If this is not love

Chapter 40 The Last Second of the Finale (4)
Ruxu lowered her head, put her hands in her pockets and clenched her hands tightly, her heart was empty with no certainty.

"Speak!" After a while, Tan Shaojie took the initiative to break the silence, "Say what you have to say now, lest you say I didn't give you a chance."

Ruxu took a deep breath, and slowly raised her head: "Tan Shaojie, you have been avoiding me. On the night of the eighth day of the eighth day, you clearly agreed to see me at work, but you missed the appointment, and I haven't seen you for almost a month... You know, every day I How did it go?"

"At the beginning you said you didn't want to see me." He reminded lightly.

"I regret it! I take back that sentence, can you...pretend you didn't hear it?"

"You said many more…"

"I take it all back!" she said anxiously.

He looked at her blankly.Words spoken are like water poured out, so no matter how much he makes her angry, he never speaks unfeeling words.And every word she said, he remembered clearly, dare not forget.Those hurtful words accumulated little by little, and made him make up his mind to give up everything, let himself feel the pain to the extreme, and then wake up completely.

"Shaojie, I really regret it! I didn't know your feelings for me before, I didn't know that you loved me, I thought you were joking with me, you always teased me, bullied me, and made me angry... I thought we didn't care No matter how much you quarrel or have conflicts, you won't leave me..."

So, was it all his fault for waiting regardless of past suspicions?

"I just listen to you, as you wish, and don't bother me anymore. Is it really that important to you whether I leave or not?" Or did you come to him because you were not used to it for a while?
Ruxu looked into his eyes, he was so calm and peaceful, he really wanted to break up with her completely.From his indifferent eyes, she comprehended this point desperately.

"Hey! Xiaoxu, what else do you want me to do? You said that you don't want me to be responsible, and don't have any other relationship with me. When I found out that I insisted on approaching and giving, it was just my wishful thinking. What I brought you was only When I am burdened and bored, I can only choose to take everything back."

You can't blame him, he has already revealed that he has to be ruthless when treating women, he is more ruthless than anyone else.

"Shaojie..." She sniffed, and the mist in her eyes became thicker, "Can't you give me a chance? I'll tell you seriously, you are very important to me."

"How important is it?" Tan Shaojie shook his head with a smile. He is not a pug. If she is happy to call him over, she will happily please her master, and when she is unhappy, she will roll away. "I was with my mother on the mountain this month. She untied a lot of knots, and so did I. Xiaoxu, we will be old classmates, old friends, and good colleagues in the future. This is very good."

"Not good...I don't think it's good at all." Ruxu's heart was in a mess.

"Fool, there is a saying that 'a good horse never turns back', just treat me like a turnaround."

She can't do it in such a calm and breezy way!In her life, he has been pierced by water and stone, and he has carved an indelible mark invisibly. Although she thinks that coming to him like this is very worthless, very spineless, and even begs him in a low voice... But she can't go against her own will. She just doesn't want him to let go.

"Xiao Xu, don't be like this. You still have your piano prince!"

It was her own fault that hurt him so much that he could no longer trust her.

Moisture filled her eyes, she resisted it.

"I'm sorry... I didn't mean to reject you... I've never been in a real relationship before. I didn't know my own feelings before. I just stubbornly thought that Yichen was the love of my life... In front of you, I would be at ease, but for many years, In front of him, I am cautious and reserved, not daring to show my true side. Actually... I have already noticed your influence on me. When you kiss me, my heart will beat and tremble... When you teach me how to cook, when you spend the night with me, I have felt warm before. However, I also have unspeakable fears, which I can't even understand, why do I feel differently towards you?"

Tan Shaojie couldn't help breathing shortly, staring at her.

She couldn't help sobbing, her eyes only fell on his chest.

"I feel very strange. I only love Yichen, but I always let you intervene in my life. I feel embarrassed to kiss Yichen...but I gave you my innocence. That night...although I drank too much, But I know that the man holding me is you, and I always knew it was you, but I can't resist...I dare not let you be responsible, I am afraid that I care more and more about you, I can't bear my half-heartedness, and I can't bear you because of responsibility And responsible for..."

