your heaven, my hell

Chapter 2 Chapter 2 Every minute is a pain

The door to the ward was closed.

Jianan stood like this until the nurse came to make rounds in the morning.Seeing her standing aside in disheveled clothes, she was startled.

"Miss, are you alright?"

Jianan shook his head, casually took a father's coat from the closet and put it on, watching the nurse walk into the inner room.

She waited until the nurse came out again, her voice trembling: "Is he okay?"

"Very stable." The nurse glanced at her, and finally said, "Are you really all right, miss?"

"Did he sleep well last night?" Jianan asked in a panic.

"It's very stable, it's not awake yet. You can go in and have a look."

Jianan took half a step back, subconsciously shook his head, as if afraid that his father would see his embarrassed appearance.She went to the bathroom to rinse her face with cold water, then went downstairs to the parking lot to pick up the car.

Returning to his apartment, taking a shower, changing clothes, and coming out of the bathroom wet, Jianan saw several missed calls on his phone.

She anxiously called back, it was from Shen Rong, his voice was a little excited: "Miss, I just received a letter from Shao Xun. Judging from his meaning, it seems that he is willing to reconcile."

The boulder on the chest was slowly moved away, as if to isolate a large space for breathing, Jianan suppressed his beating heartbeat and asked, "What did he say?"

"He said that we can meet this afternoon first to discuss specific matters." Shen Rong said a little puzzled, "I don't know why, but his attitude has completely changed."

Jianan was silent for a while: "Then arrange a meeting as soon as possible."

The meeting in the afternoon went very smoothly. Shao Xun changed his confident appearance before, and restrained his previous aggressive tone. Keep silent about Xu Yanhai.Of course, the premise is that Xu Yanhai dilutes part of his own equity, so that the gap between Binhai's largest shareholder and the second largest shareholder becomes extremely small.

Jianan naturally knew that if there was another dispute, the situation would only be worse than this one.However, she could only firmly grasp this opportunity to relax herself.

It was dark by the time the meeting ended.

Jianan saw Shao Xun at the door of the conference room, the latter had a chubby smile on his face, and said kindly, "Is your father feeling better now?"

She also smiled impeccably: "It's much better."

After exchanging a few pleasantries, each got into the car, Jianan looked at himself with a smirk in the rearview mirror, and suddenly felt so strange.

"Where are you going now?"

The driver's words interrupted Jianan's thoughts, she recovered and remembered the address sent by Chen Suining's assistant in the morning.It took a long time to report the address slowly. During the evening rush hour after get off work, the car was stuck in traffic and drove a little slowly.Jianan leaned his head against the car window and woke up from sleep, only to realize that the driver had driven for an hour for a short distance.

She had seen the advertisement of this mansion in the streets and alleys of the city. The security work was extremely strict. She swiped the access control card to enter, and the elevator went to the top floor, and found that it was a single-family house.

Chen Suining did not give herself the key, she hesitated for a moment, and then pressed a string of numbers on the combination lock.

With a beep, the door opened.

Jianan was not surprised, the voice-activated lights turned on automatically, and the whole room was decorated simply, so it seemed empty.

She went straight to the master bedroom, opened the closet, and there were several sets of women's pajamas that had not been taken apart neatly inside.She flipped through it casually and found that the size was slightly smaller than her own.

When he was stunned, there was movement in the living room.

Jianan went out barefoot, and Chen Suining just entered the door, one hand was undoing his tie, when he saw her, he smiled approvingly: "Very good."

Jianan leaned against the door like this, but her eyes fell on the CD rack, which was full of Japanese girl music. She looked at it for a long time before saying, "Has anyone else lived here?"

Chen Suining casually threw the suit on the sofa, walked up to her, lowered his head and kissed her lips, and chuckled softly: "Jealous?"

Jianan smiled sarcastically: "Who?"

"An Qi." He told her indifferently, "but don't worry, she won't come again."

Jianan's face froze, he turned his face unconsciously, and his lips fell on her cheek.

Chen Suining's eyes suddenly became cold and serious, he clasped her chin with his fingers, and said coldly: "Xu Jianan, you'd better not show such a face to me - you have to know, you are no different from her."

Her heart seemed to be stabbed by something, and she lost consciousness in an instant.The central air conditioner blows the cold wind slowly, sweeping over the back of my neck, and goose bumps all over my body.

In this struggle, Jianan knew that he had no bargaining chip.

After a long time, she heard her own voice, which was very hollow: "Where's your wife? Don't you love her very much? Do you deserve her like this?"

Chen Suining let her go and smiled slightly: "That's right, so it's best to keep our relationship low-key, so as not to make her feel sad."

"Relationship?" Jianan bit his lip, looked into his sea-deep eyes, and smiled masochistically, "What's the relationship?"

"It doesn't matter what you call it." He let go of her and walked straight to the study, "Mistress?"

When he heard the last two words, Jianan clenched his fist vigorously, but finally couldn't let go. He only looked at his back, and felt that a certain part of his body seemed to be pierced, and blood dripped little by little.

"So...how long will I be here as a mistress?" She seemed to be asking herself, her voice low and inaudible.

But he actually heard it, looked back at her, with a bit of cruelty, smiled and said: "Until I get tired of it."

The door of the study clicked and closed.

In the huge house, Jianan felt cold, she turned and went to the bathroom, turned the water temperature to the highest level, stood under the shower, and remained motionless.The skin until the fingertips were soaked white, she came out of the bathroom wet, blow-dried her hair hastily, and lay down on the bed.In fact, there is no sleepiness, and the clock on the wall also shows that it is only ten o'clock in the evening.

Jianan turned off the light, forced himself to lie down, and closed his eyes heavily.

As time passed by, she became more and more sober.Until someone opened the door, and then a corner of the bed sank slightly.She subconsciously moved to one side.

Chen Suining did not lie down, but went around to her side again and bent down.

"Since I haven't fallen asleep, let's do something else?" He smiled softly, his cool fingers measured her waist, and slowly moved forward.

Jianan froze, she didn't dare to stop him, but said in a hoarse voice, "I don't want it today...I'm very tired."

He still slowly unbuttoned her pajamas, biting the side of her neck with his teeth: "Tired? You know... What price did I pay for helping you this time?" His movements stopped suddenly, Reaching out to turn on the bed light, he clasped her cheek firmly and said, "Xu Jianan, it's only a transaction if you buy or sell—now you know what to do?"

Jianan was lying like this, with his chin raised slightly, and his calm eyes reminded Chen Suining of two springs.As if she understood his words completely, she curled her lips and said in a low voice: "I see." Then she unbuttoned the pajamas one by one until a large piece of white skin was exposed.He narrowed his eyes slightly, and his eyes fell on the collarbone on her shoulder.At that time, what he thought was the most beautiful part of her was the unusually soft shoulder line, which was thin but not too thin, serene and beautiful.

Chen Suining leaned down in a gentle manner, and slowly branded his own marks on her shoulders.

And Jianan closed her eyes, knowing that he didn't like her frowning, so she tried to stretch her expression, as if she was enjoying the tenderness of the moment... In the quiet night, there was only the sound of each other's low gasps, enjoyment, or torture, is not that important anymore up.Until Jianan's cell phone rang suddenly.

She didn't want to care about it at first, but the voice was very persistent, and it rang for half a minute without any sign of stopping.

Chen Suining stopped his movements, stood up halfway, and brought the mobile phone over. He looked at the name, seemed to smile slightly, and threw the mobile phone on Jianan: "Go."

Jianan's body was covered in thin sweat, and she couldn't help shivering when touched by the cold metal shell, but the incoming caller ID woke her up completely.

This time, she didn't listen to him. Reflexively, she wanted to hang up the call.

However, Chen Suining seemed to know what she was thinking, pushed her hand away, pressed the call button for her, narrowed his eyes dangerously, and mouthed: "Go."

