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Chapter 38 The Insurmountable Problem

Si Yu was very annoyed, and began to wonder if Qi Jinhua was talking nonsense.Luan Luan guessed what she was thinking, and quickly touched her with his elbow.Si Yu didn't understand what Luanluan meant, so he listened to Luanluan and said, "Okay, we're done watching. Qi Jinhua, tell what you know now. Let me remind you first, if you talk nonsense about this Gossip, it can completely constitute a crime of defamation!"

Qi Jinhua sneered and asked Luanluan: "I want to say, the question is, now that you have read these records, will you still believe my words?"

Luanlu smiled: "To be honest, I really despise you after reading these records, but years of experience as a lawyer tell me that even the testimony of scumbags may not be unreliable."

Si Yu quickly calmed down, it turned out that Luanluan just reminded her not to preconceive and make rash judgments before finding out the facts.That's how it should be... huh?Si Yu suddenly thought of a serious question: Why did Lei Yao show her this kind of thing first?Is it just to make her preconceived?

"Okay." Qi Jinhua smiled cruelly, and squinted at Lei Yao, "Zhumeng and I are good friends..."

A scornful smile crossed Lei Yao's lips.

Qi Jinhua was stunned and greatly stimulated: "Yes! I took the initiative to please Zhumeng! Because I can't reach you, I want to get the feeling of being 'closer to you' by approaching the woman next to you... But Zhumeng Meng still regarded me as a friend, and told me a lot! At that time, you regarded Lan Ling as a treasure, and you dumped Zhumeng as soon as she changed her mind. Zhumeng was not reconciled, and told me that she must win back your heart. Yes One day she suddenly found me and said that she had finally found a way to be with you forever, and then asked you to go on a trip to the mountains... In the end, she died! Say, did you think she was troublesome, so you killed her! "

Lei Yao smiled angrily, and glanced at Si Yu complicatedly.Si Yu was staring at him, full of suspicion.He gritted his teeth, and smiled bitterly and coldly: "I didn't want to say it, but you forced me. Are you and Zhu Meng really good friends? I'm afraid you will regret it after hearing about it."

Qi Jinhua was stunned, and was about to say something, but Lei Yao continued: "That's right, she has found a way to 'be with me forever'...but it's not living together, but dying together! She wants to be with me I die for love!"

"Ah!" Luan Luan and Si Yu exclaimed in unison.

Lei Yao sneered, his expression was full of sadness, but also full of resentment: "She tricked me into the mountain, trying to find a chance to push me down the mountain. However, I found that her expression was wrong from the beginning, and I was always wary of her At that time, she was on the edge of the cliff, and she was about to push me, but I dodged in an instant, and she used up all her strength, so she rolled down the mountain by herself..."

Si Yu let out a low cry, and looked at Lei Yao with sympathy and understanding.Seeing this, Qi Jinhua hurriedly yelled, "Don't lie! Do you have evidence?"

"Of course there is." Lei Yao squinted at her, and said contemptuously, "The police didn't really believe my words at first, but after the on-site investigation, it was confirmed that it was so... This has been included in the file of the Public Security Bureau!"

Qi Jinhua's eyes widened: "Why don't I know, and everyone doesn't know?"

Lei Yao looked aggrieved: "I want to preserve Zhumeng's reputation, she is also a school beauty, she has always been gentle and reasonable in everyone's hearts... If people know that she was so insane before she died, her reputation will be destroyed So I discussed with Zhumeng’s family and begged the Public Security Bureau to keep the secret, and only said it was an accident..." Then I looked at Qi Jinhua with contempt, "I originally wanted to take this secret to the grave, but you forced me to tell it , After this incident got out, Zhumeng's reputation was ruined. Aren't you a good friend of Zhumeng? Go blame yourself!"

Qi Jinhua lowered her head resentfully.

Si Yu didn't look at her again, and walked towards Lei Yao in a daze, his eyes were full of pity and sympathy, but also full of confusion, blame and annoyance for not knowing why: "Since the facts are like this, why didn't you tell me directly?"

Lei Yao smiled bitterly, with an extremely complicated expression: "I'm afraid you won't be happy after hearing it..."

Only then did Si Yu discover her selfishness and cruelty!Even if Lei Yao is not wrong in terms of legal principles, but logically...if he hadn't rashly started with Zhumeng, if he could have handled everything well when the relationship ended, the ending waiting for Zhumeng might not be the same , she actually felt that everything would be fine just because Lei Yao didn't bear the legal responsibilities, how could she be so cruel and selfish?Even Lei Yao felt that he was wronged, and was afraid of being found out by her, so he tried his best to cover it up.

