If this is not love

Chapter 29 The Heart Distance (1)
In the evening, Tan Shaojie was urged to leave by his mother's phone calls one after another. He had this intention, and some things had to be clarified with his mother face to face.

My mother has lived in my grandfather's house most of the time these years. As soon as he entered the room, he saw her sitting on the sofa with a few photos in her hand.

"Shaojie, why did you come back so late? Mom has been waiting for you for two hours."

"What's the matter?" Looking at her expression, Tan Shaojie had an ominous premonition.

Sure enough, Zhou Xinnian rushed in front of him holding the photo, "Look at this, Miss Xie, the granddaughter of the Yuansheng group family, not only is she beautiful, elegant and generous, she is also a master of arts studying in the UK! This is her contact information , I will call someone in a while, and make an appointment for dinner tomorrow..."

Tan Shaojie's patience stretched to the limit, and he had to interrupt his mother: "You don't have to worry about it, I won't go."

Zhou Xinnian frowned suddenly: "Why? You didn't even take a look at Miss Xie's appearance, so you denied her, isn't it too arbitrary? I selected her carefully from the daughters of famous families in the city. Her appearance, Your family background and knowledge are worthy of you. The most important thing is that a girl from such a rich family is knowledgeable and educated, and she will never be tempted, betrayed or used. What else can you find fault with?"

Tan Shaojie sat helplessly opposite his mother, he really had no interest in other women.

"Mom, it doesn't matter to me how good Miss Xie is. It doesn't matter to me how good any other famous daughter is, because - I already have someone I like."

"What?" The photos were scattered on the floor, Zhou Xinnian hurriedly picked them up, his face changed slightly, "When did it happen? You obviously don't have a girlfriend! Don't repeat the same tricks, just find a random woman as a shield every time! Your little tricks, mom I've already seen it through!"

"I'm serious." Thinking of Ruxu, his tone was extra firm.

Zhou Xinnian looked at him sharply, and was shocked to catch the tenderness hidden in his eyes and brows.So, he really has an object?She narrowed her eyes for a moment, and crumpled the photo in her hand.

"Who? Who is that girl?"

"She is...Mom, you know her too." Tan Shaojie considered his words, how to say the lifelike name without irritating his mother.

However, Zhou Xinnian stood up excitedly in the next second, "I know! It's her! That girl from Rising Sun Office, right? She said she has a boyfriend, but it's actually you, right?"

Tan Shaojie is very aware of his mother's shrewdness.Regarding what Xiaoxu said before, he didn't want to explain too much, but only admitted: "She is called Wang Ruxu, and she is a woman I really like."

"No wonder!" Zhou Xinnian couldn't help but sternly, and said coldly, "I've already seen that something is wrong with you two. You often go in and out of her house and say you teach her how to cook... I really believe it. God! My Zhou Xinnian's son You actually cook for that kind of girl every day! You...you still refuse to admit it, even cheating on me! Shaojie, listen carefully, I don't agree with you being with her!"

"Mom, I've expected you to react like this, so I don't expect you to agree now. It's my son's respect and courtesy to tell you this, but no matter what you think, I respect Ruxu I won't change my mind!" After Tan Shaojie finished speaking, he was about to leave the room.

But Zhou Xinnian rushed over and grabbed his arm tightly, intertwined with anger and sadness, "No! I object, and I will object to the end! That girl is not suitable for you. Mom is very accurate. She doesn't seem to like you at all. If she is with you all of a sudden, she must have other plans! Shaojie, Mom must not just sit and watch you being hurt by her!"

Tan Shaojie clenched his fingers into fists and lowered his head slowly: "Mom, here is the second question I want to tell you - who I like and who I want to associate with are all my business. Ruxu is a woman I value, I Care about her, cherish her, so please don't bother her!"

Zhou Xinnian held his son's arm tightly, as if afraid of losing him, he would not let go.

"Mom... I'm almost thirty. I know exactly what I'm doing and what I want. I'm not a big brother, and I have a good eye for people. Wang Ruxu is a woman worthy of my lifetime love. You Whether you support it or oppose it to the end, this time, I will not be swayed by anyone's influence."

Once, because of the shadow of family split, he dared not reveal his sincerity; once, he was afraid of his mother's strong opposition and harm, so he dared not pursue it openly; once, because Ruxu only had Wang Yichen in his heart, he endured jealousy, frustration and depression alone... He has always been Acting so contradictory, erratic, and sometimes hating myself why can't I be more free and easy?Sometimes I hate Ruxu, why can't I understand myself?
However, when watching her sad and crying, the desire to accompany her and create happiness for her is more important than anything else.He seemed to gain strength overnight, so brave that he was not afraid of any obstacles.

He wanted to win her over, desperate to keep her by his side.