She looked up at him with an unusually cold profile.

Jianan looked away, had to control his breathing, and whispered, "Hello."

"I just heard that the other party reconciled with you?" Berlin's voice was somewhat relieved, "Great!"

She gave a "hmm" and wanted to stand up, but Chen Suining kissed her cheek very "considerately". The kiss moved down to her earlobe with terrifying skill.

She tried her best to avoid turning her head to make her voice sound more normal: "Thank... thank you."

"What's wrong with you? Not feeling well?"

Jianan couldn't speak any more. He closed the phone and slid the battery down. The phone clicked and fell to the ground.

And almost at the same time, a sharp light flashed across Chen Suining's eyes.

"What do you want from me?" Jianan said quietly, but her breathing became heavier and heavier, as if a kind of stored energy was exploding at an uncontrollable speed.

And Chen Suining half stood up, looking at her with interest: "Don't you think, since you're with me, you still have to contact other men... very disrespectful?"

She didn't know where she got the strength, so she pushed him away and got out of bed by herself, perhaps because of excitement, her calf knocked against the bedside table and staggered a bit.

Chen Suining suppressed his smile, and looked coldly at her falling figure on the ground.

Maybe it was because of the pain, or maybe she had lost all strength, Jianan just maintained that position, hugging her knees, shivering on the ground.From Chen Suining's perspective, she could see her slightly twitching shoulders and her desperately suppressed sobs.He pursed his lips tightly and sat up.

In fact, he has a lot of words to say now, insulting and ironic, each sentence will make her cry louder.But he was inexplicably silent, only looking at her back with deep eyes, then stood up and hugged her from behind.

Jianan didn't move, her voice was still sobbing, but she was obviously trying her best to control her emotions.

"I'll explain it to him."

Chen Suining didn't seem to hear her, he just carried her back to the bed, put on his robe, and walked to the balcony.

It was a hot summer night.In the reinforced concrete city, the voice of Cicada could not be heard, so he lit the cigarette at his fingertips and took a deep breath.

The clear smell of smoke lingers repeatedly in the throat until it penetrates into the internal organs.He had the urge to look back, there was only a clear glass between them.But he was standing with his back straight, but he didn't want to.

The city is like a world of mortals spread out in one color, dyeing the night extremely brightly.

Such a prosperous and prosperous world is under his feet, step by step, everything is in his palm... including the woman in the house - but he doesn't feel happy, far less than he imagined.

He even thought of a long time ago, when they first started, they were tired of being together all day long, but they were so much happier than they are now.

I don't know how long I stood there, a cigarette gradually burned to the end.He finally turned around, opened the door, and left the apartment.

Jianan was surprised, even though she was so desperate, she still fell asleep and woke up on time at 07:30 in the morning. As usual, she went to see her father before going to work.

Back at the hotel, everything was as usual, as if the previous disturbance had never happened.

Jianan worked until lunch break, when the secretary called and said that someone was looking for her.

She didn't expect that Berlin came to see her with a big bag of medicine.

As soon as they met, he reached out to touch her forehead, a little worried: "Are you sick? Why did you hang up the phone yesterday?"

Jianan subconsciously took half a step back, his hands were hanging in the air like this, and he smiled awkwardly.

Jianan lowered his head, deliberately not looking at his expression: "Thank you, I was too tired last night, I'm not sick."

What she was wearing today was not the hotel uniform, but a dark green turtleneck sleeveless top, which further accentuated her pointed jaw and her snow-white complexion.Berlin's eyes paused on her neck for a while, then suddenly sank.

No one spoke for a while, Jianan stroked his neck unnaturally, and said in a low voice: "Berlin, let's...see each other less in the future."

Berlin smiled, and his expression became more calm and gentle: "Why?"

She didn't have the courage to say such an unbearable reason, so she paused and said in a low voice: "It's nothing, it's not appropriate."

"Inappropriate?" He chewed the words, just looked at her fixedly, "Xu Jianan, what happened?"

Jianan was still smiling, but her eyes seemed to be a little loose. After a long time, she spoke very slowly: "Berlin, can you stop asking? I really only have a little thing left... pride, Dignity or something...can you leave some for me?"

She turned and left, walking at such a fast speed, as if she slowed down for a second, she could no longer restrain her emotions.

In the scorching sun of midsummer, Berlin stood in the foyer with a long shadow.Surrounded by people, he stood like this until he could no longer see her back.

Life is still like this.

The work is getting smoother and smoother, but there are no surprises or expectations.Jianan lived in that apartment every day, and sometimes Chen Suining would come back, but most of the time, he would still go home to accompany his wife.

Occasionally Jianan would sit on the bay window, looking at the city below her feet, remembering that when they were so in love, she just wanted to see him, every minute and every second.But now, she became afraid, afraid of seeing him, afraid that if she knew that he would come back half a day earlier, she would feel restless.When he was lying side by side with her, Jianan looked at him from the side, the outline of his side face was as sharp as a moment, and his breathing was steady, only at this moment, she would have the urge to run away from him , or hit something hard on his face—so that he...would never appear in front of him again.

But still not daring, Jianan quietly sat up, put on his coat, and walked into the living room.

The lights were not turned on in the room. She took a cup of hot water and sat quietly on the sofa in a daze.

How much I hated the dark before... Even when I was sleeping, I always had to turn on a light.But now, she prefers to hide in the dark more and more, holding her breath very low, so that no one will find herself... Moreover, her current identity seems to be only suitable for hiding in dark corners.

The summer sky brightened early, and it didn't take long for the thick dark blue color to gradually dilute.

The warm water in his hand had long since turned to room temperature, and Jianan was about to return to the bedroom, when he raised his head, a slender figure was leaning against the door, his gaze fell on her, as if they were silent with each other for a long, long time .

She smiled slightly: "You... are you up?"

Chen Suining walked up to her, lowered his head slightly, with no expression on his face: "You just sat like this all night?"

Jianan took half a step back, nodded first, then shook his head and said, "No, I'll come out to drink some water."

Chen Suining smiled, "If I remember correctly, there is a glass of water by your bed, right?"

Jianan was startled, avoided his gaze, took a deep breath, hugged his waist, and whispered: "It's still early, go to sleep for a while."

In fact, she wasn't sure it would work.However, Chen Suining's reaction made Jianan feel relieved, he didn't push her away, but put his hands on her waist loosely, and went back to the room together.

After lying down quietly, Jianan finally felt sleepy. She turned over and shrank to the side of the bed, but heard Chen Suining's voice: "Xu Jianan..."

"Ok?"

"You've been flattering me."

In his sleep, his voice fluctuated from far to near, Jianan didn't distinguish clearly, so he murmured, "What?"

But he didn't speak anymore, and stretched out his hand to hug her.

Jianan moved uneasily and fell asleep in a daze.

In the darkness, Chen Suining did not close his eyes again.She shrank into a very small ball in his arms, and buried her whole face in his chest, so...he couldn't see her expression clearly.

So he moved slightly, and dug out her small face from his chest.The morning light gradually came in from outside the window, and he saw the dark blue color in her eyes... In fact, she has been suffering from insomnia, and he can always feel it.

At that moment, as if being lightly touched by something, Chen Suining's heart suddenly slipped a bit astringent.How long has she not slept so deeply?
He didn't wake her up again, just moved lightly.Before leaving, he turned back into the bedroom and turned off the alarm clock.

After waking up from this awakening, Jianan looked at the electronic clock next to the bed, staring blankly at the time for a long, long time, almost thinking that he was dazzled.

Didn't she set the alarm clock?

However, he was already late and missed the most important regular meeting on Monday morning, so he simply called his assistant and slowly got up again.

The car drove all the way to the villa, avoiding the most dreadful rush hour on Monday. Jianan walked all the way to the office in a pair of high heels, just in time to bump into the secretary who raised his head from behind the computer and looked at her in astonishment.She knew she was in a bit of a mess at the moment, so she could only cough lightly, pretending not to care, and quickly returned to her office.

