Left-behind women in Fuzhou

Chapter 28 Wang Jing's Story (7)
Every time I pass a temple, whether it is a large temple like Xichan Temple and Yongquan Temple, or a small temple that is silent and lonely deep in the alley, I will light a stick of incense, put it in the incense burner devoutly, and then put my hands together, I closed my eyes, knelt down and worshiped, and silently told the Lord Buddha my thoughts in my heart.I pray that the Lord Buddha can help me find Mei Niang and Ah Qing, even if I fall into the abyss of eternal doom, even if I can only see them and cannot say a word, I am satisfied.

I also pray that in this city, I hope that Meiniang and Aqing can live happily. No more regrets.

I never thought that I would meet Ah Qing again that day, at the place where we met for the first time at Dongjiekou.Maybe there is really an arrangement from the Lord Buddha in the dark, maybe my sincerity has moved the Lord Buddha, and the Lord Buddha sent Ah Qing to me again.

Still at the gate of KFC, or at dusk, I saw Ah Qing sitting on the curved bench with a blank expression. Her long hair was scattered behind her shoulders, making her look charming and miserable.

I tried my best to suppress my wildly jumping thoughts, quietly sat opposite her, and stared at her.She was thinner than the day we broke up, her bare shoulders were scorched yellow by the hot southern sun, and her forearms were more slender, barely enough to hold.She was still looking at the ground, thinking heavily.

Ten minutes later, she was about to get up to leave, she looked across inadvertently, and suddenly saw me.She opened her mouth in surprise, and wanted to shout something, but she didn't shout a word.Tears slid from the corners of her eyes, one drop after another, sliding down her cheeks like water droplets.I stretched out my hand and put her small palm in mine. Her palm was trembling all the time, like a leaf in the wind.I stood up and pulled her.She leaned her head on my shoulder obediently, as she had done so many times before.We walked the way home together.

We merged into the turbulent flow of people on the street, and every face in the flow of people was extremely kind.

Back in the room I rented on Zhongshan Road, we embraced tightly, trying to melt each other into our arms, our thirsty mouths searching for each other, panting because of thirst.Then the clothes floated to the ground like clouds falling down the valley, and we fell onto the bed moaning, groaning with pleasure and bliss.

We began to climb again and again, climbed to the peak of happiness, and began to slide briskly and contentedly, from the peak to the valley.We murmured slurred words of love, and each other burst into tears.

I don't know what time it is, and I don't know how long it has been. We lay on the bed sweating profusely, listening to each other's heartbeat, and stroking each other's body that was already unfamiliar because of the long distance.The moonlight fell quietly on the bed and on her perfect and pretty breasts. She smiled lightly, like a flower blooming in the dark night.

I said, you know what?I have had a hard time looking for you.

She sighed softly and said, I finally figured it out, how can I blame you, you are not wrong.

Ah Qing said, I don’t know how precious you are until I leave you. In fact, I think about you every day, but I don’t have the courage to look for you again. I have caused you too much harm. I am worried that you will not forgive me. Me, you will ignore me.

I stroked her cheek, which was stained with tears.I said, you are the most important thing to me, and I can't live without you.

Ah Qing said, at that time I just wanted to take revenge on you, and I purposely made you angry that I slept with someone else.In fact, I have been sticking to the last line of defense. I am not the kind of frivolous and casual woman.I am responsible for you and for myself.

Ah Qing said that the nasty fat man who drove a black Audi had been seducing her. He bought her jewelry and a new mobile phone, but she didn't want it.One night, the big fat man took her to the bar.He deliberately drank her a lot of wine, beer and red wine, deliberately trying to get her drunk.When she felt that she was about to vomit, she resolutely stopped drinking.He said that after sending her to the hotel, a room had already been opened for her, and then he would leave. His wife was still waiting for him at home.She believed him.However, as soon as he arrived at the hotel, he showed his true colors. He stripped her clothes fiercely and groped her body eagerly with his dirty hands.She struggled desperately, crying loudly, and wanted to call the police.His plot finally failed.The security guard knocked on the door, and she broke free from his grasp and ran downstairs.

