The Immortal Road of Rebirth

Chapter 1 Wedges
Girls like Yin Xiaoxiao are really rare in today's society:
Smart and capable, rational and wise, sincere and friendly, warm and modest.It can be said to have both the rationality of a man and the tenderness of a woman.

In the eyes of ordinary people, such a woman is actually the best candidate for a woman's boudoir best friend and a man's confidante.

However, she has no girlfriends, no blue face - at least not in Yin Xiaoxiao's own concept.

She is always surrounded by such and such friends: classmates, colleagues, clients...

People who have been with Xiaoxiao for a while can easily become friends with her. Her tolerance and sincerity can always impress others, so she has a lot of friends.

I have no friends, this is Xiaoxiao's inner monologue.

A true friend is one soul in two bodies.

My body is lively; my soul is lonely.I do not have friends.I just call him/her someone I know, we eat and drink together, we talk to each other, but our souls are thousands of miles apart.

There are always suitors around her.After all, a girl like Yin Xiaoxiao is short of having the words "IKEA IKEA" engraved on her face.

Graduated from a prestigious school, and a good job in a Fortune 500 company.With a well-behaved appearance and a gentle personality, she not only pleases the elders, but also is not afraid of the affair. Marrying her as a wife ensures a harmonious and warm family.

She had boyfriends, more than one—at different times, of course.However, Xiaoxiao is only willing to call them boyfriends, but never thinks they are her lovers.They are just friends with men.

"If the definition of love needs to be lowered, I would rather not believe in the existence of love. At least it is not self-deception." Xiaoxiao thought.

Some men pursue Xiaoxiao because of hormonal influences—they are attracted to her appearance and smell.Hormones determine the courtship and mating of animals, but we are human beings, not animals (although in a sense, human beings are also a kind of animal). It is not "instinct" that dictates action.So Xiaoxiao always resists calling this mutual attraction love.

Some men are looking for a partner to form a family together.They need a woman to procreate; they need a wife to share responsibility.Yin Xiaoxiao neither expects children, nor is he conscious of taking responsibility for a man, so he has no interest in starting a family together.

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Yin Xiaoxiao always thinks he is an actor.

I don't know when it started, life became a show: show for people you know and people you don't know.

While acting sincerely, she looked at the crowd around her with scrutiny; while acting friendly, she laughed at people's hypocrisy.

Even in the bustling crowd, she still uses many obstacles to isolate herself from the crowd, savoring the loneliness of a person in the carnival of thousands of people alone.

In essence, Xiaoxiao thinks she is withdrawn and indifferent.It's just that there used to be family affection as the link to maintain my connection with the world.However, since her parents passed away in an accidental car accident, her last ties with the world have been cut off, and she has been lonely and free ever since.

As Ah Sang sings:

"Loneliness is a person's carnival

Carnival is the loneliness of a group of people

The original beginning of love is companionship
But I also gradually forget
How was it accompanied by someone
I eat and travel alone

stop and go
Read books and write letters alone

talk to yourself
Just where did my heart go

I can't even see myself

I guess I didn't just lose you"

Sometimes Xiaoxiao thinks: Maybe I should see a psychiatrist, at least they can make me happier.

The next moment I realized: I don't need a psychiatrist.My unhappiness comes from my truth. If I want to, as long as I don't take it seriously, heartless, and self-deceived, life will be full of joy and sorrow-but I don't want to.

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Today is the weekend, and Yin Xiaoxiao lives in an apartment of more than 100 square meters, watching the hysterical performances of actors on TV. A TV separates two completely different worlds.There is no expression on the face, and the thoughts have drifted away:

If there are gods in this world, are we humans also actors of gods?
We are not gods and there is no eternity in our lives.Flick the TV switch, and the actor's existence is cut short; our lives are so short, what is our switch?
Once life is over, life is meaningless.

Those family, friendship and love, all ashes to ashes, ashes to ashes; those happy, painful, beautiful, and ugly things in life are like shadows, weightless, and perish before they perish.

What is the meaning of human life?Or to put it simply: what is the lifestyle I aspire to?
Perhaps the first thing to do is to have a certain ability.There has never been absolute freedom in the world. Ability means the right to choose freely. The higher the ability, the greater the right to choose freely.

In a sense, competence represents freedom.And the right to choose freely is the most precious right of a person as an individual.

The second is to have a long life.

Human life is too short, so we can only rush forward with the crowd, but we don't know that there is only one end point-death.

There are too many things in human life that cannot be done, because we have no chance to start again, and there is only one life, and there is only one choice.

Only with a long life can we have the opportunity to choose, whether it is right or wrong, it is only meaningful if we have experienced it.

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"Do you want to try the life you want?" An ethereal voice sounded in Xiaoxiao's mind.

It's in my mind and not in my ears, it's inexplicable, I just know it with a smile.

"who are you?"

"Your so-called god"

Xiaoxiao didn't hesitate and didn't ask some meaningless questions:

"Think, how to try?"

Influenced by all kinds of whimsical novels on the TOEFL Internet, Xiaoxiao is not flustered at all.The opportunity that was once thought of by countless people day and night is now in front of him, and Xiaoxiao seized it decisively.

"I'll give you one more chance to do it all over again. Go girl, live life the way you want it to be."

"By the way, I have a little gift for you."

A white light flashed, and Yin Xiaoxiao lost consciousness.

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A true friend is one soul in two bodies, two souls with one mind, and two hearts beating in unison. - Homer

(End of this chapter)