me and my affordable man

Chapter 1

When others look at He Xiaojun, they always think that her love experience should be the history of beautiful women, but they never expected that it is actually the history of blood and tears of a moldy girl.

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When others look at He Xiaojun, they always think that her love experience should be the history of beautiful women, but they never expected that it is actually the history of blood and tears of a moldy girl.

He Xiaojun was born well, a girl from Jiangnan, with delicate features and gentle eyes, although she is not very thin, but because of her small frame and white body, she looks soft and cute, like white cotton candy.

So from childhood to adulthood, He Xiaojun has many suitors behind him.

It's just that her mother's conditions were too harsh, and most of them failed under her mother's sharp eyes before they entered the substantive stage.

In junior high school, the little boy who rode a bicycle to send her home was yelled out of the alley by her mother; in high school, the rare classmate birthday party mother called seventeen or eighteen calls urging her to go home before nine o'clock; in college, it was even better , she stayed in the house, and finally gained a little freedom, and the grass of the same species began to develop hazyly, and before holding her little hand, she was snuffed out by her mother who caught a little trouble.

The specific reason is--that kid's family conditions are too poor!
In fact, the condition of He Xiaojun's family is not very good. Although the typical general public lives in one of the best central areas in Shanghai, it is the oldest three-story apartment building. It is a product of the 30s. It sounds like it is historical protection. The building, in fact, is completely riddled with holes. One building is full of 72 tenants, and the coal and toilets are all located in the corridor. When cooking, families huddle together, and everything they eat is exposed to the public.

However, her family is the descendant of the first generation owner of this building. I don’t know why my grandfather didn’t go away with the others before liberation. He stayed alone and went through 81 disasters. He was even kicked out of his apartment building. After accepting the renovation, the old grandpa survived enough to live in this big house when he let go and returned to the west, but what he brought back was only a small half facing the northwest. When he opened the window, he could see criss-cross drying racks, which were full of more than a dozen houses. The family's bedding and sheets, and the green and verdant garden in my memory have long since become history, along with her mother's little remembrance of the past rich life disappeared.

It is because of this that her mother feels more and more contradictory about her own life. The life of the young lady's family girl, who was supposed to enjoy a lifetime of high life through the white gauze in the carved window, turned out to be a mediocre person who worked hard all her life. As a woman, I hate her married husband who is not up to date, and never let her live the good life she deserves.

Fortunately, she still has a daughter. She was ruined by fate, but her daughter still has hope. It is said that a woman is reincarnated twice, once born, and once married. As long as the daughter marries well, the family will be connected Reborn together.

But He Xiaojun's mentality towards his mother is totally a feudal backwardness and unreasonable. Leaving aside those experiences in junior high school and high school, everyone knows that puppy love affects learning, and the freshman's department is fine. Anyway, everything is still in its infancy. A boy who was frightened by her mother and turned into a turtle is not worthy of her entrustment for the rest of her life. What really triggered the fierce and sharp conflict between her and her mother was the love she talked about when she was a sophomore. Unforgettable, bloody lessons.

The other party is the elder brother of a classmate, a typical literary youth, all of life is splattering oil paint on a white canvas, and the smell of banana water is always floating on his body, he reads poems to her in the factory-style LOFT he rents, and the next day When it was raining, her eyes were melancholy, and she stared at her for a long time holding a paintbrush, and said, Xiaojun, why can’t I draw you down.
Looking back now, He Xiaojun has to admit that he was a typical young and ignorant person who thought it was love, but in fact he had never seen a man at all.

But at that time, she really felt that she had fallen in love with her, and her mother had also fallen apart. The daughter she had worked so hard to raise and was endowed with infinite hope by her actually fell in love with such a man. This blow was no less than a blow to the head. Mace.

He Xiaojun's reason is very simple, I love him, love is not conditional, what happened to the artist?Artists are also worth a lot of money. He has talent, but he has not been discovered. I am optimistic about him. One day, he will shine.

Mother He immediately scoffed, artist?This kind of person can be regarded as an art hooligan at most, painting things that people can't eat after looking at them all day long. If they can be sold for money, a sow can climb a tree.

