The Complete Works of Xu Zhimo's Classical Prose

Chapter 61
It has been eight days since Pingping and eleven days since I left home. I only got one letter, which is very important.Yesterday I got a letter from Yu Chang, saying that she is a beautiful girl, so you should also go to congratulate her.Seeing that your left cheek is slightly swollen, it must be that the toothache has not healed, or it has recurred.The previous letter has repeatedly asked to go to the dentist. I don't know if I have been there. Is it better?I'm not at home, you have to take care of everything yourself.Even when such news came, I couldn't bear to think of your toothache.You must know that this false fire is partly due to the time of day, and partly caused by daily life.At this time, you must decide to organize your mental body in an all-round way, and you can no longer follow your own mistakes.I wonder if the sun has cleared in the south?Take advantage of this spring, just work hard.It's a pity that you don't have a refreshing companion around you. Even if you have ambitions, it is easy to be wasted.At the same time, time is running out, and time flies by, which is really terrible.Even if I have been in the past two years, I have been greedy and lazy, and I have no vitality.This time I came to the north, I have to do things seriously again, and I feel quite strenuous.But it's not too late if I can change my habits in this three months and work hard to be a good person.Those who hope that each other endures the pain of separation, at least there should be considerable achievements, and the common people can comfort each other.From then on, the days can be seen brightly, and the mind is also happy.Classes have already started this week, Peking University for eight hours, Women's University for eight hours, got up at [-] o'clock yesterday and today, and attended four consecutive classes.Because I have to work extra hard when I first arrive (students are also very welcome), I feel quite exhausted in the end, and it will be even more troublesome tomorrow. I run twice in the morning and afternoon, and there are five hours of class in total.Saturday is also very important, and because the homework arranged is not what I have always learned, I have to prepare a little bit, but it is hard.Going to bed late is still late, and you can't get up in the morning.Mrs. Hu said that I am pitiful, but I have been comfortable with this duty for years, and now it is time to pay double the interest.

The homework for the Women's University is Wen Yuanning's, and it is very cumbersome.Eight hours doesn't count, but six different subjects are the most annoying.The place is so beautiful.It turned out to be Jiuye Mansion, but later Chang Yinhuai bought it for Yang Yuting.The palace compound, it's really nice.Coal costs more than 80 yuan per day.Times are so different.Today's female students are all extravagant, and they are really particular about their dress. They have a few fur coats, which are really dazzling.Yang Zonghan is also in Women's University.My homework is mostly crowded on Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, and Saturday.This time it can't be casual.In the second half of the year, I hope to get a fund lecture, that's good, I will teach for six hours, and I will get four to five hundred yuan.In the rest of my time, I can write a lot.At present, I am afraid that I can only be a teacher.Aunt Six and the others came here yesterday, and I will go today (the second time).Brother Hu, please have dinner in Yiya.Sixth Aunt is planning to go south in March, and Xiao Rui also wants to go with her, but I don't know if it will work?Yesterday during the Lantern Festival, I was alone in the apartment, looking at the moonlight, thinking of you quite a lot.Cannons were seen in mid-air, and children cheered all over the street.I wanted to take Zuwang and them to watch the fireworks in the south of the city, but I didn't go because I wanted to read a book.Did not go out this afternoon.Mr. and Mrs. Zhao Yuanren and Mrs. Ren Shuyong came to have a light meal.Xiaosan waited very hard to put flowers.Once a year, the Lantern Festival has passed again.My visit here is completely different from last time, and I will not come for entertainment and other things.Apart from going to Changdian for the second time, I didn't watch a play, and I didn't do anything.You can be assured.But I really look forward to your letter every day. I am so busy, and I still write at least once every two days on average.How much do you want at home? If you don't write more, I will suspect that you don't miss me.Is your mother okay?Say hello to me.This letter can be shown to my mother.I'm going to work.

