Left-behind women in Fuzhou

Chapter 25 Wang Jing's Story (4)
Wang Jing said that the last time Gou Jinming went to Wuyi Mountain to give gifts to the corrupt official, he wanted to bribe him to win the development right of this piece of land in the downtown area.He gave the corrupt official 500 million yuan one after another, and finally bought the land for 1000 million yuan.However, the land in this downtown area is worth at least hundreds of millions of yuan.

No wonder China's real estate industry is the most profitable industry. It turns out that behind the huge profits is the dirty collusion between the government and businessmen.

Wang Jing said that Gou Jinming once sent a spy to the small business people in that alley, and ordered them all to move out the next day.Those vendors refused, so he dispatched excavators and thugs to level the alley.

I asked, did the media report on this matter?
Wang Jing said, since you were fired, no one would dare to step into this muddy water again.

I am deeply saddened that the media has collectively lost their voices when such incidents of fish and meat have occurred.

However, all I can do now is to be sad.

We sat at the window, looking through the wide glass at the noisy and disturbed street.The thick glass cuts off the noisy sound, but keeps busy scenes.When I was busy at work, I always complained that I was too tired, but now I feel so empty and painful when I don’t have a job. Now it’s my heart that is more tired.Seeing the numbers on the deposit slip drop steadily like a winter thermometer, a great panic seized my heart. I don't know when I will have a job again, and I will be as busy as those people on the street. And enriched.

For those who live outside, work is everything, work will allow you to survive in this city, and work will also bring you a moment of peace and comfort.You can walk on the street calmly, and you can look at everyone who is walking towards you.Without a job, you will be ashamed of yourself on the street, and you will feel like a mouse slipping along the corner, full of panic and humbleness.

I don't know when a group of people came to the teahouse, men and women, they yelled, found a corner, beckoned for a deck of cards, shuffled the cards, and screamed The sound rang out from time to time.

Perhaps to cover up the noise, the waiter played music.When the music sounded, I felt like I was getting an electric shock. It turned out to be Faye Wong's "May I Live Long", which I haven't heard for a long time.

The sound of the music is like cold raindrops, falling on my heart bit by bit, and my heart is extremely painful.Wang Jing handed over the tissue, and I realized that tears were streaming down my face.

The singing reminds me of Mei Niang.That was the song Meiniang and I used to listen to together, and we all liked the song "I Wish You Long".It is graceful and poignant, full of soft sadness.

In the past two years, I have experienced many vicissitudes and twists and turns, but Mei Niang has never walked out of my heart, never.She will never come out of my heart either.

Wang Jing said that a person must learn to forget.Let the past go, don't live so heavy.

I said, I understand, but I can't do it.Meiniang and I are already connected as flesh and blood.

Wang Jing sighed softly and said, Mei Niang is very happy, there is someone who loves her all the time.She is much happier than me.

At that time, I didn't know that Wang Jing was in an emotional crisis.The husband sent a divorce agreement from the United States on the grounds that the separation between the two places lacked affection.

When we walked out of the teahouse, we realized that the lights had already come on on the street.We walked slowly along the sidewalk covered with rhombic tiles, letting the cool night breeze blow our hot faces from the sun during the day.There is still a certain distance between us.From time to time, oncoming pedestrians and children chasing behind passed us by.

We came to a garden district, the most beautiful district on that road.Wang Jing said, her home is there, and invited me to go up and have a look.

Wang Jing's house is very beautiful.It was a house with three bedrooms and one living room. The room was filled with a faint fragrance, the kind of fragrance only found in the boudoir.

A puppy came up to him wagging its head and waving its tail, rubbing its cheek against Wang Jing's trousers.Wang Jing hugged it affectionately, and murmured to it, as if holding his own child, its face pressed against Wang Jing's chest, looking very intoxicated.

I suddenly thought sadly that in this lonely house, they walked through each other day after day.

Wang Jing went to the bathroom, and I sat on the soft sofa in the living room, listening to the sound of wet water coming from the bathroom, I felt my heart flutter.In fact, on this night, the moment I walked into this community, I had a vague premonition that a story would happen tonight.