He Xiaojun also answered quickly, it is art, if you don’t understand it, don’t talk nonsense, if you really understand it, what’s the point of art?
This sentence irritated Mother He terribly. If Father He didn't know his wife, he immediately came over and hugged her shoulder to comfort and persuade her to fight. She almost slapped her daughter.

"I don't understand? I don't understand? Do you know that when I was a child, this place was covered with calligraphy and paintings, and the name on any one of them can scare to death the little hooligan you're looking for? If I say no, I won't allow it, if you dare to meet him again, don't recognize me as a mother!"

He Xiaojun was 19 years old at the time, and his blood boiled with passion for love. These words simply added fuel to the flames. As a result, the two women of the He family launched an extremely tragic battle for dominance in the following days.

Mother He personally went to the school to cancel her daughter's right to live in school and took her home. He Xiaojun ran away from home several times to show her determination. In the words of He's father, it was really World War III that broke out on a small scale in advance. , The sky is dark, the house is dark, and there is no peace in the house. If He Xiaojun's artistic youth suddenly had a problem at the last moment, even he would almost have the thought of running away from home.

In fact, the reason for ending all this is very ridiculous. The young artist whom He Xiaojun loved so much with her, when she ran away from home one time, she caught him naked with another young artist. In the first room, it was raining heavily that day, she was soaked when she opened the door, and the lights in the room were not turned on at all. A flash of lightning in the sky illuminated the two people who were fighting fiercely in front of the easel, and there were paints and brushes scattered beside them. The whole scene was really amazing. Rich in original artistic atmosphere, its shocking power far surpasses any work completed by this artistic youth.

When He Xiaojun rushed home, he hugged his mother and cried loudly. He's mother had just returned home from looking for her daughter with her wife, and she was soaked, and she cried while holding her daughter. In one place, except for the time when He Xiaojun was born, he has never been so harmonious.

A long time later, when He Xiaojun recalled that day, she always felt that her mother’s tears contained a little bit of comfort, because after that, He Xiaojun’s unrealistic fantasies about love were completely disillusioned, and all her energy was spent on self-cultivation, all the way straight to Go in the general direction of being invulnerable to both appearance and appearance.

Mother He is very satisfied. Although the ultimate goal she envisioned has not been successfully achieved, she has confidence in her daughter.

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He Xiaojun didn't think so.

The tragic ending of the love affair at the age of 19 made her lose her appetite for so-called love, and she spent her college life studying hard, turning a blind eye to all the men who showed her affection-no matter what they had No money.

Although the artistic youth did not bring her indelible psychological harm, the performance art in the rainy night and lightning impressed her so much that she felt a little strange when she saw all male creatures from then on, so she resolutely Resist their approach.

But no matter what kind of scars healed, when He Xiaojun was about to graduate from university, he finally blossomed again and had a new date.

The glittering date, the famous Feng Zhihao.

Feng Zhihao, director and deputy general manager of BOL China Company, has a strong background and a lot of money. He took this position before he reached his [-]s. , Why don't all the sisters cover their chests and sigh and then be full of longing.

He Xiaojun's best friend, Du Meimei, who was in the same dormitory as her at the time, would exaggerate to cover up the wonders of Feng Zhihao's body and sigh every time she mentioned Feng Zhihao.

"He Xiaojun, I really shouldn't have had a bad stomach that day. I missed Feng Dajin Gui for nothing. I didn't say anything. From now on, you will invite all the suppers to comfort my wounded heart."

The reason why He Xiaojun was able to know Feng Zhihao is really thanks to Du Meimei. In the first half of the senior year, Du Meimei’s Department of Business Administration held a lecture. Feng Zhihao was the special guest. The teacher asked Du Meimei to be in charge of the reception. With acute gastroenteritis, he had no choice but to ask He Xiaojun from the lower bunk for temporary rescue, and that's how he got to know Feng Zhihao.

Feng Zhihao drove here by himself, without the crowd of other guests. When she hurried to the auditorium, she met him. He walked in front of her, and pushed open the heavy glass door for her. , and then politely held the door and waited for her to walk in, with a gentlemanly demeanor.

He Xiaojun was in a hurry, even though he thought his face was familiar and didn't care, he just said thank you, but he didn't expect him to follow her all the way out of the elevator to the door of the reception room, until the other people waiting at the door warmly greeted her, she just said thank you. Remember who this man is.

