I heard that the moonlight found the ocean

Chapter 17 Cruel
After returning from the company, Song Wenqi hid in his house and took a deep sleep. This sleep lasted for a long time, and the doorbell rang countless times before waking him up.The man was still dazed when he reached the door, and his mother yelled at him in a hurry outside the door: "You son of a bitch, open the door quickly."

As soon as Song Wenqi was caught, he quickly opened the door and gave the old man a warm hug: "Don't worry, old man, you will get angry easily if you are anxious, and you will age quickly, a good lady, we can't be tossed into a bitter woman. "

Song's mother was angry and annoyed, she gritted her teeth: "Don't be poor, people from the company told me that you drink too much and miss work these days, what's wrong with you?"

Song Wenqi raised his eyebrows that were as thick as splashed ink, thought for a while, and said, "I'm too tired, the robot also needs to rest."

"Are you really tired?" Mother Song asked as if she was relieved.

"Otherwise?" Song Wenqi hugged Song's mother flatteringly, thought for a while, and then said flatteringly, "I'm already such a big man, so don't worry about me, a lady like you should enjoy Enjoy happiness, do grooming, play cards, or raise a dog, and go all over the world to relax."

Song's mother said coldly: "It's still beautiful. Look at the wrinkles on my face. It's all because of you. I guess I won't be able to worry about it for the rest of my life."

Song Wenqi looked into Mother Song's eyes: "Yes, Mom, I was wrong. I thought about it, and you shouldn't have given birth to me in the first place."

"Nonsense, ten years of life will be lost if I see you. It's better to have a dog than to keep you." Mother Song left angrily.

After sending Mother Song away, he took out his mobile phone, and in the outbox lay quietly a text message he had sent to Su Mei: Su Mei, as long as you want, you can come to me at any time.

It's quiet in the inbox.Just like this huge villa, it is quiet.

He quietly deleted the text message, smashed his phone on the sofa, and laughed a few times intentionally. The laughter drifted into the open space, and there was a kind of indescribable loneliness.

It is futile for those who are not cared about to do more.

He and Lu Haiyang broke up because of the quarrel about Lu Qingsong, but Su Mei still insisted on going to work in the coffee shop every day, and visiting Ye Meixiang in the nursing home every few days.

Sitting on the bus to a nursing home, sitting next to a woman was holding a little girl.The little girl lay on the window, looked at the wild flowers along the roadside, and said softly: "Mom, look, it really looks like snow."

Su Mei raised her eyes and looked out of the window, those unknown white wild flowers were really like snow, she unconsciously remembered the time in winter, when Lu Haiyang was still called Shen Qiao, they didn't know what sorrow was, they hugged in the snow .In that snowy winter, she reaped Lu Haiyang's love, and was eaten by love in spring.

What a sad thing that is.

"Auntie, why are you crying?"

Su Mei rubbed the center of her brows: "Auntie has a headache."

"Why do you have a headache?" The little girl was reluctant.

The woman looked at Su Mei in embarrassment: "I'm sorry, children are not sensible."

Su Mei turned her face away and closed her eyes sadly.

In the nursing home, Ye Meixiang was not in the room, and the nurse pointed to the grove not far away with a smile: "Your friend is here, take her to the grove to relax."

Su Mei's heart tightened, and she ran quickly to the woods. It was indeed Lu Haiyang, who was pushing a wheelchair and singing to Ye Meixiang, who danced and danced.Su Mei took a breath, walked over with big strides, and took Ye Meixiang from Lu Haiyang's hand.

"Su Mei." Lu Haiyang held her wrist angrily, "I figured out that matter. My dad said that what happened that day was an accident. He accidentally fell down, not you."

"I did it." Su Mei said coldly, "I am arrogant and selfish, as long as anyone offends me, I will definitely find a way to take revenge."

"Why do you insist on pouring dirty water on yourself?" Lu Haiyang's grip on her wrist became stronger, "I was just out of breath at the time, that incident has passed, can you forgive me?"

Su Mei didn't speak, but frowned.

