Qing court ladies

Chapter 15
Su Yue carefully made tea and walked into the main hall. There were many people in official uniforms in the main hall. Li Dequan stood beside the imperial table with a solemn expression, not daring to wander a single look.Kangxi's face was ashen, blowing his nose and staring at his eyes, he could feel a wave of anger lingering from afar.Su Yue quickly lowered her head and stepped forward, quickly and carefully changed the tea, and cautiously returned to the ear room.In a short period of time, Su Yue's heartbeat almost stopped, and she held her breath so her face flushed.

As soon as Su Yue returned to the ear room, she heard the sound of something falling from the hall, she patted her chest and exhaled, secretly thankful.

Su Yue didn't dare to go in anymore, thinking that Kangxi probably wouldn't drink tea now, Su Yue decided not to go in and seek death.

The sound of clappers sounded at the second watch, and Suyue prepared strong tea and walked in. There was no one in the hall, only Kangxi was still reviewing memorials at the imperial table. Suyue secretly breathed a sigh of relief. Test the ability of the heart.

"Bring the tea to the East Nuan Pavilion." As soon as Suyue walked to the imperial case, when her hand touched the teacup, Kangxi raised her head and put down her pen, gave an order and turned to leave.

Su Yue had no choice but to carry tea and follow Kangxi into the East Nuan Pavilion, watching Kangxi sit down, Su Yue served the tea.

"Today's tea is brewed by Dongmei Xue." Kangxi picked up the tea lid and sniffed it lightly, and asked casually.

Su Yue was startled, and hurriedly knelt down and replied, "Go back to Long Live, no." Kangxi's tea has its own rules, and the water used to make tea is the mountain spring water of Yuquan Mountain. How dare Su Yue change it without authorization, she dare not take life too seriously.

"Oh, then why did I smell this smell on you? Could it be that you were soaked by someone else?" Kangxi's words were dragging, and they were soft and low, but they fell like thunder, which made people tremble with fear.

Su Yue didn't dare to hide it, "Back to Long Live Lord, this maidservant made tea with winter plum snow for Mr. Li, thank you Mr. Li for willing this slavemaid to meet your beautiful and good master"

"Bang" the tea lid in Kangxi's hand dropped and hit the teacup. The sound in the quiet warm pavilion was amplified several times for no reason, like a heart suddenly exploded.

"Why do you want to see Wei?" Kangxi put down the teacup and asked with cold eyes.

Su Yue was frightened, she didn't know how to answer, she didn't dare to tell the truth and didn't dare to lie to Kangxi, her voice was a little trembling, she said, "I think the good master is beautiful, so I want to go and have a look." Su Yue finally didn't dare to tell the truth for the sake.

"What do you think of Wei?" Kangxi patted his front and asked.

"The good master is very nice, beautiful and easy-going." Su Yue felt that she was going crazy, and when she was so depressed, her heart was in a mess.

"Then do you want to be the master?" Kangxi stepped forward and hooked Suyue's chin, forcing Suyue to look up.

Su Yue was frightened, looked at Kangxi's expressionless face, was terrified half to death, and replied in fear, "I don't dare, please Long Live Lord to see clearly."

"Oh... I dare not, or I don't want to, or I don't want to" Kangxi deliberately draws out his tone, staring at Suyue intently, not missing any subtle expressions on Suyue's face.

Su Yue's heart beat like a drum, and the feeling of suffocation made her feel like she was going to die.She tried her best to calm herself down, but she couldn't control her thoughts at all, so she could only repeat the words "servant...servant..." dully.

Kangxi seemed to have finished appreciating Suyue's panic, a smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, he pulled Suyue into his arms, and said "I want to" in Suyue's ear with a bit of joking and a bit of sincerity

The two short words carried a tremendous force, shaking Su Yue's soul, she stared blankly at Kangxi, forgot all the etiquette, a lot of thoughts appeared in her mind in a mess, she felt that she was hallucinating, that she was dreaming, that I went crazy, and even wondered if I was insane, how could I have such absurd dreams.

