Qing court ladies

Chapter 7 Don't cry for parting
After wrapping up the wound, Su Yue held Kangxi's hand, sat down next to Kangxi, and said, "I remember falling into the lake when I was a child and almost drowning. Ama and Erniang were heartbroken. Hearing Ama's roar and Erniang's crying, I struggled to wake up to comfort them, but I couldn't wake up, so I had to listen, my heart hurt like a knife. At that time, I was thinking, it was my fault, if it wasn't for me, what would they do It hurts so much, I blame myself in my heart, and my body becomes weaker and weaker, which makes Ama and Erniang more painful and sad. After I recovered from the illness, I thought that I would not let them feel sorry for me in the future, or even if I died Nor can I rest in peace. I think the Empress Dowager thinks the same way. I remember someone once said that the tears of relatives are fetters, which will make the departing soul heavier because of the tears and pain of relatives, and cannot leave well. Go, if you really love him, then you shouldn’t give tears to the departing people, to aggravate their pain.”

"Will it?" Kangxi was a little dazed, looking at Lingqian and asked in a hoarse voice.

"I don't know if it will. After all, I haven't experienced it, but I think that if you love someone, you should hope for his happiness. Even if you cry because of yourself, it will make the person who loves you sad, won't you?" Suyue was a little against her will. When Suyue didn't have a child, she was in agony. It might be possible to say these words, but it is really difficult to do.

"Long Live Lord, you should eat something. The Empress Dowager loves Long Live Lord the most. If she knows, she will be even more sad." Li Dequan burst into tears. Seeing Kangxi willing to reply, Li Dequan was already crying with joy, and now he joined Su Yue of persuasion.

Kangxi thought for a while and nodded, Li Dequan was overjoyed and busy serving Kangxi to eat, Su Yue was shocked by Li Dequan's words, and then remembered that she had done something stupid again, this is a feudal society, she dared to educate the emperor, this is the empress dowager In front of her dead soul, she dared to sit, Su Yue's face was ashen, thinking to herself that this soft-hearted problem is really a fatal disease.Su Yue wanted to get up and run away, but found that she was holding Kangxi's hand, and she wanted to die instantly.

Suyue slowly let go of Kangxi's hand, but was held tightly by Kangxi, Suyue was shocked, only three words in her heart - dead, Suyue got up and knelt hurriedly, bowed her head, her heart was full of sadness.

Of course Kangxi and Li Dequan saw what Suyue was doing, but they didn't say anything. Kangxi hadn't eaten for a few days, and Li Dequan didn't dare to serve Kangxi too much at once. Door.

Because of Suyue's words, Kangxi felt sad but much better than before. Looking at Suyue's lowered head, Kangxi didn't want to say anything, but Kangxi had a different feeling in his heart. This person who held his hand wanted to give him strength. The woman gave him some warmth.In fact, Kangxi didn't know that what he did was of no use at all, and could not bring the departed back to life, but Kangxi didn't know how to vent the sadness and pain in his heart, only this kind of almost self-abuse could make him feel better.

Back then, because of a concubine, Lord Shunzhi handed over the land of the Qing Dynasty to the eight-year-old Kangxi. Because of Obai, Kangxi lived like a puppet at the beginning, and after killing Obai, he rebelled three times. After suffering, the empress dowager is the only warmth and pillar. The two depended on each other in those years, so that Kangxi would not fight alone. But now that the empress dowager is gone, Kangxi feels that the pillar behind him has collapsed, and the warmth in his heart He also followed, how can he not be in pain, how can he not be sad, this beautiful country in the Qing Dynasty is really only him, a lonely family, even though he is the emperor, but he still can't keep what he wants in his heart , how unfortunate.

Su Yue watched Li Dequan leave, watched Kangxi continue to kneel like a mountain, feeling uneasy in her heart, the process of not knowing the result was the most difficult, Su Yue actually wanted Kangxi to have a seizure soon, and gave a happy word whether she wanted to kill him or punish him , hanging like this is even more sad.

With the determination to die, Su Yue said, "Long Live Lord, the slaves and maidservants have offended the empress dowager, offended the Long Live Lord, the crime deserves death, please punish the Long Live Lord." After finishing speaking, Su Yue regretted it again. What if she is really going to die? What about her, Amai Niang?
"Kneel with me" Kangxi's voice was very nice, with a hint of hoarseness, very magnetic.Kangxi is not in the mood to pay attention to Suyue's thoughts now, Kangxi is just greedy for a little warmth in his hands and a little strength from those hands.

Su Yue was speechless, thinking that it would be difficult to settle accounts after the autumn, and thinking that Kangxi really didn't have the heart to deal with these things now, Su Yue breathed a sigh of relief, so that at least Su Yue could say goodbye to Ama and Er Niang, as well as the powdered dumpling, Even if you die, you shouldn't have any other regrets.

Hearing the sound of the clapper, Suyue realized that an hour had passed and her knees were already numb. Suyue glanced at Kangxi secretly, and Kangxi's face turned even paler. Suyue sighed helplessly, thinking that Kangxi was trying to torture herself or what?
Su Yue pulled Kangxi's hand, "Long Live Lord, you should rest for a while, or tomorrow..." How do you have the strength to kneel?Su Yue hurriedly swallowed the second half of the sentence.

Kangxi remained silent, and Su Yue became irritable, what's wrong with her, she knelt for so long somehow?How about kneeling?Can the dead be brought back to life?If possible, Su Yue will be the first to kneel.