Qi Jinhua didn't know about the change in Si Yu's heart, and thought she had completely forgiven Lei Yao, and quickly shouted: "Si Yu, don't be complacent! He is not the only woman! He had more than a dozen girlfriends before! You and He can't grow! I promise! Don't think that you are unique and different from other women... How about Lan Ling? Didn't she get dumped by her anyway!?"

Lei Yao was furious, and gave Qi Jinhua a hard look.Qi Jinhua was so frightened that she immediately stopped talking, and Luan Luan hurriedly pulled Qi Jinhua out, comforted, persuaded and threatened her a little, telling her not to provoke her again.

After Qi Jinhua left, Si Yu turned around and went upstairs, Lei Yao followed behind without saying a word.Si Yu glanced back at him, and the corners of his mouth trembled a few times.She had mixed feelings in her heart, and she desperately wanted to have a deep talk with Lei Yao, but she didn't know how to speak, and was afraid that if she opened her mouth, she would roar out.

"How do you know about this?" She finally found a suitable floodgate and began to carefully vent her inner flood.

"It's because of Ling Sihang!" Lei Yao smiled wryly, looking at an Indian warrior puppet on the table, which was given to him by Ling Sihang when he was a child, "He came to ask me what happened to me and Zhumeng back then, He also said that you already knew about it..." Although Ling Sihang had had a very tense fight with him, he still asked him directly when encountering problems.It seems that their friendship is rooted in the blood, even if it is killed in the rational, it is still deep-rooted emotionally and even subconsciously.

"Oh." Si Yu said in a low voice, "Then, you tampered with my phone."

"No." Lei Yao sighed softly, "It was the eve of your trip. I changed the SIM card, transferred the data, and quietly changed Qi Jinhua's number to an empty one. In addition, you There is no Ling Sihang's number, only he calls you, as long as he can't find you, you can't get in touch. I thought these two people were the only ones to guard against. Even if you call to contact other people, others You don't care too much about the number change, and besides, you don't call people outside your family very often recently. I thought it would last until I settled the matter, but I didn't expect it to be negligent."

Si Yu snorted: "Why don't you tell me everything?"

Lei Yao remained silent.

Seeing him like this, Si Yu was even more angry: "Don't think that this is protecting me...in fact, you are looking down on me! You think I am not capable of dealing with these things, so you don't want to tell me!"

"Aren't I afraid that you will be unhappy!?" Lei Yao also broke out.

Si Yu was stunned, terrified, angry, and unspeakably uneasy.

Lei Yao thought she was intimidated by him, so he wanted to shut up, but he was really frustrated and angry: "Why do you have to do such unnecessary things, wouldn't it be good to obediently listen to my arrangement? Do you think you can handle it? What's up?"

Si Yu's face turned pale immediately, and after a while he sneered and said, "Lei Yao, this is what you really think, isn't it? You still look down on me! You haven't changed at all! You're still so machismo!"

"I didn't!" Lei Yao shouted anxiously and angrily.

"Then tell me all about your...previous love history!" Si Yu spat out this sentence, only then did he realize that this was what he really cared about.

Lei Yao's whole body trembled, and then his face turned pale. He said with a sneer, "Looking at you like this, I can't tell you that you will definitely turn those things into shackles and put them around my neck one by one. You Why bother with the past! Let me tell you! No one can get back the past! I was young and ignorant! I was reckless and playful! But that’s all in the past! I can’t go back to the past and put my past mistakes Correct it and show it to you! What do you want me to do?!"

He roared like thunder, and the birds outside the window were frightened away.

Si Yu stopped, stared at him blankly, burst into tears suddenly, and then collapsed on the ground: "I don't have confidence, I don't know if I will be one of these women. You are very good to me , but I always wonder if you are so kind to all your girlfriends, and I don’t know if you will turn against me when you say you turn against me, and abandon you if you say you abandon it, like other women..."

Lei Yao froze, his face livid.He sighed heavily, turned and left.Si Yu wiped away tears, stood up without saying a word, but walked in the opposite direction.

Lei Yao and Si Yu started a cold war. They didn't ignore each other out of the intention of confrontation, but they were so frustrated that they couldn't speak to each other.Si Yu feels that Lei Yao is still a serious machismo, he doesn't respect her at all, has no confidence in Lei Yao and his love, and at the same time feels unacceptable to Lei Yao's past.Lei Yao is very aware of this, but there is nothing he can do about it.These problems cannot be resolved through a few quarrels and a few conversations.Moreover, he has worked so hard until now, but it still ends in this way, and he feels very frustrated.In addition, he was also afraid that Si Yu would always be brooding over his past, and use the past to talk about it every day.No man would like to be caught by his wife's pigtails, and thinking about it, he felt hopeless.

