Harem Changwu Biography

Chapter 126 Am I Not Worthy of Your Undivided Treatment?
I was dragged by Ayun all the way out of Yanfu Palace, and then all the way to Mingqi's Chengming Palace. She didn't let me go until I was still some distance away from the gate of Chengming Palace.

"Look, ma'am, I'm about to leave the car. Don't you believe that the emperor called Qiu Zhaoyi to bed tonight?" Ayun and I stood not far from the gate of the Chengming Palace. The chaste that was being carried out from the Chengming Hall said to me.

It's just that I couldn't listen to her words at this time, I just stared blankly at the chasing car that was only used to pick up the sleeping concubines coming towards me from the Chengming Palace, and finally passed by me again.

"Impossible, no way." I murmured after driving the car away from behind me.

"Ma'am." Ayun called me anxiously after hearing the words.

"My lady, why don't you believe it now." After Ayun shouted, he said anxiously to me.

Yes, why do you still refuse to believe it at this time?Ayun fell behind, so I asked myself.

"Your Majesty, what are you going to do?" Seeing that I finally believed, Ah Yun lost his anxiety just now and calmed down.

yes, what should i do?
I didn't answer Ayun's words, but asked myself a question.

But after thinking about it, I realized that I didn't know what to do.

What can be done?What else can I do?Mingqi is the emperor, I am his concubine now, Changruo is also his concubine, if he favors me, naturally he can also favor Changruo, can I still monopolize Mingqi's favor?
I stood not far from Chengming Hall, looked at the brightly lit Chengming Hall, and suddenly realized that I had never thought about what to do with Mingqi's other concubines after I returned to the palace.

I don't know if it's my self-deception, I seem to have once thought that as long as I go back to the palace, Mingqi will naturally not touch other women. It doesn't matter.

But in fact, what happened tonight gave me a slap in the face, and what happened today told me that even with me, Mingqi would still favor other women.

I even began to think of Mingqi who once asked me if I had thought about the position in his heart where my words were installed.

I used to not believe these words, but the things Mingqi did before leaving the palace, and the few years I didn't see Mingqi outside the palace, made me gradually start to believe Mingqi's words.

And now, I still believe that Mingqi is sincere to me, but I suddenly feel that Mingqi may have me in his heart, but not just me.

Just like Mingqi can favor me and Changruo, Mingqi has me in his heart, so naturally he can also have Changruo and them, otherwise how can I explain the things that Mingqi insists on accepting Changruo and holding Changruo in his palm .

The ruthless in the world is the emperor's family, and the amorous since ancient times is the emperor.

"Ayun, tell me, am I not supposed to come back?" In the night, I looked at the figure reflected on the window paper of Chengming Hall, and suddenly asked Ayun in a low voice.

"Where is the question of whether the empress should come back or not? The empress didn't want to come back in the first place, and it wasn't the one who used Lord Hou and Mr. Chu to force the empress to come back." Ayun also whispered back to me after my words.

But after hearing what Ayun said, my body trembled, and then I laughed wryly.

Yes, I once thought about coming back for Mingqi, but I didn't dare to come back.If Mingqi hadn't threatened me with the lives of Meng Qingcheng and Chu Lin, I wouldn't have come back so easily.

But Mingqi, since you forced me to come back, why don't you treat me well?
Did you ask me to come back just to let me share your so-called grace with other women?Are you silently waiting for your favor like a gift in the palace with other women?
Mingqi, don't I deserve your undivided attention when I am in your heart?

"Niang Niang." I don't know if it's because my complexion is too ugly at the moment, Ayun called me when I was silent, his eyes were full of worry.

I listened to Ayun's shout, looked back at Ayun's worried eyes, and finally smiled at her: "Ayun, wait for me here for a while."

"Ma'am, what are you going to do?" Ayun was startled immediately after my words, and grabbed my hand in panic to stop me.

"Your Majesty, you can't do stupid things." Ayun stopped me and said again.

When I heard the words, I shook my head and said to Ah Yun: "Don't worry, I won't do stupid things."

I'm just not reconciled in the end, I still want to ask Mingqi why.

