Sadness begins with your name

Chapter 10 His Pain and Secret

Just as I turned around to go home, someone tapped me on the shoulder.

"Who is it?!" I was taken aback and turned around quickly, only to see a pair of bright black eyes looking straight at me in the dim night.

"Lin... Teacher Lin?" I opened my mouth wide in surprise, looking at the thin and haggard man in front of me, I almost suspected that I had misidentified him.

Through the dim light at the gate, I saw Lin Yuehe's bloodshot eyes looking at me with an unprecedented enthusiasm.

"Thin sand." He called me softly, his chapped lips moved, and finally he burst into a full-bodied smile with relief and comfort.

I asked inexplicably: "It's so late, Mr. Lin, why are you here?"

He smiled quietly, lowered his eyelashes, and then suddenly stretched out his right hand to caress the top of my head.

"It's really... very similar."

picture?like who?

Before I could ask the question in my heart, there was a crisp "creak", and the big iron gate not far behind made a collision sound.Lin Yuehe let go of the hand resting on top of my hair, and the thin figure disappeared in a blink of an eye.

No one was there, it was just that the wind had blown the unlocked door.

Just how did he become so weird?I was even more puzzled and looked around for his shadow.

"Mr. Lin? Teacher Lin?"

The night insects chirped unhurriedly, and after a while, Lin Yuehe's thin figure finally turned out from behind a tree.

"What happened?" I stared at him closely, trying to get an answer.

He shook his head and looked at me with extremely complicated eyes. Finally, he turned his head and sighed: "Your mother...is okay."

"My mother... well, it's not bad, at least it's not as miserable as people imagined." I laughed out loud, thinking that the media is really powerful, Ning Qinglan is indeed known by everyone, even Lin Yuehe cares about her .

Under the dim light, his face looked unusually pale, "I'm so stupid. I never knew that Qinglan was her...all these years..."

"Huh?" I didn't quite understand what he said, I just thought he was really abnormal.

"Ms. Lin... Well, I'll go back and see if my mother has eaten..." For some reason, this abnormal Lin Yuehe made me feel very uncomfortable, and there were some inexplicable complex emotions in my chest, so I had to find a Prevaricating with excuses, wanting to go back and catch my breath.

He smiled more calmly, and the expression on his face gradually faded from full of anticipation to calm kindness. He waved his hand at me a little weakly: "Let's go, kid. Please be good to her."

Back home, the lights in the study were dimly on, and Ning Qinglan was still crouching in front of the desk chasing manuscripts.It can be seen that she is not in a good condition recently. The leftover cigarette packs she smoked are scattered everywhere in the study room, and strands of her long hair are scattered on the floor.

I put down my schoolbag and walked to the kitchen with cold pot and cold stove, washed my hands, washed rice, and washed vegetables. It took about an hour to cook a pot of sticky rice porridge, a plate of green vegetables, and a plate of scrambled eggs with tomatoes.

When I brought the prepared meals into the study, I found that she had fallen asleep on the desk.

I looked at her carefully, and suddenly found that on Ning Qinglan's always smooth and fair face, there were two clear wrinkles at the end of her Danfeng eyes with long eyelashes.

Not long after falling asleep in a daze, the sky thundered again.

A bolt of lightning came in through the translucent white curtains and woke me up from my dream. I was a little scared, and wrapped myself tighter with the quilt.After lying down for a while but not feeling sleepy, she got up again, only to see that the lights in the study had been turned off, and Ning Qinglan's peaceful and long breathing could be heard in Ning Qinglan's bedroom.

I went back to the bedroom and lay down in peace of mind. As soon as I closed my eyes, I heard the door being slapped.

"Thin sand, thin sand!"

I jumped up from the bed, ran out of the bedroom without putting on my slippers, and answered the call in the yard.

"Who is it?"

"It's me, open the door!"

It was Cheng Shanan's voice faintly. He left him halfway in the gymnasium and ran away by himself during the day. Could it be that he was mentally ill and came to settle accounts with me so late?
"Why, it's so late!" I muttered and opened the door, there were sporadic raindrops pouring down on my head, accompanied by one or two thunderclaps, and it was expected to be another heavy rain soon.