He didn't even recognize the guests he was going to receive all the time, He Xiaojun was embarrassed and kept saying sorry, but he didn't care at all, he just smiled at her, his teeth were white and sunny.

He thought that he would never meet this man from another world for the second time, but he didn't expect Feng Zhihao to call her a few days later and invite her to have dinner with him.

He Xiaojun refused.

She refused!
It is estimated that Feng Zhihao has never encountered such a situation in his life, but he regained his energy. Since then, he has contacted her one after another, with great intentions. He went out to have a meal.

Feng Zhihao still drove to the school gate to wait for her that day. He changed to a bright silver Mercedes-Benz trot, got out of the car and opened the door for her, and only chatted with her about his travels while eating. He behaved very gentlemanly.

This kind of date went on several times, and what finally moved He Xiaojun was because she went to Beijing during the summer vacation. She lost her bag as soon as she got off the train. She lost her money, documents and other things. She was completely unfamiliar with Beijing. Calling the classmate who made an appointment to meet, the mobile phone turned off, and all the situations came together, making her eyes go dark immediately.

It was impossible for my parents to fly over for emergency treatment. Later, He Xiaojun sat alone in the police station near the Beijing Railway Station for a long time, and finally remembered that Feng Zhihao said that he was in Beijing recently, and he went to the doctor in an emergency. His phone number is also because his number is so easy to remember, a series of six and eight, no one can forget.

Feng Zhihao arrived several hours later. He Xiaojun sat alone on the plastic chair in the corridor of the police station and waited. It was too late, she was tired and hungry, and she looked sleepy. His legs were numb for a long time, and when he stood up, he grabbed the hand he stretched out and didn't let go.

It was only later that He Xiaojun found out that Feng Zhihao was not in Beijing at all that night, and he flew over from Shanghai after receiving her call.He took her to dinner, opened two rooms in the hotel, sent her to the door, and said good night to her with a smile.

That night, He Xiaojun was so moved that he couldn't sleep. For a man who is not yet thirty, the right time, place and people treat you like a gentleman. What does this mean?It means that he cares about your feelings more than his physical desire for you, and it means that he really likes you. If this is not enough to prove his sincerity to you, then she really can't find other ways to prove what is sincerity.

The two of them started like this. Feng Zhihao’s parents are both in Los Angeles, and they often travel between the two places, but as long as he is in Shanghai, he will date her frequently. In the early days of their relationship, they are always inseparable. Immigrated to the United States, grew up in the sunshine of California, the son-in-law is good at fishing and riding horses, and loves sports cars and food. Sometimes, when he is in the mood, he will take her to the beach for a walk in the middle of the night. Date with such a man, everything is perfect. it is true.

Later, He Xiaojun knew that everything that is too perfect to be real is probably not real.

After dating Feng Zhihao for a year, she discovered that the man she had identified, Feng Zhihao, who was young, successful, handsome and 100% in line with her mother's requirements, had a marriage contract.

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Feng Zhihao is engaged.

He turned out to be engaged!

He Xiaojun learned the truth on the eve of his 24th birthday. She and Feng Zhihao were having dinner in Pudong. The restaurant is located in a high-rise building in Jinmao, with a 270-degree view of the river. After a meeting, he came back specially to celebrate her birthday. The red wine in the glass was shining brightly. He looked at her smiling face. When the love was strong, He Xiaojun felt his body was light and floating, as if he was trapped in a cloud, before he took a sip.

He said that he had prepared a gift for her and would surprise her tomorrow night. He Xiaojun lowered his head and blushed slightly before speaking, explaining that she would celebrate her birthday at home tomorrow night, and asked if he could come?

With such a simple sentence, Feng Zhihao was silent for a full minute.

When He Xiaojun realized something was wrong and raised his head, he just caught up with him to speak, and there were only three words at the beginning.

"sorry."

He said he was sorry, and then repeatedly stated his helplessness and last resort in the following time, saying that he only loved her, that the engagement was what his parents wanted, that the two families had a deep relationship, and that he had no relationship with the nominal fiancée. I also objected, but to no avail, and the wedding date is still far away.
She maintained the original posture, sitting on the spot with a knife and fork in hand, and it took a long time to utter a few words. The voice was so unfamiliar that even she herself couldn't believe it was her voice.