Wang Jing came out wrapped in a bath towel.The bath towel was wrapped around her chest, her round and white shoulders were exposed, her two breasts protruded fully under the bath towel, and under the bath towel were two long, round legs.Her face was flushed, she didn't know whether it was the hotness after the bath or the shyness facing me.She sat on the sofa opposite me, without saying a word, and drank water one gulp after another.I also felt the fire in my throat, but I didn't have the courage to say, give me a glass of water.

We fell into an awkward, unspeakable silence.

Wang Jing got up, and she walked into the bedroom.I heard her turn on the light in the bedroom, I heard her lift the sheets on the bed, I heard her go to bed and lie down, and she let out a long suppressed sigh.

I also walked into the bedroom involuntarily. I saw Wang Jing sleeping on her back on the bed, covered with a thin quilt with huge lotus leaves printed on her body. Her eyes were closed, her long eyelashes were shaking, and her chest was heaving violently. , like tidal waves.Her long hair was spread beside the pillow, and the long black hair set off the beauty of that face.

I stood by the bed, my pounding heartbeat was almost bursting out, I tried my best to suppress the panic in my heart, slowly bent down, and stroked that crystal face with the palm of my hand, she stretched out her hand and covered the back of my hand A shy, imperceptible smile flashed across his face.

Then my lips met hers, rosy and full.She suddenly bit me tightly, sticking out her tongue, sucking greedily, making a low whining sound like a female animal.She writhed and slid the quilt under the bed. Her plump and beautiful body was brilliantly displayed in front of my eyes, her breasts were trembling eagerly.

Then, I took off all my clothes and hugged her tightly like I was with Mei Niang...

However, I painfully discovered that I was as weak as a rubber hose.There was a raging desire burning in my heart, but there was no breakthrough.My body is hot, like a volcano, but the lava of passion can only swirl, swirl, and then gradually cool down in my chest.

Wang Jing turned off the bed light and whispered in my ear, baby, baby, don't worry, don't worry, we have plenty of time, we have a long night.

I rolled off her with a sigh.Through the hazy skylight shining in through the window, I looked at the chandelier on the ceiling in pain, and my heart was filled with unspeakable guilt and helplessness.

Wang Jing gently stroked me, murmured love words, her soft palms blew across my body like a breeze, but I felt nothing like a stone.

My tears flowed quietly, I don't know what's wrong with me.Since Mei Niang left, I have never had sex again.During the long lonely night, I hid in a dark corner, took off my clothes, and softly called Mei Niang's name, reaching a climax in fantasy and virtual happiness.However, when there was really a beautiful woman lying beside me, my heart was turbulent but my body was indifferent.It's like facing a table full of delicious food, and you can't taste it because of missing teeth...

However, it wasn't like this with Meiniang before, no.We always give to each other again and again, letting each other melt in our bodies, like snowflakes, melting in the embrace of the earth.

Could it be that a man is the same as a woman, only when he loves each other in his heart can he complete the fusion of his body.

Wang Jing tried again and again, but finally returned without success.My heart was filled with excruciating pain and guilt.I do not know what to say.

Wang Jing stretched out his palm, and suddenly touched the corner of my wet eye.In the darkness, she sat up in amazement, her breasts glowed white, she said, don't do this, don't do this, I won't blame you.I know you have a heavy psychological burden.

I think maybe my psychological burden is too heavy.I kept thinking about Mei Niang, I lost my job, and I haven't had sex for over a year.

I told myself, don't think about anything, don't think about anything.I only think of Wang Jing in front of me.Wang Jing, like Mei Niang, came to this point only because of extreme loneliness.I should give her the long-lost happiness.

However, I still can't.

We talked until dawn that night.And at dawn, I still can't condense like mud.Wang Jing said, your psychological burden is too heavy, you must learn to relax yourself.

Wang Jing said that since her husband went to the United States, she has not had sex.During the long night, she relied on masturbation to survive her thirst again and again.After masturbation, she blamed herself very much and fell into more pain.