Ah Qing said that Fatty had a good relationship with the boss of Sauna City, and she resigned the next day. She would rather not have a job than go to work in such a dirty place.

I believe Ah Qing is sincere.Just like I believe in Mei Niang.They are all equally important in my life.I have always stubbornly believed that when a man and a woman have skin-to-skin contact, they must have an inseparable fate in their previous lives, and their hearts will be compatible from now on, and the imprint engraved on his heart by the other party will make him Bearing in mind his whole life, he is destined to love and care for the other party for the rest of his life.

I am like this to Ah Qing, and Ah Qing will be like this to me.

Now, I live in this city called Nanjing, and I still maintain my hobby of wandering in the streets and alleys.The sky in Nanjing is always cloudy, and the gloomy sycamore leaves cover the road, making this city with a heavy history even more sad and desolate.The girls all over the street have the same supergirl-like hairstyle, but their faces are smeared with powder and powder, which reminds me of those old things flowing in the Qinhuai River, those sweet and sad pasts .

I miss Fuzhou.The sky in Fuzhou is not like this. The sky in Fuzhou is always sunny, and the mango trees all over the streets are full of fragrance.The subtropical sunshine makes Fuzhou girls dark and healthy. Their mature breasts and apple-like plump buttocks show youth and beauty. They exude the breath of the ocean and exude an exotic charm.

We had the best time, one that I will remember forever.If I were old and old, I would sit on the balcony of my house, bathe in the afternoon sun, squint my eyes, looking to the south, and I would still think of those times I spent with Ah Qing.I don't know if by that time, I will still be as heartbroken as I am now.They say time is like running water, it will wear away all the pain.Maybe at that time, I will look back at these stories in Fuzhou in the summer of 2005 with a calm and peaceful state of mind, just like looking back at other people's stories.I will tell others about it——Once upon a time, in Fuzhou, there was a reporter who met a very beautiful girl, and they fell in love...

Ah Qing's figure is as tall and straight as the barrel of a pen.In the room, we closed the doors and windows, drew the curtains, and we all stripped naked, as naked as newborn babies.Ah Qing walked slowly in the room wearing high-heeled shoes, the heels of which tapped the wooden floor crisply, her round breasts trembled slightly with the sound, and her satin-like smooth belly was full of femininity and coquettishness.Her ankles are tiny, with rings of red silk thread—she once said that they were woven thread by thread by her grandmother, and that was her amulet—that gradually thickened upwards, and her hips were exaggerated. Full and lifted.Her body is the most beautiful picture and the most beautiful scenery in the world.I like to watch her walking up and down the room, admiring her quietly, a kind of soft sweetness will secretly grow in my heart.Sometimes, I would stand beside or behind her, and we would pose in various poses, with legs and arms bent.I said, we took wedding photos like this when we got married.Ah Qing said that such a wedding photo is absolutely unique in the world.

We have had many fantasies.We fantasize about buying a house in the countryside, a house surrounded by green hills. When we open the window, we can see the gurgling stream flowing through the door, and we can see dragonflies perched on the bamboo outside the window.We also want to raise a tall and mighty Tibetan mastiff, the kind of Tibetan mastiff with a mane and a black coat. We live in the tranquility and poetry of a paradise.We also fantasized about buying a ferocious and domineering jeep. Every once in a while, we would drive a rumbling jeep on the journey to the ends of the earth, letting the wild wind blow our long hair , let the sun turbulently spray on our shoulders...

In those happy times, we were carefree, we didn't know what it was like to be sad, and experienced a setback, we cherished what we had at this moment even more.

Ah Qing likes listening to my stories.At night we lay on our backs in bed, our fingers clasped together.The darkness engulfed us like the sea, and we were as quiet and serene as sinking into the bottom of the sea.Ah Qing would always say, tell a story.So I told stories one after another. Whenever the plot was tense, she would snuggle up in my arms like a child panting, and after the tension passed, she would smile again. In the dark, I saw her revealing her snow-white the teeth of.I racked my brains to recall the stories I saw and heard in those books, and they gradually became coherent and clear in my memory like melting snow under the eaves.Just like that, we felt the joys and sorrows of ancient times together, and felt the tremors and palpitations of the soul again and again.Unknowingly, the first ray of sunlight outside the window illuminated the window lattice.

