Pillow wife

Chapter 87 He Doesn't Love Me
"Here we are, miss."

When the car stopped, Qin Yuexin was a little dazed.

She actually didn't know what place name she said just now, she just remembered that she just wanted to get out of Lu Chenan's sight as quickly as possible, so when she saw a taxi, she waved her hand and got on it.

After getting in the car, the driver seemed to ask her where she was going, but she didn't know where she had reported.

"Aren't you going to get out of the car, miss?"

The driver urged her again, she was stunned, quickly took out the money from her bag, handed it to the driver, opened the door and got out of the car.

Qin Yuexin was stunned when she saw everything in front of her. She didn't expect that the place name she couldn't help reporting was actually here.

This "home" that Lu Chenan generously gave her just now.

Standing in front of the familiar neighborhood, Qin Yuexin only felt that her whole body was cold, and the cold air spread from the deepest part of her feet, like a poisonous snake, circling up from her body little by little.

She withdrew her gaze stiffly, turned around and left step by step.

At the beginning, it was just a quick pace, but at the end, she ran straight away.

None of the passers-by on the street knew what happened to the woman in front of them, and some even thought it was a robbery, but she was the only one running along the long road, and looking across, she was the only one one person.

Only Qin Yuexin knew how much she wanted to leave this place. If possible, she would rather stay far away.

She still remembers clearly what she said to Lu Chenan half an hour ago:
I'm gone, goodbye, hope we never see each other again.

never see again.

She was not just talking, she really hoped that the two of them would never see each other again.

Although Ye Huiyun taught her how to be tolerant and lenient since she was a child, she has never been able to do it. She has loved someone so sincerely, and she can't watch him happy and smile in front of her as if nothing happened.

But she is not that vicious, and she hopes that he will never have a good life, and the only way to neutralize this is to let herself never hear from this person again.

She just wanted to leave everything related to Lu Chenan, but she didn't know where she ran to.

She and Lu Chen'an have been married for more than two years, and the two of them have basically never gone out.

Standing at the corner of the street, Qin Yuexin stared blankly at the pedestrians coming and going, only to feel that her vision had somehow become blurred.

The video store on the corner of the street played an inexplicable song, but every word of the lyrics seemed to be satirizing her:
"People who are used to being rejected reject first?

This time at least I say goodbye first?
Have some pain and can't see the tears?

There is a defense called I don't care?
Is it my wish to make you happy?
But you never cared about my sadness?
Throw me some crumbs of joy?

But take everything from me?
You don't love me because I can't bear it?
Is it that I don't deserve to be embarrassed for you?
you don't love me you really don't love me?

Is it a waste to do my best?

You don't love me because I can't bear it?
I am not worthy to fight against fate?

you don't love me you really don't love me?

......"

You don't love me, I can't bear it.

That's right, from the moment she filed for divorce until now, she's in pain, but what about Lu Chen'an?

He didn't even have the slightest bit of reluctance, and he was even able to tell her with a smile, "You don't look good when you're angry."

The executioner in this world is nothing more than that, right?

"Beep-!"

Suddenly the car whistle sounded, she came back to her senses, and stood there in a daze, only then realized that she did not know when she was walking in the middle of the road.

After Xu Huainan braked the car, he opened the door and got out of the car. Several cars behind him were honking their horns, but he didn't even hear it. He just walked towards the woman standing in the middle of the road with a straight face.

"Qin Yuexin."

Someone is calling her.

Qin Yuexin froze for a moment, looked up at the man standing in front of her with the light behind her back, paused for more than a second, and then tried to remember that this was Xu Huainan.

She raised her head and looked at him. The sun was a little strong at this moment. Qin Yuexin couldn't help but squinted her eyes, and smiled with the corners of her mouth curled up: "Mr. Xu, I still owe you a meal. I'll treat you to a meal." Bar."

Xu Huainan frowned, the traffic behind the car was already very dissatisfied, the horns were honking one after another, and some people even got out of the car, seeing the two of them, they immediately began to curse.

He glanced at Qin Yuexin, his usually calm face sank slightly, he stretched out his hand and pulled her over: "Get in the car first."

She looked at him, still smiling, as if the traffic jams around her had nothing to do with her, and her voice was as soft as the fluttering feathers: "Okay."

Xu Huainan pulled her, and as soon as she turned around, Qin Yuexin's whole body suddenly softened. He followed her subconsciously, but she looked up at him, her normally clear eyes were completely dazed: "I think, I can’t move anymore, Mr. Xu.”

She held his sleeve with her hand, and when she looked up at him, her whole face was pale and pale.

