Marriage and no love: Wife, please don’t remarry

Chapter 602 The Color of Love

When leaving the Lu family, Xu Sixue kept thinking about Uncle Fu's words in her heart.

Don't give up if you love, let go if you don't remember it deeply.

What the old man said was very simple, but it was a difficult problem for Xu Sixue.

Along the way, she asked herself countless times what kind of feelings she had for Lu Shengze, was it deeply engraved, or was it just love, but not enough.

Thinking of the time when Lu Shengze was recuperating in the hospital, Xu Sixue was at a loss.

During the few days when she returned to the apartment, Xu Sixue was thinking about this problem, and she was listless and in a trance when she did everything.

Jing Yan didn't know what happened when Xu Sixue went to Lu's house, but she really couldn't stand Xu Sixue's appearance.

One day after dinner, Jing Yan coaxed Xu Anran to sleep in advance, walked to Xu Sixue and sat down beside Xu Sixue, staring seriously at Xu Sixue's eyes.

"Sister Xu, can you tell me what you are thinking?"

Jing Yan asked Xu Sixue, "When I saw you these days, it was as if I saw my former self. I don't want you to become like that. You are full of worries when you come back from Lu's house. Did the old man make you feel wronged? ?”

Jing Yan knew a little bit about the Xu family and the Lu family, and as the relationship between Xu Siyue and Lu Shengze gradually eased, the business contacts between the Lu family and the Gu family increased, and Jing Yan also heard Yingying mention something about Lu Shengze. Lu Zhongxun's family matter, knowing that the old man doesn't like Xu Sixun very much.

Seeing Xu Sixue's gloomy, soul-destroying look at this moment, the first thing she wondered was whether Xu Sixue had been wronged at the Lu family.

"No, how could I be wronged."

Xu Sixue raised her head, forced a smile, and smiled wryly at Jing Yan.

However, this look is uglier than crying in Jing Yan's eyes.

"Sister Xu, look at you now, I want to find a mirror and put it in front of you so that you can take a good look at your smile. Does this look like you haven't been wronged?"

Jing Yan was aggrieved, so she wanted to drag Xu Sixue to the Lu family to seek justice.

"I really haven't. It's just that I've been thinking about something. Do you think my feelings for Shengze are unforgettable, or is it just love, but not deep? I thought for a long time and couldn't think of the answer."

Xu Sixue said slowly to Jingyan.

"To be honest, after Mo Sheng left, I took An Ran alone, and I was very tired every day, fighting with the Gu family, fighting with Tang Fengting, and making false claims with those people in the mall. I feel like I can't stand it on my own.

Whenever that time comes, I think how good it would be if a man suddenly appeared beside me to help me share the burden?At that time, I naturally thought of Lu Shengze.

Shengze is very kind to me, and he has paid a lot for me, so that I gradually let go of the barriers in my heart, and I began to accept his kindness to me, especially when he was in the villa, he defended me desperately, Save me from disfiguring myself.

At that moment, I was really heartbroken, and I was thinking, maybe I have identified this man in this life. At that time, I really felt that I loved him deeply, but after Shengze was hospitalized, I didn't take care of him. Mood, did not understand his condition.

Let him leave me disheartened alone. At this time, I really don't know if I love him so much that I can't extricate myself, or at that time I just simply need someone to help me, help me share the pressure, and blur beyond the boundaries of love.

Jing Yan, what do you think I should do? "

Xu Sixue began to cry while talking, lying on Jing Yan's lap, twitching constantly.

Jing Yan was silent, not knowing what to say.

Even at this time, she could find thousands of reasons for Xu Sixue, but none of them could answer Xu Sixue's question, so she could only comfort Xu Sixue silently.

After a while, Xu Sixue's mood stabilized, and Jing Yan stared into Xu Sixue's eyes.

"Sister Xu, tell me, what do you want to do most now?"

What do you want most?
Xu Siyue was stunned for a moment, there is no doubt that what she wants most now is for Lu Shengze to appear in front of her, no matter what the price is.

"I just want Shengze to appear in front of me, I don't care about the rest."

Xu Sixue said to Jing Yan.

Jing Yan already understood the answer and nodded.

"It's over now. Your answer at this moment represents your heartfelt voice. Sister Xu, in fact, this life is very short, but only a few decades. Except for work, rest, and eating and other things that have nothing to do with feelings, leave nothing behind. The time for us to enjoy love is just such a small time.

In these tiny time, if we think about whether we love or not, and how deeply we love, then people in this world simply don't fall in love.