Sitting on the usual office chair, for some reason, Jianan just felt irritable, so he got up and turned on the air conditioner.

"Manager Xu... had an accident." The secretary came in with a panicked expression, "The security guard at the gate had an argument with someone, and someone was injured."

Jianan just felt incredible: "Is it a guest?"

"It's not...it's someone from the media. Without an appointment, the security guards won't let you in." The secretary was a little embarrassed, and deliberately avoided Jianan's gaze.

"...A celebrity has moved in again these few days?" Jianan rubbed his brows, a little confused.

"No." The secretary smiled bluntly, and suddenly said without thinking, "The newspaper is on your desk, you can read it yourself."

Jianan walked to the desk with some doubts, took a newspaper, and flipped through a few pages. Suddenly, it became difficult to breathe, and his body seemed to be frozen.

After a long time, the air conditioner gave her a headache before she reached for the phone on the table.

Her fingers were still trembling. Before dialing the first number, she quickly pressed it again and dialed a series of numbers again.

It was my father's personal nurse who answered the phone. She first asked, "Is Dad awake?"

"I woke up for a while in the morning, and now I fell asleep again. You know the situation of the husband, that's it, even if you wake up, you still feel a little unconscious."

In the past, she always felt disappointed when she heard this sentence, but only this time, Jianan breathed a sigh of relief, hung up the call, and dialed the first number instead.

The phone rang for a long time, but Chen Suining just played with it in his palm and didn't intend to pick it up.

Shu Ling pressed the forehead with a headache: "If you want to answer, you can answer it, if you don't want to answer it, then hang up. What do you mean?"

"Did it bother you?" He hung up the phone as if he had just woken up from a dream, and smiled slightly.

"You really know how to torture people." Shu Ling sighed, raised his eyebrows and looked at him.

Chen Suining tapped the table lightly with his fingertips, and said slowly, "I'm sorry."

"Huh?" Shu Ling was flipping through a huge physics reference book in her hand boredly. Now that she has cut her hair short and because of her pregnancy, the lines on her face are much rounder, making her look very amiable.

"Don't go out these few days." He thought for a while and said, "And your father, go and explain, so that he doesn't lose his temper again." His expression was thoughtful, and he ordered each word .

"What?" Shu Ling threw the book aside, pointed to those magazines and newspapers, "Didn't... you did it?"

Chen Suining pursed the corners of his lips, but did not answer, only said: "I'm going out for a while."

Chen Suining pushed open the door of Xu Jianan's office, seeing her stunned expression, couldn't help but smile.

She came back to her senses, walked behind him with an almost livid face, closed the door heavily, and threw the "Beijing Weekly" in front of him: "What is this?"

The title is "Chen Suining steals food, rekindles old love and old love".

The candid photos of the paparazzi are top-notch. There are two sets of photos: one is Xu Jianan and Chen Suining going in and out of the apartment, and the other is pregnant Shu Ling going home alone.The facts are all there, and the pictures and texts are rich, and Xu Jianan's identity as the third party is undoubtedly revealed.

He sat down calmly, as if he didn't bother to read such a gossip magazine, he just said, "I'm also very surprised."

Jianan sneered: "Accident? For you, Chen Suining, are there any accidents in this world?"

The sun was shining outside the window, but it seemed to be sucked into his deep gaze, which was bottomless. He looked up at her, wondering what he was thinking, and after a long time, he said in a low voice: "A lot."

There seemed to be some other meanings in his words, but at the moment Jianan didn't distinguish it, she just stared into his eyes and said word by word: "What good will you gain by doing this?"

Chen Suining slightly curled the corners of his lips, smiling slightly, without refuting, but there was no warmth in his eyes.

"Xu Jianan, in our agreement, did it mention that both parties must keep this matter a secret?" He asked her leisurely.

Jianan stared at him blankly, speechless for a moment.

"Look, in this way, everyone who should know will know, and some troubles will be avoided." He raised his jaw and smiled as if he was persuasive.

Jianan thought for a long time, and seemed to understand who that person was referring to, his face turned pale in an instant, and he whispered, "So, it's really you?"

Chen Suining didn't admit it, but he didn't deny it either.

"Who do you want to know?" Her voice gradually became hoarse.

"You and I know it well."

Jianan only felt that her legs were weak, she looked at him fixedly, the color of her eyes changed for a long time, and finally she smiled softly: "You...why do you force me to hate you more and more?"

This is the first time she has said the word "hate" so directly to him, and he also fell silent, the blackness in his eyes getting thicker and thicker.

"You don't think...that I keep you by my side because I don't want to part with you?" Chen Suining said coldly, "Xu Jianan, then you think too highly of yourself—I said it earlier, but I just didn't play enough. Seriously , Every time you react, it makes me feel funny."

Jianan lowered her long eyelashes, and her breathing was a little disordered. She had to calm down for a long time before she said slowly: "Okay, now the whole world knows that I am your mistress. What's next, what else?"

Supporting his chin with his slender fingers, he said lightly, "Pick it up."

Like a puppet, she walked to the scattered magazine, squatted down, and picked it up page by page.

Because she was wearing a very close-fitting white shirt and a knee-length skirt, when she bent down, she revealed a slender waistline, and the originally docile shirt was also lifted forward, which reminded Chen Suining that he had seen her in a hotel suite, almost The same movement made his heart flutter.

Before Xu Jianan could react, he had already hugged her from behind, clasping his palms around her waist - the skin there touched a scorching heat, the temperature of his palm.

She was ashamed and angry, but she didn't dare to move - she knew his habits too well, the more she struggled and resisted, the more he enjoyed it.So he simply remained motionless, allowing his cool fingers to slowly move down along the arc of the back of the waist, until they touched the inside of the skirt.Slowly exerting force with his arms, he turned her body around, so that she was close to him.The other hand stroked her long hair, and lowered her head to touch her lips.

Jianan raised his head, looking at his straight nose, and his black eyes that were getting closer.

He stopped not even an inch away from her lips, and said in a soft and seductive voice, "Come with me to a place."

Jianan sneered in his heart, could she refuse?So just silence.

Chen Suining seemed to restrain his movements, and only kissed her gently on the tip of her nose: "I'll give you two hours to prepare."

The driver took Jianan back to the apartment, and Chen Suining didn't come back until halfway through packing.Jianan was putting the mobile phone charger into the suitcase, but he heard a male voice behind him saying casually, "You don't need to bring your mobile phone."

He reached out and threw the bundle of wires aside.

His palm brushed against her arm and touched her skin. He felt that her whole body was icy cold. His fingers paused slightly, his brows were slightly wrinkled, and he reiterated: "It's just as good as clothes and people."

Jianan pulled out his hand calmly, but raised his eyebrows slightly: "I need to know about Dad's situation."

The corners of Chen Suining's lips curled up, and his face suddenly sank.

Jianan's eyes fell on the tangle of mobile phone wires on the snow-white bed sheet, and she smiled softly: "Oh, it's okay... There is nothing in this world that you don't know." She didn't even speak anymore, just being kind Clean up again, take out the computer, mobile phone and even MP3.

There was only the hissing sound of the air conditioner in the room. She seemed to have no desire to speak at all, but Chen Suining still stood where she was, with the corners of her lips twitching: "Don't you have a camera?"

She didn't look up: "I didn't bring it with me."

"What? Don't like taking pictures anymore?"

But Jianan's subordinates slowed down, raised their eyes to look at him, and smiled slightly, "We are like this now...do we still need to bring a camera?"

She just swallowed the last sentence with a smile. That's right, the former self liked to take pictures and took him to take selfies... But now, with the devastated situation, what else is there to cherish?

Chen Suining pursed his lips tightly, his dark eyes couldn't discern any emotion, and he only turned his face slightly sideways.