I don't want to be an unreasonable woman, but I don't want to wrong myself because of this, and share Mingqi with other women; I don't want to forget my dignity just because I have Mingqi in my heart.

I told myself that if Mingqi's answer was not 'I want to win someone with one heart', then I would never pester him again in the future, but I would also learn to forget him from now on.

I, Qiu Changwu, love him Mingqi, but I will not forget to love myself because of loving him, and I will not let myself become humble because of love.

"But," Ah Yun seemed to want to say something to me, but was thrown away.

"Don't worry, I have my own sense of proportion." I said after shaking off Ayun's hand, and walked towards Chengming Hall after speaking.

I am actually not far from Chengming Hall at this time, about ten battles away, if it is on weekdays, the distance of ten battles can only be reached in the blink of an eye.

It's just that today I seem to be sad because of my heart, and I walk very slowly with heavy steps, and I walked for a long time before I spoke.

"Please both father-in-law and Meng Qingqing have something important to ask to see the emperor." I walked all the way to the entrance of Chengming Hall, and then I asked the two eunuchs guarding the entrance of Chengming Hall.

Everyone in the palace knows that Meng Zhaorong is Meng Qingcheng's sister, so regardless of my identity as Meng Zhaorong and my status in the palace, Meng Qingcheng's face is great.

So after my words fell behind, although the two eunuchs didn't agree to me at the beginning, they saw them glance at each other, and then saw one of them blessed me and said: "Meng Zhaorong, please wait a moment."

"Thank you." Upon hearing this, I thanked the two eunuchs.

And after my words, the eunuch who asked me to wait just now turned around and walked towards Chengming Hall.

"Miss."

Although Ayun stayed where I said just now, he was worried about me after all, so he also followed me at this moment and stood by my side.

"Yeah." I didn't say anything when I saw Ah Yun coming over, and after nodding to her, I looked at the eunuch who went into Chengming Palace to report.

I watched the eunuch pass through the courtyard of Chengming Hall, walked up the stone steps, and then whispered a few words to Xiao Yunzi who was guarding the front gate of Chengming Hall, and then I saw Xiaoyunzi turned his head and looked He glanced at me, then pushed open the door and entered the hall.

It didn't take long for Xiao Yunzi to go in, but he left the palace gate after less than half a cup of tea, and then walked towards me with the eunuch who had gone to report before.

"My servant has seen Mrs. Zhaorong." After walking in front of me, Xiao Yunzi bowed to me.

"Eunuch Yun, please get up." I immediately let Xiao Yunzi flatten after hearing the words, and immediately asked after Xiaoyun Ziping was behind him: "Eunuch Yun, would the emperor wish to see me?"

After I finished asking, I looked at Xiao Yunzi anxiously, seeing Xiao Yunzi coming out so quickly, I was not sure that Mingqi was willing to see me.

"Responding to Madam Zhaorong's words, the emperor is busy with government affairs, so I'm afraid he won't have time to see Madam Zhaorong." Xiao Yunzi replied after my words.

In fact, he has just entered the Chengming Palace, so this is probably a euphemism, but Mingqi should have made it clear that he does not want to see me.

As for Xiao Yunzi's statement that Mingqi is busy, I don't believe it.

Ming Qi has the habit of taking political affairs back to Chengming Hall to busy himself, but if he really wanted to be busy with political affairs, he would not have announced Chang Ruo to come to Chengming Hall so early.He would announce people after he was busy, Mingqi was always the last thing he wanted to be disturbed when he was busy.

So as soon as I heard Xiao Yunzi's words, I knew that what kept Mingqi busy was definitely not government affairs, but Chang Ruo.

"Can you bother Eunuch Yun to go in and report again, I really have something very important to see the emperor." But it is precisely because I understand this point that I want to see Mingqi even more and ask for clarification.

"I'm really sorry, the emperor is really busy. If there is no urgent matter for Mrs. Zhao Rong, please come to see the emperor tomorrow." Xiao Yunzi still shook his head and said to me.

But I understand that if I can't see Mingqi tonight, then I won't be able to see Mingqi tomorrow either.

After listening to Xiao Yunzi's words, I raised my head and glanced at the lights in Chengming Hall, then turned my head and said to Xiao Yunzi: "Eunuch Yun, can I borrow some paper and ink?"

