Harem Changwu Biography

Chapter 99 This Is Enough

This is probably the first time I have explicitly said to Mingqi about my feelings for him.

Before this, I didn't know that I was not good at saying things like expressing my heart, or because of the identity between me and Mingqi, I was always suppressed and dared not say it.

But today, since I have sent away the people from Changwu Hall, I have no intention of suppressing myself.

Ming Qi has been silent since he finished saying this sentence, and he didn't respond until the hot longevity noodles came out of the pot.

After I picked up the noodles, I took them to the side hall where I was eating. When I turned around and saw Mingqi following me, I shook my head and went back to the small kitchen to look for Mingqi.

At that time, Mingqi was still sitting in front of the stage, and the fire in the stove was extinguished because there was no more firewood.

I walked up to Mingqi, took the firewood from his hand, threw it on the ground, and reached out to hold his hand.

After I took his hand, Mingqi immediately raised his head to look at me, only to see that his eyes were fixed on him, and his mouth opened, as if he wanted to say something.

"Mingqi, I know you have something to say now, and you have a lot of questions to ask me. It's just that no matter what you are thinking in your heart or what you want to say to me, I will wait until you have eaten the noodles." I said Seeing this, he immediately stretched out his other hand and pressed it on Mingqi's lips. "I won't answer any of your questions until you finish eating the longevity noodles."

And just after I finished saying this, Mingqi's eyes closed, and the breath on his lips stopped, and I could feel the coldness between his lips with the hand I put on his lips.

"Let's go!" After I finished speaking, I let go of the hand covering Mingqi's lips, and pulled him out.

Probably because I said that he would not answer any questions until he finished eating the longevity noodles, and Mingqi didn't refuse when I pulled him out.

I dragged Mingqi all the way to the side hall, and then pushed him to sit on the chair.

The longevity noodles had just come out of the pot, and when I pushed Mingqi on the chair and sat down, the bowl was still steaming hot.

After Mingqi sat down, I pushed the noodles in front of him, put the jade chopsticks into his hands, and then went to sit opposite Mingqi.

"Eat quickly, I can answer your question after eating." I sat down opposite Mingqi and said.

I saw that Mingqi's hand holding the jade chopsticks tightened immediately after my words, and then I saw him raise his eyes to look at me, his eyes turned on my face several times, and then he lowered his head and started Eat the longevity noodles I made for him.

When I saw Mingqi finally started eating noodles, I sat there with my hands on my knees, smiling and looking at Mingqi.

There is only one piece of longevity noodles, and the middle cannot be bitten off. If you do not pay attention when eating, it is easy to bite off, and then it is regarded as auspicious.

However, the etiquette of Mingqi was taught by the best nuns in the palace, not to mention the elegance of throwing hands and feet, and the skills of eating are not low.

So within a short time, a bowl of Changshou noodles with only one noodle was eaten up by Mingqi.

"Can you answer now?" Mingqi put down his chopsticks after eating the longevity noodles, looked at me and asked.

"Of course." I nodded and smiled when I heard the words, and replied, "But you should have a lot of questions, where do you want me to start?"

"Why won't you drink the antidote?" Ming Qi asked.

I laughed when I heard the words, and didn't answer Mingqi directly, but asked Mingqi: "Mingqi, do you know why I entered the palace back then?"

"By holy order." Mingqi replied after my words.

I heard the words but shook my head.

"Mingqi, you may not know until now that the person who should have entered the palace was not me." I shook my head and said with a smile.

I could see that after my words, Mingqi frowned, but he didn't interrupt me.

"Back then, your father ordered the daughter of the Qiu family to enter the palace, but I don't know whether it was neglected or because of other reasons. In the imperial decree at that time, only the daughter of the Qiu family was written, and the specific name of the daughter who entered the palace was not written. "I say.

"According to common sense, the woman who entered the palace should be the daughter of the Qiu family. In addition, I was raised in the Qiu family's courtyard at that time. Except for the Qiu family, outsiders didn't know about it. Everyone thought that the Qiu family had only one daughter, and that was the eldest daughter. If." I said again.