After dawn, I accidentally saw several simulated genitals in Wang Jing's bedside table.

This disease called impotence has been with me for a long time, making me anxious and painful every day.Sometimes, my friends would talk about their sex life, with their wives, girlfriends, or even with young ladies. When I heard them talk about it, my heart was filled with deep inferiority complex.There have been many times when I was taking a bath alone, I was desperate and thought of plucking it out.

However, after I had Ah Qing, the disease unexpectedly healed itself.

Ah Qing finally knew the story of Meiniang and me, and she resolutely broke up with me.She said, I can accept you being with any woman, except Meiniang, because Meiniang is my sister-in-law and my brother's wife.

Ah Qing gritted her teeth and said, I used to think that Mei Niang was a nice and virtuous sister-in-law, but I didn't expect her to be such a slut, a shameless bitch.

I suddenly felt very angry, and a fire was burning in my chest.I can't tolerate such slander and slander to Meiniang. Meiniang will always be holy and beautiful in my heart.But how could I get angry at Ah Qing? She is innocent, and I can understand her. Any woman facing such a situation would be as angry and resentful as she is.I clenched my fist and slammed it on the wall, the plaster fell off, and blood dripped from my hands.

I said, stop scolding Mei Niang, everything is caused by me, so scold me.

Ah Qing suddenly spit on my face, and I clearly felt the sticky saliva flowing from my forehead to the bridge of my nose and then to my chin.My eyes almost burst into flames, and I glared at her fiercely. I have never glared at a woman so fiercely, never, I always feel that God created such a weak woman to be pampered and protected by men.But Ah Qing didn't have any fear, she met my eyes coldly, the corners of her mouth were slightly raised, her eyes were full of contempt and desolation.

I went into the bathroom and wanted to light a cigarette.However, my hands were trembling, and I couldn't strike a match. When I finally struck a match, my tears flowed down.

Ah Qing yelled at the top of her lungs on the balcony, you are a couple of dogs.

After dawn, old people doing morning exercises walked out from the opposite floor.They are dressed in short clothes and hold long swords or paper fans in their hands.There was also the sound of chaotic footsteps downstairs.Ah Qing walked back to the bedroom from the balcony. She hadn't slept all night, and her naked body was covered with goose bumps.She put on her clothes carefully one by one, with tears on her face.

Then, she bent down and leaned against the head of the bed, looking at the corner of the wall.

I said, what do you want to eat early, I will buy it.

She said nothing.

I said, do you want to drink milk? I'll go for it.

Still she said nothing.

I said, how about we go downstairs to eat together.

She remained silent.

The sun shines on the window lattice, and a new day has come.I don't know whether what is waiting for me today is the tranquility after the rainstorm, or a bigger rainstorm.My heart was full of pain and fear.

It was time for work and I had to leave the room.I said to Ah Qing, you stayed up all night, I went to work, you should have a good rest, and wait for me to come back.

Ah Qing finally spoke.She didn't even look up, she said, you go.

That time I interviewed the wedding of a "dwarf" who was less than one meter tall and a mobile phone salesman who was 1.7 meters tall. The "little man" started his business by shining shoes, and has accumulated millions of fortunes in just ten years.Like everyone, I was taken aback when I saw them.That "dwarf" is like an immature child, his height only reaches the girl's waist, he looks very funny and cartoonish in suits and leather shoes, his smile and eyes are as innocent as a child's.The girl was wearing a white wedding dress, looking upright and noble, she was holding the "dwarf" in her arms, and she was also smiling sweetly.Although their heights are so different, it can't stop them from having happiness, and they can't stop them from entering the palace of marriage.They talked for seven years before they came to this day.It suddenly occurred to me that love is like shoes, only you can feel comfortable, uncomfortable, suitable, happy or not.The moment I saw them, I thought about the title of the article: "Snow White and the Dwarf's Long-distance Love Run".

My heart is full of envy.

