The wind blows north, you chase south

Chapter 22 Extra Story [-]: Sunan Monologue
There are many things that cannot be chosen, birth, gender, parents, family, etc., and in my irreversible life, I met her.

She was born two months earlier than me, and her childhood memories have long been blurred. I don’t think I can remember that when I was born not long ago, there was a baby who looked at me with big ignorant eyes, and that look was doomed My future with her.

Childhood sweetheart is a gentle and romantic word, at least I think so.

Lang came here on a bamboo horse, went around the bed to grow green plums, and lived together in Changganli. The two children had no suspicion.Compared with these literary poems, I prefer rigorous and infinitely varied mathematics and physics.

However, I always remember this poem.

When I was young, I asked my mother what childhood sweethearts meant, and she smiled and pointed to Hu Le who was fighting wits with the air, and said, "It's just like you."

us?

I feel that Hu Le and I have deviated from the normal series of childhood sweethearts. It seems that the program has gone astray. We want to correct it, but it seems a bit nondescript.

She is only two months older than me, but she has already looked like a bully, she takes me everywhere, walks like a man in charge, and always says to me with a snot in her nose: "Su Nan, don't be afraid, I'll cover you."

I nodded on the face, but secretly felt helpless, thinking to myself, who is covering whom?
She lost in the land grab and was lying in the sand playing tricks. It was I who tried every means to get back her playful paradise.Of course, I used some small tricks, and I was only five years old at the time.

But Hu Le obviously doesn't know what it means to repay kindness, but is better at repaying kindness and revenge.

When she had something delicious, she tricked me into picking it up, but I ate like a little cat. I could only pretend to be sad for a while, and let her be proud for a while.

What's more disgusting is that after she has a new love, she always forgets me as an old love. She often plays until dark and returns home, only to remember me who was left in the corner by her.But I never like to make trouble with her, I prefer to read quietly alone.

It's just that I don't want to see her being bullied by others, only I can bully her.

Although, she often does not feel my bullying.

Whenever this happens, she always looks guilty and sorry, and what I can do is pretend to be heartbroken at being left behind.

None of this is too much, the worst thing is that she wets the bed and makes me take the blame.I stopped wetting the bed when I was three years old. Because of her blame, my parents once thought I stopped wetting the bed when I was six years old. This was the first inexplicable crisis in my life.

Since then, we have grown up slowly.

I became more and more reticent. People say that "three years old will be eighty years old". When I looked at her when I was a child, I already knew what she would look like when she grew up, but this was too detached.

She is like a perpetual motion machine, never tired, and always more interested in playing than studying. Every day when she goes out and rolls in mud, she will always be beaten by her aunt.When I passed by her door, I could always hear screams and screams.

At that time, I said that I deserved it, but my feet didn't listen. I always wanted to be a knight who fell from the sky to save her from fire and water.

This rescue saved more than ten years.

I'm very fortunate that she is competitive enough to go to the same high school as me.I don't know who else can control this leather monkey except me.

If Sun Wukong really existed, the old man would definitely be willing to accept her as his apprentice.

Sure enough, when I went to high school, she didn't let me have a moment of peace of mind.

Not long after she was placed in the second class of high school, I couldn't bear to look at her physics grades. I threatened her with the most vulgar excuse of telling her parents, so she accepted my tutoring obediently, as if she had suffered a lot.

She is not focused on studying, but is full of interest in the cultural evening.I wanted to frustrate her and never agreed to her show, but she was quite patient and stuck to me time and time again.I thought I was unselfish, but as soon as I caught her eye, I surrendered unconditionally.

In fact, I am also very worthless. Even if I am armed with copper skin and iron bones, I am no match for her eager eyes.

As I said, she was never reliable.Sure enough, something went wrong with her, Fang Xiaojing, and Fang Zicong's show at the party. I stood by the side of the stage, watching her bewildered, and listening to the booing of the audience below, an unknown fire arose spontaneously.Maybe I think it's unbearable for someone else to bully a guy who has always been the only one I can bully.

I relieved her.

But not only did she not know how to be grateful, she also didn't know how she met Zhou Chengguang, a transfer student from the first year of high school.

When I first saw him, I didn't like him.As it turns out, my intuition was uncannily accurate.

This guy Hu Le is too unrestrained and needs to be controlled by someone. Now that there is another Zhou Chengguang to accompany her to mess around, she is even more lawless. When I went to a concert in the city, I couldn't take it anymore.

For the first time, I lost my temper with her and said harsh words.

In fact, even I don't know whether I am more angry or more afraid.When she left me for a new friend as a child, I took it easy because she would turn around sooner or later, knowing that the one who was best for her would always be there for her.

But it is different now, she has grown up, but her discernment has not improved, she may not be able to withstand the temptation.

