Who says maids don't fall for the city

Chapter 49 Don't hate this flower flying away, but hate the red in the West Garden (4)
She looked at me worriedly, and wanted to refuse, but she was afraid that I would get angry and get worse, so she had to agree.After everyone left, I lay down for a while, struggled to get up, put on some clothes and went straight to my mother's room.

The decoration is the same as before, except that the original hanging painting is gone, presumably it was my father who brought it to Luoyang.Sitting on the rocking chair for a while, my spirits became better and better.

Suddenly I remembered a poem, I don’t know where I heard it, but it had a profound impact.

With a slight smile, he sang from memory.

"The sun is dying, the flowers are full of smoke, and the moon is like a melancholy. Zhao Sechu stops the Phoenix Column, and the Shuqin wants to play the mandarin duck string..."

"This song is intended to be passed on by no one, and I would like to send it to Yan Ran with the spring breeze. Yi Yijun is far away from the blue sky..."

My throat was itchy, I couldn't help coughing a few times, and then continued singing.

"In the past, Hengbomu is now a fountain of tears. If you don't believe me, I will be heartbroken. Come back and take a look in front of the mirror."

There are so many twists and turns in my heart that even I can't see clearly.I vaguely saw a person in front of me, I smiled and went to call him, but he refused to look back and left without hesitation.

I didn't know when I fell asleep on the rocking chair. When I woke up, Minghui fell asleep on the table, and I was covered with a thin quilt.He opened the cup, only to realize that he was holding something in his hand.

Plum blossoms on a white background, filled with the imperial phoenix.

I didn't know when, this thing was brought with me.It is heavy, and it is not too cumbersome to carry on the body.

"Miss." Minghui rubbed her eyes, presumably to wake me up.

"Go back to your room and sleep," I smiled, "I'll just sit down and leave."

She answered and closed the door for me.

Looking down at the sachet in his hand, he stood up abruptly, feeling dizzy for a while.After standing still, he walked slowly to the window and stretched out his hand.I want to turn it over, but I can't bear it.After hesitating for an unknown amount of time, a thunderbolt suddenly flashed across the sky, and the sound was deafening.

Startled for a moment, he shrank his hands and dropped the sachet.

Suddenly panicked, ran out the door, came to the side of the room, there was a clump of flowers.After several thunderclaps, it began to rain.The autumn rain was icy cold, penetrating into the firm skin, and the whole person shivered as if soaked in ice water.

Pull the flowering grass and find it all the way in.Weeds have not been cleared for a long time, and the sharp sawtooth cut through the thin clothes, and even cut the skin because of walking too fast.The fine pain stretched on and on.Came to the window, leaned over and searched.Because I couldn't see clearly, it took me a lot of effort to find it.

The plain white silk has been stained with dirt and looks dirty.

The torrential rain hit him, and his head and face were in pain.But I still couldn't help bending the corners of my lips, and turned around, only to see Xingchen standing in the heavy rain and looking at me quietly.

The paper umbrella fell to the side, the night was too dark, I don't know her expression.It's just that for a while, even I didn't know what to do, so I just stood and looked at her.

Xingchen's shoulders trembled, her hair stuck to her face, her eyes were as dark as water.

"Xingchen" called her softly, but she still didn't move.

Minghui rushed over and shouted: "What's the matter?!" Seeing that I was in the middle of the flowers, she couldn't come in, so she waved her hands repeatedly: "Miss, come out quickly! I'm afraid it will be even worse if I get drenched again!"

I grinned and walked forward.Before the flowers came out, Minghui covered my head with an umbrella.Rebuked: "Miss, didn't you just go back to your room after talking about it? Why did you come here and get caught in the rain?! If I didn't come to see, I'm afraid I don't know what kind of illness will be tomorrow..."

She rambled on.

Xingchen looked at me sideways, expressionless.

Minghui finally sensed something was wrong: "This..."

"I thought you had already started to like you, Young Master," Xing Chen said, his voice was flat and calm.

He held the sachet tightly in his hand, and his whole arm trembled because of too much force.

"Xingchen" yelled these two words in a low voice, but couldn't answer anymore.What am I going to say?It is said that I have been tempted by Ah Yi, but in my heart, there is always a more important person?Said that I am willing to live with Ah Yi forever, but I can't give him all my love?

Xingchen suddenly smiled, "I have always liked you, but he only sees you. I envy you, but I never hold grudges. As long as you are happy, I am willing to die. But you are so unwilling Know how to cherish." There was a slight bitterness in her voice, and she raised her eyes suddenly, and there was only sentimentality in it.

