Elopement: My Decade of Life and Death in Thailand's Red Light District

Chapter 31 Return to Thailand
When the flight I was on landed at the airport in Thailand, the sun came out from the clouds, it was so bright and warm, I looked at it, and the fire of hope began to ignite in my heart...

After I came back, Xiuzhu left, angrily, and before she left, she didn't forget to yell at me: "Cheng Xiaoluo, I'm leaving, but I will always pay attention to your every move. Live up to Teacher Gu's kindness to you, I will come back and make you die, I will do what I say..."

I never talked back, just smiled and listened.Because although Xiuzhu spoke harshly to me, I understand that she really regards Gu Yifan as a family member, otherwise she wouldn't be in such a hurry with me.

After Xiuzhu said those harsh words to me, she said to Gu Yifan with tears in her eyes: "Mr. Gu, I'm leaving. If you need anything, please call me, and I will come back immediately to continue serving you!"

Gu Yifan also seemed very reluctant to part with this Xiuzhu, he nodded lightly and said: "Sister Xiuzhu, thank you so much for the past two years, without you, I, Gu Yifan, might have died early, if you have any difficulties in the future, remember to come back and find me……"

At this point, Gu Yifan couldn't continue, I saw tears in his eyes, he turned the wheelchair and waved his hand, then slid into the bedroom by himself.

Xiuzhu sighed deeply, and walked towards the door, I chased her out, and said to Xiuzhu: "Sister-in-law, thank you, I will take good care of Yifan!"

Xiuzhu didn't make a sound, just gave me a serious look, and then strode forward.

I also sighed slightly, and after entering the house, I went straight to the bedroom. Gu Yifan faced the window and heard me come in and asked, "Is sister-in-law Xiuzhu gone?"

I nodded and said, "Let's go!"

Gu Yifan didn't make a sound anymore, just kept staring out the window, I shook my head and gently closed the bedroom door and backed out.Until now, I didn't bother to take a closer look at this former home. The home has not changed much. A lot of furniture and decorations in the house were basically bought when Gu Yifan and I got married.

I stroked them lightly, and returned to the past.I used to feel that I was not happy in this home, but now I recall those times as the happiest days in my life.

My eyes habitually looked towards the wall in front of the dining table, trying to find the family portrait that used to hang on the wall, but I was disappointed. There was still a shadow of the frame on the wall, but the family portrait was no longer there.I searched everywhere, but found nothing, let alone a family photo, except for the bedroom, I searched all over the house and couldn't find a photo.

Gu Yifan didn't know when he came out of the bedroom. He looked at me looking around and asked puzzledly, "What are you looking for?"

Like a thief being caught by someone, I blushed, and after a while I stammered and said, "I want to find some photos of Dorze. It's been ten years, and I don't know what he looks like!"

Gu Yifan gave me a sad look and said, "Don't look for it anymore, sister-in-law Xiuzhu is afraid that I will be hurt by the scene, so she put away all the photos!"

Gu Yifan became visibly irritable while talking, he suddenly yelled at me: "It's all you woman, if it wasn't for you, Duoze wouldn't have run away from home, if it wasn't for you..."

I looked at Gu Yifan sadly, and fell into deep self-blame again.

Ten years ago, Gu Yifan was always a good-tempered and nice man, but ten years later, Gu Yifan's temper is very scary.His face may have been a sunny day with no clouds for a minute, but before you blinked your eyes, it turned into a heavy rainy day with dark clouds.

Just like just now, Gu Yifan was chatting and laughing and asked me what I would have for dinner, but as soon as I finished reporting the name of the dish, his face suddenly became gloomy.Then, before I could react to what happened, Gu Yifan's ugly scolding came over.

"Cheng Xiaoluo, you are a good bitch, what are you doing here with such a shameless face? You..."

No matter how tired I am, I can bear it, but Gu Yifan's foul words are like steel needles piercing my heart, making me feel distressed and uncomfortable, and then, tears flowed down very disappointingly.

Seeing me cry, Gu Yifan scolded me even more vigorously.Looking at Gu Yifan, who was starting to become a stranger, I felt even more desolate in my heart. He still dislikes me after all, and maybe this dislike will accompany me for the rest of my life.Thinking that I might have to swallow my breath accompanied by such scolding in the future, I suddenly felt a kind of despair that I had never felt before.

In Thailand before, after suffering so much from Sister Chun, I never despaired, because there was always a belief that supported me, and that was to go home.But now that I really went home, it made me know what despair is.

Maybe it is really like what Gu Yifan said, just leave, then there is no need to bear anything.As soon as this idea popped up from the bottom of my heart, a heavy sense of guilt followed.What's wrong with me, how can I have such an idea.Today all of this happened because of me, so what right do I have to escape.So, no matter what Gu Yifan does to me, I have to bear it, because this is the punishment I deserve.

