fish in the financial tsunami

Chapter 46 Su Xiaoyu's Self-Esteem of the Poor (2)
Someone greeted someone at the next table, and the young lady came over in response. She was a little psychologically disturbed by this man with severe facial features. When she passed by Tang Zhongwen, her steps were very small, but she looked at him unconsciously from the corner of her eyes, but she saw him sitting down, holding up the bag on the table with one hand. With a cup of coffee that was no longer warm, he raised his other hand, curled his fingers, and wiped the knuckles across the glass beside him.

On a humid winter day, there is a thick layer of white mist on the glass. When you wipe it with your finger, you can see the busy street scene, but it is only a narrow strip.He saw silently that the street was still blocked, some impatient drivers began to press the window and stick out their heads, the wind was strong, pedestrians held umbrellas against the wind, and the street was colorful, at last he saw Su Xiaoyu, standing alone At one end of the zebra crossing, with his hands in the pockets of his gray coat, he stared stubbornly at the street lights.

The red numbers of the street lights began to jump, and finally turned green. She was the first to take a step. Her hair was blown away by the wind, covering her eyes. She raised a hand to cover it, and she did not stop at all. mean.

The mist that was wiped away by his fingers gradually shrank, and he looked away, not looking where she was going. The coffee was already cold, so he lowered his head and took a sip, then put it down.

Su Xiaoyu knew where she was going. It was only one stop away from Jing'an Temple to West Nanjing Road. Standing in the crowded subway car, she felt that her days were like years. When Assistant Milson answered the phone, his voice was still very professional and polite. Said that she could arrange time for her at any time.After getting out of the subway, she walked forward quickly. The wind was cold, but she didn't feel cold. All the way to the building, there were many people coming in and out at the gate. She finally slowed down. The wind was so strong that it blew away her body. Before entering the door, she stretched out her hand to comb it again, and suddenly saw a familiar figure coming out of the other door with her fingers scattered. She was wearing a snow-white windbreaker, dazzling at any time.

It was Yang Zaixin, who walked hurriedly, walked out the door as if he was going to run, bypassed the long queue of taxis, and walked to the front.

There was a slight commotion in the waiting line, and a security guard walked over to greet her, but she ignored it, but a car drove in the next second, not a taxi, with a streamlined body, still shining brightly in the rain and fog.

Su Xiaoyu stood in place, her fingers were still pressing on her cold and wet hair, her heart was beating like a drum suddenly, she wanted to force herself to look away, she wanted to force herself to take a wrong step back, but her body was uncontrollable, she stared blankly in that direction, Just can't move.

The car had stopped, Yang Zaixin took a step forward and pulled the door, the door didn't move at all, she still wanted to use force, but the door on the driver's side opened, and a familiar man came down, it was Chen Sulei.

He walked around the front of the car to Yang Zaixin's side, glanced at her before opening the door, then reached out and patted the back of her head.She had been pursing her lips with no expression on her face, but after this light pat, she suddenly collapsed, reached out and grabbed his arm, looked up at him like a child, and could see her red from such a long distance eye sockets.

The picture is beautiful, with a pair of people on the wall, everyone around is watching quietly, and after the car leaves, there are still people looking around and sighing.

The revolving door kept working, the hot and cold air alternated, the chatter was still noisy, the episode just now was over, everything continued, only Su Xiaoyu forgot her original intention of coming here, and stared blankly at the direction in which the car disappeared.

The side is busy, but she feels that she has entered another world, a vacuum, a feeling of suffocation.

Why let her see what she doesn't want to see?

It was still difficult to breathe, like a stranded fish, she knew that this day would come, but she didn't expect it to be so fast and so sudden.

Su Lei, is this the original intention of your recommendation to me?Give me everything you think I want, a great future, a beautiful life, thoughtful, perfect, far beyond everyone's imagination?
And couldn't help but think of Yang Zaixin's expression when he looked at him at the end, she was aggrieved, her eyes were red like a child's, she vaguely figured out many coincidences, in fact she didn't want to think about it, but her temples were tingling, and she couldn't stop it no matter what.

How nice, everyone has their gains and losses, Su Lei, you are so fair.

The phone rang for a long time, stopped, then rang again, she didn't respond, and finally someone came over to remind her that it was a security guard in uniform.

"Miss, do you need anything?"

She looked at him, and then looked over his shoulder to see what she looked like on the glass curtain wall, her hair was blown messy by the wind, her forehead was pale, but there was an abnormal blush on her cheeks, her eyes were empty and empty like a puppet.

The phone was still ringing, and the security guard looked at her strangely. She reached out to answer it, but the voice of the assistant Miss Milson was still on the other end.

"Miss Su, are you here yet? Mr. Milson can see you now."