Thinking of her as a little maid, she has no beauty, no knowledge, no family background, she is useless except for making mistakes repeatedly, how dare she have such a dream of being struck by lightning?

"I started thinking about it when you were reciting poems in the plum garden, and I thought about it even more after being with you that night. Now I can't wait any longer. I originally wanted you to understand, but you are too confused, and I can't help it." Kangxi finished. , Regardless of Su Yue's wishes, she lowered her head domineeringly and walked towards Su Yue.

Su Yue pushed Kangxi away in a panic, her confused mind finally regained some clarity.She seems to have begun to realize that all this is not a ridiculous dream, but a fact more terrifying than a nightmare.She thought a lot for a moment, thinking that Kangxi must be crazy, there are countless beauties in the harem, why did she fall in love with her blindly?Or Kangxi has some unique hobby, he doesn't like delicate flowers, but likes the dog's tail grass by the roadside?

In the end, Su Yue remembered what Kangxi saw in her.Maid and master, naturally the master is honorable, but there is a price to pay for honor.The maid looks pitiful, but she has hope. She can leave the palace as soon as 25 arrives. That is her favorite freedom!
After thinking about it, Su Yue suddenly felt that dreaming is good, at least she doesn't have to face something she doesn't want to face.Su Yue changed her mind, pretended to be stupid and pretended to be dumbfounded, and murmured dully and dumbly, "I'm dreaming, I must be dreaming, how could there be such a ridiculous dream, did I eat the guts of a leopard?"

Kangxi pulls Suyue back and uses the most straightforward way to let Suyue understand that all this is not a dream.

Su Yue is struggling hard, she is struggling for her freedom, her innocence, and her love.She can't become a dog's tail grass in Kangxi's harem, otherwise her life will be over.

It's a pity that Su Yue has never struggled with a man who is determined to want her, just like she can't break free from the rules of this world.

Great power!

When Suyue woke up, she looked at the strange roof and remembered everything from last night. Suyue found that she couldn't cry.Although in this era, she thought her life was ruined, Su Yue couldn't cry.

"Master, you are awake, do you want to take a bath?" Qiu He looked at Su Yue distressedly, and asked softly.

Suyue ignored her, she was not the master, Suyue tidied herself up, walked to the anteroom through the warm pavilion, and then left, Suyue didn't care about other people's eyes and questions, after returning to her room, Suyue prepared a bucket of food for herself. Cold water, she needs to calm down, the matter has come to this point, she needs to find a way, she can't be the master, she can't be a woman in the harem, if that is the case, she will have to stay in the Forbidden City for the rest of her life, it will make her truly miserable and desperate.

Su Yue soaked in the bucket of cold water and plunged into the water.Calm yourself, she needs to think.

After Su Yue was bruised from the cold, she leaned against the tub and began to think. In fact, everything was foreshadowed, but Su Yue never dared to think about it. The things in the TV book gave Su Yue some hints, but Su Yue always felt that , she is not beautiful, she is not good at poetry, calligraphy, piano and chess, she is useless, how could she be attracted by an ancient Mingjun.What's more, Su Yue has been making mistakes constantly since she met Kangxi. It is possible that making mistakes can arouse a person's interest, but what is the use of thinking about it now, what she should think about is what to do in the future.

First of all, she cannot ask Kangxi to give her a title, and secondly, she needs to find a way to get Kangxi to give her a promise that after the age of 25, she will be allowed to leave the palace and go home to accompany her parents for life. Of course, she will not marry, nor can she marry. People, but this method, can it work?

Su Yue's heart was in a mess, and she couldn't think of a solution. At this moment, Su Yue felt that she was really stupid. Even if she was a person in the 21st century, so what?Those women who time-travel are really just stories, she can't be them, without wisdom and brains, this is Su Yue.