In the end, she still went to the concert. When I went to find her, I thought of ways to round her up and flatten her countless times on the way, such as telling her parents about her going out privately, or just packing her up and bringing her back... …

I was like a dark villain, with countless plans flashing through my head one after another, but when I saw her smiling like a flower, all the anger and hatred disappeared in an instant.I only have one thought, it's actually not impossible to make trouble with her.

She told me that she likes Wei Sen very much, his songs, his persistence, and his indifferent appearance even in the face of difficulties.She asked me if there was anything I had been insisting on or was obsessed with.

At that moment, I only thought of her.

After the concert, we went back to the hotel, because there were not enough rooms in the hotel, I shared a room with Zhou Chengguang.

I have long disliked him, and he is the same, but we are all civilized people, and we will not fight over a disagreement. I know where to attack the enemy's weakness.

I told him, don't be a stumbling block in her path.He smiled, saying that it is not certain who is the stumbling block.

It's too much to speculate, so I'll give up.

As a result, Zhou Chengguang's revenge came the next day.He offers to play another day, and what's more hateful, she agrees.I was on fire in my heart, but I could only pretend nothing had happened on my face.

When you see her lying unconscious on the ground, let those calmness go to hell.The moment I carried her out of the women's bathroom, I had only one thought: If something happened to her, I would not let Zhou Chengguang go easily.

Fortunately, she was lucky enough to have an appendix cut, and she can still laugh, laugh and eat.

My uncle and aunt urged me to go back to class, and I didn't care if I missed a few days of class, but I didn't want her to blame herself, so I agreed.

To be honest, I can only wait for her to fall asleep before I dare to leave, because I am afraid that if I touch her eyes, I will not be able to harden my heart and leave on my own.The moment the bus started, I was still thinking, would she feel lost and sad if she woke up and couldn't see me?
Probably not, even if there is, one meal can dissolve her negative emotions.

After going back, I just remembered that it was her birthday not long ago.I tactfully revealed the news to Fang Xiaojing and Fang Zicong. Fortunately, they were not stupid, so they quickly turned to me and asked me to join the birthday party.

I have already ordered the cake, her favorite chocolate cake.

I remember one time, a relative who lived abroad gave me a box of chocolates. I thought they were too boring, so I gave them to her, but she was reluctant to eat them and put them in the sun. As a result, they all melted the next day, and she cried. It was earth-shattering and made everyone dumbfounded.

Then I put the melted chocolate in a mold and put it in the refrigerator, and it didn't take long for it to congeal. She thought I was doing magic tricks, which was silly, but also cute.

But I know that she won't be able to eat the birthday cake this time, and I can't help but laugh when I imagine her eating porridge while Fang Xiaojing and the others eat cake.

Let her be gluttonous, the present report is coming.

I don't admit that this is my prank.

But to make it up, I gifted her a new phone, which she's always wanted.

Of course, I won't admit that's why I'm working in a restaurant.

I only want her to be happy, and I don't want her to feel burdened.

She has been in good health since she was a child. Although her body lacks a dispensable appendix and a tendon in her head, she is still full of vitality. But after that incident, I understand a reason, she needs to be taken care of.

I caught her to study when I found the opportunity.

She's fine, she didn't know where she found out that I was going to participate in the National Physics Competition, but she didn't want to affect me or bother me with all her heart.

If she doesn't want to bother me, she should disappear from my sight forever.No, she should clear any memory of her from my mind, otherwise how would I not be affected by her.

I was going to participate in the competition. Before I left, I asked her if she had anything to say to me.

She even told me to bring special products, I was so angry and wanted to laugh.

Before she left, she told me that it’s okay to fail, just try your best, and I know this is her true words.Everyone asked me to prepare well and not to disappoint everyone's expectations, only she would say that it's okay to fail.

So only she understands me.

Of course, I won't give myself a chance to fail, and I like the way she looks at me adoringly.Of course, the premise is that I need an admission ticket to take the exam.

I never expected that she would find me alone, traveling thousands of miles, losing her wallet without her mobile phone on the way.When I saw her collapsed in front of the hotel, I couldn't describe my mood at that moment.

Because my heartbeat is paused.

I knew I shouldn't blame her, and when she woke up, I should comfort and thank her, but the anger and fear in my chest couldn't be vented, and I thought cruelly, what if something happened to her?what should I do?
So when she woke up, I couldn't control my emotions.I got angry with her, and she would have fought back in normal times, but that time she just left silently.

That slender figure made me hate myself so much.

Why did you say those words?Why blame her?Why should her good intentions be turned away?I was obviously worried about her, why didn't I say it outright?
she cried.

That was not the first time she shed tears in front of me, but that tear was the only one that corroded my heart like sulfuric acid.

There was nothing I could do but hold her.

I think the biggest advantage of childhood sweethearts is that they will never really blame the other party, even if they do, thinking of the past will harden their hearts.She didn't blame me, I'm glad.