I stopped my tears, and said softly to Gu Yifan: "Is it possible that the food you mentioned just now is not to your liking, I'll just change it!"

Gu Yifan was stunned, but quickly replied angrily: "No need!" After speaking, he slid the wheelchair towards the bedroom, and then slammed the door of the bedroom with a "slap".

With this sound, the belief I had just established began to disintegrate again, and tears began to fall down again, but this time it was not despair, but sadness.I hate myself for being obsessed with ghosts ten years ago, so that I ruined a good home.

The dinner that night was extremely dull, and several times I tried to pick up a topic and say something.But no matter what I said, Gu Yifan also pretended not to hear and ate with a sullen head.Looking at the empty seat, I couldn't help thinking of Gu Duoze again.It would be great if Gu Duoze could be here at this moment, he would definitely add something to it, so as not to make the air so dull.

Dorze, where the hell have you been?Come back soon, okay?The word Gu Duoze has always been Gu Yifan's heart disease. Although I have many things I want to ask him, but in order to keep him happy, I have been holding back and dare not ask.But today under such circumstances, I blurted out this topic from my mouth like a ghost.

"Yifan, can you talk to me about Dorze? Does Dorze hate me from the bottom of his heart? When did he run away from home?"

Gu Yifan's head was lowered all the time, but he raised it all of a sudden, his eyes stared at me blankly.When I saw the look in his eyes that wanted to kill me, I lowered my head guiltily.

The air became more dull, just when I no longer expected Gu Yifan to speak, Gu Yifan said: "Duo Ze is a good boy, even though he never mentioned you in front of me, I know he has always loved you very much, really miss you!"

To hear such an affirmative answer from Gu Yifan's mouth, I wanted to cry again.Yes, Dorze has always been a good boy, but what about me?But he never loved him well, and even almost acted as Dong Ge's tool to abduct Dorze.Looking back on the past, I still couldn't help but sweat secretly for Duo Ze. If he hadn't had his own opinions, then I would have been more sinful.But why did such a strong-minded child run away from home?
I really can't figure it out.But not only I couldn't figure it out, Gu Yifan didn't figure it out either, only heard him go on to say:

"You said such a good child, why did you run away from home? And it was still on his birthday!"

Although my cousin had told me before that the time when Duo Ze ran away from home was his birthday, but I had always been half-believing, and now it was finally confirmed by Gu Yifan.

I couldn't help but interjected, "Can you tell me about the situation that day?"

Gu Yifan did not continue to answer me, but fell into deep thought.It was only after a long, long time that he finally spoke.

That day was a day of double happiness for our family. The first joy was of course Dorze’s birthday, which is an important day for a child to enter youth, so it is naturally worthy of congratulations; On that day, he received the admission letter from the university, and it was the Public Security University that he had always dreamed of.You also know this kid. He wanted to be a policeman since he was a child, and now he finally got his wish. Why isn't it a happy event!
Since you left, this family has been full of tragedies. It is rare to have such a happy event. On that day, I went to the hotel to order two tables of wine and food to celebrate for Dorze.

Duo Ze was also very happy that day, and specially invited some of his best classmates and teachers, but in the middle of the meal, Duo Ze suddenly got up and walked to my side and said, "Dad, please greet me for me first." Classmates and teachers, I will go to the bathroom and be right back!"

I nodded and replied, "Go and come back!"

Duo Ze replied humbly and walked out, but who knew that he never came back after leaving.

When Gu Yifan said this, he couldn't help crying.

I walked up to him, gently wiped away his tears with my hand and asked, "Did Dorze leave any note or act abnormally before he left?"

Gu Yifan shook his head and said, "A note? No, he didn't leave me anything. Abnormal behavior?
When you ask, it reminds me of one thing. "

That night, Dorze came back very late.I was afraid to come and worried, and when he came back, I couldn't help but get angry at him.This kid is usually the most irritated, but that day, no matter how much I scolded him, he was not annoyed, and said to me with a playful smile: "Dad, don't be angry, I will never come back so late next time, but I came back late today for a reason, because I discovered a secret."

What kind of a secret would it be?I became curious by what he said, and couldn't help but ask, "What's the secret?"

Doze had been smiling all the time before, but after hearing my questioning, he suddenly became serious, "I can't tell you this, but if you really want to know, I can let you know, this secret is related to my mother."

When I heard that this secret was related to you, I became even more anxious: "Duo Ze, don't fool Dad, please, tell me what it is!"

Duoze hesitated for a while, and finally said hesitantly: "Dad, don't blame my mother for not giving us news for so many years. She met a liar and fell into the wrong hands!"

When Gu Yifan said this, he looked up at me and said, "Aren't you weird? Our son knew that you fell into the wrong hands a few years ago, and he said it with certainty."

Yes, this matter is really strange, how did Gu Duoze know about this matter?