Seeing that she didn't speak, Lu Haiyang became anxious. He shook her arm: "It's all me. I was confused for a while. I didn't understand anything, so I just talked nonsense."

"Yes, please forgive him?" Ye Meixiang also begged for Lu Haiyang's mercy.

Seeing Ye Meixiang helping him like this, Lu Haiyang took advantage of the situation to chase after her.He let go of Su Mei's hand, squatted on the ground and shook Ye Meixiang's arm flatteringly: "Auntie, tell Su Mei, I really didn't mean to make her angry, I was just confused for a while."

"He didn't do it on purpose, so please forgive him?" Ye Meixiang looked at Su Mei pitifully.

"Look, Auntie has forgiven me, so you forgive me too?" Lu Haiyang frowned and looked at Su Mei pitifully.

In fact, she didn't really hate Lu Haiyang, but what he said a few days ago was like a steel ball in her heart, round and rigid, rolling around non-stop, hitting her chest with pain.

"Lu Haiyang, forget it, even if I forgive you this time, it will be the same next time. Because in your heart, I am a hedgehog who does not deserve to be loved."

Seeing her decisive words, Lu Haiyang's face turned pale, and he looked at Su Mei: "Su Mei, how can you forgive me? Do you want me to die before you can forgive me?"

"I will never forgive you." Su Mei pushed the wheelchair past him.

The way she never looked back gave Lu Haiyang the illusion that she would never go back.

After talking with Ye Meixiang for a while, and paying a sum of money to the nursing home, Su Mei walked towards the station with her bag.On the far side of the road, Lu Haiyang stood there quietly with his thin back.At this time, the sun was setting and the twilight was dim, making his back even more lonely.Su Mei's heart softened, but it disappeared in an instant. She warned herself, she can't be soft-hearted, her family is broken, how can she forgive such a thing?
"Su Mei." Seeing her coming out, Lu Haiyang wanted to make a last-ditch effort.

Su Mei straightened her back and passed him like a stranger.At this time, a car in the distance drove straight towards Su Mei, Su Mei didn't notice because of the trance and anxiety, Lu Haiyang's terrified voice sounded behind her: "Su Mei, get out of the way, be careful."

Before Su Mei had time to dodge, she flew into the air, and when her consciousness recovered, Lu Haiyang fell to the ground, lying in a pool of blood.Su Mei didn't remember whether she walked or crawled over at that time, she only remembered that she threw herself on Lu Haiyang, heard him chuckle, and murmured intermittently: "As long as you are fine."

Is it because she said she would never forgive him, that's why God made such a joke with her?Su Mei looked at Lu Haiyang who fell on the ground in horror, blood was spreading, but he closed his eyes and said nothing.At this time, Su Mei suddenly understood that what happened just now was not a dream, but a real car accident.

In order to keep her safe, Lu Haiyang blocked the car with his body.At this moment, Su Mei shouted like crazy: "Lu Haiyang, talk to me, you can't fall asleep, wake up, you can't fall asleep!"

In just a few seconds, Su Mei was in any mood.Regret, guilt, anxiety, all the emotions that should be and shouldn't be all ran out without saying hello.

There were more and more people watching, and someone called an ambulance for Su Mei.In the car, Su Mei forced herself to calmly grab Lu Haiyang's hand.His hands were cold, as cold as ice in winter.She had always loved holding his hand, warm, firm, masculine.But now those hands were so cold, she had never touched such cold hands before, she didn't know what to do, so she had to take off her clothes and cover him, but she was shivering without realizing it.Relying on instinct, she said over and over again: "Lu Haiyang, don't scare me, you can't fall asleep, wake up. I'm Su Mei, didn't you say that you want me to forgive you? I'm with you Say, I'll forgive you as long as you wake up. I mean it, I'll forgive you as long as you wake up."

Lu Haiyang has been sleeping deeply.

In the spring of Engang, there are always sudden spring rains.

Lu Haiyang was pushed into the operating room, and Su Mei was sitting by the window chair outside the operating room. The sky outside turned gray in an instant, and the heavy clouds were extremely low. This kind of sky was like her mood at this time, stretching as far as the eye could see , can not see the bottom of the gray.