But what I didn't expect was that Zhou Chengguang also came unexpectedly.I thought she told Zhou Chengguang our whereabouts, and the bitterness in my heart spread.Compared with the nervousness of the exam, I couldn't suppress the nameless jealousy in my heart.

It wasn't until she told me that she didn't tell Zhou Chengguang our whereabouts that I was relieved.

I'm not such a generous person, especially when it comes to her affairs.

I know I'm acting like a naive little boy, and that's the worst thing about me.

But sometimes, emotions are out of your control.No matter how restrained a rational person is, he will encounter things that make him crazy and lose his composure.

And my bottom line is Hu Le.

Zhou Chengguang touched my bottom line, I'm pretty sure I hate him.He is like a foreign enemy, he wants to capture my city, and he is already eager to try.

I thought, I have to do something.

I grew up guarding that person, who is connected with me by flesh and blood, regardless of each other. If she is taken away, the city I have worked so hard to build will collapse suddenly.

After the party that day, she and I sat on the promenade outside the hotel.She asked me what school I wanted to go to, and I asked her what kind of university she wanted me to go to.

She said, as long as it is me, everything I want will come true.In her heart, I am like an omnipotent magician who can turn my hands into clouds and turn my hands into rain.In fact, I was trembling, for fear that if I turned around, she would disappear before my eyes.

I hope that we can walk with her in the future, just like we have been together for 17 years.

Fang Xiaojing and Fang Zicong had a quarrel, they were like a copy of me and her, in fact, it is not very accurate to say that, in my relationship with her, it seems that I am slightly better, in fact, I am always the one who compromises.

She always said that I bullied him, and I smiled wryly in my heart, who is bullying whom?

If I really want to bully her, can she still be unscrupulous and unrestrained?She didn't know that the reason why her life went smoothly was because of who was removing obstacles for her.This little white-eyed wolf!
She is enthusiastic about anything.

As small as a butterfly, a cat, or as big as a person, as long as her eyes are fixed on her, she thinks it is her responsibility to help them.

Fang Xiaojing and Fang Zicong, a pair who went from elementary school to high school, fell out because of some things, and she was more anxious than anyone else, not to mention sleeping and eating, but also to deal with homework.Her displeasure affected my mood too much. I inquired a little bit, only to think Fang Zicong really deserved to die.

He obviously did it for Fang Xiaojing's good, but he suffered from the lack of a good mouth. Fortunately, they finally put aside their previous feud, and she thought it was all due to her, so she was complacent.

But let her think so.

Fang Zicong invited us to participate in the bonfire party. This year, I have attended two parties, and there are reasons to attend both parties.

When she appeared in front of me in national costume, I clearly felt that my heartbeat was out of rhythm, but she had to pretend to be serious on the surface, which was really inconsistent.

She is not beautiful, but she is good-looking.After looking at her for a long time, her appearance is more pleasing to the eye than anyone else.

Eyebrows that are neither thick nor light, short ear-length hair that is always raised, a small mole on the tip of the nose, and small eyes, but they are full of spirit.I always thought that her eyes were full of stars, otherwise, why can't I control my gaze as soon as I touch her eyes?
When she comes up with ghost ideas, her eyes will narrow slightly; when eating, her mouth is puffed like a squirrel; when she is lazy, she is like a kitten basking in the sun; Lethality.

Fortunately, I know every side of her, and it is deeply imprinted in my heart. Occasionally, I take it out and look it up in my spare time, but it is not a pleasant feeling.

She certainly doesn't know about this, just like she couldn't believe that I would sit down and write a diary, and the object of the diary was her.

She also has a diary, locked, which unfortunately I gave her.

That guy, with a typical 3-minute enthusiasm, was able to meticulously record what he saw, heard and felt in the first five days, but in the end he died without a problem, and was even stupid enough to leave the diary on my desk.I have to admit, I flipped through her diary.I know it's shameless to peek at someone else's diary, but I did it anyway.

Sure enough, as I expected, her handwriting was clean and tidy on the first day, and began to be scribbled in the next two days. If I hadn't known her since childhood, it would be difficult to distinguish her handwriting.

I still remember the words recorded on the first page of her diary.

Today I saw a butterfly on the road. It was not flying among the flowers, but was lying on the ground dying with its wings folded.The patterns on its wings are still so dazzling, but Sunan said that it is about to die.

Sunan told me that butterflies are living and dying creatures.Of course, this is just a metaphor, showing that the life of a butterfly is extremely short.

I don't understand why the more dazzling things disappear faster, such as fireworks.

Sunan told me that nothing lasts forever, all we can do is cherish the present, so I will cherish the present from today.For example, tonight, I want to eat two more bowls of rice, and my mother stewed pig's trotters tonight.

The last sentence ruined the beauty of the whole diary.

