Loving you is like a good day and good luck

Chapter 282 Turn Around and Meet You 7
I walked, drank, and childishly walked down the street.

When he turned around suddenly, the tall figure not far away had nowhere to hide.

It turned out to be him.

He was standing under the sycamore tree not far away, carrying a briefcase.

After a few seconds, he came over, and I was still yelling milk tea straws.

"Coinful!" Qian Yongjun said something to me, and I let go of the straw, "Coinful." I said something lightly and turned around.

"At this point, let's have a meal together?" It was lunch time, Qian Yongjun looked at his watch and said to me.

"Sorry, I'm not free." I refused coldly, and he smiled awkwardly. Then, his face became serious, "I'm also very sad to lose that child." He said seriously, and then turned around.

He is also sad.

I stared at his back, thinking of that child, my heart was bleeding.The grief of losing my child outweighs everything, including my love for him.It's as if, overnight, the stars have changed, the sea has changed, everything has changed.

He didn't turn around, and I didn't chase.

In the final analysis, he doesn't love me, and some are guilty.

At that moment, he suddenly stopped hating him.

There is nothing wrong with him, and he is not really playing with me, so why should I hate him.

That's it, no love, no hate, no more contact, whatever.

Turning around, I drank all the milk tea in the cup. The sweet milk tea did not dilute the bitterness in my heart, but the tea factor in the milk tea aggravated the astringency.

Like the feeling of loving him once.

Contented with pleasure, but also bitter.

There is nothing to regret, loved it, hated it, lost it, but never really got it.

This is the bitterness and joy of secret love, and it is what I have been willing to bear.

The biggest pain is feeling sorry for the dead child, it is innocent.

I have been walking forward without turning back, and I don't know if he has turned back.

Article by Qian Yongjun:

Of course I am sad to lose that child!And it hurts!For me, that is a lifelong regret!Whenever I think of it, I always think of her who just had a miscarriage, living alone in the hospital.

I didn't look back, afraid to see her back leaving me, and also afraid that I would lose control and catch up.

And me, what qualifications do I have to save her?

Yes, not eligible.

The reality is like this, a misunderstanding, a turn around, can lose a person and leave regrets.The child's departure can be said to be an accident.At the beginning, Jin Di appeared rashly, I was very surprised, but she said shamelessly that she had reasons for leaving me.I didn't think about anything at the time, the only thing I wanted to do was to treat her in the same way and bring her to justice, regardless of any feelings.

Xiaobei was ignored, and an accident happened.

She didn't speak, and she didn't chase after her. My heart was pierced like a knife.

That's how we are, going against each other.

Everything about her is playing back in my mind like an old movie.

From her age of 12 to 16 to, 22, 23, 25...

I witnessed her growing from a child to a woman, and even the man who transformed her from a girl to a woman.

She always thought that I didn't know she liked me.

I am not blind.

At the age of 16, she began to rebel and got into a lot of trouble. I was really afraid that she would learn to be bad, but I didn't realize at that time that she liked me.

That time, I questioned her about a male student making trouble in Zhang Bing's classroom. After she was very angry and firmly denied what I said, I actually believed her.What is she like, do I not understand?I was just surprised that Zhang Bing, who is a people's teacher, would provoke my relationship with Xiaobei.

Later, I took the initiative to break up with Zhang Bing. Zhang Bing was very angry and sad. He called me a pervert for having an affair with a 16-year-old girl. I warned her not to slander her. She yelled at me and said, Xiaobei is writing a composition She wrote about me, saying that I was her most important person!Say, can't lose me.

I am stunned.

Later, I also saw that she liked me.

I often ask me, what kind of woman do I like?Long hair short hair, fat or thin?
I was a little speechless, afraid that telling her to give up would hurt her.

Moreover, she is still young, and she may have deformed feelings for me because of dependence. Maybe, she will be fine when she grows up.

