Qing court ladies

Chapter 77
Su Yue tapped on the teacup and smiled knowingly, "It's the time when the spring breeze is in full swing, why bother to come here with a sad face?"

"As you said, I am a high-ranking official, deeply loved by His Majesty, with fame, wealth and power all coming, why do I have to be sad?" Xiao You asked with enjoyment as he sipped the tea.

Su Yue suppressed her smile, she couldn't continue this topic, and instead said "How about Liu Qi, after returning to the palace for a long time, there is no news of him"

"He wanders around the famous mountains and rivers freely, learns Taoism in the Xianjiadongfu Middle School, and studies in the Baicao Garden. He is at ease and carefree, without worrying about it," Xiao You replied solemnly.

The corners of Su Yue's mouth curled up slightly, "That's good." Xiao You nodded, and the two fell silent. Su Yue didn't know what to say, but Xiao You didn't ask, and waited quietly.

It's time for a cup of tea, Xiao You drank a lot of tea, but Su Yue still didn't open his mouth, Xiao You sighed inwardly, and then said, "Your tea is really good, but it's just that you drink too much and it loses its taste. Today can't be the same. Would you like me to make tea?"

Su Yue couldn't hold back her faint smile, and sighed, "I have something to ask, but I don't know how to say it."

Xiao You smiled, removed the tea cover, and wrote three characters on the table with the tea stained on it. Su Yue's face turned pale in an instant, and she was extremely surprised, "How do you know, and how much do you know?"

Seeing the disappearance of the handwriting, Xiao You said calmly, "It's not difficult to know. I need to tell you how much I know. You can decide. Do you still remember the beginning of your two-year confinement, which will be about three months later?" , I was ordered by the prince to heal one person, it was him. It was his whole body with wounds, ragged clothes, blood stains, and bruises. It was obvious that he had been severely tortured, but the most serious injuries were not physical injuries, but The wound in his heart, he was treated like a woman, his secret place festered, his life was hanging by a thread, I treated him for more than a month, and he barely recovered his life, that's all I know."

Su Yue's nails were deeply embedded in the flesh, and the smell of blood filled the air. Xiao You's few short words made Su Yue fall into an abyss, almost suffocating.Su Yue could hardly control her emotions, her eyes were full of resentment, she gritted her teeth and asked, "Do you know why he did that?"

Xiao You shook his head, "I did a secret investigation, but no one knew about it. There is only one incident that coincides with that time. The crown prince beheaded several eunuchs, claiming that their words and deeds were wrong, that they insulted the crown prince, and all of them were killed."

Su Yue could hardly sit still, her body trembled, although she understood the dirty things in the palace, but it was only literal meaning, Su Yue thought about it, maybe it meant the framing and plotting between concubines, but never I know, the truth of these words is so tragic, she can't imagine, imagine Xiao Lizi's situation at that time, but now she feels the pain in her heart, she shouldn't let Xiao Lizi alone in the palace, maybe she shouldn't let him Follow yourself, it's best if she doesn't know him before, that's really the best.But in this world, there is no if, no early knowledge, no regret, no compensation that can really eliminate such tragic despair and pain. Su Yue doesn't know what to do at this time?
"Pa" Su Yue slapped herself on the face, and raised her other hand to breathe out with all her strength, tears streaming down her face.

Xiao You knew that Suyue must be in pain after hearing about this matter, so Suyue's actions, which she had been paying attention to all the time, were still too late to slap her first, but she stopped Suyue from waving her hand again, "Enough, isn't it? that's all you have to do"

In pain, Su Yue knelt down on the ground weakly and asked, "Then what else can I do, turn back time, let everything never happen, or kneel in front of him to repent and ask for forgiveness, can you forgive me?"

"You're so sure it must be your relationship," Xiao You yelled, knowing it in his heart.This kind of thing, kneeling down and confessing, is really useless, the damage cannot be repaired, and no one can forgive it.And this sentence is even more lacking in confidence.

Su Yue smiled wryly, then gradually burst into laughter, looked up at Xiao You, and asked word by word, "Do you... believe me?"

Xiao You and Su Yue looked at each other, gradually closed their eyes, turned around, he couldn't answer this question under such gaze!Under such clear, so desperate, so clear, so clear eyes, he couldn't utter such unsteady words.

Su Yue stared at the sky, thinking of the delicate woman who would call her sister, when she met her for the first time, the face was full of joy and joy, the woman who would make her laugh, pout her lips and act like a spoiled child, love her dearly, and shed tears when she was wronged, with a frown Smile, innocent, full of joy, lively and sunny.In the blink of an eye, it turned out to be a cold and dark cell, covered in blood, scars all over, disheveled hair, a hopeless and lifeless woman, apologizing angrily in her ear, and dying in her arms.

"Qiu Xi...Qiu Xi." Su Yue muttered to herself, broke down and yelled, her throat was sweet, but she was swallowed forcefully.