Summer clothes are easy to change and wash, and they brought light ones. They got off the elevator together and entered the underground garage.Jianan looked around reflexively—it was here that they were secretly photographed by tabloids.He was carrying the luggage, probably noticed her expression, and slowly slowed down.

Jianan walked around to the other side of the car and was about to get in the car when he heard Chen Suining's deep voice: "What are you afraid of?"

She put her hand on the car door, paused, and sat in without saying a word.

What is she afraid of?
In fact, she is not afraid of anything now, she... only became so afraid because she cared about her father.

Chen Suining drove to the north of the city.Jianan was silent all the way, never asking where they were going, and he didn't say anything, just put on his sunglasses and focused on driving.

The drive was two hours or three hours, she didn't remember very clearly, only that the road became narrower and more rugged, and after turning over several hills, he finally stopped the car.Jianan followed him out of the car and stood under the quaint archway. The summer evening wind gently blew through the tips of his hair, bringing the coolness that is hard to enjoy in the city.

Chen Suining was very familiar with everything around him, and walked into the ancient town along the bluestone path.

Jianan has been to many small towns, most of them are full of commercial atmosphere, with uniformly decorated wooden doors and red lanterns, but it makes people feel so similar that it is boring, not like the small road here It is paved with stone slabs covered with moss. There are many shops open on both sides of the road. Most of them don’t even have aluminum alloy doors and windows. There are only door panels that are imprinted with time and look like they are about to decay, piled up in twos and threes on the door. side.

This place seems to have an indescribable, quiet magic power, which makes people immerse themselves, and then immerse themselves until... many things outside of the body are forgotten.

They turned around the town three times until they stood in front of a courtyard.

Chen Suining knocked on the door.

When the wooden door opened, there was a creaking sound. A 60-year-old lady poked her head out and looked around suspiciously.Seeing Chen Suining, he immediately smiled: "It's Xiao Chen? Are you still talking about whether you will come this year...Come in!"

Chen Suining rarely smiled very warmly and kindly, and turned his side to signal Jianan to go in first.

The old lady took Jianan's hand very enthusiastically, looked her up and down, and smiled: "This girl is so pretty—is she your girlfriend?" She looked back at Chen Suining again, with a happy expression on her face, "The last time I said you When I come next time, I should bring my daughter-in-law, and I really did."

Chen Suining smiled gently, without any excuse, he just said: "Yes, I'm married."

Jianan's expression froze.

The old lady became more and more happy, and she turned her head and shouted loudly: "Old man, there are guests!"

This is a small courtyard with two entrances.The aunt brought two cups of tea and said, "The old man is tidying up the room. Wait a moment and we will have dinner together later." After she finished speaking, she went upstairs to help.

Two cups of herbal tea were placed on the table of the Eight Immortals. They were brewed in enamel jars and had a refreshing taste of traditional Chinese medicine.Chen Suining picked up a cup, took a sip, and said, "This is a family hotel, run by an old couple."

She glanced at him lightly, not surprised that he would find such a place.

The tea is brewed from honeysuckle, with a slight sweetness and an indistinguishable bitterness, it is very delicious.Because he felt thirsty along the way, Jianan drank half a cup, gurgling, feeling refreshed, Chen Suining put down the cup in his hand, looked at her with interest, with a rare gentle smile on his lips.

The old couple came down and wanted to help carry the luggage up, but Chen Suining naturally refused with a smile, and carried it upstairs by himself, leaving Jianan and Da Ma behind.Jianan asked casually, "Auntie, is there a bathroom in the room?"

"Oh, that's right." The aunt said a little apologetically, "The water pipes have been rebuilt in the past few days. I'll take you to the bathroom in a while, it's just around the corner of the street."

They were stepping on the wooden stairs, Jianan's footsteps paused, and when he looked up, he saw Chen Suining turning his head to look at himself, obviously hearing the conversation between himself and the aunt.

There was a faint light in his eyes, and the meaning was very obvious, as if he was provoking her - as if he knew that she would be dissatisfied or coquettish because of it.

Jianan only turned his face away and nodded.

"It's enough for a man to wash it with cold water in the yard." The aunt said with a smile.

Jianan subconsciously looked at the small courtyard through the window, then turned his face away as if nothing had happened, as if in response to his previous gaze, and smiled meaningfully - imagine him taking a shower in such a simple place, Jianan finally laughed viciously in his heart.

Xu Jianan was indeed going to a public bath for the first time.

A little fresh, but more nervous.

Perhaps because of the summer, few people came to take a bath, and there were not many people in the dressing room, so I didn't see the imaginary "white flower" body.She felt like a thief, she carried the washbasin and a change of clothes, hurried into the cubicle, finished rinsing as fast as she could, and came out dangling her slippers.

The aunt was waiting for her at the door, and the two chatted as they walked: "Are you hungry? We'll have dinner when we get back. Xiao Chen likes fried bacon the most. You can try it later."

Jianan brushed his wet hair behind his ears, agreed, hesitated for a moment, and finally couldn't help asking: "Does he come here often?"

"Two or three times a year."

"What is he doing here?"

"Don't people in the city call this a vacation? Drink tea, go fishing, and eat farm food."

Jianan was silent for a while, only thinking that Chen Suining like this was a bit weird... They were once so close, but she never knew he had such a vacation habit.

The plastic slippers stepped on the bluestone slab, kicking, just in time to welcome a group of children from school, chirping, and the originally deserted path immediately seemed to be full of life.She thought about her own thoughts all the way, until she returned to the small courtyard and opened the door, she was startled.

At this moment, the sun was setting, and the bluestone slabs in the yard were wet, and plastic water basins were thrown casually, while Chen Suining turned his back to him, with his upper body naked, looking like he had just taken a shower.The sun slanted from the side, turning his skin into an almost dark bronze color. A pair of cotton white trousers were loosely wrapped around his lean and muscular waist. When he turned his head and saw Jianan, his expression was startled.

Jianan didn't even dry his hair, and was wearing a simple gray linen dress, like an ordinary girl next door, with bright eyes, looking at him with a hint of surprise.

A faint smile suddenly flashed in his eyes, but he hid his expression again, just walked into the room and put on a T-shirt.

Jianan stood in the courtyard, but looked away a little unnaturally, until the owner of the house announced: "It's time to eat."

There are not many dishes on the old Eight Immortals table. Stir-fried bacon with green peppers, vegetarian chicken with pickled vegetables, winter melon and dried shrimp soup, everything is very good for rice.Jianan bowed his head to eat, while Chen Suining chatted with the old man while eating.When the owner talked about his son and daughter who went out to work, he leaned slightly and listened very intently.

Jianan looked up, just in time to see the gentle smile on his lips, she was a little surprised for a moment, she just felt that this kind of Chen Suining was very strange - the Chen Suining she knew had always listened to the work reports of his subordinates coldly.She once heard him scolding the secretary because he missed the point in the first 20 seconds of his report-but this person is now listening to the old man complain about the rising price of vegetables, and he interjects appropriately and at the right time.If such a scene were seen by his elites, would they be so surprised that their jaws would fall off?
"...Okay, let's play chess after eating." Chen Suining said with a smile, turning to see Jianan's extremely surprised expression, a teasing yet relaxed smile appeared in his dark eyes.

After the meal, a chess game was set up on the table, while Jianan watched TV with his aunt.

In fact, the moment the TV was turned on, Jianan felt a tremor in his heart. The storm he experienced in the morning was still vivid in his memory, but he was dragged into the mountains in the afternoon, as if everything was cut off.In this era, after all, with such a developed media, the outside world will not stop functioning because of his hiding.

The first channel that popped up was a gossip column. If Jianan remembers correctly, it was a program dedicated to exposing the privacy of celebrities. At the moment, it was chattering about the scandal of popular artistes taking drugs. Until the end, there was no one. Words that make your heart skip a beat.She couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief, calmed down slightly, and focused on the dog blood series at eight o'clock.