"So, you mean that the person who should have entered the palace at the beginning was Qiu Changruo?" Ming Qi frowned and asked me.

"Not bad." I nodded after Mingqi's words.

"Then why did you become you?" Mingqi asked after seeing me nodding.

"Because Chang Ruo cried and told her father that she didn't want to enter the palace, because Qiu Li told her father that she couldn't bear Chang Ruo to be a widow at such a young age." I replied.

"So it was you instead?" Mingqi asked.

"Not bad." I nodded.

"You didn't refuse?" Mingqi asked.

"No." I replied.

"Why?" Mingqi asked again.

"Rejection, that's the right of those who have the right to speak. In my father's eyes, Aunt Lu and I don't have this right. What's more," I said, but I didn't finish my sentence.

"What's more?" Ming Qi asked after seeing that I didn't finish speaking.

I looked at Mingqi who seemed to be very concerned about the answer, so I smiled again and said: "Besides, my father has favored Aunt Lu again, and said that he will cure Aunt Lu's eye disease."

"That's it?" Mingqi frowned after hearing my answer, as if he was dissatisfied that I agreed to enter the palace just because of this.

"That's enough." But I still smiled. "The order of the parents, the words of the matchmaker. Qiulu is the biological father who gave birth to me, and he is the head of the Qiu family. What he has decided can't be changed by Aunt Lu who is not favored. I, a young girl under ten, can't change it." Can't change it."

"I once thought about revealing that I am not a prostitute, but after thinking about it later, it is unrealistic."

"Because I was just a little girl who was only a few years old at the time, as long as the Qiu family firmly insisted that I was the legitimate daughter of the Qiu Li family, outsiders would not believe me, but only the Qiu family."

"I can't resist the Qiu family's decision, and my father promised to be good to Aunt Lu after I enter the palace, and will find a way to cure Aunt Lu's eye disease, so, isn't that enough?" I said again He looked at Mingqi and smiled.

As for Mingqi, as I expected, after I smiled, his eyebrows furrowed even deeper.

"So, what you mean is that you are willing to stay in this palace all these years because of Aunt Lu, but now that you know that Aunt Lu is gone, you are no longer willing to endure in this palace anymore Right?" Mingqi frowned and asked me.

I heard the words but smiled and didn't speak.

"But I also understand that you are not an ordinary beautiful girl, you are the queen mother, and in this life, you must continue to live in the palace except to die. Therefore, it is because of this that you refuse to drink the antidote. You would rather die , and you don’t want to stay in this palace anymore, do you?” Ming Qi continued to ask me.

It's just that I don't know if it's my illusion, after Mingqi asked this sentence, his face was still calm, but I seemed to see some sadness in his eyes.

"Qiu Changwu, in these years, in this palace, apart from taking care of Aunt Lu, is there anyone or anything worthy of your stay?" Ming Qi looked at me with his sad eyes. , asked me in a deep voice.

I had been smiling lightly before, but after Mingqi's words, the smile on my face stagnated immediately, and then receded like a tide.

"Yes." I replied softly.

"What is it?" Ming Qi asked after hearing me.

"It's you!" I looked at Mingqi's expression that seemed eager to know the answer, and answered directly without beating around the bush.

And after my words, I could see that Mingqi's body straightened immediately, and the corners of his mouth were even more tightly pursed into a straight line.

"Since I'm also the reason you're willing to stay, why are you no longer willing to support me when I'm still here?" Ming Qi asked me with his lips tightly pressed together.

"You are still there, but you are no longer that you." I said. "Mingqi, when you ask me how I look, you are no longer the reason for me to stay."

After I finished speaking, I raised my hand and placed it in the air. Across the void, I drew Mingqi's eyebrows and eyes bit by bit, with a faint smile on my face.

"Lang rode a bamboo horse to make green plums around the bed. We lived together in Changqian, and the two children had no doubts. Mingqi, you said I had no intentions, but you didn't know that I had a crush on you long before you were 13 years old. Deserving thoughts." I said with a faint smile.

