Qing court ladies

Chapter 82
Su Yue finally understood that this person's face should be paralyzed, and he spoke so directly that Su Yue didn't know how to speak. Su Yue calmed down and said, "Since senior is so direct, Su Yue doesn't go round and round. But I have one thing to ask, please help seniors." Suyue handed over the purse in her sleeve to her father-in-law, "Please accept it with a smile, and it will be convenient for Suyue"

The father-in-law took the purse and put it in the armhole and said, "I'll do it myself, just come here in three days, and I won't be staying soon."

Su Yue smiled meaninglessly, saluted "I'm tired, take my leave" and turned to walk away.

Day by day, Su Yue passed the back wall of Yanxi Palace on the way back, and in the rockery, you can still see that cave. It has been many years since Yinzhen Yinhu left the palace to build a mansion, and the three of them never came again Passing here, the scenes of their youth still emerge in front of them, but the scene is still the same, what about people?
Su Yue walked into the cave, sat in the cave as before, raised her hand to caress the notch on the cave wall, a simple human-shaped symbol, an adult among two children, and the three of them held hands and laughed happily.It took a long time to scratch, and the painting was a little fuzzy. Su Yue casually picked up the gravel on the ground, and scratched along the original trace again. Seeing the clear trace, she smiled happily.

That was their memory, the sincere memory when they were young, when Su Yue repainted, she seemed to recall the mood at that time, that day she came here to wait for Yinzhen Yinsi, she hadn’t seen anyone for a long time, and on a whim, she picked up stones and scratched She raised two children, stared blankly at the two children holding hands, and smiled happily. Su Yue silently made a wish to the two children, hoping that they would have a happy ending in the future, and then Yinzhen Yinhu came hand in hand, Looking at the two small portraits, tacitly added an adult in the middle, Su Yue who is holding the hands of the two, Yinhu laughed and said that it was the three of them, together forever, although Yinzhen was expressionless. They didn't speak, but the eagerness in their eyes was definitely the same heart, it was Su Yue who seemed to see hope, how happy they were at that time, their wishes were good, and their prospects were bright.

Now, when Su Yue looks at this vaguely repainted person, she feels a little sad in her heart. The painting will fade away, but where is the human heart and friendship?It will also fade!What to do then?Now it has been 39 years of Kangxi, maybe everything has already been turbulent, Yinhu is getting more dazzling and more dangerous, everything is evolving according to the history Su Yue knows, so what should I do?
Su Yue touched the three people on the notch, would they really draw like this and be happy together forever?The painting is blurred, you can paint it again, Xin, can you repaint it to fix it?

Suyue's heart tightened, the only way to prevent Yinhu from being like history, maybe she could persuade Yinhu to give up the big position and quietly abstain from power.This is the only way.

"Suyue" Yinhu exclaimed, disturbing Suyue's mind.

Su Yue looked up at Yinhu, and had to sigh secretly, the drama of fate, just thinking about talking to this person, he appeared in front of her eyes, Su Yue looked at Yinhu's more and more handsome, with a smile on her face, as gentle as Jade, really handsome son, the jade tree faces the wind.

"Why are you in a daze again?" Yinhu sat beside Su Yue, smiling and waving her hands in front of Su Yue.

Su Yue grabbed Yinhu's hand, and gave Yinhu a look, "I haven't seen Ba Ye for a few days, and I found that Ba Ye is more and more handsome and gentle, so I am dazzled."

Yinhu's smile became more and more charming, she released Suyue's hand, raised Suyue's chin, and asked with a smile, "But I'm fascinated by my master's demeanor, I don't know why."

Su Yue burst out laughing, and knocked off Yinhu's hand, "Yeah, I was fascinated by Ba Ye, Ba Ye is so happy."

Yinhu laughed loudly, "Today you made Ba Ye laugh, and Ba Ye will reward you with a few more glances."

Su Yue was irritated by Yinhu's unrighteous appearance, "Why did you enter the palace today and come here to take a break?"

Yinhu stopped laughing, and said solemnly, "Huang Ama summoned me to talk about the matter of the House of Internal Affairs. Now that the matter is over, I will visit my mother and concubine. I pass by here. Come and see, I don't want to meet you."

Su Yue nodded, "I heard that you have already settled the matter of borrowing money from the Ministry of Internal Affairs. From now on, you must be careful in everything. Those relatives and nobles of the Eight Banners will never let it go. Be extra careful"

Yinhu looked at Suyue sideways and smiled happily, "Don't worry, I don't have anything for them to make use of, but I will be more careful."

Su Yue tilted her head and smiled at Yinhu, and nodded, "Yinhu, what do you think about rights?"

Yinhu was taken aback, "Why do you ask that?"

Suyue looked at Yinhu intently, not missing any of his emotions, "Fame, wealth and power have been fought for since ancient times, I want to ask your opinion"

"Fame, wealth and power have been tempting since ancient times. I think it's nothing but a cloud of smoke, but if you don't stop, you have desires. The desire for desire is not for fame, wealth and power, but it needs to be revealed." Yinhu turned his head, feeling quite emotional.

Su Yue frowned, Yinhu's words made people confused, but Su Yue had something she wanted to say in her heart, so she didn't delve into its meaning, and said, "I only want to be happy in the mountains and rivers, but some people want to enter this splendid place, However, what people think is different, but some people know that wealth is not easy, power is dark, and imperial power is tiring, so why bother to spend money?"

