Luan and Phoenix Tribulation: A Concubine Becomes a Phoenix

Chapter 291 Always have to face

On this birthday, Feng Shijin couldn't think of anything interesting, so she followed Jun Qianji and made a fuss in the alchemy room with Sanquan.I thought in my heart that nothing else was important, as long as I had him by my side.

Unexpectedly, Su Guyan would leave Feng Shining at home at this time and come to the National Teacher's Mansion.

Jun Qianji didn't let the boy invite him in, so he stood at the gate the whole time.In the evening, there was a light snowfall outside again, which dyed his eyebrows and eyes cold, and the snow-white color against his ink-like long hair, looked like an exquisite ink painting.

A mattress was placed at the bottom of the corridor, and Feng Shijin sat cross-legged on the mattress, with three laps spread between her knees.One person and one rabbit sat quietly watching the snow.

Jun Qianji walked out of the alchemy room unhurriedly, his robes fluttering slightly, Feng Shijin said: "Master, let Su Guyan come in?" Jun Qianji didn't answer, Feng Shijin narrowed his eyes again He closed his eyes and said, "I want to hear what he has to say."

Times have changed, times have changed.Even if she heard what he wanted to say, it would be meaningless, Feng Shijin thought again, but even so, she didn't want the past when she was young to become an unresolved obsession over time.

Su Guyan didn't hold an umbrella and came in through the snow.He was standing in the courtyard directly in front of the alchemy room, his eyes were washed deep and bright, he ignored Jun Qianji, and fell directly on Feng Shijin who was sitting on the porch.

Feng Shijin looked at him for a long time, then suddenly smiled.

She smiled a little far-fetched, but that smile was the brightest and purest thing in the whole snowy day, as if it made the surroundings eclipsed, and finally fell into Su Guyan's eyes, causing deep pain.

It's too late to say anything now.

He melted all his feelings into a lie, leaving only a pale powerlessness.When I looked back, I realized that what was really pale and powerless was his wasted years.He was deceived, neglected what he cared about most, and betrayed what he loved the most, thinking that what he had always had was a treasure.

A relationship based on deceit and lies, no matter how solid it is, will burst into cracks like crushed glass beads after a long time, but he is too self-righteous, and even the instinctive suspicion is considered to be against him. The supreme blasphemy of the relationship with Feng Shining.

Su Guyan hesitated to speak, but Feng Shijin opened his mouth first, smiled, and said with a relieved look, "Are you here to apologize to me?"

Subconsciously, she wanted Su Guyan to apologize to her, and she also needed to prove that all the faults over the years were not hers, but Su Guyan's.It wasn't that she turned her back on the other party first, but that Su Guyan turned his back on her first; it wasn't that she didn't work hard, but that Su Guyan didn't care at all.

Before Su Guyan could answer, the smile on the corner of her mouth became brighter again, and she said, "If you came to apologize to me for making you stand outside for so long, I'm not like you, I'm not an unkind person , if you tell me carefully, I will accept it."

Su Guyan looked at Feng Shijin, but what he said was to Jun Qianji, and said solemnly: "This game, congratulations to the national teacher, you won the bet. I am blind."

Jun Qianji didn't speak, just turned around and walked into the alchemy room. Before turning around, he also brought three circles in, leaving a quiet space for the two of them.He can help Feng Shijin, but he can't help her in everything. Only she can untie this long-standing knot in her heart.

The two were silent for a long time, Feng Shijin asked: "It's Feng Shining's birthday today anyway, is she doing well at home?"

Su Guyan might think that it's inappropriate for them to talk about Feng Shining at this time, but he still followed Feng Shijin's words and continued: "She's not doing well, the doctor just checked out, and she's pregnant."

Feng Shijin was taken aback for a moment, and said, "Really, then I really want to congratulate you."

After waiting for a while, she stood up from the mattress on the corridor, brushed the robe casually on her body, as if she wanted to blow the past away with the wind, lowered her head and said nonchalantly: "Don't you have anything to say? If not, go back and be with her, I'm going to go in and practice alchemy with Master. You know, if it wasn't for what happened last night, maybe I wouldn't expose her, I'm not such a vicious person."

The moment Feng Shijin turned around, Su Gu said, "Do you hate me?"

Feng Shijin paused, turned around, and said calmly, "Then do you hate me, for tearing apart one of your sweet dreams for so many years."

Su Guyan shook his head, and said: "In the past, I just laughed in my heart. The truth that everyone thinks may not be the truth. Now I understand that the truth that everyone knows is only me who is confused. Feng Shining is still the same It's Feng Shining, Feng Shijin is still Feng Shijin, just a different person, but my life has changed drastically. I have been thinking, how did you survive the despair I brought to you at that time? came."

Feng Shijin thought for a while, and said: "Probably, it depends on your courage when you jumped into the water to save me that winter. But that courage and drive, without continuous encouragement from behind, will be exhausted one day .”

She raised her eyes and looked at Su Guyan quietly: "Fortunately, I don't have nothing until now, I still have my master."

Su Guyan nodded, and said: "Yes, I didn't understand it before, but I just realized it today. Fortunately, you have your master." He paused for a while, and then asked: "If... If you can start over... ..."

Feng Shijin lowered his head and thought: "If you can start over, I think you will still be the current you, and I will be the current me. What you believe is only what you see with your eyes, and the result will be the same."

She clearly remembered that she once said that if one day he turned around, she would not give him any more chances.

In the end, Su Guyan said desolately: "I know, all of this is irreversible, and I have no power to redeem anything. What Shi Ning did to you in the past, and what I caused to you, I apologize to you." Apologize. I don't ask you to forgive me, but I ask you to live a good life in the future."

Feng Shijin turned his back to him, and neither of them could see each other's expressions. The snow fell on his black hair, which seemed to be gray indistinctly: "Since this road is chosen by myself, in the future I will be with you. Shi Ning is together, she is pregnant with my child, I have the responsibility to take care of her."

When Su Guyan turned around, Feng Shijin suddenly said: "I was very grateful to you when I was young, thank you for appearing in front of me when I was most helpless, that kind of gratitude gradually turned into longing and liking over time. Although Now those longings and likings are gone, I'm still very grateful to you, that's all. If you apologize to me, I will accept it, and we will cherish each other from now on. Say hello to Feng Shining for me, if you don't mind If I have time, I will come to visit her."

(End of this chapter)