The music of "Wedding March" sounded, and under the gaze of thousands of onlookers, they walked on the red carpet to a big hotel, where there was their private room, where they would spend their wedding night tonight.The bride's slender fingers dragged the groom's thick, short and fat palms. The bride had a happy smile on her face, but the groom deliberately put on a majestic and dignified solemnity like a little man, which made the onlookers laugh.Every time the bride takes a step, the groom has to take two steps in a hurry to keep up with the tall bride.A burst of laughter erupted from the crowd.

However, I am full of respect for the groom.With such congenital inadequacy, he entered into today's extremely competitive society, laid down his own piece of land, and won the heart of a beautiful girl.As for us who are physically strong, we have no reason to blame others in the face of adversity, and how can we choose to retreat when faced with the test of love.

After the wedding, I asked the groom, what is your secret to winning love?
The groom said, stick to it.

Yeah, stick to it.I have confidence.I persevere to the end, and I will definitely have this day with Ah Qing. .

At night, I went back to my room, only to find that Ah Qing had already left.Took all her things, including the magazines she bought, and her long brown hair on the dresser.In an empty room, I felt like I was in an empty desert.It felt like the ceiling was falling, squeezing me into a pancake.My heart was crushed into countless pieces.

Can't live without Ah Qing, can't live without Ah Qing.Hurry to her, hurry to her.I told myself.

I rode my bicycle towards the sauna city where Ah Qing worked. The bicycle wobbled all the way, like a lame old horse, colliding with oncoming people several times.When I came to Sauna City, I was ashamed to see the high-end cars parked at the gate, flashing dazzling brilliance under the neon lights.I gave up the idea of ​​going upstairs to look for Ah Qing.I leaned my bicycle against the corner, squatted under a banyan tree, lit a cigarette, and waited for Ah Qing to come out from get off work.Those strutting people walked past me, they squinted at me with contempt, in their eyes, I might be a beggar or a migrant worker who can only swallow saliva alone while watching the feasting and feasting.

At midnight, I finally saw Ah Qing come out.I went forward excitedly and apprehensively, and said, Ah Qing, let's go home.When Ah Qing saw me, she suddenly turned her head away. Under the dim street light, I saw tears glisten in her eyes.

I said, Ah Qing, let's go back.

Ah Qing suddenly turned around and walked towards the city of Sauna.A fat man in a white T-shirt and black shorts stood at the gate of Sauna City. His round and bloated figure was like an egg standing on end.I heard Ah Qing say to the fat man, Brother Long, take me home.

The big fat man immediately smiled. He shook his swollen body and ran towards a black car.Big chunks of flesh on his body were shaking, and he only had the posture of running, but not the speed of running.Ah Qing got into the car.With a low hum, the car disappeared into the cold street at midnight.

Looking at the direction Ah Qing left, I burst into tears.

The next afternoon, while Ah Qing was working, I came to that sauna again.I don't know where Ah Qing spent last night, where she moved to, and whether that big fat man with a hideous face would be with her last night.Thinking of this makes my heart ache.

I mustered up the courage to climb up the long steps and came to the entrance of Sauna City. I saw Ah Qing standing behind the bar with puffy eyes and thoughtful thoughts.Ah Qing also saw me, but she turned her head away as if she didn't recognize me, and looked out the window.

I went up and stood outside the bar.I looked at her and said, Ah Qing, don't be angry anymore, go home after get off work.

Ah Qing squinted at me and said, who are you and what are you doing here?
I lowered my voice and said, don't do this.It was all my fault and I apologize to you.

Ah Qing's eyes shot out a terrible light, the kind of cold light like a snake, she also lowered her voice and said, it's too late to say anything now, I want to take revenge on you.I was with someone last night, we had a drink at the bar and then we went to the hotel to get a room.

I opened my mouth wide in surprise, I didn't know what to say, could this be that pure and lovely Ah Qing, that Ah Qing who swore to me forever, that Ah Qing who we dreamed of a romantic life after marriage together.I raised my arm, but I couldn't beat it down.Ah Qing snorted contemptuously, and she said, who are you to me, why do you interfere with my freedom.

I said sadly, Ah Qing, you can't do this, you can't ruin yourself.

(End of this chapter)