"Suyue, you're not good at beating around the bush, so just speak up if you have something to say." Yinhu suppressed her smile and asked seriously.

Su Yue smiled and exhaled, "Yeah, I really shouldn't be like this, Yinhu, how about being a happy prince?"

Yinhu's body trembled, looking at Suyue's eyes, she couldn't believe "you"

"Yinhu, it's not just a sentence, it's a fact. It's too cold to be at a high place. As an elder brother, you've seen big things since you were young, so don't you feel restless?" Suyue found that some words were actually not difficult to say.

Yinhu stood up excitedly and looked down at Suyue, "Why do you think I have such a heart, Suyue, don't you understand what I want?"

Su Yue was a little embarrassed, and suddenly realized that maybe she had taken it for granted. Seeing Yinhu doing a good job, seeing everyone praising him, knowing what happened next, she completely thought of it.Yinhu at this moment may really not have such a heart.Suyue pulled Yinhu, apologizing but not regretful, "I'm sorry, maybe I thought too much, but Yinhu, you really don't understand what I want and ask for? I don't want you to be the highest, but tired, lonely"

Yinhu looked at Suyue's eyes, completely disappointed, waved Suyue away, smiled wryly, "I just want to prove myself, I just want to tell Huang Ama that I'm not bad, I just want my mother to be proud of me, All I worked hard for was not for that seat, Su Yue, I respect you and love you, but I don’t want you to look at me like everyone else.”

Su Yue panicked, exclaimed and cried, "Yinhu, I didn't mean that, I was just afraid, do you understand." Do you understand that you can't get it at all, do you understand that everything about you is important to Kangxi? He said that it was forming a faction, forming a faction for personal gain, and threatening his imperial power. He would not allow a son who was too good to seek his throne, no, he would not understand.Su Yue was so excited that she almost collapsed.She just doesn't want to witness the end of history with her own eyes, and wants to change everything, but she can't tell Yinhu the history she knows, how can she ask Yinhu to understand everything he doesn't know.

"I still have to pay my respects to Er Niang and say goodbye." Yinhu turned and left without any regrets.

Su Yue wanted to chase after her, but she didn't know what else to say.To say that you are so outstanding is easy to cause people's suspicion, to say that you have no intentions, that others have intentions, to say that you will die, be imprisoned, and be called by such a name, but which one can Su Yue say?He could only watch Yinhu leave helplessly, helplessly.What's more, even if it can be said, how should I put it, that I come from hundreds of years later, that it is recorded in history, Su Yue smiles wryly, even if it is not regarded as a lunatic, it is afraid that it will be regarded as a monster. Besides, who would believe it? .If she hadn't experienced it personally, she herself would have thought that those past lives were nothing more than Nanke Yimeng, a hallucination of strange powers and gods.Let alone others.Even if Yinhu believed it, Suyue couldn't guarantee that Yinhu would not let history repeat itself.Su Yue couldn't help suffering more and more, all this was like a curse, more like asking who came first, the chicken or the egg, it was always in a loop, and there was no answer.

Su Yue looked at Yinhu Jueran's back and fell to the ground, the pain caused by the uneven ground was not as good as her heart.Yinzhen's affairs, Yinhu's affairs, Xiaolizi's affairs, and Qingmei's affairs were all before her. She always wanted to do her best, but the results were not always as expected.She is like a person standing on the shore, looking at relatives and friends struggling in the water, but there is nothing she can do.As much pain as she felt in her heart, those people had ten times and a hundred times the pain. She could only watch, but couldn't do anything.She hated herself, but she didn't know that she hated her powerlessness, or something else.

Su Yue didn't know how she went back, and she didn't know when the sun set. The dark room was not in her eyes, and even everything was not in her heart. People always regret the past, and want to bring the present memory back Up to the beginning, it was the pain of changing everything, but now Su Yue hates herself for knowing those histories and those endings, if everything can end in the life of ignorance, wouldn't it be happiness.

"Bang, Aunt Bang, are you here?" Gui'an knocked on the door with a slightly anxious voice.

Su Yue looked blankly at the place where the sound came from, and she regained consciousness after a while, she stood up abruptly, but her whole body was already numb, and she fell back again.

"Auntie, what's wrong with you?" Gui'an heard the sound in the room, the sound was a little louder.

"It's okay." Su Yue hurriedly replied, her voice was hoarse, she propped herself on the ground, barely stood up, and went to open the door.

"Aunt, what's wrong with you?" Gui An looked at Su Yue, hunched over, very worried.

Su Yue pulled out a faint smile, and replied, "It's nothing, but I will be stunned, and my legs and feet are a little numb."

Gui'an held the lantern in one hand, and supported Suyue in the other to sit at the table, and lit the lamp in the room, "My aunt is still like this, she likes to think in a daze at every turn, it's not good for her health."

Su Yue smiled awkwardly, a little embarrassed, but pretended to be angry and said, "What are you doing to accuse me of my shortcomings, be careful, I will sue your master."

Gui'an smiled and cupped his hands, rather shamelessly and Suyue joked, "Aunt Lao is very kind and merciful, I will spare the little one, and I will never dare to do it again"

(End of this chapter)