Could it be that Gu Duoze met Brother Dong four years ago and learned something from him.If this is the case, Gu Duoze's disappearance will be more ominous. Will he be silenced by Brother Dong?Or he was lured to Thailand by Dong Ge.

Although Gu Yifan's legs are disabled, his head is not broken. Seeing my expression, he immediately understood: "Do you think that Duo Ze didn't simply run away from home, but might be missing, and Maybe it has something to do with that brother Dong who lied to you!"

Gu Yifan saw through my mind all of a sudden, I had no choice but to nod if I didn't want to.Seeing me, Gu Yifan couldn't help but get serious: "If that's the case, it would be terrible. Didn't you say that Brother Dong wanted to trick Duo Ze into Thailand and sell him as a ladyboy? Would Duo Ze... "

I interrupted Gu Yifan and said: "When Duo Ze was 12 years old, he didn't fall for Dong Ge's tricks, let alone do it again. If he really knows from Dong Ge that Dong Ge is a liar and I fall into the wrong hands, Will he take the risk, follow Brother Dong to Thailand and try to save me?"

I said this not out of ground, because at this moment I suddenly thought of Brother Huang.There are too many doubts about that child, could he be Dorze?God, if it's really Dorze, how can I not even recognize him, and let him lose his life for me.I was so distraught that I didn't dare to think about it anymore.

But Gu Yifan also thought of this question after what I said, he blurted out and asked: "Tell me, is that brother Huang who saved you really Duo Ze?"

As Gu Yifan said, he suddenly turned his wheelchair and slid towards the bedroom, and I followed closely after seeing it.He took out a photo from under the mattress and handed it to me, saying: "This is the photo of Duo Ze that I secretly hid from Mrs. Xiuzhu!
Take a serious look, is Brother Huang really Duo Ze? "

I didn't need to look seriously at all, I could tell at a glance that Brother Huang who saved me was Dorze.No wonder that brother Huang risked his life to save me, so he is my son Gu Duoze, why didn't I think about it before?All the details of getting along with Duo Ze who turned into Brother Huang came out of my mind at once.

Seeing that I was silent, Gu Yifan also understood, he couldn't help but burst into tears: "Cheng Xiaoluo, what kind of crime are you doing? You can't recognize your son standing in front of you as a mother, let him sacrifice His life saved you! Why is it not you who died, but Dorze..."

Gu Yifan cried loudly, cutting my heart like a knife.I couldn't help but hugged Gu Yifan and cried loudly.

That night, both Gu Yifan and I tossed and turned without sleep. At dawn, I finally made a difficult decision. I had to return to Thailand to take Gu Duozhe home.I thought that Gu Yifan would support my decision, but unexpectedly, as soon as I made this decision, Gu Yifan vetoed it.

"No, Duo Ze has already given his young life for you. If you go to the past for good or bad, Duo Ze's spirit in the sky will not rest in peace! Besides, haven't you already said it, when you go back again, Duo Ze Ze's body is gone, someone must have buried it for him, and it's so dangerous there, if Sister Chun's people find your trace, then Dorze's sacrifice will no longer be of any value."

I admit that what Gu Yifan said is quite right, yes, when I think of being taken back again by Sister Chun, my heart is full of fear.I couldn't help being startled when I thought that I would definitely go to Brother Hei and the others to ask for Dorze's burial place when I went back.

However, for me, Duo Ze went to Thailand alone. He must have suffered a lot to find me, rescued me, and finally gave his life for me.Thinking about Dorze, what was my little fear and panic?I tried to persuade Gu Yifan, but this time Gu Yifan was determined.He was afraid that I would really take that risk, so he specially called Mrs. Xiuzhu, just to watch me in prison.

I was imprisoned again, but this time for love.Although Gu Yifan still often scolds me with some ugly words, his behavior has already betrayed him. In fact, he has always loved me, otherwise he would not have prevented me from taking Gu Duozhe's ashes home, because I can see his desire from the bottom of his heart, in fact, he is also eager to let Dorze go home.

But I don't deserve such love at all. Seeing how kind Xiuzhu's sister-in-law is to Gu Yifan, I think maybe they will be the most suitable couple, and my last mission in this life is to bring Gu Duize home.

No obstacles can stop my determination, just like how Sister Chun set up so many obstacles back then, and I managed to escape in the end.One gray night, I finally escaped from home and boarded another flight to Thailand.

Looking at the motherland that is getting farther and farther away, I silently bid farewell to Gu Yifan in my heart: "Yifan, I assure you, I will definitely come back alive and bring our son back, you must wait for me..."

When the flight I was on landed at the airport in Thailand, the sun came out from the clouds, it was so bright and warm, I looked at it, and my heart began to ignite with great confidence... I believe I will be able to Fulfilling the mission, successfully found the place where Duo Ze was buried, and then took him home together...

(End of this chapter)