After taking a bath, Su Yue wore her pajamas, sat on the bed with her legs crossed, and comforted herself with self-deprecation. In fact, everything is not so scary, but it is just having sex with others. There are many such things in the 21st century, she doesn't need to worry about it, and she is still the emperor, Emperor Kangxi, the most powerful emperor in history, she will not suffer.But Su Yue couldn't drive away the sadness in her heart, the thick sadness.

Gui'an came to knock on the door, but Su Yue blocked the door and ignored her.It wasn't until the sun was setting that Su Yue got up to wash up and went to the Qing Palace to be on duty.

Li Dequan was already waiting at the door of the anteroom, watching Suyue open the door to welcome Suyue in, and asked Gui'an to guard the door.

Su Yue made a cup of tea for Li Dequan, sat on the footrest and remained silent.

Li Dequan felt a little distressed, getting along with Suyue these days, seeing Suyue lifeless now, felt a little sad, "Suyue, Long Live Lord likes you, and you will be the master in the future, life will be better after all." Li Dequan was at a loss for words, Because he found that these were not what Su Yue wanted. He still remembered Su Yue once said that when she was 25 years old, she would leave the palace and be with her parents. Do it, how can you refuse when the world wants you.

"Director Li, can I just be a court lady, so that I can leave the palace at the age of 25, and my mother-in-law is still waiting for me?" Su Yue asked wearily as if she hadn't heard Li Dequan's words.

Li Dequan was speechless, just sighed, turned and left this stuffy place.

Suyue still went to change tea for Kangxi on time, but it felt like a walking dead. Kangxi looked at Suyue with anger in his eyes. He is the emperor, and all the women he favors are happy, and even in order to make him favor, he tried his best to get Long live It is such an honor to be favored by the Lord, but this one, there is no trace of joy, and there is despair in his eyes that seems to be forced.Kangxi could no longer approve the memorial, so he got up and went to the ear room, picked up Suyue and brought it to Dongnuan Pavilion, and threw it on the collapsed floor.

Su Yue looked at Kangxi with flat eyes, with a hint of hatred. Yes, she hated Kangxi for ruining her dream and her expectations. How could Su Yue know that as long as she became Kangxi's woman, she would not be able to marry him? Wanting to take a step out of this palace gate, all she thought was deceiving herself, she just didn't want to make herself more desperate, and the saddest thing was that she had no other way but to deceive herself.

"Tell me, becoming my woman makes you so sad, desperate and even resentful." Kangxi glared at Suyue angrily, even though Kangxi was wise and wise, he still didn't understand why everything turned out like this.

"I have nothing to say about becoming a slave of the Long Live Lord, but everything brought by becoming a woman of the Long Live Lord has cut off all the expectations of the slave. Can't the slave be sad? The slave is a palace maid with a humble birth, but it does not mean that the slave If it's not a human being, the servant will not be in pain." Su Yue roared, she was sad, really sad, she couldn't restrain herself, she couldn't change everything, but Su Yue wanted to yell out the suffocation in her heart.What's more, why does Kangxi think that she should be grateful and happy, she doesn't want these, she doesn't want, don't want, don't want.

Kangxi hesitated, "What do you mean?" In Kangxi's eyes, every woman in the world dreams of flying on a branch to become a phoenix. Isn't this the expectation of all women? To be favored by him means honor and wealth, and Is there anything more to look forward to than this?
Su Yue curled up, like a small shrimp, helpless, pitiful, with tears streaming down her cheeks, Su Yue could not cry until now, Su Yue had no time to worry about the emperor, life and death, she could only complain about Kangxi with grievances "The wrapped women in Shangsanqi were born to be forced to work in the palace. Ama and Erniang always told me that it doesn't matter. We will be reunited as a family after the age of 25. All I look forward to is that day, but You ruined my expectation, I can never go out again, there will never be that day, I will never see Ama and Erniang again, I will never see you again, do you know?" Su Yue kept murmuring that she would never see her again.