In those days, we were together all the time and I didn't go to work.Since I was transferred to the mobile department of the newspaper, I can get a full monthly salary as long as I complete three manuscripts in January. Those salaries are not cheap enough to allow us to live a casual and happy life.

Until one day, Ah Qing said that she was going to work, and she didn't want to be an idle housewife.

Ah Qing's job is easy to find, her outstanding beauty and temperament let her find a job very quickly, the kind of job that eats youth.She went to work as a salesperson in Dongbai Commercial Building at Dongjiekou.

Later, there, she met Gao Ming who had returned from working abroad.

The first time Ah Qing mentioned Gao Ming to me was at the dinner table one night.While peeling the boiled crabs that were crimson and transparent, she sucked them with relish, and casually said that she met a classmate in junior high school, who had just returned from the United States, named Gao Ming.

She said, how much time can change a person.When Gao Ming was in junior high school, his family was poor, and he always wore a pair of broken sneakers with exposed toes, and he could smell the bad smell from him from a long distance.Unexpectedly, the current Gao Ming is actually tall and handsome.

I said lightly that women are changing at the age of [-], and men are actually changing too.

She said that after Gao Ming graduated from junior high school, he failed to pass the high school entrance examination, so he borrowed money and went to the United States. There is some distant relative of him in the United States.Eight years later, he came back and actually made 100 million.I heard from my classmates.

I said that this kind of uneducated person can only do rough work abroad.I have interviewed several.They dig out sewers, clean toilets, and even carry dead bodies from the morgue abroad.They do the dirty work that the locals don't want to do.No matter how much money is given to me, I will not do it.

She said that in today's society, as long as you have money, what do you want to do if you want to be noble and educated.

I was surprised to say that money is not the most important thing, but also dignity.Prostitutes can make money, but there are so many poor girls who don't want to do it.Robbers can also steal money, but only the conscience-stricken would do it.

Ah Qing smiled, and she said, why are you so excited.Let me just talk about my classmate, you are so excited, is it worth it?You are typical sour grapes theory.

At that time, I didn't know that this man named Gao Ming, who always dressed himself up as a returned overseas Chinese, had been secretly in love with Ah Qing from junior high school to now.I don't know, he goes to Dongbai Commercial Building every day, not for anything else, just to be able to see Ah Qing.

The manuscript exposing mobile communication still did not appear in the newspaper, which is within my expectation.Our poor newspapers and poor reporters have only the guts to knock on the plain-headed civilians without any background, and keep a respectful distance from the departments appointed by the executive and those high-ranking people.When every reporter first started, he would be earnestly warned by his predecessors, "Shoot flies, not tigers".In this special era, news supervision is like a snowman. It is tall and bloated, looks majestic and majestic, and when the sun rises above the horizon, it will melt into a puddle of water.I still remember that in 2000, there was a newspaper in Shaanxi called "Labor Morning Post". Because it published the article "Thousands of Guns Blast the Urban Management", that newspaper was reorganized and changed to "Jianzhaobao"; in 2005 In Wuhan in 2005, "New Weekly", once considered the most influential newspaper in China at that time, was ordered to suspend publication because of the comment that "downsizing the organization should start with the deputy secretary of the provincial party committee". It used to be the best batch of newspapers in China Reporters and editors have since wandered around as birds and beasts.At that time, I experienced the whole process from its inception to its closure.And at the end of [-], the "Beijing News" sponsored by two party newspapers, with a circulation of one million, dismissed the editor-in-chief, deputy editor-in-chief and editorial board collectively because the manuscript disclosed sensitive issues... Reporters, behind the scenery, there is an unknown sadness .