And not far away, Chen Suining was waiting for the old man to settle down, but his eyes inadvertently swept across her side face, catching that relaxed look, and lightly tapped his fingers on the table, in this night , the sound is exceptionally clear.

"You need to concentrate on playing chess!" The old man glanced at Chen Suining and smiled, "Thinking about your wife?"

He came back to his senses, only smiled, and calmly let go of the second son.

The TV series that my aunt watches every day is really startling and fascinating, "Xiao Xu, you look a bit like this heroine." When there was an advertisement in the middle, the aunt suddenly looked up and down Jianan and said.

Jianan was startled, but he didn't say a word, with his hands on his shoulders behind him, Chen Suining's voice answered for her: "It's a bit similar."

She didn't turn her head and didn't speak, the aunt quickly stood up to get another chair, and Chen Suining sat down beside her.

The TV happened to be a close-up of An Qi's front face, her slightly raised lips, her straight nose, and her extremely beautiful face. Jianan only felt that it was shocking, so he lowered his gaze.

"What? Don't dare to look?" His voice was so low that only each other could hear.

His eyes were slightly mocking, and he looked at Jianan jokingly, but she just smiled and blurted out: "Why don't you dare to look? I know it makes no difference to you. What you gave is really nothing if An Qi leaves you." No. Mr. Chen is so rich, I don't know what you will give me when I leave? "

It was the first time she spoke to him so heartily - there was only one deal left between them, what else could they not say?

Of course she also knew that such words would not have the slightest destructive power to Chen Suining. This man is too deep in the city, so how could he be hurt by his own words casually?Perhaps... the quickness of the tongue at this moment will cause me to suffer more.

But this time, Jianan unexpectedly saw a trace of obvious anger in his eyes.Fortunately, the old man arranged the second game and called him over again.Jianan rubbed his brows tiredly, greeted his aunt, and went straight to the bedroom to rest.Looking at her leaving back, Chen Suining pursed his lips, his face gloomy.

This room doesn't even have air conditioning, just because it's in the middle of the mountains, it's only quiet and cool at night.Jianan sat on the bed for a while, there was a damp smell in the air, and it was lightly contaminated with the bitter smell of mosquito coils, and the thin wind penetrated into every corner of the room.Ethereal, quiet, giving birth to a trance unreality.

The sound of footsteps came from the stairs, as if someone had shattered the beauty just now, Jianan reached for a thin blanket, quickly wrapped himself up, and shrank in the corner of the bed.

Chen Suining's footsteps were not heavy, but when he sat down by the bed, the old bed board creaked after all.He reached out to turn off the light, carefully stuffed the mosquito net under the bamboo mat, and then slowly lay down.

The window was half open, and the moonlight poured in quietly. With his back to her, he could smell a very nice fragrance very clearly.It's not shampoo or shower gel, the soft smell, a little bit into this space, fills all the gaps.

In the end, he couldn't help it anymore, turned his body sideways, and Chen Suining's arm moved slightly.

At this moment, Jianan didn't pay attention to what the man behind him was thinking, the bamboo mat was very cool, and the breeze took away the heat completely, she curled up her body smaller and smaller, like a shrimp, only holding her back The back is exposed to the man behind him.He seemed to have noticed something, and asked in a low voice: "Are you cold?" Before he finished speaking, he had already reached out and hugged her into his arms.

Jianan's body stiffened, his breath sprayed hot on the side of her neck, and her back pressed against his chest, warm and firm, an irresistible temptation for her at the moment.But she didn't dare to rely too much, the anger just now... If he still hasn't subsided, she was very afraid that he would torture her in another way, so Jianan subconsciously avoided, while answering him in a low voice :"I am very tired."

He clasped her waist with his hand, was silent for a while, then hugged her back with a little force, and then said lightly: "En."

The angle at which the moonlight shines into the window slowly moves from the easternmost corner of the room to the mid-heaven, as if covering everything in a white and soft silk.Jianan fell asleep in a daze, but the eyes of the young man behind him became brighter and brighter, terribly awake.

He never let her go, because she fell asleep obediently, so he simply got closer, leaning his chin on her shoulder blades, and slowly closed his eyes.

It's so strange... He couldn't help thinking, why he still couldn't let go... It's not like he hasn't tried to meet other women, such as Angie, or those women who can't even remember their names - they can get along with Sometimes, he can isolate his emotions soberly and detachedly, look at those people coldly, and easily read the desires or ambitions hidden under those beautiful faces.

Only his little daughter, who is strangely clear to the bottom, was like this when she loved him before.And now, it's not like he didn't notice the hatred she gradually accumulated but suppressed... It was like a dark flame, slowly burning, and maybe one day, it would engulf both of them.

As he was thinking like this without thinking, Jianan's body suddenly moved, apparently in a deep sleep, and turned over again, just in time to put his face on his chest.The soft breath passed by softly.

In the darkness, what Chen Suining himself didn't realize was that it was his arms that had never been let go, and his mood that suddenly calmed down.

This was the night Xu Jianan slept most peacefully since his father fell ill and was sent to the hospital. He had no dreams until dawn.A little confused and opened his eyes, he didn't know where he was for a while.

The sunlight outside the window fell in very gently, but she was the only one lying on the old wooden bed. She got up slowly, and after washing, the old couple had already prepared breakfast—a very fragrant and thick white porridge , pickled cabbage, rose bean curd.

Jianan had just sat down, and before he could speak, he heard his aunt say enthusiastically, "Xiao Chen got up very early, the air is good in the morning, let's go to the town for a walk."

She buried her head in the porridge, she didn't care where Chen Suining went, she just smiled perfunctorily: "Oh."

Today's weather is much cooler than yesterday's. After breakfast, Jianan said hello to the old couple before going out.

"Do you want to go together after Xiao Chen comes back?" The aunt handed her a bottle of water, and asked hesitantly, "You don't know this neighborhood yet, do you?"

"I'll just take a walk on the street and I'll be back soon." Jianan didn't take it seriously, responded to the other party's kindness with a smile, and went out alone.

With green mountains and green waters, shrouded in mist, Jianan wandered aimlessly in the street alone, and before he knew it, he left the town and walked east.

In fact, there are many people gathered at the foot of the mountain. Jianan went up to inquire, and it turns out that this place is about to be developed into a scenic spot, and the construction has just started these few days.

"Here, you just go up this mountain road, and then go down." An uncle smiled and showed Jianan the way, "After a while, there will be a toll here."

Jianan then walked up that path, perhaps because of being wet by the morning mist, the soil on the ground was soft and mottled, no matter how reluctant he was when Chen Suining brought him yesterday, Jianan had to admit , he did find a paradise away from the hustle and bustle.

Halfway through the mountain road, I realized that although this narrow path is not difficult to walk, it is winding and tossing. At this moment, when I looked back, I couldn't see the way I came from.Hearing from the uncle at the foot of the mountain, this mountain is not steep at all, and if you can climb to the middle of the mountain, the scenery will be even more pleasant, so Jianan still decided to go forward.

Going further and further away from the way we came from, the scenery is really interesting, and sometimes we will rush out of a goat raised by a family in the mountains.After noon, the rain began to fall again, soaking the entire mountain, exuding a rare comfort in summer.At first, it felt cool and cool, until the rain became heavier and did not slow down at all, Jianan finally found a dilapidated tile house and took refuge in it.

When Chen Suining came back, it was nearly three o'clock in the afternoon, and the old lady asked in surprise, "Did you come back together?"

"Where did she go?" He paused.

I kept asking until it was nearly five o'clock before someone mentioned that they seemed to have seen a girl climbing Dongshan alone.

"Haven't you come down yet?" The man wiped the sweat from his face, looked at the rain that never stopped and said, "Then we have to look for it. The road is being built over there, and there are everyone."