After saying this, silence fell between the two of them.She twisted her fingers, and her hair fell down, covering half of her face.

Complicated emotions rolled in his eyes, and his chest heaved slightly.After a long time, he asked hoarsely, "Have you finished?"

"Yes...no! I...ah!" She was extremely flustered, nodded, and then shook her head quickly.

He gritted his teeth and felt a headache for a while.I didn't expect to meet her when I went back to the house to get something, and I didn't expect her to talk so much.However, when he thought of seeing her and Yichen together in front of the red light in the afternoon, his heart still felt sore and throbbing.

What's the use of saying this now?That relationship used to be very, very heavy on his heart, and he couldn't breathe. Now that he finally decided to let go of it, there is absolutely no reason to regain it.Wrong, once is enough.

He also has his fear, afraid of going back to the past, worrying about gains and losses, trying everything to fight and still getting the pain of failure.

Stretching out his fingers stiffly, brushing away her hair, his voice became hoarse: "So, do you still want me to be responsible now?"

"Tan Shaojie..."

"What are you going to do if I don't want to be responsible anymore?"

"Shaojie..." Even though she said so much, does he still want to accept her?Ruxu quickly grabbed his clothes, with tears rolling in her eye sockets, she murmured tremblingly, "What do you want...to accept it?"

She knew that if she let go, he would never look back this time...

He was silent for a while, then gently pulled her hand away, and took a step back with his legs.So quietly, staring at her so earnestly.

"What if I say never accept it?"

Ruxu's mind went blank, and she truly realized that she really lost him this time.Shocked and terrified, but unable to say a word, he hugged him in a hoarse voice, hugging him very tightly, not allowing him to leave like this...

It is impossible for her youth to last another ten years, and it is impossible for her love to meet a man like him again.

Despair made her seem to be exhausted, she kept trembling against his chest, her fingers were cold, she buried her in his chest and wept silently, her hurt heart was so desperate.

He didn't want her anymore. When she finally realized how important the meaning of this man was, he didn't want her anymore. He didn't even want to take responsibility. No matter what method she used, he didn't want to accept it...

In the future, who else will understand her so well, break through her coldness, and trigger her true emotions?Who else would get up from the sofa to make a midnight snack because she said "very hungry" in the middle of the night?Who else doesn't care if he gets it, but just asks her to accept his offering?Who else...would love her so wholeheartedly for 12 years?
No more, except for Tan Shaojie, no one would treat her like that again. Even if she defended her heart layer by layer, she couldn't stop her affection for this man.Yichen was right, he was the most cherished man in the world.

She can't let go.

"Shaojie... Shaojie, if you insist on leaving, please let me finish my last words. I am alone at home, and I feel so quiet around here. Thinking of you... I feel a pain when I breathe. You provoke me, I am not happy, But you give me freedom, but I am even more unhappy... I am at home during the Chinese New Year, laughing and laughing everywhere, but I am not happy, no matter how many people are crowded, I feel lonely...Because you are not here!"

She couldn't control the bursting of tears, she gasped and spoke vaguely.

"My mother said, I used to be indifferent to everything, but now I am in a daze... I used to think that being in a daze was a waste of life, but now I have been wasting my life. It's all because of you...I can't deny it anymore, The influence you have on me. Even I don't know, since when... I have fallen in love with you. Xinning and Yichen have already seen it, and even your father knows it. They all remind me to seize the opportunity , don't miss you. But...I'm so stupid, I naively thought...whether I admit it or not, you will be with me. It turns out...it turns out..."

As it turned out, her repentance came a little too late.

She couldn't speak anymore, crying replaced everything.

"Have you cried enough?" A hard voice came from above her head, Ruxu looked up in astonishment, tears still hanging from the corners of her eyes, but saw a handsome man staring at her with an ugly expression, and she didn't know who to vomit at.

"Shaojie..." Can't she just hug her for a while longer?

"Don't cry in the future! It's so ugly!" He wiped her tears with his cuff viciously, frowning in distress, "I'm wearing this woolen coat for the first time today, it's very expensive, and you ruined it like this !"

