The days of cohabitation with gangster boyfriend

Chapter 87

The Bianhua flower in my hand fell to the ground and was crushed by his step... -
I cried and begged him to forgive me. -
He said: "I won't, I can forgive anything, the only thing I can't forgive is that every bit of my heart in the past eight years is all fake." -
His fingers were locked, I looked at him, my eyes blurred with tears, the world was dark... -
Suddenly, time turned back, and I saw Dai Xichen's demonic smile again, and heard him say: "Didn't you hear what I just said?" -
My father pleaded so much, he didn't show any mercy. -
Dad was shot dead, and Mom rushed out from the balcony, holding Dad's body in despair, and died in his arms... -
And my brother, he's bleeding all over the place... -
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Waking up from the dream, I pressed my painful heart in horror, looked down and saw... -
The same face as in the dream was in front of my eyes. -
The him in the dream is really scary, or he has always been such a scary person... -
I was so scared that I climbed out of bed and kept backing away. -
Feeling pain in the soles of my bare feet, I looked down and saw my bag. -
my bag?my knife? -
Could this be the eight years of forbearance that God took pity on me and gave me such a good opportunity? -
It was as if I saw the dawn in the dark night, and I was inexplicably excited. -
In my head, I took out a sharp knife from my bag and walked towards him step by step.

When I approached him, I realized that he was completely different from the dream. -
His sleeping face was so peaceful, his resolute eyebrows turned into gentle curves, his thick eyelashes trembled with his breath, his thin lips were lightly pursed, outlining sexy lines, making people want to kiss. -
His fingers...-
His shoulders...-
His steady and regular rise and fall of chest... -
His firm and persistent heartbeat... -
Why did he sleep so soundly? Is it because of my crazy exhaustion last night?Is it because he believes that I will not harm him?Is it because he loves me? -
I don't know if there is me in the dream? -
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How many years of forbearance is for this day, but my hand holding the knife is shaking, and my tears are falling to the ground... -
The goal was about to be achieved, and what I thought was not how happy it would be to kill him, but whether the stabbing would hurt him a lot?Will there be a lot of blood?What will his last look look like... -
The blade was shining coldly under the dim light, but the diamond ring on my finger was like a burning flame. -
I think of the flowers of the other shore and the red of the setting sun;-
Thinking of the egg fried rice he served me;-
Thinking of him coming out of the emergency room covered in pain, he said the sentence that he couldn't make a sound at all: "Are you injured?"-
Why should I kill him? -
Why do I have to kill a man who loves me so deeply! -
I tried hard to recall the scene of him killing my whole family that day, and remembered that it was indeed my mother who rushed out from the balcony. -
She knew she was going to die and rushed out, not because she was sad or impulsive, but because she simply wanted to die with her father... -
My heart was in a state of confusion, and my thinking began to be random. I suddenly asked myself: If one day Dai Xichen said that he was willing to commit suicide, he didn't want to implicate me and the children. -
what would i do -
There is no need to think about the answer, I will definitely say without hesitation: "No! Without you, how can my child and I survive?!" -
I will make the same choice as my mother. I would rather gamble once, even if the whole family will die together in the end, than let him commit suicide. -
But I know that if Dai Xichen were my father, he would make his own decision and would never let me know until he died...

(End of this chapter)