I'm afraid Xiao Yunzi didn't expect me to say that, he probably thought that I would insist on seeing Mingqi, so he looked at me in surprise as soon as I said this.

"Of course, please wait a moment, Madam Zhaorong." However, Xiao Yunzi's astonishment was only for a moment. After this moment of astonishment, Xiao Yunzi thought for a moment, then nodded to me.

"Thank you, Eunuch Yun." I heard the words and said to Xiao Yunzi again.

"Miss Zhaorong, you are being polite." Xiao Yunzi shook his head at my words and said, then turned his head and told the eunuch who had just passed the message, and then saw the eunuch turned and left.

"Miss Zhaorong, it's just the paper and ink you want."

And just like Xiao Yunzi hadn't been in Chengming Palace for a long time, although the little eunuch didn't go to Chengming Palace this time, he came back soon and brought back the paper and ink I wanted.

"Thank you." I thanked him again, and then took the pen and ink from Xiao Yunzi.

Xiao Yunzi can be brought by Mingqi's side, so he is naturally a very clever person.

Therefore, after I took the paper and ink from him, I saw him wink at the two eunuchs again, and then I saw the two eunuchs come up to me, one bent down and faced me, and the other walked towards me. I took the inkstone in my hand.

And as soon as I saw these two eunuchs like this, I knew that Xiao Yunzi wanted me to put my paper on this eunuch to write on. After all, there are no tables and chairs for me to use nearby.

After thinking of this, I turned my head and nodded to Xiao Yunzi to express my gratitude, and then spread the paper on the eunuch who bent over.

"There are trees in the green hills, and they are Wufeitong."

After putting up pen and ink, I stood still and thought for a while, and finally wrote this sentence on paper.

I wanted to ask why Mingqi treated me like that, but the premise of this is to be able to see Mingqi.

And if you want Mingqi to come to see me, then the easiest and most direct way is to let Mingqi clearly know that I am Qiu Changwu.

But for the sake of my identity security, I can't tell Mingqi directly that I belong to Qiu Changwu, so I can only use such a hint.

Because if you don't speculate carefully, you can't easily associate this sentence with me, especially when I only wrote the first half of it.

As for Mingqi, I'm not worried that Mingqi can't see what I want to express from this statement.

What I am more worried about now is, did Mingqi not recognize me last night?The reason why he called me Changwu at that time was because he was drunk and misunderstood me?
Or, even if Mingqi knew that I was Qiu Changwu, he still refused to come out to see me.

"Eunuch Yun, please give this to the emperor." After I finished writing, I handed the brush to the eunuch who was holding an inkstone, then I folded the paper and handed it to Xiao Yunzi.

As for Xiao Yunzi, whether it was because of Meng Qingcheng's face, or because he had personally seen Mingqi mistaking me for Qiu Changwu, I guess he would definitely not refuse my request.

"Mistress Zhaorong, don't worry, this servant will definitely hand it over to the emperor." Sure enough, after my words fell, Xiao Yunzi took the note from me and promised me.

"Thank you, Eunuch Yun." Upon hearing this, I thanked Xiao Yunzi again.

"Miss Zhaorong, you're being polite." Xiao Yunzi shook his head again after my words, and then said to me: "If Mistress Zhaorong has no other orders, then the servant will go in first."

"No more, Eunuch Yun please." I said as soon as I heard the words.

"Promise." After my words, Xiao Yunzi turned around and entered Chengming Hall.

I stood at the entrance of the Chengming Hall and watched Xiao Yunzi's figure entering the Chengming Hall. I didn't wait for Mingqi in the Chengming Hall after that, but after taking another look at the Chuochuo figure reflected on the window paper of the Chengming Hall, Then he took Ayun back to Yanfu Palace.

As I said just now, I will not wrong myself for Mingqi.

So if Mingqi wants to come to see me, then he will see me in Yanfu Palace after reading the note I asked Xiao Yunzi to bring.

On the other hand, if Mingqi doesn't want to see me even if he knows I'm Qiu Changwu, then it's pointless for me to wait in Chengming Palace.

No matter what, I always want to save some dignity for myself.

(End of this chapter)