Together with the locals, Chen Suining went to Dongshan to find someone while it was still dark.His face was ashen, and he walked faster and faster on the mountain road, but he was not left behind by the locals who were used to climbing the mountain road.It's just that Dongshan is too big, and the twilight is gradually falling, and she can't be seen at all.

The sky and the earth are vast, apart from the pattering rain, there are also unknown wild animal cries, which come from far away from the mountains.After searching in the rain for more than two hours, Chen Suining's complexion became worse and worse. Someone approached and said loudly, "Why don't you go back and have a look? Maybe she has already gone home?"

However, Chen Suining did not listen to anyone's dissuasion, and continued to walk on alone, but his heart became more and more anxious, and there was a slight disturbance in his heart, and he always felt that it was a shaking figure.

The sky is getting darker and darker, and the time is passing by. It turns out that it is possible to completely lose a person's audio in this way.He was starting to regret bringing her to this place—if she had avoided the news, he would have had more options.The rain was getting heavier and heavier, and the thin poncho was no longer able to block the growing wind and rain. When he walked along a path, he heard a slight cough.

The search in the middle of the night disappointed him many times. This time, he stopped, held his breath, and ruthlessly pushed aside the bushes next to him: "Who is there?"

It was a thin figure, squatting in the grass in a more embarrassing situation than him because he didn't have any rain gear, his long hair was sticking to his body wetly.

Xu Jianan.

He breathed a sigh of relief in his heart, but his face became more and more serious. He strode over, grabbed Jianan's arm, and said hoarsely, "Where did you go?"

Jianan's eyes were alert and sharp, perhaps because of the cold, his voice was trembling, but he tried his best to hold himself: "I'm lost."

He didn't know whether he was angry at each other's embarrassment at the moment, or because of her trembling, but he couldn't speak, he just snorted coldly, and put his raincoat on her body.

"I'm sorry." Jianan sneezed, "I'm sorry..."

In my memory, she is so afraid of the dark. If it was in the past, she must be tired of being in her arms, blaming myself for finding her so late... instead of saying "I'm sorry" over and over again like now.Staring eyes narrowed slightly, Chen Suining turned around and left, as if he was afraid that when facing each other like this, he would reveal a little bit of disappointment.

Dongshan's topography is very strange. There are huge ravines circle after circle, often bypassing one level, and facing another level.For a girl whose sense of direction is not outstanding, it is indeed easy to get lost.In the darkness, he took Jianan's hand and led her back, but her hand was always clenched into a fist. Rather than saying that she was "held" by him, it would be better to say that his palm closed Her fist, and she never stretched it out.

After walking down for nearly half an hour, I could finally see the dots of lights at the foot of the mountain. In the rainy night, it was like an ink and wash mountain scene separated by a bead curtain.Xu Jianan's footsteps were getting slower and slower, and his figure was a little staggering.

He stopped, wiped the rain from his face, and looked at her with raised eyebrows coldly: "Can't you walk?"

Jianan forced a smile: "No."

Chen Suining pursed his lips, and said lightly, "You'd better be quiet and don't cause such trouble again."

She avoided his gaze and gave a simple "hmm".

Walking back to the small courtyard where they lived, it was already early in the morning, and the old couple was still waiting anxiously. Seeing the two people in a panic, they were relieved.Jianan broke away from his hand, sat down in the hall, gritted his teeth and touched his feet.The aunt's sharp eyes saw her swollen ankle like a steamed bun, and said "Oops", and said distressedly, "How did you make it like this?"

She looked at the aunt who hurriedly found the traumatic medicine with some embarrassment, and thanked her repeatedly.Chen Suining stood aside with his hands behind his back, his face getting more and more ugly.The old man took a clean new towel, handed it to him, and urged, "Go and wipe your wife's hair." He took it, walked to Jianan, and slowly touched her hair.

There was a burning and swelling sensation in the ankle, and Jianan tried his best to endure it all the way, but in fact, he felt numb after the pain at the end.But when he approached, and the soft and dry scarf was rubbing against her hair, she subconsciously dodged to one side.

However, Chen Suining seemed to have anticipated her movement, reached out to touch her cheek, and still wiped her hair gently.The smell of medicinal wine was very pungent, and they remained silent until the aunt packed up and left. He asked blankly, "I sprained my ankle, why didn't you tell me?"

Jianan's voice was very low, and he couldn't hear any emotion: "It doesn't hurt."

In the middle of the night, the hall was so quiet that there was only the sound of each other's breathing. He looked at her expression carefully under the orange light, and finally curled his lips: "Xu Jianan, you are humiliating yourself."

A few drops of light suddenly splashed in Jianan's originally calm eyes, her lips moved slightly, as if she wanted to say something, but she quickly calmed down, as if she just wanted to tell him three words: "It doesn't matter ".

It doesn't matter what he thinks or what he does.

The wood is done.

That's it.

He finally threw the towel aside and said sharply, "Xu Jianan!"

Xu Jianan just supported the table and stood up, raised his eyebrows, and smiled slightly: "Then why do you still come to me?"

Her eyebrows were infinitely tired, and without waiting for his answer, she just limped around and walked towards the stairs.

The night dragged her back for a long time, and the stairs were high and steep. Every time she took a step, her ankle that had just been dosed with the medicinal wine felt a heart-rending pain.Jianan supported the strength of both hands on the handrails, walked slowly but focused, unaware that there was a pair of deep and bright eyes behind him.

In the end, she sat on the bed covered in sweat, changed her clothes, and huddled in the thin blanket. Jianan closed her eyes, but remembered getting lost in the mountains during the day: she didn't feel so scared.It seems to be going around and around along the mountain road like this, and I can't get out like this, which is also very good.At least in this world, there will be no burdens that you can't bear but you must shoulder, and there will be no strange gazes imposed on you by others - most importantly, there will be no man who makes you love and hate entangled .

The moment he picked the bushes away, she didn't feel the joy of being rescued. Instead, her heart sank leisurely, as if she was about to face a nightmare that she didn't want to immerse in. She hid for a long time, but she was still caught. found it.

There was a moderate sound beside the bed, and Chen Suining's voice coldly woke her up from her own thoughts: "Get up."

She opened her eyes, and there was a bowl of steaming soup on the table.

"Ginger soup." He said simply, paused, and added, "Auntie cooked it for you."

Jianan sat up, reached for the enamel cup, poured the hot ginger soup and brown sugar water down without a word, and lay down silently with long eyelashes drooping.

There was a creaking sound from the wooden bed board, and Jianan moved in, and heard him say: "Before you want to die next time, think clearly, you are not alone."

His tone was not consoling, but rather a threatening threat.Jianan smiled, and spoke quietly, with a clear and soft voice: "Chen Suining, I don't want to die." She paused, turned around, put her arm on his neck, and slowly bent down until her lips touched him. On his chest, he said in a low voice: "Aren't you tired of playing? How dare I die before you get tired of it?"

There was no moonlight or light, they were so close, Chen Suining seemed to be able to recognize her soft smile and deliberate pandering from her warm breath at the moment.

The soft lips were already attached to her chest, and they were moving up little by little. Her hair, with a nice moist feeling, wrapped him little by little.He frowned unknowingly, but he did not refuse her invitation. He stretched out his arms, pulled her into his arms, pressed her under his body, touched the center of her brow with his thin lips, and whispered, "Why? This is In return for going to you today?"

"Probably." Jianan raised his head, wrapped his arms around his neck, touched his lips, and bit down gently.

There seemed to be an aroma of brown sugar in his breath, he quickly reacted, reached out and clasped the back of her head, and kissed her back heavily.

After all, the clothes were still falling off one by one, and their bodies were slightly cold until they entangled each other.

"Chen Suining..." She gasped when he entered her body, "What if one day... we die together?"