As the days passed, the relationship between Si Yu and Lei Yao remained icy.Si Yu thought about divorce again, but just couldn't make up her mind.It is neither reluctance nor resignation.In order to get rid of this feeling, she felt that she should look for a job first, but after working for a while, she found that she couldn't focus on it at all.She still wanted to know what Lei Yao's love life was like before, even though she might get hurt, even though she looked like a stupid jealous woman, she still wanted to do it.A wife should understand her husband!
In order to ensure that she could find real information, Si Yu found Su Yun, the president of Lei Yao's literary club when she joined the literature club. Her personal relationship with Lei Yao was neither good nor bad.It is this kind of person who can judge a person from a fair perspective.Si Yu has determined her goal, and intends to use "literary fellow" as an entry point to get close to her without showing any trace.

Everything went smoothly, Si Yu felt that he could ask her about Lei Yao, Su Yun suddenly didn't want to contact her.Si Yu was very surprised, and didn't want to stop there. He ran outside her house, ready to ask her clearly when she went out.

Su Yun came out, Si Yu took a deep breath, and was about to rush up, but was dazzled by a ray of light on her chest.She was taken aback, and subconsciously stopped in her tracks.

It was the flagship necklace in her "Flowers, Clouds, Moon" series, and it was relatively expensive.Su Yun's family is not rich, and it seems that he is not good at buying such things. How could she have this necklace?
Si Yu immediately ran to Ling Sihang's company, Ling Sihang knew what she was coming for, and asked her to sit down with a stiff and bitter smile.

Si Yu didn't sit down, but just looked at him sullenly.She understood that the sudden change in Su Yun's attitude must have been bought by Ling Sihang.Why did he help Lei Yao hide his past?Didn't he always want to drag her away from Lei Yao?Now doing the opposite, what on earth is he trying to do?
Ling Sihang looked at her angry eyes, smiled even more bitterly, sighed and said: "I'm sorry, between you and Lei Yao, I still choose Lei Yao. Actually, that time I told you about Qi Jinhua's text message After telling him, I had a fierce fight with him, and then I found out that he and I are still good friends, friends for life." He said, looking at Si Yu, his eyes sparkling, with dissatisfaction Forgiveness and pain, but also relief and blessing: "So, I plan to be Carlton in "A Tale of Two Cities", please forgive me..."

Si Yu looked at him coldly, biting his lower lip tightly with his upper teeth.Hasn't Ling Sihang always been infatuated with her?Now he suddenly gives up and pushes her to Lei Yao's side, this change is too big, she really can't adapt to it.However, this is not the main thing.She stared at Ling Sihang, feeling a surge of anger from her heart: "What "A Tale of Two Cities"? Who do you think you are? Who do you have the right to ask me to be with? What do you think of me? Something? come and go?"

Si Yu's roar startled everyone in the office next door. Si Yu squinted at the head protruding from the door, feeling extremely resentful and ashamed, gritted his teeth, turned and left.

When Si Yu came home, he found that Lei Yao was not at home. He went out frequently these days.She stared at the empty room for a moment, then threw herself on the bed.At this moment, the phone rang and found that it was a multimedia message from Ling Sihang.

It was a photo of a bracelet design, which Si Yu drew casually when he was working in Ling Sihang's company.Because she didn't pay much attention to this picture, and was in a hurry when she left Ling Sihang's company, she didn't take it away.I thought it was thrown away by the people in the company, but I didn't expect it to still be kept by Ling Sihang.

"I think this design is very good." Ling Sihang said in a text message, "I have sent it for you to participate in the national design competition. According to my experience, this should be able to win a special award. If you can win a special award, it can be regarded as a design project." The world has come to the fore.”

Si Yu didn't take this text message seriously at first, it was just something she drew casually in her spare time at work.She thought that as long as she was serious about painting, the painting would be better than this. Ling Sihang just wanted to please or appease her.However, when Si Yu seriously experimented a few times, she found that this was not the case at all. She tried her best to draw for a long time, but the things she drew were not as good as that one. It turned out that the inspiration flashed in an instant.Si Yu began to look forward to the results of the competition, and would subconsciously browse the webpages related to the competition—it also distracted Si Yu's attention to a certain extent, and no longer put his whole heart on the relationship with Lei Yao.Judging from the popularity of her work exhibition page, even if she only wins a special award, or even does not win an award, she can still emerge in the design world based on her popularity.Maybe her career has a clue, and Si Yu's heart is a little more stable than before.In any case, there is finally a pillar that can support her sky.

However, Lei Yao's frequent going out these days is not just to avoid Si Yu, but because Lan Ling wants to see him frequently.

(End of this chapter)