"You fainted when you heard that the young master had an accident, and even vomited blood. You wanted to find him. I was so happy, I thought you were moved by the young master after all, and you were his wife wholeheartedly. But," she smiled suddenly: " But you still haven't been able to get rid of Shizi Yu."

I was also bitter in my heart, only to get: "It's not what you think."

"What's that like?" she asked back.

Minghui couldn't help frowning: "Pay attention to your identity, master and servant must be able to tell the difference."

I shook my head at Minghui, but she reluctantly kept silent.

"Xing Chen, Cheng Yu and I are just like Ah Yi to you. It's not so easy to forget."

"But you are not even willing to try," she was unmoved, "I will know the day Minghui sachet is brought. You hide it in your underwear and never leave your body for a moment."

I am silent.

I don't understand what Cheng Yu meant by sending Feng Jue here, and I don't dare to guess, but I can't let it go.Even if he treats me so badly, I still can't let it go.

Seeing that I didn't speak, Xingchen turned around and ran away without even picking up the umbrella at his feet.I panicked and yelled her name, but she refused to stop.Minghui pulled me back to my room and changed my clothes, then asked Mingye and Mingchen to take the servants who stayed behind to guard the house to look for stars.

After a night, there is still no news at all.

Suddenly and ill, I went down again that night.After being drowsy for an unknown period of time, Minghui's face was as pale as paper when she woke up again.

Seeing me open my eyes, joy appeared in her eyes, which made her face look better.

"Where are the stars?" She opened her lips, and a burst of tearing pain came.Can't help frowning, Minghui hastily took the handkerchief and water cup, dipped the water on my lips.

"No news yet."

I was worried, and she continued to comfort me: "Miss, don't worry, Mr. Sima has also sent someone to look for it, and there must be news soon."

Hearing that Sima Zuo also offered to help, he was relieved a lot.

Relaxed, and fell asleep again.

When he woke up again, there was a man sitting in front of him.Silver and white armor, with picturesque features.

I paused, stretched out my hand and rubbed my eyes vigorously, and kept saying, "Minghui, bring me a handkerchief to wipe my eyes."

There was a chuckle in his ear, which was terrifyingly real.

Gathering his mind, he opened his eyes again.A pair of peach blossom eyes fixedly stared at me with a slight smile in their eyes.

"My lord, the medicine is ready. I should serve you as a servant." Minghui's voice sounded outside the door. She was holding a wooden tray in her hand. Seeing me wake up, she cheered, quickened her pace, put the medicine on the table, and ran to the bed.

I said to her, "Is there any news about Xingchen?"

She was startled, and her brows darkened again: "Not yet." Then she smiled forcefully, "Miss, take the medicine first, and go to see her when she recovers."

I nodded, she brought the medicine over immediately, but barely stopped.

I followed her gaze, and Cheng Yu stretched out his hand towards her, motioning to hand the medicine into his hand.Minghui hesitated for a moment, but still compromised.With free hands, he helped me up and leaned against her.

Cheng Yu scooped up a spoonful of the medicine, blew it gently, and brought it to my lips.

I refused to drink and turned to look elsewhere, "Why are you here?"

Maybe he winked, Minghui put the pillow behind me, and asked me to get back.

"Mu Yun has issued a letter of surrender, and the war is over."

The medicine was a little closer, "Hey, drink your medicine well."

Laughing at himself: "My lord, I am Li Shilang's wife, please respect yourself."

He froze, and suddenly withdrew his hand.I think he might be mad at me, so he should walk away at this moment.

But in the next second, his face was infinitely enlarged in front of him, and he wanted to back away, but the back of his head was covered by a big palm, forcing me not to back down.As soon as his lips became hot, he pried open my white teeth with brute force, and the bitter medicine poured in instantly.

I frowned in pain and beat him desperately, but I have not recovered from a long illness, how can I resist him?
After being forced to swallow a mouthful of medicine, he let go of my lips and teased, "Do you want to drink it yourself or let me feed it?"

I was annoyed: "You get out!"

He raised his eyebrows, lifted the bowl and took a sip, then poured me the same amount as before.

The shame in my heart keeps spreading—Ayi’s life and death are uncertain, but now I am here with another man...

Tears welled up in her eyes, and she couldn't help sobbing.

Cheng Yu seemed to sigh, and folded his body and put the bowl back on the cabinet.Turning around and embracing me, said quietly: "Qing'er, I'm sorry."