He paused, raised the corners of his lips, and smiled: "What do you think?"

She frowned, bit her lip hard, suddenly smiled relievedly, and said in a low voice, "Will you go to hell?"

He buried his face in her chest, slowly raised his head, bit her earlobe, and blew out a warm breath that almost made people tremble: "Little girl, I assure you, even if I want to go to hell... I won't..." Let you go."

Jianan woke up the next day, and Chen Suining was leaning against the window, flicking the phone thoughtfully, but his eyes were neither far nor near, and fell on himself.She suddenly woke up with a jerk, sat up, and asked hoarsely, "Did something happen to my father?"

He walked over slowly, sat down on the edge of the bed, his eyes fell on her bare shoulders, which were still covered with marks from last night's pleasure, his fingers gently stroked up, up, and finally stopped on her neck Come down—press the blue blood vessels under the fingertips, and feel the warm blood flowing underneath.

"Your father is fine." He smiled shortly, "It's Shu Ling, who just entered the delivery room."

"You're not going back?" Jianan raised his eyebrows and breathed a sigh of relief.

"Hmm." He was carelessly wrapping his fingers around her long hair, but when he saw her relieved expression, his eyes darkened slightly, and his fingertips unconsciously increased his strength, "I'll go back at night."

Jianan didn't know what to think of, suddenly smiled, avoided his contact, and said softly: "Chen Suining, I believe it now, you really don't care."

He glanced at her with interest: "You didn't know until now?"

"Is it a son or a daughter?" Jianan was silent for a while, then smiled and continued to ask him.

He leaned against the edge of the bed with her, slightly closed his eyes: "I don't know."

After yesterday's rain, it seemed that the midsummer had passed, and the wind outside the window was also cool. She bent her knees, put her chin on it, and said slowly, "Many children, one less child, actually, for you, It makes no difference, does it?"

His eyes sharpened slightly: "What do you want to say?"

"It's nothing." Jianan laughed, reaching for the clothes beside the bed, "Ask casually."

She leaned forward, revealing the fair and tender skin on her back. Chen Suining's eyes suddenly became as deep as ink, and he said in a deep voice, "What do you mean by missing a child?"

She paused when she was reaching for the clothes, then she looked back and smiled at him, a little charm appeared on her small and white face, but her tone was natural and calm, as if it was not a big deal: "I once had your children. But I suppose . . . you don't care."

He was stunned for a moment, his handsome face was truly expressionless.After a long time, he suddenly reached out his hand, grabbed her arm firmly, and said sharply, "When?"

"Hmm... have you forgotten the day you got married? I begged you in that car, saying that my stomach hurts." Jianan tried to earn money but couldn't, so he lazily let him go, "Thank you You're still willing to have someone take me to the hospital—otherwise, you won't even be able to see me now."

His pupils narrowed in relief, he let go of her arm fiercely, clasped her chin instead, and lifted it up forcefully: "Xu Jianan, you better not be lying to me."

Jianan wanted to laugh, but because he held his jaw, he couldn't even move his muscles: "Are you angry... you didn't kill this child yourself, so you are unhappy?"

He just looked at her, as if he didn't hear what she said, his face became more and more livid: "How can you have a child?"

Jianan only felt that his jaw was about to split from the pain, but he still kept his smile, and just blinked innocently: "I know you have taken measures—it's just because I was stupid and naive at that time, and wanted to give it to you quietly. You were pleasantly surprised, so you made some tricks, but you never found out."

Chen Suining's handsome face seemed to be carved out of marble, and there was no trace of emotional fluctuations, only the sound of breathing, which seemed a little heavy, while Jianan almost held his breath, looked up at him slightly, his eyes didn't blink for a moment, until He let her go and stood up.

She put on her clothes calmly, approached him step by step, put her arms around his waist, put her face on his back, and said softly: "Chen Suining, I didn't tell you until now... Will you blame me?"

He just let her embrace him from back to front without saying a word, but his fingers curled up involuntarily.

She still giggled, deliberately lowered her voice, just like what he said last night, as if she was humiliating herself: "You still don't believe it... think that child is not yours, and I still have a man outside?"

Chen Suining suddenly turned his head and looked at her quietly, the corners of his lips pursed even tighter.Jianan read a little dazed, or perhaps unbelievable, and then he broke her arm and went straight downstairs.And she kept the original posture, only her eyes seemed a little out of focus, and she looked out of the window heavily.

In the early morning mist, I saw his slender figure walking away into the distance.

As if the conversation just now had exhausted all his energy, Jianan sat down a little tiredly, and after an unknown amount of time, he heard footsteps on the stairs.

Someone knocked on the door: "Xiao Xu, are you up?"

Jianan took a deep breath, adjusted his expression, and opened the door.

"The porridge just made." The aunt put the food on the table with a smile, "Drink another bowl of ginger soup after eating, it rained all day yesterday."

Jianan thought of the ginger soup last night, and couldn't help it: "I'm really bothering you, you have to make soup for me so late yesterday."

"Oh, it's all my fault. I didn't remind you not to go to Dongshan Mountain. It's easy to get lost... Xiao Chen came back yesterday and found that you had disappeared. He was so anxious. Later, all the people who went to the mountain to look for you came back. He was alone. People stay there until they finally find you."

Jianan drank the porridge without saying a word, while the aunt was still rambling: "... Later, remember to remind me to make ginger soup for you."

"I'm done." Jianan interrupted her abruptly, pursing his lips and smiling, "Thank you."

Because he said he was going to leave at night, Jianan simply started to pack his luggage, folded the T-shirts one by one, and put them neatly into the travel bag.First it was hers, put it on the bottom of the travel bag, and then it was Chen Suining's. As soon as she folded his clothes on top, she suddenly recalled the scene of their skin touching—whether she was forced, took the initiative, or endured it. The emotions so far seem to burst open suddenly, like hot oil dripping on the water, splashing everywhere.

She frantically tore off his clothes and threw them on the ground, but slowly squatted down, hugged her knees, and cried silently.

"Have you cried enough?" A pair of strong arms behind her hugged her, with a slight chill in her voice, "Get up."

She could stop those unnecessary movements of tearing clothes, but she couldn't stop sobbing, she could only stubbornly turn her face to one side, with tears staining her face.Sitting opposite her, Chen Suining looked at her quietly, his eyes became darker, but he just didn't say a word, as if waiting for her to be exhausted.

The sunlight with a different angle finally illuminated the whole room, and his thin lips finally moved: "Xiaonan, sometimes... I really want to let you go."

She raised her eyes suddenly, a little confused, but also somewhat hopeful.

With his back to the sun, his expression was a bit unpredictable, gloomy and lonely, but in a flash, he smiled: "But I can't do it."

Unable to distinguish mixed emotions, unable to be crazy alone, so he dragged her into it together...even though he knew...a long time ago, the moment he decided to marry Shu Ling, they could not go back to the past ——But at that time, he didn't know that he lost not only her, but also an unborn child.

After lunch, Chen Suining didn't seem to be in a hurry to go back, he only raised his eyebrows to look at Jianan, and asked softly, "Can your feet walk?"

She sipped her tea without raising her head: "What's wrong?"

The old couple may have seen some unhappiness between them, and encouraged them: "Let's go for a walk, the weather is fine today."

She looked up and smiled: "OK."

After one night of hot and cold compresses and the right amount of medicinal wine, Jianan's ankles improved a lot, but he walked very slowly.He didn't urge her either, and walked along a river in the town, as if walking in a courtyard.

"...Is it a boy or a girl?" He asked her without warning.

Jianan was startled, and turned his face to the side, but he kept looking at the quietly flowing river without showing the slightest expression.

"How could it be possible to know at that time?" She smiled calmly, time really has a terrible magic power, such pain, when I think about it now, it seems like a lifetime away.

He turned his head and saw the indifferent smile on the corner of her lips, and he just pursed his lips tightly.