If there is a letter, send it together.

your mom
the day after the Lantern Festival

Beloved Wife Man:

I only got your second letter today, and I am really looking forward to it.I have already sent six letters, one every other day is not too little, and I think about you all the time.Your Meiying stands in front of me, supervising my study and work every night. I have been blaming her for being lazy in the past two days, which made me nervous. Ever since Yu Chang said that your cheeks are swollen, I have dreamed that your cheeks are swollen like a watermelon Big.You are wrong dear.As for my leaving this time, I have said and said that it was a helpless matter.I was really afraid that I would fall into all kinds of chronic diseases, wouldn't it be too shameful, so I resolutely came north.Today, Chongqing also wrote: "My mother fell ill due to the toil of the New Year. I am so sad that I can't express it. I hope God will bless her. After the spring is warmer, she can see you again. You, I can't bear it. But Considering the situation of all parties, it is no good to appease and follow everyone. If it is a day when there is no way to save yourself, then why bother? So I reluctantly leave you at home, and would rather go out to live a monk life. I have mentioned the situation after I came here. In the future You can ask Mrs. Hu to find out. What kind of a good boy I am, I am also very serious in school. I hope to motivate myself and start a bright road again. This is for myself, but why not? Kiss your sister, don't you understand? As for the Liang family, I really never dreamed of such a thing; moreover, the meeting this time is very different from the previous one, partly due to rumors outside, I was extra cautious, and we met only three times. There is no joy at all. Now Huiyin is far away in Xiangshan with her mother and son, and there is no news. At most, I will visit her once with Lao Jin and Xi Ruo when the weather is fine. (She only sees visitors for two hours a day). I don't know how to take care of the sick, I don't have the ability, and I don't have the thoughts: You know it, so why bother laughing at me. I am lucky to have a job here, but occasionally I feel lonely, and it passes in a blink of an eye; so there is only one old mother who is worried, One you. There is also my mother who always seems to not understand very well, which also makes me miss. Who else is my confidant besides you? How comforting I am if I don’t mention it when you write a few affectionate words? The north and the south have been separated. How can I bear it if I am happy? So everyone, look farther and be patient. I love you, you know it best, so you can’t say it again.” I may not love you so passionately as before but I love all the more sincerely and truly for all those years． And may this brief separation bring about another gush of passionate Love from both sides so that each of us will be willing to sacrifice for the wake of the other!I was tired in class and was always sleep deprived.Tomorrow and Sunday, I could have slept high, but Peking University students had a welcome party at [-]:[-] a.m., so I had to go.It's over now, so I won't write anymore.In Fengze Garden tonight, there is a large group of Xingren, Lao Deng and others.I will write again tomorrow night, my dear, I will kiss you warmly.

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March [-]
eyebrow:
When Shangyuan passes Shanghai, I will come to see you in time.I asked to bring one hundred yuan in cash, and a jar of candied fruit. Mrs. Yu laughed at me that the jar was not good, and I said: Although the outside is ugly, the heart is very sweet.The school has not received any money so far, and there is still (they want to rely on me for February).But don't worry, it will be sent by the bank within a few days.Don't forget one more thing, Cai Zhihe will leave the court on March 23rd, and he must buy something to give away, I will post you ten yuan.No. 42 (?) Hengqingli, Baylor Road, Caiyu, Agen knows, don't miss the deadline, I won't write more.

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March [-]

Eyebrow kiss:

Today is Thursday, which is the busiest day of homework, from getting up early to finishing at [-]:[-].There was another Sophie tea party, and then Swan invited dinner. It was already [-]:[-] when I got home, and I was really tired.Your express letter is on the record.You are unhappy, and you are not up to date physically. After reading the letter, I feel very uncomfortable.I also mentioned my mother in the letter the day before yesterday, and I am not ignorant of the reason.But I really can't bear the environment in Shanghai.If I continue to nest, I will definitely be ruined; if I ruin it, it will be of no benefit to others, and it will be even less glamorous to you.So I reluctantly left; my mother is sick and my wife is weak, how could I have no intention?I hope that you can understand and help me save myself; at the same time, you will also be lifted up from the disease; you will restore health and vitality to each other, and love and help each other.As for my mother, although she does not want me to stay away, but at the same time she also knows that living in Shanghai is not good for me, so she will never stop me when she hears that I am going north.My father had the same attitude; it made me feel even more grateful.You can understand my difficulties, let me come to the north, and don't be moved by nonsense: it also makes me respect and love you more.But your letters always seem to be unwilling to give up the south.Xiashi is my problem, you don't go back anyway.In Shanghai or not, it doesn't matter.As for Mother, I never asked you to leave her.If I had a family in Beijing, of course I would invite her to live with me.Fortunately, the house here is spacious, and it is definitely not as cramped as the apartment in Shanghai.I think as long as you are willing to come, my mother will live together happily for you and me, and there is absolutely no reason not to come together.Your difficulty, from my point of view, is definitely not on the side of the elders, but entirely on the old habits.It is true that it is hard to return to the past, and it is true to love the land and move again. (Speaking of newspapers reporting that the Dharma Realm has started to search for cigarettes, that’s not a joke! What should I do if there is a joke? This is really the time to manage carefully.) Only you know my love for you best. The first three years When you first got into habit, there were hundreds of mornings and nights in my heart, like crabs crawling across, not to mention how uncomfortable it was.But because your health is too bad, you can't even speak.I want to save face, and I want to be a western-style gentleman.So at most, it's just a long face for a short time, and everything is depressed in my heart.If it wasn't for my strong body, I would have suffered from a nervous breakdown early on.When I decided to go to a foreign country, it was the most uncomfortable expression for me.But at that time, I hope that you can understand my difficulties and take the courage to be a human being.The hundred letters I sent back at that time were indeed the crystallization of my painstaking effort and the result of my roaming.But when I returned, it was still the same; and it caused a lot of rumors.It’s not that I don’t feel uncomfortable privately, but it’s because I love you so much that I don’t hesitate to obey you everywhere. It’s also my fault that I don’t have a strong will and can’t earn an independent spirit in a bad environment.In the past two years, I have been following many routines, and I can say that I have completely assimilated.But this is not reasonable after all!Because I am me, not a foreign figure.Although it is harmful to me, it is also useless to you.Fortunately, there are still a few friends who are willing to care about your health and honor, and find another way of life for you and me. Although in fact it seems to be a lot of inconvenience, as long as you can trust your words this time, it will be considered as your sacrifice. I sacrifice.Even if you're close to a place, I don't think it's so close that you can't be separated from it for even a day.Besides, Beijing is really a good place.You are too persistent, even if you give in this time, come to the north for a visit: if you don't agree, you can go back.Don't you lose any face?Our husband and wife are really special. On the one hand, you and I have suffered and sacrificed for each other, which cannot be said to be insignificant.Few couples have our foreign feet.But on the other hand, since they love each other so much, why are they willing to part ways again and again?You are generous, which is good, but there is always a common sense in things.Years ago, it's ridiculous to think about it.I'm an idiot, you know it all the time.You really don't know how much I once wanted to take a walk with you, or go out for a meal, or watch a movie together, and make others envious.But it's strange to say that I have been guarding for several years, but I can't guard a single opportunity. There is not a day when you are not engaged, and we have never had privacy.As of lately, I've become partially numb and don't want that kind of worldly happiness.Even if I celebrate my birthday before I leave, you don't know.I wanted to have a meal and play with you.Before leaving, I said several times that I wanted to have at least one date, but in the end I still walked away, and I couldn't make a single date.Don't you think it's ridiculous?Not to mention these, the current problem: the first is your body.You said that I am at home, and your health is not easy to recover. Now that I am not at home, isn't it a chance for you to double your rest?So if you love me, first you have to grit your teeth and take good care of your body; secondly, think about getting rid of habits, and then start our happy marriage.As long as I continue to work hard and work for three or two years, I am not afraid of losing my status or reputation in society.Although I can't guarantee that I have money, I can always have warmth and moderate comfort.Why are you so pessimistic?You know, my dear and dear sister, I am one with you, and our emotions and thoughts are completely connected; if you are unhappy, I will feel it right away.When you feel uncomfortable, how can you still have the courage to do things?You know I do have some drudgery here.It's nothing more than fame, it's for honor, it's for the respect and love of friends, especially for you.I have quite a high status, so I don't need to build from flat ground, and mountains and rivers are not difficult to obtain, so why not move forward bravely?All I need now is your help and cooperation based on true love.Sister!A great opportunity is open for you and me, don't miss it.It's getting late ([-]:[-]), and I have to get up at [-]:[-] tomorrow.My hands and feet turn to ice when I write.A heart is only for you, smart and lovely sister, can you not think about me?
Peking University has received [-] yuan after Shizhi repeatedly said.It was handed over to Xingye Huihu for collection yesterday.There is no hope for women's university, and I have to wait until the tenth day of next month to receive the money, so I'm on the fence again, what should I do?There may be money in Nanjing within a few days. If it arrives, I will mention it in the letter.