Su Yue sat on her calf, held the hand held by Kangxi, and pulled Kangxi to him. Su Yue put Kangxi's head on her lap, and took off her cloak to cover Kangxi.

Kangxi had exhausted all his energy in the past few days, so he was powerless to resist when he was pulled by Suyue, and when he fell on Suyue's body, he felt even more exhausted, and fell asleep unexpectedly.

Su Yue looked at Kangxi, not knowing if he was fainted or asleep, so she hurriedly called out "Director" in a low voice

Li Dequan was also very tired. Watching Kangxi eat, and Suyue was watching over him, he felt even more exhausted. He even leaned against the door and fell asleep. Hearing Suyue's voice, he woke up immediately. Sleeping on Suyue's lap, covered with Suyue's cloak, she asked in surprise, "Long Live Lord, is this?"

Su Yue lowered her voice and replied, "I don't know if Long Live Lord has fallen asleep or passed out, please take a quick look."

Li Dequan was shocked, stepped forward to check Kangxi's condition, and breathed a sigh of relief, "Long Live Lord is asleep, you don't have to worry."

Seeing that Li Dequan said that there is no problem, Suyue was relieved, thinking that the two of them were in front of the spirit, if Kangxi really passed out, Suyue thought that this crime might not be so simple, Suyue could die, but she couldn't implicate Ama'er Mother.

Li Dequan saw that Suyue's clothes were thin and the only cloak was on Kangxi's body, so he hurried to get two cloaks. The ones Li Dequan took were naturally much warmer than Suyue's. Li Dequan made one for Kangxi and another for Suyue. This is probably the first time Li Dequan has served someone other than Kangxi, and he is still a rough envoy.

Su Yue glanced at Li Dequan gratefully. In fact, Su Yue was already unconscious from the cold. With or without the cloak on, Su Yue could not feel anything other than the cold, but she could be thought of by a chief executive. Taking care of her, I was still very moved and proud.

"The manager should also take a break, and the servants will look at the Lord Long Live." Su Yue looked at Li Dequan's dark circles under the eyes and the exhausted proposal on his face, which was considered reciprocal.

Li Dequan nodded, he was also very tired, and fell asleep leaning against the door of the room.

Su Yue looked at the two people who were sleeping each other, and looked at the mourning hall in front of her. Her heart was ethereal. Xiao Zhuang is an amazing woman. This is Su Yue's truest thought. Xiao Zhuang is capable and capable. Dai King, Xiaozhuang contributed a lot to her in the Qing Dynasty. What Su Yue likes the most is that Xiaozhuang can be good at herself and restrain herself. Compared with Wu Zetian's ability, she is not far behind, but she has more detachment. Didn't see Seeing this powerful woman, Su Yue had to sigh, like entering a treasure mountain and returning empty-handed.

As for Kangxi, what Suyue remembers the most is that he is very capable and powerful. Suyue remembers that she once read a book about Shunzhi, but Suyue was deeply impressed by Kangxi in it. In addition to the Dong E family, Shunzhi's harem concubines, children, and mothers are no match for a Dong E family. Kangxi can only hide in a corner and peep at his father, and even cry secretly. The first time his father spoke to him, unexpectedly He was asked about the throne, and he wanted to be a prince in idleness, but because of his father's expectations, he answered to be an emperor. He thought that as long as he worked hard, his father could look at him and talk to him, but in the end, he accepted it. The throne, his father passed away, after all, he couldn't get a word or a look from his father.In fact, most of the books were exaggerated, but Su Yue felt at the time that this might be true.Children, there is no one who doesn't want to be loved by their parents, but some love, even if you are smashed to pieces, you can't get it.

Kangxi's life was undoubtedly magnificent, and the matter of the nine sons seizing the throne made people feel that Kangxi was no longer the original Kangxi when he was old. The ambitious, wise and wise emperor became suspicious and suspicious when he was old. The old man, like a beautiful painting, spilled a drop of ink, which makes people feel regretful.

In fact, Su Yue's views are just her emotional thoughts, which are not fair or objective, but what's important.

Su Yue lowered her head, looked at the tired and unshaven Kangxi, even though she was sleeping, she still frowned, but felt that she had no right to criticize a person, because she was neither Kangxi nor a historian.

What's more, I can't protect myself now, trespassing on the plum garden without authorization, increasing food without authorization, being disrespectful to the empress dowager, rude to the emperor, and death penalty.Su Yue is afraid of death because she has too much entanglement in her heart, and Su Yue is also afraid of implicating her family because of herself.In fact, Su Yue hates being too emotional. In the previous society, it was fine, but in the present, Su Yue's life is not enough to die.But Suyue can't control herself, to paraphrase a word, when Suyue is rational, she has time to think about rational things, but most of the time, Suyue is not rational.

Su Yue was thinking wildly like this, the time passed quickly.

At the beginning of Mao, just after the sound of clappers, Kangxi and Li Dequan opened their eyes. Kangxi looked at Suyue in a daze, but Li Dequan went to open the door and welcomed another person-Liang Jiugong. The two muttered at the door for a while. Step up to "Long Live God"

Su Yue helped Kangxi up with one hand, and took back the cloak covering Kangxi's body. Only then did Kangxi let go of Suyue's hand, and Liang Jiugong stepped forward to help Kangxi go to the inner room to freshen up.

(End of this chapter)