If this is not love

Chapter 32 The Heart Distance (4)
In the bedroom, it was very quiet, and the two sisters were talking closely.

Xin Ning knew very well that Ruxu would never come to find her if she was not so troubled that she couldn't get rid of it.She silently listened to all Ruxu's narration, and sighed: "Oh! I never thought that so many things would happen in just one month. Yichen never looked for me, and I thought you two were developing smoothly, and I was always happy for you .”

Ruxu lowered her head, her fingers unconsciously drew circles on the bed sheet, sometimes clenched tightly without moving.

"Compared to... I think Tan Shaojie annoys me more."

"Xiaoxu, haven't you ever thought that the reason why Tan Shaojie treats you like this is because he really likes you?"

"No way...it's unlikely. Although I've thought about it and tried to believe it, I still think...it's more likely to be a joke."

"What if it's true?" Xin Ning believed in her own deduction. In matters of emotion, the authorities are often obsessed with it.At the beginning, she had many conflicts with Shen Yitang, and Ruxu was her first-class military adviser.Now that the roles are reversed, she finds that Ruxu rarely has such a confused and chaotic moment, which shows that the instigator has great influence on Ruxu.

As soon as Ruxu was questioned, her heart jumped wildly, and she suddenly raised her head: "If it's true...it's impossible for me and him."

"Why is it impossible? You and Yichen have tried hard, and you won't regret it if there is no result. You should liberate yourself earlier."

Emancipation, easier said than done?How many times did Xin Ning swear to the sky that she would sever ties with Shen Yitang, but in the end, she didn't have the ambition to remarry?Ruxu twiddled her fingers, not only sighed, but still sighed.

Xin Ning slapped her on the back, she had gained weight, and her hands were much stronger, so she sat upright immediately.

"Xiaoxu, I remember when I decided to break up with Shen Yitang, you told me a word - the best way to forget a man is to fall in love with another man as soon as possible."

"You want me to accept Tan Shaojie?" Ruxu's perception suddenly became more sensitive, "I also remember that you used Yichen's help to get rid of Shen Yitang's love, but in the end, except for being full of guilt for Yichen, nothing came of it. any effect."

"Yes! Alas!" Xin Ning couldn't help but fell into memories, telling the unknown heaviness, "Actually, I was too selfish at that time. I had already noticed Yichen's feelings for me, but I didn't hesitate to take advantage of his kindness to me." , begging him to help me get rid of the pain. But at that time, I really hoped that I could accept him, but love couldn’t be forced..."

Ruxu understood deeply, and pressed the back of her hand, "I, you, and Yichen, the three of us are destined to be only the 'Three Musketeers', lifelong confidants, it's good to think about it. Yichen is so good, you can't Compared with Tan Shaojie, it is even more impossible for me to entrust love."

"Xiaoxu, I have something I've been wanting to say for a long time. Let alone whether Tan Shaojie is good or not, are you really not attracted to him at all? You even gave him your first kiss. When he kissed you, didn't you Will you blush and have a heartbeat?"

Ruxu was dumb, inexplicably flustered, and didn't even dare to admit the answer.She slapped her face suddenly, shaking her head again and again: "Impossible! Every time he kisses me forcefully, I don't have time to get angry, how could I blush and heartbeat? Even if I did, I would want to chop him with a knife, I would be so angry!"

Xin Ning is someone who has experienced it, so she can tell at a glance that she is not telling the truth.She is so cute, if she doesn't have feelings for Tan Shaojie, how could she lie in front of her? "Xiao Xu, actually thinking about it now, Tan Shaojie is quite outstanding. Needless to say, he is tall and handsome, and he is also very capable. Last time the newspaper said that he won a complicated murder case, which made people in the industry talk about it. , It is a good story. You used to say that he was immoral and lacked a sense of justice, do you still think that way now?"

Ruxu pondered, thinking back carefully, when did her attitude towards Tan Shaojie's work gradually change?Many cases that were originally aroused with vigor and vitality have reached out-of-court settlements under his penetrating tongue.Later, she found that in those cases, the parties could mediate on their own, which was the best strategy.

Seeing her expression, Xinning understood better.

"You said that Tan Shaojie often made things difficult for you and ridiculed you. Does he do the same to others?"

"This... I don't seem to have seen it before, maybe I didn't notice it. No, I remembered that once I met Yichen by chance in a bookstore, and I happened to see Tan Shaojie sneering at another woman, and his words were quite mean. And once…"

"Stop!" Xinning gave up guiding in this direction and changed the subject, "He is very patient in teaching you how to cook, isn't he? It's not easy for a man who has nothing to do with him to do this."

Ruxu frowned, "You want to prove that he likes me by doing this? He taught me how to cook to match Yichen and me. If he really likes me, would he be so generous? If it were Shen Yitang, would he be kind enough to fulfill his intentions?"

"You know very well that Shen Yitang is very selfish towards the person he loves. Of course, it is impossible for me and others to be perfect."

"In the same way, Tan Shaojie is a man, and he is domineering and selfish in his bones. So the conclusion is that he doesn't like me." Ruxu hugged her knees and pulled the blanket tightly, it was so cold!

Xinning rolled her eyes and poked her forehead, "As an outsider, my opinion is that if Tan Shaojie didn't have a heart for you, he wouldn't do so much for you. Don't get into a dead end and refuse to come out. "

"I do not have."

"You really don't have one?"

"I…"

"Over the years, I have always felt that you have a knot in your heart, which makes you feel inferior subconsciously, and is full of uncertainty about love and men. That knot not only prevents you from getting close to Yichen, but also prevents you from accepting other feelings. You try to pretend to be Very tough, very indifferent, even in front of Yichen, he dare not open his heart, in fact, he is covering up his inferiority complex."