She nodded, and then realized that this action was meaningless. When she spoke the first sentence, she didn't hear her own voice. Her throat hurt as if it had been rubbed by a sharpie. After trying harder, she finally replied, "Okay, I will immediately just come."

Before signing, Milson asked, "Does Miss Su have any questions?"

She was already holding the black signature pen in her hand, the barrel of the pen was lubricated, she held it too tightly, and always felt like she was going to let go, but she tightened her fingers even more, and the answer was very simple.

"No, I'm fine."

At the same time, Yang Zaixin, who was sitting in Su Lei's car, fell silent. The car stopped on the side of the road, and someone came over and pulled the car door with great force, and dragged her out with the other hand.

She didn't look at the man behind, but looked directly at Su Lei who was still sitting in the car, and said with some hatred in her voice, "Su Lei, you lied to me, you promised my sister, you lied to me."

Behind her was Fang Nan who grabbed her. After hearing this, he wiped his face vigorously, and said in a rough voice, "Call him brother-in-law, damn it, only now did you know to call me, or tell him to die .”

She seemed to have discovered his five fingers on her arm at this time, struggled hard, then glared angrily, and called out, "Let me go."

Chen Sulei, who was sitting in the car, remained silent all this time. He glanced at the two of them for the last time, shook his head and stepped on the accelerator to leave.

4
Su Xiaoyu resigned.

The resignation letter was placed on Su Lei's desk. The content was very simple. The last sentence was:

Su Lei, I finally understand everything you said, thank you.

The company was busy as usual, and Miss Lisa was not there, so no one noticed her coming in and out.

I don't want to know Chen Sulei's reaction. She turned off her mobile phone after she walked out of the company. It was very late when she got home, and her parents had already gone to bed. She washed for a long time by herself. Come in and call her.

"Little fish?"

In the shower room, the water was rushing, the white water column fell straight to the ground, and the heat was steaming, but Su Xiaoyu was not in there at all, sitting alone on the toilet lid, fully clothed, his hands clasped on his knees, his eyes were lowered, he was thinking something.

Su's mother was so frightened that she walked over and reached out to touch her daughter's forehead. Before her hand touched her daughter's skin, she was held. It was Su Xiaoyu who raised her head to look at her. With her face up, her eyes slowly turned red , called "Mom", and then cried.

That night, Mother Su stayed in her daughter's room all night, holding her daughter's hand and listening to her talking intermittently for a long time. At dawn, Su Xiaoyu finally fell asleep with tears on her face. After the quilt left the room, Papa Su waited in the living room for a long time. When he saw her coming out, he looked worried and asked her what's the matter in a low voice.
She looked at her husband, and exhaled a big breath before speaking, as if a string that had been tense for a long time suddenly relaxed, and her whole body seemed to be relieved.

"It's nothing, it's a good thing, get ready, our daughter is going to study abroad."

The news came suddenly. Su Guoqiang was surprised when he heard it, but he didn't have time to ask. A bell rang in the hall. Mother Su walked over to pick it up. Is Xiaoyu there?In the early morning, such an unexpected visit didn't feel weird when it came out of his mouth.

Mother Su's first reaction was to look at her daughter's room. The door was closed tightly, and there was no movement at all. She breathed a sigh of relief, and then replied, "Mr. Chen, Xiaoyu is asleep. I have a few words to say to you." You said, wait for me, I'll come down right away." After finishing speaking, he hung up the phone.

Su Guoqiang was at a loss when he heard it, and when his wife was getting dressed, she continued to ask, "What's going on? What are you going to tell Xiao Chen? Did they quarrel? What's the matter with going abroad to study?" It’s not the MBA here in Shanghai, what does it have to do with going abroad.”

Mother Su moved swiftly, put on the down jacket and went out, and turned her head to look at her wife when she reached the door, her voice was firm, "Don't worry about it, just take care of my daughter, she's asleep, just don't let her know that I'm going down, I'll tell you slowly when I come back."

Before dawn, it was pitch black downstairs, and both sides of the path were full of cars. Chen Sulei's car was parked in the only remaining narrow driveway. The temperature was extremely low at night. When Su's mother walked out, she only saw him standing silently outside the car. , exhale into frost.

She used to stand in front of him, and he seemed to be in a daze, seeing her pause for a moment before reaching out to pull the car door.

She stood still and said, "No need, Mr. Chen, I'll just say a few words, and then I'll go upstairs."

Before he opened her mouth, she continued, as if she was afraid of being interrupted by him, "Xiaoyu told us that studying abroad is a good thing. She is still young and was dragged down by us before. It is really rare to have this opportunity now, so I really don’t want to give up, I hope Mr. Chen can understand.”

The only street light in this corner was dim, and he stood in the shadow and listened quietly. Mama Su's speech was indeed not long, and she was not emotional. The last sentence even contained a bit of pleading, begging him to hold his hands high, not because of his displeasure. Let go and let Su Xiaoyu lose this opportunity.