She was so sad that he still cared about his sweater?
"How will I meet my friends later!" He continued coldly.

Tan Shaojie!You are so heartless, it doesn't matter if you are not moved, you actually say such words...

Her teary eyes were wide open, her pitiful expression turned into pain and despair.

He stared at her pale face, frowned fiercely, sighed helplessly, lifted her chin and kissed her vigorously.She was taken aback, and he kissed deeply.

"Shao... Jie..." She was dizzy from being kissed, trying to pull out a trace of reason, "You...accept...me..."

"Shut up! Crying so ugly, you still want me to accept you!" Tan Shaojie reprimanded rudely.

Ruxu was stunned for two seconds after listening, then jumped up suddenly.With both legs like a crab, he jumped onto him and hugged his waist tightly, "You accept it! You molested me just now, you are responsible...you are responsible!"

"God... pay attention to your image!" Tan Shaojie groaned desperately, it turns out there are even uglier looks than crying!It's what she is like now, obviously she is molesting him!
"My lady is elegant and noble, I don't need you to remind me!"

"Hmm! I haven't accepted it yet!"

She froze, slid down from his waist, stood firm, and looked at him nervously.

He meditated, "Oh... If someone is willing to go to the Civil Affairs Bureau with his ID card tomorrow, I can consider it."

Take your ID card - go to the Civil Affairs Bureau?

"Excuse me, Mr. Tan Shaojie..." She sorted out her thoughts from the mess, and carefully asked for confirmation, "Are you proposing to me?"

"Well! If you don't want to, forget it. I don't care."

"You..." You bastard, you drove her to death.Well, she is already 28 anyway, and my mother anxiously arranges blind dates every day.Anyway, she had already fallen in love with him, and he saw all the bad images, and gave him her whole body...

"Huh?" He folded his arms and waited patiently, his black eyes began to shine with the light of the past.

"Okay... okay!" Ruxu gritted her teeth secretly, she couldn't be reconciled to such a marriage proposal!
However, he suddenly grinned, held her tightly in his arms, tightly strangled her waist, buried his face deeply into her shoulder, and whispered the most touching words in her ear——
"Why, after being tortured by you like this, I love you more than before..."

After a few minutes.

Tan Shaojie took her hand and walked to the opposite side of the road, she walked a few steps, and stopped motionless.

"what happened?"

"You haven't said... who was that beautiful girl just now? Your ex-girlfriend?"

"Follow me to a place, and you will know."

"No, if you don't tell me, I won't go."

"Wang Ruxu!"

"Hurry up! Who is she? Didn't you go to the mountain to eat fast, how could there be a woman appearing together, your old relationship is revived..."

"Please, use normal reason to think. Also, even if you lose your mind due to jealousy, you shouldn't be so short of memory, right?" Tan enjoyed admiring her jealous face and smiled smugly , "She is Jiajia, my cousin Miss Zhou Jiajia!"

"It's her..." Ruxu wanted to drill a hole in the ground, but she didn't recognize it just now.

"Can you come with me now?" He held her hand. Grandpa is going to hold a family gathering tonight, and he happened to introduce his wife-to-be to everyone.

"Not yet!" Ruxu stopped in her tracks again.

"What's the matter?" Why didn't you find this woman so troublesome before?

"My car is still parked outside your community..."

As soon as he finished talking, she was picked up by him and ran back, "Don't tell me sooner! I haven't driven for a long time, and I still want to take a taxi!"

"Tan Shaojie!"

"what?"

"If you want to register, you have to tell my mother to find someone to check the date. It is better to choose a good day and auspicious day."

"You are so awkward! To be honest, don't you want to marry me like this without a flower ring?"

"I didn't say that..." In fact, I was a little bit unwilling!

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In the future, their lives may still be noisy, but who can deny that they are in love?It is inevitable for lovers and husbands and wives to bump into bumps, just be tolerant and understand.Take the hand of your son, grow old together with your son, and wish them happiness.

(End of this chapter)