Women mature earlier than men, and I am older than Mingqi. It is normal to have thoughts that should not be born before Mingqi.

"Men and women have different sex at the age of eight. Before your first marriage, I could still say that being close to you was treating you like a child, but after your first death, I can no longer." I said.

When I found out that Ming Qi had left me, I was terrified. I was afraid that Ming Qi would see my unbearable thoughts and that he would hate me, so I pushed him away and never dared to get too close to him again.

"At that time, you always blamed me for ignoring you suddenly, and you were angry with me, and you didn't want to talk to me afterwards, but you didn't know that after I pushed you away, every time I saw you unhappy, how could I feel better in my heart?"

After all, he is the child I brought up with my own hands. After all, he is the person I hide in my heart. When he really becomes estranged from me day by day, it is absolutely impossible to say that I am not sad at all.

"But no matter how sad I am, no matter how uncomfortable I am, I can't take the initiative to find you, and I dare not tell you what is in my heart. I am afraid, afraid that you will hate me because of my unbearable thoughts, and I am even more afraid that when others know that I am Let me leave you after you've made up your mind."

After all, Mingqi and I are mother and son, and one is the emperor and the other is the empress dowager. If someone with a heart knows my thoughts on Mingqi, my position as empress dowager will be abolished.

After being abolished as Queen Mother, not only will I never see Mingqi again, but Aunt Lu will also be implicated by me.

"I dare not reveal my feelings for you, and I don't want to leave you, so I can only endure your estrangement from me every day because of my timidity."

"I have been guarding you like this. Although I still dare not treat you with my heart, as long as I think that as long as my thoughts are not exposed by others, I can still be by your side as the Queen Mother, and I will be content in my heart." .”

"I know that you and I are destined not to be together in this life, and I also know that in your life, there will always be a woman who is not me who will come to you, and she will be kept in your heart and carefully cared for by you. in love."

"I've always been prepared for this. Although every time I think of this, I can't help but feel sad, but I still bear it."

"It's just that I didn't expect, I didn't expect that one day you would suddenly ask me: 'What does my mother think about Qiu Changruo'. I never thought that that person would be Chang Ruo."

"Mingqi, although I entered the palace for Aunt Lu when I was young, I also knew that my father let me enter the palace because he was reluctant to part with Qiu Changruo. It's just that I still have a trace of envy for him. I always thought that even though he let me Chang Ruo entered the palace, but he still regards me as his daughter after all."

"But since he led you to meet Chang Ruo, I know that in his heart, Chang Ruo and I are still different. After all, he still doesn't regard me as a daughter."

"It's just that although I'm not reconciled to this, I'm not surprised. After all, I'm used to it, so I'm not too sad about him letting me be a widow for Changruo, but giving Changruo a lifetime of glory."

"Ming Qi, you probably don't know that the one who makes me sad the most about Chang Ruo entering the palace is actually you."

"Mingqi, do you know? In fact, when Chu Bufan advised you, I didn't think of stopping Chu Bufan at first. I even hoped that Chu Bufan could persuade you."

"It's just that when I ignored Chu Bufan's advice and insisted on marrying Changruo, I knew that no one could stop you. Chu Bufan can't, and neither can I."

"Ming Qi, you asked me a few days ago, did I never think that the person in your heart might be me."

"Mingqi, do you think I don't want me to be the one in your heart?"

"However, Mingqi, tell me, after seeing how you insist on Nachang Ruo entering the palace; because Chang Ruo wanted to give it a try, let me hand over the preparation of the palace banquet to Chang Ruo, After letting Chang Ruo get in touch with the palace power; after the death of a fox, Xiao Zi, who almost killed me, in order not to make Chang Ruo sad, you made great efforts to let Chang Ruo catch a fox that was exactly the same as Xiao Zi. After the fox, after seeing how you dote on Chang Ruo again and again, how dare you make me think?"

"Mingqi, tell me, if it were you, after seeing with your own eyes how kind you are to Chang Ruo, would you still dare to think? Dare to hope that the person in your heart is not Chang Ruo, but me. ?"

(End of this chapter)