Harem Changwu Biography

Chapter 86 I Sit on the Floor and Cry Uncontrollably

When I first heard Du Juan say this sentence, I thought I must have heard it wrong.But this sentence ran in my head over and over again, and my noisy head made it impossible for me to deceive myself.

After a stagger, I also forgot the idea of ​​scolding Chang Ruo and Du Juan just now, turned around and ran out of the imperial garden, towards the palace gate.

As I ran, the words that Aunt Lu was gone echoed in my mind.

My aunt's surname is Lu and her name is Xin. She used to be the niece of my grandmother's natal family. Because she was born with eye disease, she was taken to Qiufu by my grandmother to be raised since she was a child. After my aunt grew up, my father Qiu Luna married my aunt.

It’s just that although my father and my aunt were childhood sweethearts and grew up together, my father didn’t like the blind aunt very much. Therefore, although he promised my grandmother to marry my aunt, he only accepted my aunt as a concubine. Ming Media is marrying Chang Ruo's mother, Qiu Li, into Qiu's family.

Later, after my grandmother died, Chang Ruo's mother, Qiu Li, sent my aunt and me to a remote courtyard. The usual expenses were deducted, and there were no other servants to serve us, making it difficult for us mother and daughter Day, rarely set foot in the side courtyard.

But my father, who usually doesn't step into the side courtyard once every half a year, came one day ten years ago, and told my aunt and me excitedly that I was selected by the late emperor, and I can enter the palace as a queen soon.

At that time, my father was excited when he said it, and my aunt was happy to hear it, but I instinctively questioned it.

At that time, no matter how young and ignorant I was, I knew my status as a concubine, and I also knew that it was impossible for a young concubine who was not known by anyone outside the Qiu family to be selected as a concubine for no reason , let alone directly serve a country.

What's more, I was brought up by a wise grandmother who taught me many things while my grandmother was still alive.

But when I was suspicious, my aunt was very happy because of my father's arrival. When my father first entered the yard, she secretly asked me if she was old or not good-looking. She was so cautious.

At that time, I saw my aunt's happy face, and I couldn't ask any doubts in my heart. In addition, my father said that because I was about to enter the palace and become a queen, he would take me and my aunt out to live. Stay at my aunt's house.

At that time, I had already inquired clearly, knowing that the imperial decree only said to let the daughter of the Qiu family enter the palace, but did not clearly write the name of the person who would enter the palace.

But at that time, my existence was rarely known by people outside the Qiu family, and Chang Ruo was the daughter of the Qiu family, so the person who entered the palace at that time should actually be Chang Ruo.

But then I don’t know what method my father used, not only let outsiders know of my existence in just a few days, but also put me under the name of Changruo’s mother, so I was originally the eldest daughter of a concubine. I became the eldest daughter, and the person entering the palace also became me.

At that time, after I knew what my father did, I instinctively rejected it and didn't want to enter the palace.

But when I looked at my aunt who was no longer sad all day because of being taken out of the partial hospital by my father and because of my father staying overnight, my thoughts changed again.

At that time, I looked at my aunt who had a smile on her face every day because of my father, and I thought in my heart:

Just enter the palace, the Qiu family always has someone to enter the palace, it's either me or Chang Ruo.

If I am older than myself, it is natural for me to enter the palace.

Besides, if my entry into the palace can bring my father to love my aunt again and make my aunt happy every day, then it will be worth it.

So, I entered the palace with such a belief.

Although life in the palace is peaceful, it is hopeless. In the past ten years since I entered the palace, I think that I have not lived a happy life, and I do not know how many times I want to leave the palace.

Just think a thousand times, ten thousand times, but never really want to leave after.Because every time I think of it, I will think of Aunt Lu and Mingqi.

Whether it's because being the queen mother can make my father dote on Aunt Lu for a few more days, or being able to stay by Mingqi's side for a long time, it's the reason why I can't put everything aside and leave the palace alone.

Therefore, it has been these two beliefs that have supported me to live alone in the palace.

It's just that now, Mingqi has already become the husband of Qi Xiayun and the others, and they are farther and farther away from me, and they no longer need my company.

Therefore, if Aunt Lu really died as Du Juan said, she had passed away ten years before I entered the palace, then I don’t know, I really don’t know if Aunt Lu had passed away long ago, then what would happen to me in the past ten years? What is persistence?Is it a joke?what is this else?
I ran all the way to the palace gate, but stopped when I was almost at the palace gate.

I didn't bring out the palace token, so I couldn't leave the palace.

After thinking of this point, I ran all the way back to Changwu Hall.

"Queen Mother, where did you go just now? The emperor has been waiting for you here. After seeing that you didn't come back for a long time, he sent someone back to Chenyang Palace to look for you, but they didn't find you either."

As soon as I entered the Changwu Hall, Qihe hurriedly asked me.

