From the ashes: Return of the General

Chapter 983 Deep self-blame
"It's me, it's all me, it's all my fault, it's all me...I killed my godmother, woohoo...it's me, it's all me..." Zhixin was sobbing and crying uncontrollably Mei Xin blamed herself very much and regretted it.

Not knowing what Yuan Muqiu's death had to do with her, Zongzheng Mingzhen asked her in a daze, "How can you blame me? She blocked the sword for elder brother and was killed by an assassin. What has it to do with you? Xin'er, I Knowing that you have a good relationship with the godmother, you are reluctant to part with her, you are sad and sad, but you can't blame yourself for her death."

People who understand things naturally understand, but those who hear that wind is rain, they will only spread rumors when they hear this, and they will only say that she is ungrateful and wolf-hearted.Therefore, responsibilities cannot be taken carelessly, and words cannot be said indiscriminately.

Full of self-blame and tears, Mei Xin, who had carefully asked about the situation at that time, left his embrace, then shook her head desperately and said: "No, it's me, it's me. You don't know...you don't know that Miao Yi is hers The sweetheart is the jewel in her palm, the child she loves the most since she was a child. She thinks that I am angry because I avoid them, and thinks that I don't care about them anymore. She chose to block the sword under the circumstances, she really wanted to change her life."

She didn't think of it while sitting on the roof, but Lu Qingchuan said it when she was investigating the assassin, and many people saw it at the time, and she was not the one closest to the prince.

After being together for many years, she knows Yuan Muqiu's temper very well, but why is she so stupid?Doesn't she know herself well, she doesn't care about anyone, she doesn't care about her, and she doesn't care about her children.

Frowning slightly, she turned pale with shock, but thinking of Su Miaoyi's actions and Prince Mei Jinze's attitude in putting her in prison, the smart Yuan Muqiu would probably do this, and thinking about it carefully, the benefits of her doing so are really It's too much, it can be said that it is beneficial without any harm.

Tears poured down her heart like a knife, Mei Xin cried and cried again and said: "I should have told her, I should have told her, yesterday...why didn't I tell her yesterday, if I told her Eldest brother won't punish Miao Yi, after a few days I will find a way to tell elder brother to let her out, she will definitely not block the sword, she will definitely not die. It's all me, it's all me, it's me who killed her Dead her."

She raised her hand to cover her face in grief, Mei Xin felt extremely regretful, but she was actually going to tell her yesterday, but she didn't have time to say it, she didn't have time to tell her.

Reaching out to embrace her again, Zongzheng Mingzhen was very distressed, and while hugging her tightly, he comforted her softly and said: "No, it's not like this, Su Miaoyi should be punished for doing something wrong, and they have a big brother's temper. It’s not that I don’t know, even though she was locked in the big prison of Jingzhao Yamen, she was not tortured, it was just a small punishment and a big commandment to lock her up, how can you blame me for that?”

Afraid that this incident would bring her harm and leave an indelible psychological shadow, and that it would be painful to think of it for a lifetime, Zongzheng Mingzhen raised his hand to hold her face, fixed her chin so that she looked at him and said: "Xin'er, don't cry, look at me, listen to me. You are not wrong, you have done nothing wrong, you were grounded by your elder brother, and it is inconvenient for you to see outsiders before you get married. You can't say that you are avoiding them. What's more, the godmother knows all these rules and customs, and it's her own choice to do so."

In other words, she did this for a purpose, and Mei Xin's purpose of blaming herself so painfully now has also been achieved, and her daughter Su Miaoyi has also been released, and she will never pursue it again in the future. She deserved her death very well.

Mei Xin didn't know it, but she still couldn't help blaming herself: "I know, I know it's her choice, but in the end it's my fault. If I change the way, if I talk to big brother, If I...if I don't let Cardamom..."

I can't listen to it anymore, and I really can't see her crying and deeply blaming herself now, Zongzheng Mingzhen hugged her again and said: "The paper can't wrap the fire, even if it's cardamom, even if you help If she covered it up, she would still commit another crime, not to mention that elder brother is not a fool, do you think you can hide what happened in his house from his eyes?"

"He will know sooner or later. He will definitely be angry. If he knows that you helped cover up, he will definitely be responsible. Although I haven't met Su Miaoyi a few times, judging from the things she has done, she will never appreciate it. , let alone stop, she will definitely get worse, and she will never give up until she achieves her goal. So, you are not wrong, it is Su Miaoyi who is wrong, she killed her mother, she forced her mother to do this .”

It's the father's fault if the son doesn't teach. In the final analysis, Yuan Muqiu indulged her too much, so that she was lawless, ignorant of the heights of the sky and the earth, and had no self-knowledge, so she came to where she is today.

Tisi burst into tears, Mei Xin threw herself into his arms without saying a word, she knew and understood everything he said, but she remembered that she failed to be filial in her last life, and in this life she failed to be filial to Cheng Huan's knees, without making up for it, There will be no chance in the next life, and she is heartbroken and regretful.

The cry was like a knife piercing the heart, Zongzheng Mingzhen hugged her very distressed and said: "Okay, okay, stop crying, if you keep crying, your eyes will be so swollen that you can't see, don't go to the palace for a while Have you seen your father, what can you do if you let your father see it?"

Not to mention the father, even the eldest brother, the prince, would be very worried and sad when he saw it.

It's okay not to mention Mei Zhannan, but Mei Xin cried even more sadly when she mentioned her father's arrival, and said with tears streaming down her face: "No...not entering the palace, dad is fine, let me take over Jingjiwei, I won't do it today Entering the palace, woo woo..."

As she talked, she didn't know what to think of again, and she couldn't help crying again.

Zongzheng Mingzhen saw that it would be impossible to let her cry, so he increased his strength and said: "Okay, then I won't enter the palace, I will stay with you here, you can cry if you want, as long as you can cry Feel better, cry as long as you want."

Before he came to deliver the meal, his mother and eldest sister had told him that Mei Xin was different from other girls, she had a tough personality and didn’t cry easily, and she had to cry when such a big thing happened, and she couldn’t keep it all in her heart, it would be easy after a long time Get ill.

Influenced by her father and brother since she was a child, she has been influenced by her eyes and ears, and she bleeds but not tears. Mei Xin has almost never cried out loud, let alone lost her composure like today.So, it wasn't that she wanted to cry but that she couldn't help it. She felt sad and scratched her heart.

If he said let her cry, he really let her cry. Zongzheng Mingzhen hugged her and cried for half an hour before he stopped.

With tears and swollen tears left, Zifu was called in to fetch water to wash her face, and Zongzheng Mingzhen went to find some ice.

　One more chapter to come!
　　
　
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