As if frozen in ice and snow, it was too stiff to move.Some people say that the person who knows you best is not necessarily the only person, but the person closest to you. When Xin Ning said this, her heart throbbed fiercely.

"Why? What kind of knot is that?"

"That's..." A picture clearly appeared in his mind, and Tan Shaojie's blunt accusations echoed repeatedly.She kept twisting the blanket with her hands, her brows were knotted, "Some people say that I don't understand style and will only hurt people's sincerity. A girl like me who has no passion and a cold personality is not worthy of being liked by others. "

"Ah?" Xin Ning squeezed her hand tightly, "I know Wang Ruxu who is cold outside and hot inside. She cherishes her friends and everything around her. You are eloquent on the surface, and you can speak confidently in court, but you are not kind to those you like. Words. In life, you look big and disintegrated, and you don’t even know how to cook, but you are sensitive and delicate in your heart, and you are considerate of the people you like. You make people who become your friends feel very happy.”

"Really? Aren't you comforting me?" Ruxu's eyes lit up in shock, and she was so sad that she was about to cry.

Xin Ning blinked: "I swear it's true, lies can't be spoken so fluently."

"Thank you, really."

"But which bastard said that sentence?"

"It's him - Tan Shaojie!"

"Uh...Xiao Xu, you actually kept his words in your heart for 12 years? Does this count as a special evil fate?"

"It should be counted." Ruxu agreed cautiously.

"So Xiaoxu, listen to one of the most important words from me—promise me, no matter what, give Tan Shaojie a fair chance to test. When he appears in front of you, try not to reject people thousands of miles away, and don't put up spikes all over your body. When you want to get angry, you may wish to think about his patience when he taught you how to cook. If you get along with him with the mentality when you are learning cooking, I believe there will be unexpected gains.”

Before Ruxu could speak, footsteps came from outside the door, and Shen Yitang knocked on the door, "Are you done chatting? Alan has stewed bird's nest soup, come down and drink it quickly."

"I'm here, I'm discussing with Xiaoxu about being a bridesmaid!" Xin Ning changed the subject sharply. She and Shen Yitang were married for the second time, and she was afraid of getting a bad start, so she was hesitant to invite a best man and a bridesmaid.But while chatting just now, she suddenly felt that her happiness was a good fortune, and she should make Ruxu more happy.

"You really want me to be a bridesmaid?"

"Well, Shen Yitang even found two couples for the flower girl! The bridesmaid must be you. As for the best man - Yichen and Tan Shaojie, who do you want?" Xin Ning looked troubled and contemplative.

Ruxu looked distressed, and remained silent for a long time before hesitating, "Can you... don't want any of them?" In her heart, best man and bridesmaid always have some special meaning.

Xin Ning thought for a while: "I think it doesn't matter who they are. However, if you can't decide, don't blame me for making my own decision!"

"Who are you going to choose?" No matter which one made her startled, she was inexplicably nervous.

"Secret, you will know when the time comes, maybe there will be surprises."

"Will you choose Yichen?" After all, the relationship between the Three Musketeers is unbreakable. How could Xinning's grand wedding be without their common prince?Ruxu dreamed that one day she would wear a beautiful white wedding dress, watch Yichen walk from the sun, hold her hand, and walk into the wedding hall together.Today, that dream is impossible to come true, but as a bridesmaid and best man, accompanying Xin Ning to experience the most sacred ceremony in life, it can be regarded as a fulfillment of a wish!

Shen Yitang urged softly again from outside the door: "Honey, don't worry about chatting, eat the bird's nest soup while it's hot." The door was locked, and I really don't know what these two women are whispering, so mysterious.

"Understood." Xin Ning replied, looking at Ruxu with a smile, "Well, let's keep a little suspense for now, I have to ask the opinions of the two men first!"

"If I have to pick one, I think...it should be Yichen!" Ruxu summoned up the courage to speak out from the bottom of her heart, and helped Xinning get up.In fact, she was very contradictory. Yichen watched Xinning get married again, which was already heartbreaking.But Yichen said that if given the chance, he hopes to accompany Xinning on the red carpet and send her to another man in person...

So cruel, so sad...

Because of Yichen Wugui's deep affection, Ruxu's mouth was filled with bitterness.

Xin Ning did not answer directly, but joked: "Tan Shaojie will definitely be jealous when he sees you and Yichen appearing in pairs."

"If he is jealous, that would be great, so I don't have to deal with it. Drowning is the best, I'm afraid the vinegar tank is not deep enough or big enough."

"Hehe, poor young master Tan!"

"He asked for it."

"Yeah, falling in love with a heartless woman like you makes people feel sympathetic! I should think about it carefully and ask Young Master Tan to be my best man to feel the happiness."

"Hey! Mrs. Shen! You are full of sympathy! If you invite Tan Shaojie, are you trying to vomit me to death?"

"Ouch! The bird's nest soup is getting cold, I have to drink it quickly, or my husband will break in." Xin Ning slyly avoided the topic, with a bright smile and happy eyes.She touched her belly and sighed contentedly, "To be honest, Mr. Shen has a lot of problems, but he is a good husband and father."

"Hmph! Jealousy!" Ruxu snorted coldly and squeezed out two words sullenly, but couldn't help being happy for her happiness.

Xinning is happy, and this happiness is hard-won.

Ruxu walked out of the gate of Shen's house, the sky outside was still dark and cold, but when she looked up at the sky, she could faintly see a few twinkling stars, which seemed to indicate that there would be a fine weather tomorrow.She patted her chest, and the heaviness in her heart disappeared a lot. Talking to a good sister is indeed a wise way to relieve stress.

Everyone has their own happiness, she is not sentimental, but she wants to ask aloud - where is my happiness?
(End of this chapter)