"You guys, are you going to get married?"

His voice was suddenly interrupted, as if he had been slashed down with a sharp weapon, and he remained silent for a long time without answering.

But He Xiaojun was suddenly stunned, as if he had returned to the studio in that rainy night, and a lightning flashed across, tearing everything she had been obsessed with into two, irreversible.

The outer wall of the restaurant is transparent, and the scenery on both sides of the strait is still radiant, heaven and earth, but lightning flashes and thunders in her heart, and she has the idea of ​​jumping off the building.

Naturally, Feng Zhihao was not present at He Xiaojun's birthday party the next day. Mother He even asked her daughter, didn't she mean to give them a surprise tonight, where is the surprise?
surprise?It's good that she wasn't overwhelmed by the horror, but she knew that the situation between her and Feng Zhihao was only suitable to die in her heart for a lifetime, so looking at the expectant faces of her parents, He Xiaojun suppressed herself and wanted to pounce on them and hug them, crying loudly. Impulsive, in the end he could only knock down his teeth and swallow blood.

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He Xiaojun felt that if he wrote down his previous love experience, it could be called a history of blood and tears full of practical significance. Soft as cotton candy, but with a bit of toughness in her nature, this is her father's strong inheritance. It sounds like optimism, but it's blind optimism when you say it badly. After repeated times like this, He Xiaojun was actually strong in the end. Standing up, he continued to live normally with a smile on his face, and didn't cast too much of a distorted shadow.

However, a large part of the reason for supporting He Xiaojun's normal life with a smile is still Feng Zhihao.

Of course, the dinner on the eve of his 24th birthday broke up badly. He Xiaojun finally got up and poured the red wine, which was so bright and beautiful just now, on Feng Zhihao, and burst into tears when he rushed out of the restaurant I don’t feel that what I just staged is a Hong Kong and Taiwan blockbuster. This restaurant is one of the top ten places in Shanghai. All the diners in and out are well-dressed. Or secretly turned their gazes over, making Feng Zhihao who was left alone at the empty dining table suddenly become the focus.

Life is boring, who doesn't like to watch the sudden fierce conflict around him, it's better to have a climax and an intense plot, so that the enthusiasm and passion of the audience is not in vain.

The subsequent development of the situation did not live up to the expectations of these spectators, but unfortunately they could no longer see it.

He Xiaojun turned around and left, Feng Zhihao naturally tried his best to redeem him.He likes He Xiaojun, what kind of woman can't get a man like him?If he didn't have true feelings for her, he and her would not be able to get to where they are today, but according to his family tradition, he is only the third generation, and the power is all in the hands of the elders, so the important matter of the marriage partner naturally has to pass through them .

In fact, he only found out about the engagement a month ago. When he returned to the United States at Christmas, he met his fiancée Wen Xin for the first time at a family gathering. Of course, she is also Chinese. The conversation was very happy, and the topic had already started from the wedding to a series of cooperation plans in the future, and some people asked his opinion - when is the wedding date?
He doesn't dislike Wen Xin, she is 25, two years younger than him, with good demeanor and good looks, had a drink alone with him at the bar, before he could open his mouth, she asked him directly if he had a girlfriend, after listening to his words After answering, she held the wine glass and smiled, saying that it's okay, let's talk about it after playing enough, as for getting married, she can do it anytime.

The implication is that she has had enough fun and can enter the marriage state at any time, but she can also wait so as not to force him to enter the auditorium tomorrow.

He was so reasonable, he felt relieved after hearing this, and when the Christmas holiday was over, he hugged Wen Xin when he said goodbye, which made both parents feel very relieved.

When he came back and saw He Xiaojun, he felt guilty. He also thought that He Xiaojun would react strongly after learning the truth, but men have a fluke coexistence mentality towards feelings and women's nature. For him, feelings are not careers. Why bother to think hard every step of the way, instead of wasting time worrying about things that haven't happened, it's not too late to think about things that haven't happened yet.

It's a pity that when this day really came, he found that the situation had become too violent for him to consider.