It was only at this time that Xu Huainan noticed that Qin Yuexin was in an unprecedented embarrassment today.

He pressed his eyes and glanced at her: "I'm offended, I'll give you a hug."

She pursed her lips, but instead said, "Thank you."

Qin Yuexin didn't know what was wrong with her, she seemed to have no strength all over her body, her legs were limp and she couldn't stand up.Obviously she was fine just now, why is she like this all of a sudden.

Xu Huainan is very gentleman. Although he was hugging her, he tried his best to keep the distance between the two of them, trying not to embarrass her.

Qin Yuexin was carried into the car by him like this, Xu Huainan's fingers accidentally touched hers when he put it down, the freezing temperature made him frown involuntarily, and looked down at her: "Miss Qin? "

She trembled suddenly and looked up at him in a daze. Only then did she realize that she was grabbing the seat belt and buckling it with her head down.

But her vision was blurred little by little, she couldn't even find the card slot, and she couldn't find the button of the seat belt after searching for a long time.

When Xu Huainan got into the car, what he saw was such a scene. The people beside him kept touching, their eyes were obviously looking at the seat belt, but they couldn't match the seat belt.

He frowned, and couldn't help stretching out his hand: "I'll do it."

Qin Yuexin was stunned, and looked up at him, her eyes were already red, tears were streaming in her eyes, but she was stubbornly unwilling to fall.

Xu Huainan's unchanging expression for many years also gave him a rare daze, and then reached out to take the seat belt from her hand, and buckled it up for her with a click.

A driver had already come and knocked on the car door, and in just a few minutes, there was already a traffic jam at the back.

Xu Huainan glanced at Qin Yuexin beside him, raised his leg and stepped on the gas pedal to restart the car.

Qin Yuexin didn't speak, she was a little groggy now, as if she didn't know anything, and she seemed to know everything.

Yes, she knew, she knew that the divorce certificate was in her bag, she knew that just over an hour ago, she and Lu Chenan had completed the divorce procedures, walked out of the Civil Affairs Bureau with a divorce certificate, and said goodbye.

She was the one who left first, and he was watching behind him. She could feel his gaze, but she also knew that there was no nostalgia in your gaze.

She tilted her head, looking at the delicate, familiar yet unfamiliar people passing by outside the car window.

In this area, every time she goes to and from get off work, she and Lu Chenan sit in the car and look at it.But now, the man sitting next to her is not Lu Chen'an.

The back of her hand suddenly felt warm, Qin Yuexin blinked, quickly took out a tissue from her bag, and wiped away her tears.

There was peaceful music playing in the carriage, and her mood calmed down little by little.

She remembered that she really owed Xu Huainan a meal.

"Mr. Xu, let's go—"

She turned her head and realized that Xu Huainan was talking on the phone. Hearing her voice, he glanced at her indifferently, and then said to the person on the phone: "I'm hanging up."

With that said, I really hung up.

Before Xu Sheng on the other end could finish speaking, Xu Huainan hung up the phone.

Xu Sheng was a little depressed. If he heard correctly, the voice just now was a woman, and this woman seemed no stranger.

Xu Sheng felt that his cousin had suddenly become enlightened in the past few months, and there were already women in the co-pilot.After thinking about it, he had to quickly call his aunt, and just pressed the number, remembering the lesson from last time, Xu Sheng still put down the phone embarrassingly.

He felt that it was better for him to mind his own business, after all, he couldn't beat Xu Huainan.

Qin Yuexin looked at Xu Huainan with some embarrassment. She didn't expect him to be on the phone, and seeing him hang up the phone directly, she was a little at a loss: "Mr. Xu, I didn't mean it."

Xu Huainan took off the bluetooth from his ears, then glanced sideways at her: "What did you want to say just now?"

His tone was a little cold, but Qin Yuexin was used to it, so he didn't think there was anything wrong with it, but he was a little embarrassed that he had spoken so abruptly just now.

Seeing that he didn't seem to care about what happened just now, Qin Yuexin smiled, "Let's go to Shimao, I'll treat Mr. Xu to dinner."

Qin Yuexin's smile at this time was really a bit scary, there happened to be a red light ahead, the car stopped, and Xu Huainan was looking at her.

Perhaps it was because of crying, her eyes were a little swollen, and the makeup on her face had fallen off. After being washed away by tears, the powder on her face made her look very embarrassed.

He frowned, reached out and turned over a pack of wet wipes for her: "I think you may need to wipe your face."

She was taken aback, looked down at the wet towel in his hand, took it in a daze, and then took out the small mirror from the bag.