But at this time, how could I care about Mingqi waiting for me? As soon as I saw Qihe, I immediately held her hand tightly and said anxiously: "Qihe, immediately arrange for Ai's family to leave the palace."

"Leaving the palace?" Qi He was surprised when he heard my words.

"Queen Mother, what happened? Why did you suddenly leave the palace for no reason?" Qihe asked me in surprise.

But I didn't have the heart to answer her question, but I still held onto her hand tightly and said, "Don't ask why, just prepare immediately, Ai's family will leave the palace immediately in a quarter of an hour."

After I finished speaking, I let go of Qihe's hand, turned around and entered the bedroom, took off the luxurious robe on my body, and changed into an ordinary one.

Qihe is not Fang Yan, she doesn't have the habit of asking the truth, so although she was still puzzled and surprised by my sudden departure from the palace, she still told me that everything was ready after I changed my clothes.

"it is good."

I nodded when I heard Qihe said that I was ready, then turned around and left the Changwu Hall, and stopped her when I saw that Qihe was going to go out of the palace with me, explaining that I wanted to go out of the palace alone.

Although Qihe frowned in disapproval after hearing what he said, he still let me leave the palace alone in the end.

The gate of the palace that Qihe arranged to exit was still on the west side, and I left the palace among the people who went out to buy goods from the palace, and after leaving the imperial city, I separated from those people again.

I didn't go to Qiu's house.

Although my mind is in a mess right now, I still know that since the Qiu family can hide it from me for ten years, no one will tell me the truth even if I come to question me right now.They will only stop me, and will not allow me to find and prove that Aunt Lu is indeed no longer alive.

I found someone on the street to inquire about the bookstores in the capital, and inquired about which bookstores the students liked and which ones. The bookstore called Expo.

"Girl, do you want to buy a book or read a book?"

As soon as I entered the bookstore, I was stopped by the shopkeeper of the bookstore.

Hearing this, I turned my head and glanced at the shopkeeper, said "looking for someone" and went straight into the bookstore.

This bookstore is not very big. Rows of bookshelves are placed in a place as wide as the main hall, and books are neatly placed on the bookshelves. At this time, there are people standing there reading every two or three bookshelves.

I started searching from the bookshelf at the entrance, and searched row by row, but after searching for a long time, I couldn't find the person I was looking for.

And just when I searched the last row of bookshelves and couldn't find anyone, I thought I had found the wrong bookstore and was about to change to another bookstore when I suddenly heard the sound of books falling to the ground.

I was in a hurry right now, and I didn't plan to take care of the book after hearing it fell on the floor, so I didn't turn around to look at it, and when I was about to leave the bookstore, I heard a hesitant voice: "Elder, eldest sister? "

As soon as I heard this voice, my whole body froze immediately.

I froze and turned around immediately, and I saw the young man standing two bookshelves away from me at a glance.

I saw that the young man was not tall, with a handsome face, wearing a blue book long shirt, with a fallen book lying on his feet, and his eyes were wide open looking at me in surprise.

"Changxuan!"

I looked at the young man and gave a low cry.

Even though I hadn't seen him for ten years, I still recognized at a glance that the young man in front of me was exactly the person I was looking for, my fifth younger brother Qiu Changxuan.

"Sister, it's really you!"

As soon as Chang Xuan heard what I said, a happy smile appeared on his face, and then he walked towards me quickly.

"Sister, how did you get out?"

Just when he was halfway there, Changxuan stopped suddenly, and stopped halfway through his speech.

After stopping, Changxuan stood there and looked at me. At this moment, the expression of surprise on his face just because he saw me was gone. He only looked at me with a complicated expression, and then changed to a normal and calm expression. His look came to me again.

Looking at Changxuan like this, I feel a little uneasy.

"Grass people,"

Chang Xuan walked up to me, but when I was about to speak to him, he suddenly bent his knees and wanted to salute me.

"Changxuan!"

Naturally, I didn't want to see Changxuan bowing to me, so after seeing his knees bent, I immediately reached out to support him and stopped him.

After Changxuan was stopped by me, he didn't insist on saluting to me anymore, but he broke away from me after standing up, and then took a few steps back, as if he wanted to be unfamiliar with me.

Looking at Changxuan's appearance that he is no longer close to me, I feel sad in my heart.

But I came to him today to inquire about Aunt Lu's affairs, so although I was sad, I didn't have time to take care of him. After seeing him take a few steps back, I followed him, and then grabbed his hand.

"Changxuan, tell me quickly, tell me Aunt Lu, she," I asked eagerly after grabbing Changxuan's hand.

"shut up!"

But I didn't want to say that before I said this, Chang Xuan's face on the opposite side changed immediately, and the exit interrupted me, and then Ren also broke away from me again.

"Shut up, you are not qualified to mention Aunt Lu."

After breaking away from me, Chang Xuan said, looking at me with a cold face.

"Changxuan!"

I was puzzled by Changxuan's inexplicable words.