She is a short-legged foodie who loves to eat and has never changed.

In fact, this is very good. There are too many twists and turns and thorns on the road of life. When you go through it, you will inevitably be scarred.If possible, I would like to overcome difficulties for her, she just needs to leave laughter on the road.

However, I still overlooked something.

Zhou Chengguang, Zhou Chengguang, this sudden guy, like a dark cloud shrouded my head, just when I thought the cloud was cleared, he appeared again.

She proposed to let Zhou Chengguang join the study group, but I declined.

It's not that I don't know Zhou Chengguang, on the contrary, I have already heard about his bad deeds.

He talked back to his teacher in his first year of high school, his academic performance was so poor that everyone was angry, and he often missed classes. It can't be said that he could do whatever he wanted, but he was indeed too indulgent.Such a person staying by her side is a time bomb, I really can't bear it.

And she actually insisted on being tied to this "time bomb".

But my annoyance didn't bring her back in time, she even wanted to repair the relationship between me and Zhou Chengguang.During the trip to Moon Lake, I couldn't see Zhou Chengguang's sincerity in wanting to shake hands with me and make peace with me. Instead, he provoked me frequently.I'd love to have a fight with him if I could and if he's okay.

It never occurred to him that Zhou Chengguang, a person with such bad records, would have a heart attack.Seeing his white face, life and death unknown, I finally felt the fragility of life, and even reflected on whether I was too small-minded.In front of life, everything is fleeting, including my jealousy and jealousy.

She is very sad.

After learning about Zhou Chengguang's illness, she told me that she finally understood the true meaning of cherishing what I once said.She shed tears in front of me for another opposite sex, I can't tell what I feel in my heart, maybe it's like the Coptis chinensis has been smashed, and a spoonful of boiling oil is added to burn on the fire.

I promised her that she would not fight against Zhou Chengguang again, and even let go of the past and helped him with his homework.I don't expect him to appreciate me, nor am I atoning, I just do something within my power, something that I may never have the chance to do again.

In fact, Zhou Chengguang is not as annoying as I imagined. Behind his arrogance and defiantness is just a bluff and depression.His broken family and weak body made him feel very lonely.Except for Uncle Zhou, there was no one else around him.

But I will not change my prejudice against him, there has always been a woman between us, and he knows what I think in my heart.

When it was just the two of us, Zhou Chengguang once asked me if I liked her.

How did I answer him?Oh, it's no longer a matter of liking or not between me and her, we can't do without each other.

She is going to celebrate the New Year with Zhou Chengguang, this is the first time in so many years that she will not celebrate the New Year with me.The words Zhou Chengguang and I said categorically were like a huge slap, slapping me hard in the face, which caught me off guard.

I should ignore her, I should be ruthless, and let her have a taste of life without me, but when I arrived at the station, I looked at my parents who urged me to get on the train, but I turned my head and ran away without hesitation.

Behind them came their incomprehensible shouts, but I was relieved.

Forget it, I am determined by her in this life, and it is impossible to turn back, just like I was destined to meet her after I was born, just like now I turn around and return to her without hesitation.

She was stunned the moment she saw me, but I used impatience to cover up the turbulent emotions in my heart.I'm afraid I can't control my emotions and explain everything to her, but I can't yet.

We still have work to do, and I'm not qualified to say that.

On the first day of the Lunar New Year, Zhou Chengguang fell down in front of us again. This is the year I don’t want to recall the most, because I will think of him lying on the cold snow, and her staggering figure rushing towards him.

How fragile life is, and how strong it is.

Zhou Chengguang was going abroad to recuperate and wait for Xinyuan. He found me alone and asked me to take good care of her.He said that the greatest luck in his life was meeting her.If he has a healthy body, he will compete with me to the end.But now, he will only bless us unwillingly.

I smiled and told him to compete with me after he recovered his health, if he could compete.

Zhou Chengguang's giving up took some away and left some behind, such as her persistence.

After the new year, we embarked on the track of the college entrance examination and entered the silent battlefield.Each of us has to face a fight, and finally we are reborn from the ashes.

Before the college entrance examination, the teaching director approached me to discuss with Ye Yan about recommending him, but I refused without hesitation.

On the surface, I said that I did not want to miss the college entrance examination.In fact, I want to take the college entrance examination with her, go through that baptism together, and go to that university together.

She soon found out about it, and asked me aggressively what my answer was.

Oh, yes, she once wanted to see me become the champion of the provincial college entrance examination, so I will grant her wish.

Others say that I am self-willed or boring, just like what she said, people are not crazy to waste youth.I have always lived a well-behaved life, and my life is peaceful. If there are no ripples, it would be too boring.

The moment I learned of her grades, I seemed to be reborn, and my whole body fell silent.I know, I can say that sentence that has been lurking in my heart.

Hu Le, I like you.

Don't know where to start, don't know where to end.

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