"What happened? How did he get into a car accident?" Lu Qingsong, who got the news and rushed into the hospital, grabbed Su Mei's arm and said with self-blame, "It must be retribution, but retribution should also be me. He came to bear all this, he really didn't know anything about what happened back then."

Yes, Su Mei thought sadly, her own curse must have come true, just like back then.Because of her grievances, Su Mei no longer knew how to tell him the whole story. She only felt that there was a large lump in her chest, and all the oxygen seemed to be emptied: "He will be fine, he will be fine." If there is something wrong, he is still waiting for me to forgive him."

Sitting on the bench, Lu Qingsong only moved his lips and said over and over again: "Yes, he has always been strong, and he will be fine."

Su Mei's complexion was pale, she bit her lip tightly, her lip was bitten by herself but she didn't know it.

The smell of disinfectant and the lights in the emergency room all resembled a huge mouth with white teeth. Su Mei felt that her whole body was being bitten, from the skin to the bone marrow, every inch was painful uncontrollably.The lights in the operating room finally went out, and Su Mei had already forgotten how long she had been waiting.She rushed forward and grabbed the doctor's hand: "how is he?"

Four simple words, but she felt that she had asked for a long time.

"The patient has injured his brain and is no longer in mortal danger."

"When will he wake up?"

The doctor said calmly: "Because I hurt my brain, I can't say when I will wake up. Maybe it will be soon, maybe it will be very slow."

Hearing this, Su Mei yelled at the doctor angrily: "What are you talking about? Do you mean that he might not wake up? What kind of bullshit hospital is this?"

The doctor just turned away calmly.

Su Mei and Lu Qingsong were left standing there with despairing expressions on their faces.

These days, she was waiting for Lu Haiyang to wake up every day. She talked a lot in front of his hospital bed, and her voice was already hoarse because of crying.But Lu Haiyang, he always fell asleep peacefully.

That day she talked with Lu Haiyang again, and cried helplessly again. Liang Yi, who accompanied her, pulled her aside with tears, and the two of them sat on the rest chair outside. Liang Yi pretended to be relaxed and said: "Su Mei, don't be like this, Lu Haiyang will definitely wake up. If he can't wake up, then I will destroy this hospital."

Su Mei's throat was sore, she looked at Lu Haiyang in the ward, and let her tears flow like a river: "If he can't wake up, I will never forgive myself."

"He will definitely wake up, I promise." Liang Yi raised his hand and swore.

"Really?" She knew it was a lie, but she still asked like a child.

"I assure you that what I said is true, that bastard Lu Haiyang, he is so annoying, you have suffered so much for him, and you haven't tortured him enough, God won't accept him so easily .” Liang Yi smiled wryly.

"Yes, I won't take advantage of him like this." She repeated Liang Yi's words slowly, feeling extremely tired, her eyelids could no longer support her, and she fell softly into Liang Yi's arms.

At this time, a black figure who had been standing in the depths of the corridor walked over.Seeing her leaning on Liang Yi's shoulder, he asked, "Is she asleep?"

"Well, Song Wenqi, let me ask you, what will Lu Haiyang do if she can't wake up?" Liang Yi asked worriedly, "She has been looking for him for five years, I thought it would have a happy ending like a TV series , why is this happening now?"

He knew that this was a question that would never have an answer.

"You take a rest first, I'll take her to sleep." After finishing speaking, Song Wenqi carried her back to the ward silently.

She really should have a good sleep. These days, a series of things hit her like dominoes, and she was really tired.

Su Mei didn't know how long she had slept, but when she woke up, her clothes were dirty from crying, so she got up to wash her face.In the mirror, her entire face was pale and bloodless, like a lonely ghost.She patted her face in the mirror, and murmured: "Why do you always like to say things against your will? If Lu Haiyang really can't wake up, what will you do?" The whole process, she has been erratic, even I don't know Song Wenqi sat there silently in a corner of the ward.After washing his face and coming out, Song Wenqi said quietly, "He will be fine."

Su Mei suddenly heard a human voice, and her whole body trembled.