When seeing herself in the mirror, Qin Yuexin felt a little stiff.

Qin Yuexin inside was really in a panic. She thought that Xu Huainan next to her was looking at her face all the way. She was a little embarrassed and apologetic, but in the end she was still crushed by those pressures. : "I'm sorry to scare you, Mr. Xu."

When the green light turned on, Xu Huainan started the car, but he didn't speak.

Qin Yuexin looked at his cold profile, moved her lips, and finally leaned back on the chair with her eyes closed, and said softly to gouge out the scar on her heart again: "I'm divorced today, so maybe Some gaffe."

Xu Huainan's hand froze slightly, and he turned his head to look at her: "I don't know how to comfort people."

With such a direct and cold answer, Qin Yuexin couldn't help laughing: "It's okay, anyway, in this kind of thing, the key is to look at yourself, and it's useless for others to comfort you."

He glanced at her again, a rare flash of appreciation in his emotionless eyes, and then the car stopped: "Here we are."

She was a little dazed, and looked out the window, and the familiar building of the World Trade Center came into view.

She looked sideways at Xu Huainan and smiled. This time, she had come to her senses, and with a slight push of her hand, she easily undid the seat belt.

When she got out of the car, she couldn't help squinting her eyes. Tears in her eyes could fool everyone, but not the sun.

She couldn't help but squinted her eyes when she took such a straight picture.

Xu Huainan had already got out of the car, walked to her side, and looked at her from a distance of half a meter: "Miss Qin, what do you want to eat?"

She pointed to a store at random, but Xu Huainan walked there with her without saying anything.

Xu Huainan said he can't comfort people, he really can't comfort people.

The two sat face to face on the dining table, neither of them spoke. Qin Yuexin lowered her head, and the ring finger on the ring finger of her hand on the table was still clearly marked.

She looked down, feeling uncomfortable again.

"Mister and Miss, hello, this is the filet steak you ordered."

The waiter's voice pulled her back, she raised her head, looked at Xu Huainan opposite and smiled.

He looked up at her, expressionless on his handsome face: "Miss Qin, you don't have to force yourself to smile in front of me."

The smile on the corner of her mouth stiffened little by little, like the cement that was blown dry by the wind.

Qin Yuexin looked down at the sizzling steak in front of her: "I'm sorry."

This time, she didn't smile again.

Xu Huainan looked at Qin Yuexin who was in front of her. She lowered her head, covering most of her face from where he couldn't see, holding on to the knife and fork with both hands and carefully cutting the steak in front of her.

But she was so serious, but the steak on the plate made her chop very messily.

He glanced at it, said nothing, and quietly lowered his head to cut the steak in front of him.

The silence of the two made people around feel a little strange. Some people couldn't help but look over, and some couldn't help discussing in private whether the two were talking about a couple who broke up.

But Qin Yuexin didn't seem to hear anything, and put the messyly cut steaks into her mouth piece by piece.

The strong taste of black pepper, but it was so tasteless for the first time in her mouth.

She chewed mouth by mouth, eating slowly, with a sad expression on her face, although the tear stains on her face had disappeared, but after the wiped off makeup was gone, her face looked paler and paler.

Someone was talking at the next table, the voice was not too loud, but it was a bit difficult to hear clearly in such a small place.

"Hey, have you heard, the third young master of the Lu family, I heard that he is not lame, his legs are healed! Now he can walk!"

"Really? Is that the one, Young Master Lu who sued his cousin to court for his wife?"

"It's him! I used to say that it's a pity that he is lame, otherwise he would be the man that women all over the world want to marry. Now it's all right, he really doesn't have lame legs anymore."

"How did you know?"

"Hey, hey, just now, there was a video of him on Weibo, but I heard that he—"

Lu Chenan, Lu Chenan.

You can't escape Lu Chen'an wherever you go, Qin Yuexin finally couldn't help it, put down the knife and fork in his hand, and looked up at Xu Huainan: "Sorry, I'm going to the bathroom."

She spoke fast and ran fast.

Looking at her back, Xu Huainan frowned rarely, and his eyes fell on her dinner plate opposite. The steak on it was half eaten, but the black pepper juice was all gone.

The two women at the next table were still discussing about Lu Chen'an. He had no intention of eavesdropping, but it was inevitable that he overheard it.

"He said that he has divorced his wife."

"Oh, this man, he was a wife-protecting madman when he was lame. Now that he's fine, the first thing to do is to divorce his wife. I wonder if this Lu Chenan has ever loved his wife."