After that, I didn't have any more girlfriends, even though I wasn't young anymore.

One is that she is afraid that if I fall in love, she will be sad, give up on herself in disappointment, and ruin herself.

The second is that I am afraid that my girlfriend will not be able to accept her.It's like a man with an oil bottle daughter, afraid that she will be bullied by his stepmother.

The latter thought is quite funny. When did Fang Xiaobei become such an important role in my life?
I just met her through work.

It is also because of work that he has been taking care of her for several years, and he has some affection for her, which has nothing to do with love, and is more like the feeling of a brother towards his sister.

After she became an adult, her attitude towards me seemed to be a lot colder, and she no longer looked for me as often as before. I think, when she grows up, she realizes that her feelings for me are not love, right?

At that time, I felt quite lost, as if I had lost something.

I seldom interfere with her anymore. When she is an adult, let her go on her own, as long as she doesn't make any big mistakes.

I was wrong, she still likes me.

And I seem to have something that I shouldn't have towards her.

In terms of age, I can really be her uncle.

Once, she asked me, why not married yet?
I said, I didn't find the right one.

She smiled.I thought she would confess to me, but I was still thinking, confessed, how can I reject her?
But, she didn't.

She seemed a little inferior, so she was embarrassed to confess to me.And I, an old man in his 30s, am even more embarrassed to be with a girl who is only 20 years old.

If you have unreasonable thoughts, then it is a blasphemy against her, I told myself so.

With the passage of time, the feeling of deformity became more and more obvious, could it be that love grows after a long time?
How is it possible, she will always be just a child in my heart!

When people ask me, I always say that Xiaobei is my younger sister.

I am sensible, even if I am with her, my family will not agree.I am not young, and Jin Di is equivalent to a flash marriage.

This woman is quite generous, she is considered a strong woman, and being with her is not tiring. I think she is suitable for marriage.

I told her when I was getting married.

She said, I am blind!
Seeing the love in her eyes, I advised her not to waste her feelings, she left and turned around gracefully.That day, I stood where I was and smoked half a pack of cigarettes before leaving.

It always feels like a piece of flesh has been cut off from my heart.

After marriage, she was avoiding me on purpose, I understand, and I was avoiding her too.Seeing her doing well, I am relieved that she is actually a very strong and independent girl with self-respect and self-love.

This, let me be pleased.

There are quite a few men chasing her, most of them are young rich second-generation, and some are really outstanding.

Although I feel uncomfortable, I still hope that she can find a man who really treats her well.

Jindi doesn't love me, and I don't really love her, but I worked hard to maintain this marriage, and I thought I was good to her.

She wanted to invest, so I lent her the money, and it turned out...

This failed marriage dealt a big blow to me. After all, I was a man who cared about dignity. Jindi ran away, but I didn't chase after her. I swallowed my anger and pretended nothing had happened in front of my friends.

I also didn't expect that Xiaobei would be the first person to look for him.

There was bitterness in my heart, and I wanted to confide in her, but I couldn't open my mouth, and finally broke up unhappy.

I know, she still loves me.

That night, half drunk, I broke through that layer of defense and took her as my own.

She thought I was having sex after drinking, but she didn't know that if a man is as drunk as mud, it is impossible for him to have that ability.I knew clearly that it was her who did it anyway.

I didn't tell the real reason in my heart, so I couldn't open my mouth.

This has become the reason for me to approach her and be with her.

Especially, she is pregnant.

We got married, and it was a matter of course. As for the feelings for her, I think, she will understand after seeing people's hearts for a long time.

However, things backfired.

At that time, I had the urge to kill Jin Di, but I finally endured it.

I still resisted the urge to go to the hospital to see her, and dealt with Jindi. Her lover showed up. Based on the evidence I had, I called the police and arrested them.

After all the dust settled, Xiao Bei had already left

And I really have no face to see her, even if I have unavoidable difficulties.