Song Wenqi smiled meanly: "I thought you fell asleep with Lu Haiyang, but I didn't expect you to still be conscious."

Su Mei didn't want to talk to him, she walked to the hospital bed and tidied the quilt for Lu Haiyang, and arranged Lu Haiyang's hair.In short, she just didn't want to talk to Song Wenqi.

Song Wenqi sat for a while and stood up again, but Su Mei never looked at him directly. Seeing that Su Mei really regarded him as transparent, he stopped being mean and just backed out silently.

Su Mei moved a stool and sat by the bed. She still held Lu Haiyang's hand and said softly and softly: "Lu Haiyang, are you really not going to wake up? I really don't want me to forgive you ?"

Su Mei felt Lu Haiyang's fingers move a bit, and when she took a closer look, Lu Haiyang was still asleep. Su Mei also thought it was her own illusion, which often happens.So Su Mei walked into the bathroom quietly, ready to fetch some water for Lu Haiyang to wash his face.

"Su Mei."

Su Mei, who was carrying water into the ward, slipped her hand, and the basin carrying the water fell to the ground with a bang, and she ran over in disbelief: "Are you awake?"

Probably because he was tired, Lu Haiyang slowly closed his eyes again: "I thought I was going to die when the car drove over."

"I won't let you die," she snapped.

"It is said that you will meet the person you want to see most before you die."

"Ok?"

"But I don't seem to see anyone."

She was disappointed and didn't speak for a long time.

Lu Haiyang closed his eyes slightly, fluttering his long eyelashes. He said softly, "But I heard someone talking in my ear. That person kept saying that as long as I wake up, she will forgive me."

Su Mei still didn't speak, Lu Haiyang asked softly: "Can you take what that person said seriously?"

For some reason, she suddenly nodded.

Lu Haiyang lay on the hospital bed and almost wanted to jump up: "You really forgive me?"

She nodded, how could she not forgive?During the time he fell asleep, she had already quietly forgave him.

After Lu Haiyang was discharged from the hospital, Su Mei took him back to the old house they rented, as if they had a tacit understanding, neither of them mentioned Lu Qingsong again.

Most of the time, she didn't speak, and Lu Haiyang didn't speak either, and the air was extraordinarily quiet, and the atmosphere was oppressive.

In the depressive life, there is finally one thing to be happy about, that is, Lu Haiyang has a new job, and it is a good advertisement endorsement.The filming of the commercial went very smoothly, and Lu Haiyang received a generous endorsement fee as soon as the filming was over.He thought that he had never bought anything for Su Mei since he met her, so he went straight to the mall after getting the money.He had secretly recorded Su Mei's shoe size a long time ago, and was going to give her a big surprise.

On the way back, Lu Haiyang ran into Zhou Xiaochen unexpectedly.Obviously Zhou Xiaochen had heard a little about the matter between him and Su Mei, she looked at him carrying a brand-name shoe box, and sighed heavily: "I was afraid that you and Su Mei would continue to quarrel, it seems that I think too much gone."

He replied: "It took a lot of effort to reconcile, and there will be no more quarrels in the future."

Zhou Xiaochen said with a smile: "You really should treat Su Mei well. I heard that the bosses of those advertising companies are very horny. She really went all out for you."

He was taken aback for a moment, thinking of what Song Wenqi had said in his mind, and the shoebox in his hand fell to the ground with a "snap": "You mean that Su Mei answered my advertisement for me?"

As if realizing that he had said something wrong, Zhou Xiaochen opened his big eyes and smiled apologetically, "You don't know?"

Why is the sun so strong in the afternoon?There was a slight burning pain on his body. He felt that he needed to find an outlet to vent. He looked at Zhou Xiaochen and asked calmly: "It's so hot, how about going for a drink?"

As soon as she opened the door, Su Mei could smell the alcohol. She looked at the flushed Lu Haiyang, and asked worriedly, "Did you go to entertain advertisers again? If you can't drink, don't drink so much!"

He looked at Su Mei, his face pale.Yes, he drank, and did not know how many.Because the anger in his heart was burning hot, he wanted to quench it with wine.