"I'm sorry, Mom, please let go. You should know how much struggle I have gone through to get to where I am today. If you don't want our mother-child relationship to return to the way it was before, please support me!"

Tan Shaojie slowly pulled his mother's fingers away, he couldn't bear to see his mother's disappointed eyes, but he had to force himself to look directly at her.

What weighty words!Zhou Xinnian stared blankly at her son. It was as if he had thrown a huge hailstone, hitting her heart hard, making her feel cold and painful.She was forced to let go, but she was not reconciled.

"Shaojie, you can't treat Mom like this! You can't threaten Mom like this... Mom loves you so much!"

"How much do you love me? If you really love me, let's respect each other! Mom!" The claimant shouted in a low voice and forcefully. After he finished speaking, he strode away with a gloomy face.

The next day, when Zhou Wei'an heard about this, he had an expected expression on his face.The two brothers met at a bar they frequented to have a heart-to-heart talk.Facing the beauties who frequently flirted with winks, they turned a blind eye and remained indifferent. Then they looked at each other with smiles and clinked glasses.

"Woman, I feel like a cat. When it's cute, it's as gentle as a Persian cat. When it's fierce, the latent wildness is immediately stimulated. It's like an untamed wild cat. It may stretch out its claws to attack you at any time. "The matter of Qiao Weiwei taught Zhou Wei'an to learn a lesson and keep women at arm's length.

Tan Shaojie shook the wine glass and shook his head: "Woman, I think it's like a glass of wine. If the wine is beautiful and attracts you at first sight, you will be eager to take a big sip. If you further find that the wine tastes very special and suits your appetite, then Sometimes, I am reluctant to drink it all in one gulp, and I just want to stay and savor it slowly.”

Zhou Wei'an said: "It seems that Lawyer Wang is very suitable for you."

Tan Shaojie smiled confidently, "Yes, she is like this glass of whiskey. It smells mellow and tangy, and the taste is a bit irritating, but after drinking it, it will teach people to linger on the mouth. The aftertaste is endless, and it is worth cherishing."

"But Aunt Nian won't agree."

"It doesn't matter whether she agrees or not, and it will no longer affect what I do."

"Hehe, do I want to congratulate you grandly? Not only in love, but also in front of Aunt Nian, you finally have a qualitative change. I thought you were going to play games in the world all your life!"

Tan Shaojie patted him on the shoulder with one hand, "Brother, I really don't know whether I should be happy when you say that. You are right. For so many years, for my mother... the knot in my heart can never be untied. It was finally untied, and now I really don't want to spoil it any more."

No one understands him better than Zhou Wei'an. Their growth backgrounds are very similar, and they went through the rebellious and absurd youth together.To use their own words to describe it, it is called "bad brothers and bad brothers".

Tan Shaojie initially hated his mother's suspicion and jealousy for causing him to lose his complete family, and hated his mother for causing his most admired father to no longer be a judge.Later, he began to hate his mother for being indifferent to him for many years, never seeing him, and suddenly appearing in front of him frequently in the past two years, but behind the scenes, he kept using means to investigate every woman around him...

If Zhou Wei'an hadn't rushed him to a hotel a few days ago, heard his parents quarrel with his own ears, and heard his mother cry out the truth from his heart, he might never have forgiven her for the rest of his life.

His mother's words that day were engraved on his heart like a brand, burning hot and painful.It turned out that she suffered from mental depression because of her elder brother's death, and her grandfather sent her abroad for recuperation and treatment.She wanted to see him every time she came back, but her father refused to let him, and firmly stopped her.Every time she saw a new girlfriend by his side, she was worried that the historical tragedy would repeat itself, so she asked people to investigate...

She also tried hard to reunite with her father, but it was her father who was determined and never looked back...

Zhou Wei'an offered him a glass of wine, and comforted him: "Don't worry, as long as you are firm, Auntie Nian will eventually compromise. It's not that she doesn't love your son, but she's too nervous and caring, and doesn't know how to love. Seriously, if you had to choose between Lawyer Wang and Aunt Nian, what would you do?"

Pain appeared between Tan Shaojie's brows, and the mellow wine felt bitter after swallowing it.He smiled vainly, but his voice was very clear: "Xiao Xu...she is someone I can't let go of with all my strength."

Zhou Wei'an raised his eyebrows in disbelief: "No way? Although I know that you are interested in Lawyer Wang, has your relationship reached this deep? Can you even leave Aunt Nian?"

Tan Shaojie's black eyes flickered, with a faint gleam of water, hiding a sadness that no one could know.He still smiled like that, "Fool, blood relationship will exist forever whether you let it go or not. Even if my mother can't accept it temporarily, she will always be my mother. But Xiaoxu is different. If I don't hold on tightly, once lost, it will be forever. ..."

