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Chapter 61 chapter061: Everyone has hurt in their hearts

The person who can't accept the fact of disability the most is not him, nor other people around her, but herself.

She kept trying to irritate him, besides her unbearable temper, she also wanted to use his anger to remind herself of the fact that she was a cripple—you see, you are a cripple, Qin Muyang, who loves you the most, can't stand you anymore , Disabled you will no longer be loved by others.

When she said that she would be killed by herself sooner or later, there was a trace of unbearable pleasure in her eyes, as if she was looking forward to her lover's rejection, which would give her a reason to give up.

When a person accepts other people's disasters, it is often very easy. It is only one part of compassion, two parts of distress, and three parts of helping hands, but her own life is completely different from then on.

"The more beautiful something is destroyed, the more time we often need to accept it."

A nonsensical sentence suddenly echoed in his mind, but it inevitably reminded him of those perfect moments of Bao'er dancing on the ice...

*
Since Bao'er's accident, Qin Muyang has never returned home.Of course it's because I'm too busy, taking care of Bo'er while also dealing with company affairs.

Of course it's because...

Standing in the courtyard in front of the door, the dim light in the villa is far from the home in memory: every night, it is always as bright as a diamond, highlighting the status and luxury of Philadelphia's No. [-] diamond industry.

When did the parents become different from before?

When did it start again, the lights at home will no longer be bright all night?

*
"Muyang? You're back. Why are you standing in the yard, go in quickly."

"Passing by, there is still something to do, so don't go in."

*
Aunt Qiu's smiling face was still simple and warm, but when Qin Muyang saw the opened door, there was an inexplicable panic in his heart.

He didn't know what he was running away from, but looking at the door that had been in and out countless times, he had a faint feeling that there were some secrets hidden inside that he might not be able to accept or face.

When he parked the car in front of the newly bought villa, he saw the busy figure of the engineering team coming in and out under the clear light, and the boredom and panic in his heart slowly dissipated.

Thinking about living here with Bao'er in the future, my heart becomes extremely peaceful.

*
"Mr. Qin, here is the list of goods. They have been installed according to your requirements. Please check and accept them."

"Okay, hard work."

"Mr. Qin, the furniture you ordered before was matched according to the design of the villa over there. Putting it here, it doesn't fit in with the original decoration style."

"For a temporary transition, when the decoration is completed and moved in, when my wife moves in, I will be familiar with these furniture."

"Temporary transition..."

"Can the rest be in place tomorrow?"

"Okay, everything has been arranged."

"Thank you."

*
It's just a set of furniture. If money can bring Bao'er's health back to normal, he is willing to spend all his money for it.

After all the installation workers left, Qin Muyang stayed in the villa all night by himself.

Instead of facing those looming facts and Bao'er's hysteria, he felt that he could support himself for a while longer after a night of silence.

He can't let himself fall, if he falls, Bao'er will really cross...

*
Winter mornings always give people a warm and soft feeling.

Xiu Ya dragged her suitcase and stood outside the fence of the villa, looking at Qin Muyang who was in overalls tidying up the sundries in the yard, she felt that he was warmer than the winter morning light.

It's so warm...it's easy to make people's hearts flutter.

Xiu Ya smiled and shook her head, only feeling that her thoughts were really incomprehensible.

"Qin Muyang." Xiu Ya dragged the suitcase into the yard.

"Xiaoya, you're here." Qin Muyang straightened up, took off his gloves, walked in front of her, and took her suitcase: "It's so early, what time is the flight? Have you been to the hospital this morning?"

"10 o'clock." Xiu Ya looked at the courtyard of the villa, and said with a smile, "It's not Bao'er's favorite style."

"No way, I bought it for an old couple, and it's too late to remodel it." Qin Muyang nodded.

"Try to be as close as possible to her now, and don't worry about those temper and thoughtless words with her." Xiu Ya stopped in front of the gate, looked at Qin Muyang and said, "Actually, every time I see her lose her temper, I will I was thinking: what would happen to me if I was the one who suffered all of this?"

Speaking of this, Xiu Ya sighed lightly, and said in a low voice: "It's really unimaginable."

"How could you argue with her?" Qin Muyang turned around and squinted his eyes to look at the direction where the sun was shining, and said softly and gently: "The relationship between me and her... is gentler than love, deeper than family affection, and stronger than friendship We have been together for more than ten years, and we know each other too well."

"... Then I can feel at ease." Xiu Ya looked at him sideways, feeling a sudden emptiness in her heart, but she didn't know why this feeling came from.

*
Yes, because Pei Ya has been on leave for too long, the teacher sent an email to remind her that if she does not resume classes in time, she will have no quiz results for the few courses she took in the past two months, and her final GPA score will be very difficult. get an A.

Inevitably, this email was sent to her parents at the same time, so she has to go now.

"Sorry for taking you so long." Qin Muyang looked at her and said sincerely.

"I'm sorry for what you said, but I didn't come back because of you." Xiuya said with a smile: "I didn't go to see Bao'er in the morning, because I was afraid that she would be sad. After all...she is also somewhat dependent on me, and she can't go back to school now Attend class."

"Alright, let's talk about it after she asks. I won't be too sad to say goodbye." Qin Muyang raised his wrist to look at the time, and said to Xiu Ya: "Sit down for a while, or take a look around, I'll change clothes and take you to the airport .”

"Okay." Xiu Ya nodded, and smiled slightly at Qin Muyang.

After Qin Muyang turned and went upstairs, Xiu Ya didn't take a casual look, but quietly sat back on the sofa, staring at the leaves swaying in the wind outside the gate in a daze.

In fact, apart from her parents and teachers urging her to go back, she really planned to go back herself.

These two months have been a lot.She thought that maybe she would never have the chance to experience so many...conspiracies, love, and the impermanence of life in this life.

In fact, sometimes she can't face Pei Baoer calmly.

She always wondered if this would have happened if she hadn't insisted on moving to the hotel the night before the engagement?If she could understand Qin's mother at that time and persuade Bao'er not to get engaged, would nothing have happened?If she insisted on staying with Bao'er on the day of the engagement, would both of them be slightly injured?

in case……

The three of them left the hotel together. In the end, she and Xiaoqing were intact, but Bao'er became disabled. Even though all this had nothing to do with her, she felt that she could have done better at that time, and things might not be like this. So bad now.

Every time she sees Bao'er calm, she feels better; every time she sees Bao'er hysterical, she feels terribly uncomfortable, and she can't wait to cut herself with a knife to relieve it.

She thought, she should go, she was afraid that such depression would drive herself crazy.

Perhaps, she still needs a psychiatrist, otherwise she will be like Xiaoqing sooner or later,
Really crazy.

　1. Xiuya’s reaction is called survivor’s guilt in psychology. For example, in a major natural or man-made disaster, the survivors will have some psychological problems to some extent, and many will do good deeds regardless of everything. This is the reason.

　　2. Xiuya's mentality played a decisive role in the relationship between the three of them.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)