He didn't ask any more questions, and Jianan didn't go to see him, so she walked away in silence for a long time, and she finally expressed the doubt in her heart: "Why did you bring me here?"

But he answered irrelevantly: "Do you like this place?"

"It's very beautiful." Jianan's mood is no longer as fluctuating as in the morning, just like a river flowing slowly, "But I'm just curious-there is already a commotion in Feihai, you and I know it well Ming, you will be happier if I stay there."

He glanced at her, as if he didn't expect her to be like this.

Jianan's heart sank heavily, and he looked at him warily, as if he suddenly understood something: "You...are you taking advantage of my absence to think—"

"Xu Jianan, what do I want to do, I don't need to take advantage of your absence." He interrupted her, with a hint of sarcasm in his tone, and slowed down his speech, "Do you think there is something that needs to be done behind your back ?”

Jianan blushed, she really didn't have the ability to contend with him at the moment, so she could only mumble: "Why?"

"Every time I come here, I don't want to go back." He also smiled, looking at the row of willow trees along the river, his eyes were rare and gentle, "My mother grew up here."

"Auntie's hometown?" Jianan was taken aback. In her memory, she didn't have much impression of Chen Suining's mother. She only saw her once a few years ago. She seemed to be a gentle and beautiful woman. She was always in poor health. Do not stay in Feihai.

He said "um": "Today is her birthday."

Jianan stopped in his tracks, and intuitively sensed that the always sharp man beside him was a little dazed at the moment.

"Auntie... is she okay?" She vaguely remembered that when they met a long time ago, Mother Chen held her hand, which was soft and gentle, completely different from her son's sharpness.

"Passed away." He raised his head slightly, the lines of his side face were cut by the sunlight, but still sharp.

Jianan let out an "ah" and hesitated for a while before asking, "Why is this happening?"

Chen Suining's gaze was terribly cold, which caused Jianan to shiver, and took a half step back involuntarily, her sprained foot stepped on a stone, causing her to frown in pain, staggered, and fell to the ground.

He will definitely not reach out to support himself, and she will definitely not show weakness in front of him—but just before the fall, a hand grabbed her waist and hugged her firmly to her chest forward.

This contact was so unexpected that no one seemed to have thought of it.And each other's faces are within reach, breathing intertwined, such intimacy, it seems like the entanglement last night.

After only a few seconds, Chen Suining had already restrained his expression, quickly let go of her, turned around and walked towards the river, with his back to her.

The shadow of the sun gradually moved to the top, and he stood upright. After a long time, he turned his head and waved to Jianan: "Come here."

Jianan walked over slowly, he gently pulled her in front of him, wrapped his arms around her waist, and half embraced her.

He clasped a thin piece of stone in her palm, held her hand, and threw it to the river.Plop, plop, plop... It took five or six ups and downs before the piece of rock fell to the bottom of the river—Jianan slightly widened his eyes and let out an "ah".

He smiled lightly in his ear, as if he could sense her surprise, with a sudden childishness.

It seems that a long time ago, he would always tease her with some very novel things.He took her to a restaurant and brought her food.At that time, she took a sip with some doubts, it was green and crunchy: "What is it?"

He answered her solemnly: "Kelp silk."

After she ate a few chopsticks, he told her with a smile that it was "snake skin".

That time Jianan was really angry, he just felt sick, wanted to vomit but couldn't vomit, and fought coldly for two days, and then the old housekeeper told himself that it was because he had been getting angry before that he ordered that After a dish, he tricked himself into eating it again.

Jianan lowered his eyes and tried his best to drive away those memories.But his hand never let go of her, which made her feel slightly uneasy and anxious.However, what disturbed her even more was Chen Suining's mention of his mother's death. She knew nothing about such a big event... and the more his attitude became vague, she knew that his heart , must care more and more.

His chin was naturally placed on her shoulder, because he hadn't paid attention to his appearance these two days, his chin felt a little tingling: "Go back."

The simple sentence "go back" did not have much emotion, but it made Jianan a little frightened.

During the few days here, although she hated him, avoided him, and hurt each other with words, she was also faintly glad that she didn't have to go back to Feihai to face the embarrassing reality.When he really went back, he still had to face his father whose condition had not improved, the overwhelming scandals, and even... His wife gave birth to a child. At this time, the media didn't hype, what better time could there be?

"Don't you want to go back?" He smiled, as if he was doting on her before, and kissed her lightly on the cheek, "Little Nan, you have to face it."

They brought back a lot of bacon and fresh vegetables. When they said goodbye to the old couple, Jianan still felt a little uncomfortable, but the old mother hugged her very warmly: "Come again next time."

It wasn't until Chen Suining drove on the road that she withdrew from her emotions in a daze and asked, "Did you... give them any money?"

He hooked the corner of his lips, but didn't answer.

Jianan turned his head nonchalantly, and suddenly became quiet, only the air-conditioning sprayed evenly.There were not many vehicles on the highway, and it was almost deserted. Jianan leaned on the armchair, looked at the monotonous scenery outside the window, and gradually became sleepy.

When I opened my eyes again, I realized that it was completely dark, and the car was parked not far from the exit of Feihai Expressway, and there was no one in the driver's seat.

Jianan unbuckled his seat belt and got out of the car. In the dazed night, Chen Suining leaned against the car door, holding a cigarette between his fingertips. It was lighting up at the moment, and a little star was extraordinarily dazzling.

"Chen Suining...are you in a hurry to go to the hospital?" Jianan couldn't help asking, "Are you going to see the child?"

He didn't speak, he just turned around in the dark night, found her position with his eyes, and asked lightly: "What's wrong?"

Jianan hesitated for a while, a little uneasy, and said: "I'll let someone pick me up."

But he didn't answer, got into the car, turned on the light, waited until she was sitting next to him, raised his eyebrows slightly, and said mockingly: "I forgot, Shu Ling and your father are in the same hospital."

The hospital at this moment must have been heavily surrounded by the media's guns and cannons, and she didn't want to make scandal headlines because of him.

He didn't look at her, but started the car carelessly, with an unusually indifferent side face: "Aren't you going to see your father? It's just on the way, I'll take you there."

The car was speeding on the streets of Feihai, Jianan looked at the familiar city, the light from the car window poured on his body and face, like cold water, the skin under the shirt was densely aroused with a layer of pimples.She collected herself and tried her best to say in a calm tone: "It's not good for your wife to see it."

He chuckled, and finally turned his head to look at her: "You still have 5 minutes, you might as well give it a try, if you can make me change my mind."

Jianan lowered his head, his nails almost broke his palm, but his mind was blank and he couldn't say anything.

"Why?" After a long time, she just asked this sentence, "Don't you love her very much?"

While waiting for the red light, he leaned over and patted her face: "Little girl, you can guess."

She avoided it, her delicate brows were tightly frowned: "You... are you using me to punish her?"

The corners of Chen Suining's lips curved deeper, but he said meaningfully: "I don't want to part with it."

There seems to be some ambiguity, can't bear to hurt his wife, or can't bear to use him as a tool?Jianan was stunned, the red light turned green, the car still sped out, he ignored her, turned a corner, the hospital was at the end of the road.

He drove the car into the underground garage, and Jianan couldn't help turning his head to look at the door of the hospital. He clearly sensed her uneasiness, but he kept smiling and remained silent until he parked the car: "Get out of the car."

Jianan didn't move for a while, he turned sideways to unbuckle her seat belt very kindly, and opened the car door again, but his tone was a bit harsh: "Get out of the car."

The lights in the parking lot make this underground claustrophobic world extraordinarily transparent, but this kind of place is the place where you are most often photographed—the corners you can’t see, and sometimes there are a pair or even a few pairs that make you feel trembling s eyes.Jianan lowered his head, his footsteps were urgent and fast, but the sound of footsteps behind him still caught up

(End of this chapter)