Zhou Wei'an was even more shocked, this was the first time that Tan Shaojie frankly expressed his truest feelings.

"I used to think that I could let her go, huh... Recently, I have realized more and more clearly that without her, I may suffer a kind of pain like separation of flesh and blood every day for the rest of my life."

"It's over! You're over! Crazy! Oh my god...you're completely over!" Zhou Wei'an repeatedly patted his forehead and pointed at him, horrified as if he saw a monster, "Shaojie, I can't believe it, this is you Tan Daqingsheng What you said. Lawyer Wang is nice, pretty and has a personality, but no matter how I think about it, I can't figure out how she can have such magical powers, and make you so fascinated and fascinated?"

Tan Shaojie's eyes gradually condensed and became black and bright, and his smile suddenly brightened. "You really can't figure it out, because you have lived for 30 years, even though you have been married and become a father, you have never really loved. Love, only those who have experienced love can understand the sweetness and pain in it, Worry and fear..."

"STOP!" Zhou Wei'an interrupted quickly after being poked at the sore spot, and gave him a sideways glance, "The two big men are full of love and love, you are not ashamed, I am ashamed for you!"

"Hehe." Tan Shaojie didn't take it seriously, feeling full in his chest, pushing away the worries from a minute ago. "Weian, I just want to say——Wang Ruxu is the woman who gave me these strong feelings, and it's been a long, long time."

"how long?"

"It's been more than ten years, it started when she was sitting behind her in the first year of high school..."

"Tan Shaojie!"

"how?"

"You deserve a beating!"

Hudi punched him, and the fist landed firmly on Tan's abdomen.He straightened up, his face slightly annoyed, "Zhou Wei'an, you drank too much! Why don't you get nervous!"

周维安面不红气不喘，“就揍你这个不够义气的家伙！十年有余，亏你敢讲！说什么好兄弟，暗恋人家这么久，连个屁都没放，口风真紧哪！好Boy, I have yours!" After saying that, he wanted to raise his fist again.

Tan Shaojie rubbed his sore abdomen. Fortunately, he usually pays attention to exercise and his muscles are relatively strong, otherwise he might be beaten into internal injuries.Is it a mistake for this guy to come to the truth and hide this relationship?

"I've had a crush on a woman for ten years, and I'm only taking action now... You, you, how do you make people accept that stupid person is you? It's too embarrassing for my brother!"

It seems that Zhou was greatly stimulated, so Tan Shaojie had no choice but to raise his handsome eyebrows: "Well, I was wrong! But you suddenly got married and didn't reveal the slightest word in advance. Should I give you a punch?"

This one word once again hit Zhou Wei'an's Achilles' heel. He accidentally made Chen Yirong pregnant with Shanshan, so he had no choice but to marry her in a flash marriage.It was a mistake that would cause eternal hatred. The only fortunate thing is that Xiao Shanshan is smart and cute, allowing him to fully appreciate the joy of being a father.But Tan Shaojie is not flat enough, and he specializes in which pot is not opened and which pot is lifted.

"Looks like one punch just now wasn't enough!"

"Short oil, don't be angry!" Tan Shaojie suddenly showed an ambiguous smirk, stretched out his hand to hook Zhou Wei'an's neck, put his handsome face on it, and raised his voice deliberately, "How can I stand your tossing like this... But, what do you think?" If we want to have fun, why don't we continue in another place! Tell me, go to your house or mine?"

Zhou Wei'an glanced around, and found that the beauties who had been flirting all around seemed to have eggs stuck in their mouths, surprised and regretful.Tsk tsk, what a pity, what a pity... A man who is a little more handsome and stylish now is likely to be a beautiful glass ball, an insurmountable challenge!

Under the watchful eyes of everyone, the two men walked away with shoulders shoulders and backs.Once out the door, they laughed tacitly.

"I'm going to find my sweetheart." He won't come to this bar in the future.

"I'm going to accompany my baby Shanshan." He will never mess with the woman in the bar again.

They go to opposite streets...

In addition to career, a man's pursuit always has treasures in his heart.It is a very happy thing to be the treasure in a man's heart.It's a pity that at this moment, Ruxu is troubled in the whirlpool of chaos.Tan Shaojie's plausible confession made her feel uneasy, and she walked around the house more than ten times, unable to figure it out.

Perhaps, happiness is still one step away from her, but if she wants to, she can easily get it by stretching out her little hand.

In the end, Ruxu came to a conclusion—there was no need to disturb Tan Shaojie's words, as if he had never said them.If he wants to mention it again, she will... Anyway, he will not be allowed to enter her house casually in the future!
However, Tan Shaojie is by no means someone she can control.It took less than half an hour to reach the conclusion here, and the other side rushed over from the bar to ring the doorbell of her house.

