, she will look up to you, longing for you, but, thousands of miles away, you finally can't give her even a little warmth.

Yaling suddenly woke up from a light sleep, and instinctively went to touch the forehead of the man next to him. The handkerchief he had just put on had become quite warm, so he had to sit up and change a new one. Bed, dizzy for a while, holding the table next to him with his hands, black and white intertwined in front of his eyes, and everything became blurred, he wiped his eyes with a handkerchief nearby, and when he opened them again, the dizziness disappeared, and the eyes And slowly see the surrounding scenery.

It may be that there were too many things recently, and Yaling didn't pay much attention to it. After changing the handkerchief, she went back to the bed to change it for the person on the bed.

Yaling's father looked much better, and was already asleep. Yaling covered him with a quilt, hoping that her mother would not notice, straightened up, and moved to the window, slowly remembering the day when her father said to him. what she said.

"If this disease is divided into stages, I am already in the last stage. Do you still remember the scene when your grandma died? Heh, is it similar to Dad's?"

"Blindness, Jier's general weakness, pain like Lingchi, in the late stage of the disease, thinking will gradually become confused, awake for only one or two hours a day, lethargy, loss of appetite, people start to become thinner and thinner, emotional irritability , sometimes it is too quiet, and will start to forget a lot of things, until, like a blank sheet of paper, it will fall into a long sleep."

(End of this chapter)