Think about how sometimes we are blind to love. For example, when Gu Fei and I were together, I didn’t like him or how deeply I loved him. But after Gu Fei left, I suddenly felt that My whole world fell apart because a huge piece was missing.

Now, I'm not the same, and you and Lu Shengze are just like that. When we are together, there is no change, but when one person leaves, the other person will seem to lose the whole world.

You are like this, and so is Lu Shengze, is the rest of the result still important?Sister Xu, follow your heart. The relationship between you and Lu Shengze is just a matter between the two of you. Others can't understand it. Feelings are like drinking water. How can other people know what it's like? Lu Zhongxun doesn't know ,I do not know either. "

Jing Yan said seriously to Xu Sixue, "Perhaps bewilderment is the ultimate color of love. In this color, we ignore all other colors, and thus even forget our own color."

Speaking of this, a trace of sadness appeared on Jingyan's face, obviously she remembered her own sadness through Xu Sixue's incident.

After being enlightened by Jing Yan for a while, Xu Siyue suddenly understood something, and smiled gratefully at Jing Yan.

In the past few days, she has been struggling with whether she loves Lu Chengze, how much she loves, and whether she loves him deeply enough, but Jing Yan dismisses it with a few words.

Love itself has nothing to do with these problems, it comes and goes as it happens, that's all.

After thinking through these things, Xu Sixue immediately made a decision, she was going to look for Lu Shengze, no matter where Lu Shengze was, as long as they were still under the same starry sky, she must find him.

"Jing Yan, I will trouble you in the next few days. I plan to go out to find Shengze. Now his situation is very unstable. I am a little worried that he is outside alone."

Xu Sixue said to Jing Yan.

"Sister Xu, you don't have to worry about these things, I'm the only one who will handle them for you. As for An Ran, look at this little thing, she probably likes to cling to me now."

Speaking of which, Jing Yan looked back at Xu Anran's room, thinking about how to explain the fact that Xu Sixue would be away for a while.

After dealing with Xu Anran's matter, Xu Sixue slept very soundly that night.

The next morning, Xu Sixue got up and made breakfast for Xu Anran.

Children are forgetful, or they are easier to forgive others. When Xu Sixue appeared in front of Xu Anran with breakfast, the little guy rushed over, hugged Xu Sixue's leg and kept calling Mommy, mommy.

This scene warmed Xu Sixue's heart.

When eating, Xu Sixue kept looking at her son. Seeing Xu Sixue, Jing Yan couldn't bear to say it, so she said it herself, patted Xu Anran's head, and said softly, "Anran, your mommy is going out to find Uncle Lu. Are you following your aunt these few days?"

Hearing Jing Yan's words, Xu Anran raised his head, tilted his head to look at Xu Sixue, then at Jing Yan, and then nodded after a long time.

"So nice."

Jing Yan smacked Xu Anran's face, which made Xu Anran very dissatisfied.

After breakfast, Xu Anran lay in Xu Sixue's arms, "Mum, when will you come back, can you come back to see Anran once a month?"

Xu Anran asked in a low voice, a little uneasy.

Xu Sixue nodded.

After explaining everything properly, Xu Sixue bought a plane ticket and left the city.

Since Lu Shengze wanted to avoid her, he definitely wouldn't be in this city. Xu Sixyue made up his mind, thought about the places he had walked with Lu Shengze, and chose a small foreign island as the first stop.

That was when Xu Sixue lost her memory. Lu Shengze once took her to that island to recuperate. Now that I think about it, that time was a bit beautiful.

Nothing on that island has changed, it is still very quiet, but after many years, those people have changed, and all the acquaintances I met have left, only the hotel is still left.

Xu Sixue opened a room, and asked the staff with Lu Shengze's photo, and they all said that they didn't see Lu Shengze. Xu Sixue was very disappointed, but not lost.

After living on this island for a few days, Xu Sixue went to another place.

In just one month, Xu Sixyue visited almost all the places where she and Lu Shengze stayed, but there was no trace of Lu Shengze.

There is no meaning to revisiting the old place.

Things from the past kept reappearing, and it was at this moment that Xu Sixyue suddenly remembered that Lu Shengze had been silently helping her for so many years.

From the moment they met, Lu Shengze never stopped caring for her, but her vision was blurred by many things in the past, so she couldn't see clearly.

At this moment, all the fog cleared away, and Xu Sixue realized that everything was as it was at the beginning.

When one month came, Xu Sixyue went back to accompany Xu Anran for a few days according to the agreement with Xu Anran, and embarked on the journey of looking for Lu Shengze again, but as the more places he traveled, Xu Sixyue's confidence also decreased.

(End of this chapter)