Sorry?Can all the past be written off with a single sentence of sorry?

After finally holding back some discomfort, she raised her face and asked him, "Have you seen my husband?"

His eyes darkened in an instant, "I didn't see him. It's just..." After a slight pause, he still said, "Not long after the grain and grass troops left the checkpoint, they were ambushed by Mu Yun soldiers disguised as hiding in Daye. "Paused, word by word, "No one survived."

Look as usual, "I don't believe it."

Turn over to put on your shoes, take the clothes on the rack and put them on.

Cheng Yu frowned, stood up and stopped me: "You're still sick, don't be so willful." There was clearly helplessness in his tone.

I didn't turn my head back: "My husband's whereabouts are unknown, it's only natural for me to go find him." Suddenly I stopped, turned my head and said to him seriously: "As long as I don't see his body for a day, I won't believe."

He walked out quickly, but he didn't catch up.

When I walked into the garden, I couldn't help slowing down my pace. Minghui appeared from nowhere and followed me. "Miss, what should we do now?"

"When did Yu Shizi come?"

Minghui said: "The third day after Xingchen left, that is, two days ago."

I didn't expect that I fell asleep for so long.

"When the army returned to the court, they stationed outside the city. Yu Shizi somehow knew that Miss had returned to Fenghuang, and came to see you every day after the military camp finished handling official business." She explained in detail.

"What about the third prince?" Logically speaking, he knew that I was in Fenghuang, so he should come with me.

Minghui thought for a while, and said, "I heard that he was injured and it's inconvenient to go out. So he stayed in the camp all the time."

I waved my hand: "I came out to find my aunt, you should prepare well today, and we'll set off tomorrow morning."

She hesitated to speak, but in the end she could only agree.

He didn't go back to the house until Cheng Yu left, and went to sleep early in order to recharge his energy.

Waking up thirsty in the middle of the night, I got up and touched the table, and there happened to be a cup of residual food.He looked up and drank it without thinking about it.Drowsiness hit, and went back to bed to sleep.

"Qing'er...Qing'er..." The whispers continued.

Reluctantly opened his eyes, he saw a man in Tsing Yi sitting in front of the couch in a daze, with a warm smile.

Can't help but smile: "Ayi, you're back."

He nodded and stroked my face, "Why have you lost so much weight?"

I rubbed against him coquettishly, "You don't tell me where you go, I'm worried about you, if you can't eat, you will naturally lose weight."

Ah Yi smiled again, but the smile was slightly bitter.

"Qing'er" he called.

"Yeah." Looking up at him, a slight dimple appeared on her cheeks.

His expression suddenly became serious, calm but not allowing you to mistaken eyes: "Do you love me?"

"Ah", I was stunned, confused.I want to answer "love", but the word is stuck in my throat for some reason and I can't say it.After holding back for a long time, my face was flushed red, but I still couldn't say it.

He seemed to suddenly understand and smiled at me.Leaning over to kiss my cheek.

"Qing'er, I'm leaving, you have to take good care of yourself in the future." His eyes were blurred, like clouds and illusions.

I grabbed his skirt tightly: "Where are you going?"

This scene is very similar to the time when he was ill. I was desperate and wanted to keep him, but I couldn't.

He was unmoved.

Ji Qing'er.He suddenly called out in a low voice.He raised his face slightly, and there was a layer of mist in his eyes.

I love you.

...

Opening his eyes suddenly, he sat up in shock and gasped for breath.Looking around, the faint moonlight shone through the window, but there was no one there.

Subconsciously, he stroked the bed with his hands to support his fainting body, but the tentacles felt warm.

After being dazed for a moment, he immediately threw off the quilt and got out of bed, ran to the door and opened it.Not far away, there was a buzzing of insects, a chaotic sound.

"Ayi!" I yelled, and the sound echoed back and forth in the empty yard, making it even more lonely.

The heart was pulled, and the pain was so painful that I couldn't breathe.Tears fell like broken beads, blurring his vision.

That just now must not be a dream!

"Ayi, I know you are here! Come out!" He kept yelling like crazy, but there was no response.

"Ayi..." His chest felt tight, and a puff of turbid air rose.He coughed obediently, only to see scarlet liquid gushing out, staining his sight red.His feet went limp, and he slumped on the ground.

Keep crying: "Ayi, come out! Do you hate me..." Do you hate my hesitation just now, do you hate the response I couldn't give?
Long silent night, will you never see me again?
(End of this chapter)