Why am I not qualified to mention Aunt Lu? If I, the daughter of Aunt Lu who was conceived in October and was willing to enter the palace as a widow for her, is not eligible to mention Aunt Lu, then who is eligible.

But Changxuan didn't answer me. He looked back and forth on my face a few times with complicated eyes, then let out a mocking snort, turned around and was about to leave.

I came to Changxuan today to inquire about Aunt Lu, and I would not let him go, so even though I was confused by his words and attitude just now, after seeing him leaving, I hurried forward to pull him away. stopped him.

"Changxuan, I don't know what you mean just now, but Changxuan, I came here to find you today, tell me, Aunt Lu, she, she, "

As soon as I grabbed Changxuan, I wanted to ask her if Aunt Lu was really gone, but when the words reached my throat, I couldn't say anything, and was choked in my throat.

"Oh." Changxuan, who was caught by me, let out a mocking cold snort after hearing my words, and continued: "What happened to Aunt Lu? What happened to Aunt Lu has nothing to do with you."

"Why doesn't it matter? I'm her daughter. If I have nothing to do with Aunt Lu, then who has anything to do with her?" When I heard Chang Xuan's words, I became anxious.

"Your memory is wrong, Queen Mother. You are the daughter of the Qiu Li family, not Aunt Lu's daughter. The Queen Mother has a noble status, but my Aunt Lu is humble and can't afford to be high."

Chang Xuan moved closer to me after I spoke, and whispered sarcastically in my ear. He said the word 'Queen Mother' in a low voice, but with a strong bite.

I felt another pain in my heart when I was told by Chang Xuan's sarcastic words, and I jumped when I grabbed Chang Xuan's hand.

"Changxuan, you know, it was my father's good idea to put me under Qiu Li's name back then, and I disagree." I said.

"Huh? You don't agree? Then what are the expensive clothes and medicinal materials that you have sent to Qiu Li's house every year for the past ten years? If you didn't treat her as your biological mother, then you would still give her a lot every year. She gave a filial piety gift?" Chang Xuan sarcastically said again.

"The medicinal materials are all given to Aunt Lu." I said.

"Give it to Aunt Lu? Huh? Qiu Changwu, are you hypocritical? Aunt Lu has been dead for ten years, and you still give her medicinal materials? What are you giving her? To burn in front of her grave? Or plant it in front of her grave as a grass grower?" Chang Xuan looked at me ironically and asked.

"Qiu Changwu, do you know? In fact, you have to recognize Qiu Li's mother, which is nothing. After all, if you don't recognize her mother, you are just a concubine daughter, and you are not qualified to enter the palace to be your queen mother. Prosperity and wealth." Chang Xuan looked at me sarcastically and said.

"However, Qiu Changwu, you are also the queen mother of a country, so Caomin begs you, since you have already recognized your enemy as your mother, then please be your Qiu Li's daughter and stop insulting my Aunt Lu It is." Changxuan said again after finishing speaking.

Changxuan's sarcastic words followed one after another, and I listened to his words, and after he said 'Aunt Lu has passed away for ten years', I turned pale, let go of his hand, fell down and sat on the ground.

After I fell to the ground, I wanted to get up, but I tried a few times, but I couldn't get up. All the strength in my body seemed to be lost after Changxuan said that Aunt Lu had passed away for ten years.

After I couldn't get up, I simply sat on the ground. I looked up at Changxuan, my face was a little wet, and I didn't know if I was crying.

"Changxuan, you just said, that Aunt Lu, she, she died ten years ago?"

I sat on the ground, looked up at Changxuan, and asked with a sob.

"Huh? Qiu Changwu, are you fake? Don't you know about Aunt Lu's death ten years ago?"

Changxuan didn't come to help me after I fell, but he looked at me condescendingly, still smiling ironically.

"I don't know, Changxuan, I don't know." I shook my head choked up when I heard the words.

But Changxuan became angry again after I said this, and he looked at me with anger, anger and sarcasm, then said with a smile and sarcasm: "Qiu Changwu, can I stop being hypocritical? ? You said you didn’t know that Aunt Lu passed away? How could you not know? Didn’t your father tell you? Even if your father didn’t tell you, what about the letter I gave you? Didn’t you receive it?”

"I didn't, really not." I cried and shook my head and said, "Changxuan, it's true, you believe me, my father didn't tell me, and I didn't receive your letter."

If I had received Changxuan's letter, how could I have kept it a secret for ten years, until I heard Changruo and Du Juan's conversation by chance today, and I didn't know that Aunt Lu had passed away?

"Changxuan, Aunt Lu is my biological mother. If I know she has passed away, can I stay in the palace forever? Can I leave the palace to see her off?"

I can even go out of the palace to see Chu Bufan die, let alone my biological mother.

"Changxuan, it's true. If Changruo and Du Juan hadn't said something wrong today, I wouldn't even know about Aunt Lu, her..."

I sat on the ground and cried uncontrollably.

(End of this chapter)