He Xiaojun's attitude was unexpectedly firm. After the dinner broke up that day, he tried to contact her many times, calling and texting, but she didn't respond at all. At first, he felt certain that He Xiaojun loved him, and he knew it in his heart, even if he couldn't accept it for a while. , but there is always a solution to the matter, but as time passed, he finally found that she was so determined that she wanted to disappear from his world, and that posture was like never seeing him again.

He never thought of giving up this relationship, nor did he think of giving up on her, not to mention that the life without He Xiaojun was so difficult, and finally he gave up waiting to find her in person, and went directly to her company.

Feng Zhihao's status is there, so of course he can't make an impulsive move to rush to his girlfriend and grab her by the shoulder to ask for an explanation. It just so happens that He Xiaojun's exhibition company has undertaken a project of BOL. The reason he used to go there Just for this project, it is incomparably high-sounding and upright.

But other people don't think so. The company He Xiaojun works for is just a joint venture, and the project is very small. In the past, at most, a certain project manager from BOL was responsible for contacting them. The manager of the planning department, who was mentally prepared, was very nervous, and he led the staff of the entire department to line up to welcome him. He didn't know what to greet or report when he entered the meeting room. In short, a group of people jumped around.

But He Xiaojun understood.

It's just that she would rather not understand.

Feng Zhihao asked He Xiaojun to follow up on this project by name. Of course, the manager nodded immediately, telling her to put down all the things at hand and take office immediately. After the meeting, she asked her to send BOL Director Feng Gong back to show the incomparable sincerity of their side.

He Xiaojun was unwilling at first, but later felt that whether it was for her own present or future, she always had to have a face-to-face meeting with Feng Zhihao, and said everything she had to say clearly. After thinking about it this way, she finally followed the manager's wishes with the car. Congratulations to Feng Zhihao.

Feng Zhihao didn't drive here by himself, he had a driver.

There was a third party in the car, and He Xiaojun couldn't speak no matter how firmly he thought in his heart, so he was silent all the way, with a familiar man sitting beside him, but those sweet feelings in the past were replaced by anger and depression, and all the complicated emotions Intertwined and intertwined, the tide washed her over and over again, and the saddest thing was that she couldn't find any words to describe her feeling, just stuffy, chest pain, and the feeling of exploding.

That feeling was too strong, feeling that he was on the verge of collapse, He Xiaojun finally gritted his teeth, and wanted to speak regardless of the presence of a third party.

The car stopped suddenly, he asked the driver to leave, and got out of the car.

It was impossible for her to stay in the car alone, so she got out of the car as a last resort.

This is a small piece of green land in the West District, surrounded by high-rise buildings, surrounded by rare small bridges and flowing water, with lush green trees and green everywhere. In the evening of April, the air smells of flowers, the green land is full of children's laughter, and many people in the music Dancing lightly, the ground is covered with tiny blue lights, which look like stars in the sky from a distance.

He brought her here, he brought her here!

This is a place full of her sweet memories. In the past, they often ate at a nearby restaurant, walked here hand in hand after meals, looked at each other and smiled countless times under the moon, and put their palms together, as if they shared the whole world she wanted .

There are red and green plastic trails among the flowers and plants. Someone is running, passing by very briskly, bringing up a breeze. She is gathering all her strength to speak, but she suddenly screams, looking at the man's back, tears are pouring out Come out, stop and don't wish
She just remembered the past, they had countless happy times in this place, once the two of them drank some wine in the restaurant, after coming out, Feng Zhihao actually jokingly raced with her here, she and him were both formal, really She started to run like a child, she played tricks, and ran for more than ten meters in one breath without saying anything, and then he caught up with him from behind and hugged her, her face flushed with laughter.

The waist tightened, it was naturally Feng Zhihao who suddenly hugged her, lowered his head and spoke in her ear, his voice was hoarse, and said Xiaojun, forgive me, I can't live without you.

She was covering the surging tears with her hands, and it was too late to struggle, but he hadn't hugged her like this for a long time, the familiar warm body fell into his arms, with an indescribable sense of satisfaction, he said that sentence unconsciously talk,
Unmoved, she broke his hand vigorously. There were still tears in her palm, which was hot and humid. He felt a pain in his heart, and he hugged her tightly and added another sentence.

He said, "I'll figure it out, Jun, give me time."

She stiffened suddenly, then whimpered like a baby, lost all strength in an instant, and her whole body became weak.

(End of this chapter)