In fact, what she wanted to say before going downstairs was not these words, she wanted to question him, accuse him, and then thank him for letting go in time, but after seeing this man, she suddenly realized that she might have been wrong before, and it was outrageously wrong.

If she was wrong, she was wrong. She didn't want to understand the misunderstanding between them. She only knew that this man was not suitable for her daughter. She only knew that Xiaoyu had just got a great opportunity. She only knew that her daughter was finally willing to leave This dangerous man, and willingly.

If all this was due to a misunderstanding, she would be happy to see it happen!
He was silent all the time, and Mother Su didn't move after she finished speaking, watching him and waiting for an answer.

The light was dim, and his downcast eyes were dark. Many emotions fluctuated, and finally settled down, sinking into the darkness, never to be seen again.

He has never felt that he has failed like this in his life. If one thing is wrong, it seems that the whole world is wrong.

What does she want, what is she for?He just gave her a choice, but she was so decisive that she turned around and walked in another direction without even saying hello to him.

Or is it really wrong, or what should be done now is to let go, two people are not together to argue and change, let alone who can change another person?Being together is to want to be together, if she is reluctant, how can there be happiness?

In fact, he had already thought of this moment, but after reading that letter, his eyes were blank, and he was already here when he woke up. It was unbelievable that he lost control like this.

A sharp pain suddenly hit his mind, instantly sweeping through every tiny corner, his body trembled, fearing that he would lose his composure, he leaned back, his fingers fell on the car body, it was icy cold.

Mother Su was still waiting, the man in front of her was silent for a long time, and finally spoke, her voice was very flat, vaguely suppressing many things she couldn't understand, but she didn't care about those, all she wanted was a word.

"Don't worry, she's free," he said.

5
Su Xiaoyu didn't try to contact Chen Sulei again, nor did he contact her again.

She couldn't sleep all night for a while, and she must have her mother by her side before going to bed. Sometimes she woke up in the middle of the night even though she fell asleep, and the pillow was damp, as if sleeping on moss that was too thick to melt.

No one around him mentioned his name anymore, and even Yang Yan became cautious. She gradually understood how far away her world was from him, and she could no longer touch it just by turning around.

When she got on the plane, only her parents were the ones who saw her off. Her father pushed the heavy luggage cart, and her mother held her hand all the time.

The weather was fine and the plane took off on time. The flight attendant of Singapore Airlines smiled brightly, bent down to deliver the newspaper of the day, and asked her what else she needed?
She thanked her, and reached for the newspaper on the top floor, the English version of Shanghai Daily, the front page was a large color photo of the city, the simple shantytowns waiting to be demolished under the skyscrapers, a wonderful sense of contradiction.

A man in a suit and leather shoes was sitting by the window, wearing glasses and a gentle face. He had already opened a thick original book, looked past her and shook his head at the lady to indicate that he didn't need it.

She also opened the newspaper in her hand. It was a thick stack with the smell of fresh ink. She read the financial section as usual. The market has been turbulent recently. Economic stimulus package...

The roar of the plane engine was heard in her ears, and there were people walking in the corridor. She lowered her head and looked seriously. After turning the page for the last time, her fingers stopped and did not move again.

It is full of characters, black and white, and in the corner is a short report about the change of shareholders of Huicheng Industry's original shares and the preparation of the listing plan. There is a small photo attached, which should have been taken at a signing ceremony. There are many people.

She kept looking at the photo, and the more she wanted to see it, the more blurred it became. Then she unconsciously stretched out her fingers to wipe it away, trying to wipe away the fog that covered it, but her tentacles were sticky, and it turned out to be wet there.

There was someone talking in her ear, the voice was very soft at first, and then she raised the volume a little bit. She turned her head in a daze, and saw the man sitting next to her facing her, with his lips opened and closed.

She shook her head, wanting to say that she was fine, but her throat was choked up, and she couldn't make a sound. Finally, when she saw herself in his lens, she burst into tears silently.

The newspaper was still in his hand, with a slight rustling sound, and the photo was wet and wrinkled, and there was no possibility of it returning to its original state.

He said, the extreme prosperity will lead to decline, and the extreme strength will lead to humiliation. Xiaoyu, you must know the truth that deep love does not last long.

He said, Xiaoyu, I hope you are by my side, happy, if not, you can leave.

He never restricted her freedom, he never asked her to stay, he only asked her, where are you going from now on?
where to goWhat she desires most in this life is to be by his side, but that is illusory, a dream, he is Chen Sulei, a man that no woman can grasp, including her of course!

The plane leaped into the clouds, the whole world became chaotic, tears were surging, she lowered her head at the last second when the sun was gone, and closed her eyes silently.

(End of this chapter)