The cold water hit her face, and her thoughts were extremely clear. When she raised her head, the woman in the mirror had a beautiful face, but her pale face looked a bit pervasive.

Qin Yuexin stood in front of the sink for a while, until someone behind her came to wash her hands, and then she turned and left.

The handful of water just now made her extremely sober, her steps were unhurried, and she walked back step by step.

But he didn't expect that Xu Huainan was already standing at the door.Seeing her come back, he nodded, but his expression didn't change: "I'll take you back."

Qin Yuexin frowned: "Mr. Xu, this should be me—"

Knowing what she wanted to say, he interrupted her directly: "I'm not used to asking ladies to pay the bill."

She had spent too much energy today, and when she heard his words, she didn't refute too much, but said with a choked voice, "Okay, thank you, Mr. Xu."

She didn't struggle anymore, followed him step by step, turned around and entered the elevator.

When I walked to the first floor, Lu Chenan's face appeared on the suspended electronic screen so unexpectedly, and the words that I couldn't avoid came word by word: "First, my legs are already healed. Second, my wife Qin Yuexin and I have registered for divorce today."

She couldn't help but look up at him. Lu Chenan was wearing the white suit that he was going to divorce with her today, with a half-smile smile on his face, and a bit of arrogance in his pretty peach eyes.

He just appeared on the screen so tall and tall, so handsome, handsome, and high-spirited that she almost didn't recognize him.

Xu Huainan looked at her slightly trembling lips, and couldn't help calling her: "Qin Yuexin."

Qin Yuexin turned her head, looked at him, and smiled, "I'm fine."

I'm fine, but my heart hurts a little.

The compartment where no one spoke was very quiet. When the car stopped, she subconsciously unbuckled her seat belt, pushed the door and got out of the car.

But he didn't expect that Xu Huainan who was at the side suddenly reached out to grab her: "Qin Yuexin."

She looked at him sideways, a little puzzled, her voice hoarse due to the blockage in her throat: "What's wrong?"

"Do you want to go to the river to blow some air?"

She wanted to say no, but her eyes fell on his cold face, and she finally nodded.

It was already past three o'clock in the afternoon, and in early April, the wind from the river was blowing over and it was cool.

Xu Huainan didn't know that he was sitting in the car, she was walking by the river alone, and he didn't bother her, he was so caring that she felt a little guilty.

It's not a weekend, nor a holiday, but there are still couples walking hand in hand by the river.

At the age of 21, her face is covered with collagen. When passing by her, the girl's coquettish voice is like that moist jelly.

What she said was arrogant and reckless, she used to be like this, from being cautious at the beginning to being unscrupulous in the end.She also had such a time with Lu Chen'an.

She didn't want to cry, so she raised her hand to cover her tears.

When the sun sets, the scales floating on the riverside are very beautiful.

She stood there watching motionlessly until Xu Huainan's voice came from behind: "It's 06:30, do you want dinner?"

Qin Yuexin glanced at the phone before looking up at Xu Huainan.

She almost forgot about him, but she didn't expect that he was always in the car.

Xu Huainan looked extremely cold, but he was still a gentleman and kind-hearted.

She knew why he didn't leave, but just thinking about it, she couldn't help feeling sour and guilty: "Xu Huainan, I'm sorry for wasting your day. You go back first, I still want to stand still."

Xu Huainan looked at her for a few seconds, then turned around and left without saying anything.

Qin Yuexin didn't pay attention to him either, she just wanted to wake herself up a little bit more.

She never asked whether Lu Chenan loved her or not.

It's just that she knows, even if she doesn't ask, she also knows that he has never loved herself.

But knowing it is one thing, accepting it is another.

She didn't even know how to wake herself up from this dream. To this day, she still doesn't believe that in just a few days, her world has been turned upside down.

The sky gradually turned from dim to pitch black, and she stood leaning on the guardrail by the river like a sculpture for a long time.

It wasn't until the people on the riverside went from less to more, and then from more to less, until now that there was no one there, she slowly looked away, turned around and planned to leave.

It's just that her legs were a little stiff after standing for too long, and her body went limp when she moved.

Qin Yuexin thought she was going to fall to the ground, but it didn't matter, since few people saw it anyway.

It was just that her arms suddenly felt warm, and while being held tightly by someone, she heard Xu Huainan's voice: "Be careful."

She raised her head and looked at him in disbelief: "Xu Huainan—!"

He glanced at her and said nothing: "I'll take you back."

He is like this, here, from three o'clock in the afternoon until now.

Qin Yuexin didn't say anything, and let him help her into the car.

(End of this chapter)