"So you told me that you are just a court lady." Kangxi looked at the woman he liked in front of him, crying so wronged and pitiful, every word was so desperate, he suddenly felt guilty, Kangxi lost his father since he was a child, of course he understands the love for his parents Longing, now this woman who gave him warmth was endowed with despair by him. Kangxi is not a god, he is a human being with emotions and feelings, but he is also an emperor, he will not admit his mistakes, and he does not feel that he is wrong .

Kangxi stepped forward to hold Su Yue, and said in a low voice, "I don't know, but I don't regret it, I want you by my side, but I will make it up to you"

"Then let me be just a court lady, give me an illusory dream, if one day you despise me, please let me out of the palace, I want to see Ama'er, I will never betray you, wait for Ama'er After Niangxian is gone, I will kill myself." Su Yue compromised, because

She has no position not to compromise, and now she is only relying on Kangxi's thoughts to make this request, but how long can the emperor's thoughts last, everything is still wrong in the end, a mistake is a lifetime, and her life, I am afraid That's it.

Kangxi's heart was pulled up. This straightforward and kind woman made Kangxi feel more distressed and cherished. Kangxi replied firmly, "Okay, I promise you."

Kangxi did not give Suyue a position, and Suyue was still the court lady who served tea, but everyone in Qianqing Palace knew that Suyue was not just a court lady.Suyue has changed, she has become quiet, she is no longer the same Suyue, Suyue's heart is heavy, those happy and laughing words, Suyue can no longer have.

Suyue hoped that Kangxi was just a novelty for a while, and she would naturally dislike it after a long time, not to mention Suyue has been showing reluctance.

Su Yue thought she could leave here finally, even if she was assigned to the cold palace, Su Yue was unwilling to stay by Kangxi's side.

Su Yue didn't wait for Kangxi's imperial decree, but she waited for Li Dequan.

"Suyue, do you still remember your mother-in-law?" Li Dequan felt annoyed when he saw Suyue's indifferent look on life and death, neither dead nor alive.

"Why did Manager Li ask that?" Su Yue was already heartbroken, but when she heard Li Dequan mentioning her parents, her heart ached and her face turned paler.

"My family knows what your plan is, and Long Live Lord knows it too, but you just want to stay away from here and settle down in a corner, thinking that you can still leave the palace, right?" Li Dequan looked at Su Yue coldly and sneered.

Su Yue bowed her head and remained silent.

"Suyue, our family thought that you were optimistic and would think about it sooner or later, but now it seems that you have entered a dead end, and you don't want to come out no matter what. Since you are already a member of the Long Live Lord, don't even think about leaving in this life. If you are dispatched from the imperial palace, you can only enter the cold palace,

Do you know what the cold palace looks like?The place is dirty and dilapidated, and there are concubines who have fallen out of favor, as well as white-headed palace ladies. They are all lunatics. When you go there, you think you have gone to Yimeiyuan and the Imperial Dining Room. Although Yimeiyuan is remote, at least It's normal, with you, Ama, taking care of things for you, you won't be able to suffer much. Although the servants in the imperial dining room are heavy, they are still within your capabilities. The most important thing is that you, Ama, know that those places will not treat you badly, and What is Lenggong? Have you ever thought about it? Your aunt's heart hurts so much. Who are you punishing? After Li Dequan finished speaking, he gave Su Yue a hard look.

Su Yue has tears streaming down her face.

"Stay well by Long Live Lord's side. Since you can't change it, try to make yourself as comfortable as possible, so that you, Ama Erniang, don't worry about you. This is what our family said, and you can do it yourself," Li Dequan said. After finishing, she turned around and left, leaving Suyue to figure it out for herself, and hoped that Suyue would live up to his thoughts.

Su Yue hugged her head and cried, she knew what Li Dequan said was right, but she really couldn't help it, as long as she thought about being trapped here all her life, she couldn't help but be afraid, but she couldn't let Ama Erniang worry I can't get out anymore, I can't make my parents more desperate.

(End of this chapter)