"Suyue, can't you just torture yourself here and seek peace of mind? Haven't you ever thought about what to do? How long do you have to wait to protect yourself and the people around you from assassinating again and again? Why are you still naive and think you are among the people?" Xiao You was out of breath, Su Yue's eyes were red, and she was furious, although the scarlet was not seen, how could Xiao You not know, Su Yue was so angry that she vomited blood.But Xiao You hated Su Yue for not taking care of herself, and also hated her for seeking redemption through self-torture.Xiao You told Suyue about this today, hoping that Suyue would be strong and feel a little bit of a sense of crisis, how long Long Live God can protect her, and for how long, but she always looks like she is inseparable from the fame and power in the palace Zhan, she looks like she is in it, but her heart is not there. Something will happen to her sooner or later.

Su Yue stood up unsteadily, walked to the door, "Xiao You, you go back"

Xiao You didn't want to leave, but he couldn't stay either, but the feeling of hatred in his heart was getting heavier and heavier.

"I was wrong." Su Yue said quietly, watching Xiao You stop, and slowly closed the door.

She was wrong, she was wrong a long time ago, she made a big mistake, she thought that she would be able to live wantonly after she had experienced more knowledge in her first life, even if she was with her parents, she still continued her previous life's style, feelings, and even environment.Although it is now the Qing Dynasty, she can still say a lot of Qing rules, systems, and even Manchu, but she has never really regarded it as the Qing Dynasty, as a feudal dynasty, as a clearly hierarchical and powerful society. Feudal society.I have memorized a lot of things, but I never paid attention to them. I thought I was a person in the 21st century, and I still took the feeling, environment, and atmosphere there and applied them here.To put it bluntly, she never thought of herself as someone here, and she never kept the truths that are unique to this era, she really kept them in her heart. Although what happened to Qiuxi made her sad, she still couldn't remind her. She, the time, and the place are different, or it should be said that she still treats herself as a spectator. Although she is sad, she still regards herself as a spectator to the people here. , The surface is affectionate, but the inside is the most indifferent.

She was wrong, very wrong, the people here, the things here, everything here, she was completely wrong.She still thinks that she is an angel, caring for others, but in fact she is the devil, a cold and ruthless devil.

"Pfft" the fishy sweetness sprayed out of her throat, she finally woke up, and finally understood that she was her, but she was not her anymore.

Looking at the bloodstains on the ground, she came to her senses. From today on, she is Suyue, a court lady of the Qing Dynasty—Torjia's Suyue. The people around her, she protects, and she is no longer what she used to be.

Su Yue got up and spread the silk on the bloodstain, the white handkerchief was stained with red plum, Su Yue carefully folded the handkerchiefs, got up and put them in her closet, sat in front of the dresser, staring at herself in the bronze mirror , pale face, curved eyebrows, dark eyes, straight nose, bloody red corners of the mouth, and a weird smile on his face.

"I, Torja Clan, Suyue swear, I will never deceive myself or others in this life, but I will not let others bully me anymore. I will protect the people around me. If I violate my oath, I will not be able to love you in life, and I will not be in peace in death." Wipe away the bloodstains and bid farewell.

Su Yue opened the door, looked at the sun in the middle, and went to Qianqing Palace to look for Gui'an.

As soon as Su Yue arrived at Qianqing Palace, she saw Liang Jiugong guarding the gate of the main hall, and walked into the side room sideways. Lin Yu was on duty today. Over the years, Lin Yu seemed to have lost her childishness, and seemed to be replacing Lin Xiang.

"Aunt" Lin Yu greeted her with a smile.

Su Yue smiled, "Long Live Lord is back"

Lin Yu nodded, "I just came back, and there are the prince, elder brother, third elder brother, fourth elder brother, seventh elder brother, eighth elder brother, ninth elder brother, tenth elder brother, twelfth elder brother, thirteenth elder brother and several others. All the mother-in-law and daughter-in-law returned with them.”

Su Yue nodded, "Where is Gui'an?"

"Long live Lord is happy today, and gave a banquet in the imperial dining room. Eunuch Gui'an went to make some arrangements. He must be in the imperial dining room at this time." Lin Yu returned.

"I see, you are busy." After Su Yue finished speaking, she turned around and left, and entered the East Nuan Pavilion from the anteroom, and faintly heard voices from the main hall.

The Thirteenth Yamen has been managed by Suyue for these years. In the past, Suyue never thought about the convenience of the Thirteenth Yamen, but now it is different. Suyue knows that the Thirteenth Yamen is the only one she can use, not to mention that the Thirteenth Yamen is secretive. , It has always been uploaded and checked, now Suyue can use the thirteen yamen, and knows that Kangxi's news comes from this, now that Suyue uses it, Kangxi will definitely not know, not to mention that Kangxi's eyeliner in the palace does not dare to enter Dongnuan Pavilion , so Su Yue is sure that this matter can be hidden from Kangxi.

Su Yue hastily wrote some orders, sandwiched them among the orders to convey, and then left.

At the door of the ear room, I met Gui'an who was sweating profusely. Su Yue knew that Gui'an would be busy, so she only told Gui'an to go look for her later, and then left.

Su Yue returned to the courtyard, prepared some meals, sat at the table and waited for others.Qingmei has received an errand from Fengxian Palace since returning to the palace, and she will only come back every evening, while Xiao Lizi is now following Liang Jiugong's door, on duty with Liang Jiugong, and will not come during the day.The small courtyard is very quiet, only the sound of wind blowing and leaves.

"Auntie is looking for me." Su Yue was wandering in her soul, and Gui An hurried over. The weather of this month made sweat drip from her forehead.

(End of this chapter)