Fonteyn said she wanted to get married, and she could not bear the deep, sad loneliness.During the day, she forced a smile on her face in the office building, accompanied customers she knew and didn’t know to go in and out of shopping malls and restaurants, patiently listened to the customers nagging about their dissatisfaction and resentment, and then smiled with cold eyes and a smile on the corner of her mouth. To shirk responsibility for the company.But as soon as she got home, back to the lonely and cold home, depression and emptiness flooded her like a tide. She struggled, trying to find a straw to save her life, but there was none.No one will hear her heartbeat, no one will listen to her narrative.Only tears accompany her.There is no shortage of men in her life. However, those men are just disposable napkins with only short-term use value. Instead of bringing long-term warmth and comfort, they bring deeper loneliness and pain.Fang Ting said that she was too tired, and she needed to find a man's shoulder to lean on, no matter whether the shoulder was strong or generous.

The boyfriend Fontey found was a colleague of hers, a man as gentle as a girl.She stands behind the counter selling mobile phones, wearing spotless white short sleeves and dark blue trousers every day, wearing a blue tie, her hair daubed with gel water is meticulous, and when he sees someone passing by the counter Just like those girls, show a smile like a flower, call Mr. or Miss in a sweet voice, and then ask, which mobile phone do you want?
I once asked, why do you like such a man, like a little boy.

Fang Ting said, I have been divorced, and I am afraid of those capable men. I don't need him to be capable, I don't need him to make money, I just need him to grow old with me.In fact, what is the ultimate destination of a woman? It is not a stable family, or a person who can talk to you when you get old.

Fang Ting said that over the years, I have been a medical representative and an agent of mobile phone sales, and I have saved a sum of money. I plan to buy a house and settle down, and I will be a good wife and mother from now on.I am too bitter, I often think of those painful past events, and when I think of those past events, my heart feels like a knife...

I don't know what events Fonteyn was talking about, her miserable marriage, or the humiliation she had endured for her work.At a dinner party a few months ago, I saw the bald head of the hospital director put his dirty hands on Fonteyn's lap in a miniskirt, and after the dinner, he drove Fangteng in his private Audi. Ting pulled to the hotel.And Wang Jing also told me that after every dirty sex transaction, Fang Ting would always cry while washing in the bathroom, her skin would turn red from rubbing.

Fang Ting is a successful medical representative, on the one hand, because of her high kickbacks to the hospital director and doctors, on the other hand, because of her own "dedication".And rebates will always be passed on to patients, so the cost of medicine remains high.Fang Ting said that it is an open secret that the price of a box of cold medicine in the hospital is dozens of times the price in the pharmacy.And those so-called "angels in white clothes" are actually wolves with blood-red eyes who cannibalize people without spitting out their bones. They have lost the most basic conscience and sympathy for human beings.They don't have life-saving and wounded in their eyes, they only have money in their eyes.

Fang Ting said that medical representatives are definitely profiteering, but she chose to give up because the last bit of conscience in her heart has not been wiped out.

I think there is not much difference between Fonteyn and those laughing ladies.So I have always sympathized with her, even though her primitive accumulation is enough to make her live comfortably in this life, even though I am still busy with food and clothing.

I asked Fang Ting about Wang Jing.I don't know whether Wang Jing has walked out of the shadow of fear after experiencing such a heart-wrenching online dating deception.She is the kind of noble and sad woman, and she is a poor and left-behind woman with nothing to rely on.

Fang Ting said that she hadn't contacted Wang Jing for a long time, and only knew that her husband had returned from a distant foreign country.

I said, ask Wang Jing to come out, take her husband with me, and let's go to the bar together.

On the second night, Fang Ting and I came early to the bar where we often drank together, but Wang Jing was alone.There was sadness between her brows, and there were still blue bruises on her arms.

Sitting across from us, Wang Jing didn't say a word. She poured herself a large glass of wine and gulped it down.The smell of alcohol made her face flushed, and she coughed loudly, and her tears were choked out.

I asked eagerly, what's wrong?what happened to you?
(End of this chapter)