"It really is you..."

"Oh, what's the matter? I knew I was coming, or have you been waiting for me?" Tan Shaojie smiled all over his face, raised the plastic bag in his hand, and stepped in, "See what delicious food I brought you?"

"I don't want to eat." She was depressed, forgetting to block him.

"You want to cultivate to become a fairy again? You can't be too lazy to be a woman. If you are so lazy that you don't even want to move after eating, what's the matter?" He put the bag on the dining table by himself, saw her gloomy expression, and pinched her face, "Okay La! Just kidding, I know you have a bad appetite and are not in the mood to eat, so I bought your favorite Peking duck and beer, so you can drink and eat."

Ruxu's nose faintly smelled the aroma of roast duck, her heart twitched quietly, and she retreated coldly, "Thank you, I just wanted to declare something to you."

"Tell me." He was used to her indifference, and raised his eyebrows freely without being affected at all.Speaking of which, her lovelorn was his happiness.This remark sounded a bit despicable, but it was true, and he wished he could run to the rooftop and shout loudly.

"I won't be your girlfriend. Even without Yichen, it's impossible for me to have that kind of relationship with you."

"Oh." There was only a slight pause in the movement of his hands, and no thought could be seen on his face.

"Also, please don't come here casually in the future, I don't need to learn cooking for anyone, and I don't welcome uninvited guests."

"Oh..." Shan Yin replied, indicating that he already knew, "It's over? Let's eat after we're done! Wei An and I went to drink some wine, and we haven't eaten yet!"

Ruxu was so annoyed that she didn't care who he went drinking with or whether he drank on an empty stomach.Did he even hear her?How come there is no response?
He neatly took out the bowls, chopsticks and plates from the kitchen. There were no beer glasses, and he temporarily replaced them with two teacups.

Ruxu couldn't hold back anymore, she slapped the table with one hand, "Did you hear the two points I made?"

Only then did he raise his head to face her with an innocent face: "I heard that! You don't want to be my girlfriend, it's okay, I told you that I don't care. At least we are colleagues, and I can be considered your boss and chef, Right? Hehe, if you don’t come tonight, you’ll come here, don’t tell me you want to drive me away now?” While talking, put the roast duck on a plate, put it in the microwave to heat it up, and after a while, the unique aroma permeated immediately.

Ruxu was still standing there, Tan Shaojie pulled her up, "If you want to stay young and beautiful, don't keep a sullen face. If you can't live with yourself, life will be a disaster. Come and sit down quickly, in order to buy this duck , I have been queuing for a long time in the cold wind!"

She really has no appetite, but her belly is beating drums and fighting.He stared at her amusedly, and she was ashamed and angry.

"If you want to eat, you can eat by yourself, and leave immediately after eating." She can't be blamed for always chasing people away. When she sees him, her whole body will feel very tangled.

He grabbed her quickly, "Hey! What's the point of me eating alone? I bought the roast duck just for you. Didn't you want to learn how to cook it a while ago? Blessed to share, come."

Ruxu closed her eyes, and finally said something she didn't want to say: "Tan Shaojie, did I tell you—why do I like roast duck?"

"Why?" The corner of his eye twitched, and he instinctively felt that there was a story behind it that he didn't want to hear.

"Because Yichen had a concert in Beijing back then and didn't have time to go back to Lingjiang. In order to see him, I flew over overnight. The weather was very cold, just like tonight, as if it would snow at any time. He went to eat with me Roast duck..." During the short meeting, she pretended to meet by chance, Yichen still didn't know what she meant, but the aroma of the roast duck drove away the winter cold, and the beautiful memories and warmth remained in her heart for a long time.

After Tan Shaojie listened, his smile was a little stiff.

"So, do you think I can eat roast duck when I'm broken in love?" Eating it will taste sad and painful.

"This is easy to handle. If you don't want to eat it, don't eat it. You can never eat it in the future. You have the final say!" He opened another small paper bag as if nothing had happened, narrowing his eyes slightly, "What about fried chestnuts in sugar? Don't tell me, this one is too. I like it because the guy surnamed Wang!"

"No...it's what I like."

Tan Shaojie immediately recovered his smile, and stuffed the chestnut bag into her hand.

"Tsk tsk, it's shameful to waste it! It just so happens that the two of us work together, you are in charge of the chestnuts, and I am in charge of eliminating this damned fat duck."

Later, when I vividly recalled the situation of that night, I was somewhat grateful.Her refusal didn't make him retreat, he didn't seem to mind anything, neither forced her, mocked her, nor put other pressure on her.I just happily invited her to eat chestnuts and drink with her, and didn't mention the "association" thing again.

Probably because of the alcohol, she slept soundly.

(End of this chapter)