I feel that I hurt her too deeply, I don't deserve to love her, and I don't deserve her love.

I regretted marrying Jindi back then, and regretted that I didn't face my relationship with her, but regret was invalid.

I went to see her, she already had other men around her, and she seemed happy.

I couldn't help getting out of the car and stopped her.

She is close at hand, but far away in the world, she treats me coldly and alienated, let me go.

I saw the hatred in her eyes.

I don't have the courage to speak out, and I don't have the face to say so.

When I went back that night, there was a car accident. Before I passed out, I saw Lao Ji and asked him to hide it from Xiaobei. No matter what I did, I wouldn't let her know.

I worry that if I am disabled or useless, she will pity me and turn around.

I'm afraid of hurting her.

But I was wrong.

She still knew it, and she didn't pity me. Instead, she showed up in my ward with her boyfriend. At that moment, I felt ashamed, and my chest was overwhelmed.She seemed to be demonstrating against me, like revenge.

I forced a smile on my face and treated her like a friend.

As soon as she and the man left the ward, I vomited blood.

I wanted to die.

It feels like she's completely gone from me.

Later, I passed out in court and she came to see me.

She who once loved me so much became ruthless. I proudly let her go, and she really left. In fact, I wanted to hug her, beg her to forgive, and beg her to give me a chance to love him.

But, I am not qualified, I can only watch her leave with tears in my eyes.

During this period of time, we didn't have much contact with each other. We missed her. We would go to City Y and hide in the car. The cat was downstairs in her company or her house to see her.

Just take a peek at her, that's fine.

She is still alone, but I know that no matter how lonely she is, she doesn't need my company anymore.

And I will spend the rest of my life in longing and torture.

I haven't heard from Qian Yongjun for a long time. I only found out when I returned to the capital that he went to the United States.Hired by a company as a legal consultant, he will return to China after a year, and the firm still has his shares.

Another year of Spring Festival, I spent it alone. After watching the Spring Festival Gala, I sat on the ground in front of the French windows, watched the fireworks, and turned off all the lights on purpose.

The phone rang, a very complicated string of numbers.

I accept.

"Xiaobei, it's me." When Qian Yongjun's voice came, I was surprised.

"Hello." He still greeted calmly.

"You haven't slept yet?"

"Well, right now." With a very calm tone, time has settled everything, and I can face him calmly.

"Happy New Year!" He said with a smile, his voice was low and soft.

"You too, America, is it still New Year's Eve?" I asked one more question, and he replied, yes.

"How's it going?" he asked.

"It's pretty good, anyway, the same old way, how about you?" I talked too much.

"I'm fine too, that's just..." he said, he paused, I was slightly stunned, a huge firework suddenly appeared in the sky outside, lighting up the whole room, and it was very special.

In English: I LOVE YOU!

I was surprised, which lucky woman is it?

"Miss you."

"Ah?" I don't know if it's a hallucination or a signal problem, Qian Yongjun said, I miss you, I'm surprised.

"I said, I miss you. Xiaobei, I love you." He said softly, and I was stunned. Then, he said those three words in English, and then, German, French...

And languages ​​I don't understand, languages ​​I've never heard.His voice was deep and magnetic, beating on my heart.

Tears, falling from the corners of my eyes, became more and more turbulent, like a river breaking its embankment, I couldn't control it, and even cried aloud.

"I have learned 101 languages. I love what you say, and I have no regrets in my life if I can say it to you." He continued, using the kindest, Chinese that I can understand.

I cried even harder, not knowing what to say to him.

"Don't cry, go to bed early, take good care of yourself, goodbye." He said softly, and then ended the call.

I froze for a long time, and when I called again, the phone was turned off.

The fireworks outside were still blooming presumptuously. I sat there with tears streaming down my face and my whole body was paralyzed.

He loves me.

Qian Yongjun, he loves me.

I think I have no regrets.

Turn around and meet someone, turn around and lose someone.

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