I wish you well, child!Shangyuan thought it was over, and one hundred yuan should have been handed over.Chen Tunan will apply for it in a few days. If you want something, please write to me quickly.

your mom
Thursday, March [-]

Dear eyebrow:
After I sent a long letter the day before yesterday, I never received a letter.Yesterday and today are very busy, let me tell you, listen: After homework yesterday, there were tea parties in three places, and there were foreigners again.You have to say that you don't like foreigners at all, but there are a few foreigners in Beijing who really don't dislike them. They are somewhat knowledgeable and interesting, so you can't write them off.Most of your impressions of foreigners are diplomats, but this is not representative.Last night was our two-week gathering for comrades. We had tea at Lilin first, and then went to Yuhuatai for dinner. We discussed visiting the Ming Tombs of the Great Wall or Tanzhan Temple during the spring vacation. I want to visit Dajue Temple the most. Tens of miles of apricot blossoms.Uncle Wang Luben said he would invite me to go, but he didn't know what to do.After dinner, I went to the White House Dance Hall, met Brother He and Xiaorui's family, Lilin and I danced a few times;There is a dancing girl named Luye, who is quite light and extremely red.I actually occupied it once, and spent one yuan.Beijing is really bustling every day, if Xiao Zhang comes again, it will be even more prosperous, although it may not be a blessing for Beijing.This week, many guests came in the morning, including Yenching and Tsinghua University to invite lectures.Recently, Hu Xianzhe attacked the new poetry again, and they wanted me to come out to defend it. I have promised to give a lecture around the beginning of the month.This beginning is even more urgent, but it cannot be avoided, just do your best.In the afternoon, I went to Central Park with Lilong to see the exhibition of the Old Summer Palace ruins, and met many friends.The red buds of the peonies are gradually showing, and the spring is already revealed. At four o'clock, I go back to Shijia Hutong. Xingren and Rose come to tea and talk about acting. Xingren is going south tomorrow because of Menghe's illness in Nanjing.If she goes to Shanghai, she may go to see you, and she is another special envoy. This child Rose really has her; the day before yesterday, she fell off her horse and hurt her back and waist.it is good!Not only did she not stop, she played even more crazily, she even went to dance that night, and she was still busy for three consecutive days, which can be regarded as extremely Plucky.It was only six o'clock when another young foreigner drove to pick her up.Hai came back soon and heard that Jingsui Road was dispatched. R spoke about her boudoir anecdotes very vividly, and I liked her innocence.But Lilin doesn't like her. I always feel that she is narrow-minded. What do you think?At seven o'clock we went to Qingshui to eat oriental rice.It's Miss Richard and Miss Jones again.After dinner, go to Zhonghe, which is the play I ordered, Shangheyu's Tielongshan, Fengqing Wenzhaoguan, Mei's first two Hongniguan.We all had a great time watching backstage.The first play is not good, not as good as Meng Lijun.Huisheng, Yanqin and Jiang Miaoxiang were even more miserable.The second book is not bad, this is the first time I have watched a play since then.Tomorrow night there will be another performance in Xiaolou (last week there will be Luo Mahu and An Tianhui), but I may not be able to go.Sister, Beijing is really much more interesting than Shanghai, why don't you come and have fun.I have been here for less than a month, and I gradually feel that my five senses are beautiful and my heart is comfortable; Shanghai is just a waste of muscles and bones, and it is of no benefit.There are photos of my statue, you must say it doesn't look like it, but remember that "he" didn't wear glasses, you can show it to Xunmei and Xiaoyao.Sister, I feel like I have been away from home for ten years and I miss you very much.Wouldn't it be nice for you to come with Xiaodie and the others?You're not here, I'm always a little alone, it's unnatural.Please write to Xiashi to ask two things: [-]. Lilin's dressing material; [-]. I want new tea leaves.

your husband mo

22 days
A good wife is like a kiss:

Thank you for your official letter, I am very refreshed to read it.Xiaoman stood up, no one bowed his head.May God bless you in the future, and your health will increase day by day.First discover your true self from painting, the enduring career lies in man-made.You can really bring up the courage, don't slack off, and keep doing it without worrying about becoming famous.But at this time, he only cares about cultivating skills, and must not allow the slightest arrogance.As you are smart, you should follow the law to the top, so that you can see your true temperament in the lines and colors, and you must be unaware of others, and you are not a gentleman.Such things as exhibitions cannot be discussed without years of hard work.Xiaoman is more intelligent than persevering, although this is generally criticized, there is also the truth.From then on, we must achieve a word of perseverance. If a poor husband is not talented, we will encourage each other.The painting will be sent soon, it is a pleasure to have a first look, I wish you progress!
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April [-]st

love eyebrow:

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