Seeing him looking at her in such panic, Su Mei felt guilty and asked, "What's wrong with you?"

Instead, he laughed, laughing so much that his tone changed: "What's wrong with me? Let me ask you, did you ask the bosses of those advertising companies to give me this opportunity?"

"What nonsense are you talking about?" She was full of anger, pushed his hand away and walked out, "I don't want to quarrel with you, you're drunk, I'll go out and have a quiet first."

"Don't think of going out of this door unless you explain the matter clearly." Seeing that she was about to leave, Lu Haiyang hugged her tightly in his arms, and kissed her fiercely regardless of her struggle.Her vest was pressed against the wall, touching the cold wallpaper, she felt like a piece of felt, being kneaded and squeezed by him, she could hardly breathe, there seemed to be some kind of pain in his strength: "Those people Do you want to kiss you like this?"

She closed her lips tightly, her hands pressed against his chest in resistance, no matter how hard she struggled, she couldn't break away from his shadowy lips.He sucked hard, as if he was hating something: "Really? Did I kiss you like this?" He grabbed her waist forcefully, forcing her to look into his eyes.Those eyes were the same as when he was 19 years old, with humble stubbornness hidden in them, "It must be this way of kissing you, so I will have the chance to accept the advertisement."

"You're crazy." She pushed him away and stood up unsteadily, "You're drunk, I don't care about you."

He stood there, raised his head to look at Su Mei, and whispered with a low laugh like a whisper: "I'm just saying, I'm an outdated little model, who would ask me to take an advertisement? It turns out that I'm just a girl who can't afford a girlfriend." A poor boy who lives in a beautiful house, can't eat big meals, and can't buy famous brands. Even his job depends on his girlfriend. Without a girlfriend, I'm nothing. You must regret choosing me, right?"

It was only at this point that she realized that he thought that he got this ad for him by taking advantage of his beauty.She walked in front of him step by step without making a sound. She raised her head and her eyes were foggy.Her expression was so dazed, as if a child was thinking about something.After a while, she finally spoke, her voice was very soft but with a touch of sadness: "Lu Haiyang, let me tell you, I went to beg Mr. Ning, but I didn't betray anything. It turns out that I have always been like this in your heart. No matter how hard you work, it's always like this." After saying this, she sat helplessly on the ground like a marionette whose thread was pulled out.

Hearing her words, he seemed to be sober. He looked at Su Mei who was sitting on the ground, took off his coat and put it on her shoulders.He handed her a glass of warm water and a towel: "I'm drunk, I'm sorry. I was just too angry to say those words."

She didn't say a word, she retracted her chin into the collar of his coat, the wide collar made her look like a small hermit crab, she was so stable inside the shell, as if the magnificent ocean outside had nothing to do with her.

Lu Haiyang didn't speak either, just sat with her.In fact, he doesn't know what's wrong with him. Every time it's about her, he always loses control.The self-esteem that he has accumulated with great difficulty will always be worn away and extinguished little by little.

Maybe the humbleness in his bones has never been reduced by half, no matter how he tries, no matter how hard he tries, he always has no confidence in front of her.He didn't mean to be angry with her, nor did he mean to quarrel with her, he was just afraid that he would not have a sense of existence.But he seems to have forgotten that all the good things cannot withstand excessive consumption.

Probably because she was tired, she was silent for a moment, Su Mei spoke, she looked at Lu Haiyang, and said very seriously: "With you, I only hope that I can go out to work together in the morning like all ordinary couples in the world, and stay together at night. Go home, buy some small dishes at the roadside stalls, and cook a simple meal at home. Except for the two of us, everything else in this world is nosy. It doesn’t matter if you have money or not. It doesn’t matter if you can eat big meals. It doesn't matter if you have beautiful clothes." She said at the end, her voice choked up a little, "Maybe neither of us is wrong, maybe we want to love each other so much that we hurt each other."

Listening to her words, Lu Haiyang's tears began to slide down his cheeks and into his ears, cooling his heart.If two people from different worlds want to love each other, can they really only hurt each other?

(End of this chapter)