In the dark night, a panting teenager grabbed my arm and was about to run: "Teacher Lin has an accident, hurry up!"

I couldn't figure out why Lin Yuehe was in such pain, so painful that he treated himself in an almost masochistic way.

These days, he has a thin face and unshaven beard, and he often gets drunk and stays out all night.

Thinking about the existence of immortal feelings in this world, even after ten years, this "Alan" is still an incorruptible thorn in Lin Yuehe's heart.

His heart is rotten, but he can no longer get close to him. Even the young me feels deep sorrow for him.

I was dragged by Cheng Shanan to run on the main road in the middle of the night, the rain had already poured down relentlessly, we were all drenched inside and out, but no one spoke.I just felt so stuffy in my chest, it hurt like it was about to explode.

After leaving my house, Lin Yuehe was hit by a drunk car and hit the side of the road on the way back.

The corridors of the city hospital were brightly lit.

Cheng Shanan rushed up and grabbed a little nurse who was in a hurry: "What happened to the person who got into a car accident just now?"

"Blood transfusion in progress, not out of danger yet."

The little nurse broke away from Cheng Shanan's hand and left quickly.I stood blankly in the corridor, and saw in the mirror that I was wearing a nightgown with small floral patterns. It was soaked and stuck tightly to my body at the moment, and my newly developed body appeared curvy and exquisite.After waking up, I felt a little embarrassed, so I crossed my arms and wanted to turn around, but unexpectedly, there was a bang on the forehead and a dull pain.

"Ah——" I covered my right shoulder, and the burning pain came from my shoulder and right arm. Soon, a boy's clear and concerned voice reached my ears: "Are you okay?"

I slowly let go of my hand, and a handsome boy of sixteen or seventeen appeared in my sight, wearing a pair of white short-sleeves and black sweatpants, holding a paper cup of hot water, which I spilled all over myself.

The overturned water glass rolled far away.When I bared my teeth and opened my mouth to scold someone, the young man who kept apologizing suddenly exclaimed in surprise: "Bosha?"

I froze for a moment, and immediately remembered this person, it was the boy who sent me home yesterday, Lin Beifeng.

"Beifeng--" a girl's pretty voice came into his ears, Lin Beifeng heaved and turned his head and replied, "I'm sorry, I spilled the water, wait a moment, I'll pour it for you A glass."

Hey, so attentive.I couldn't help but pouted.

He bent down to pick up the cup on the ground. At this moment, a beautiful girl in a powder-blue plaid dress and a long ponytail trotted over.She has an oval face, a pair of eyes in the shape of peach petals, fair complexion, and a small mouth. She looks like a little girl in the south.

She smiled, eyes crooked, pulled his sleeve affectionately and said, "Don't fall down, I'm not thirsty. You can see if he's injured."

Lin Beifeng turned to look at me again: "Why don't I take you to the nurse to deal with it?"

"No." I replied coldly.

"You don't have fucking eyes, do you—" Cheng Shanan, who suddenly appeared out of nowhere, came over aggressively, showing the posture of a ruffian king fighting at school, and landed a fist on Lin Beifeng's thin shoulder.

"I'm sorry." Lin Beifeng staggered and remained calm: "I've already said I'm sorry. Besides, if this student has any problems, I will be responsible."

I don't know if it's because I released Cheng Shanan's pigeons yesterday, so he is very manic at the moment.He jumped up and grabbed Lin Beifeng by the collar, and pushed him against the wall: "Where did you come from, why should she make you responsible?"

Lin Beifeng twitched his beautiful eyebrows. This young man seemed calm and mature beyond his years. He glanced at Cheng Shanan helplessly, and said slowly, "My uncle is still in first aid. Right now, I don't want to fight."

The atmosphere was still tense, and the pretty girl in the pink and blue plaid quietly tugged on my sleeve: "Hey, how about persuading your friend? If you keep making trouble, the nurse will scold me later."

"Lin Yuehe! Lin Yuehe's family members come here!"

While pushing and shoving, Cheng Shanan immediately let go of the nurse's yell in the corridor, he raised his hand in a panic and shouted: "Come on, here it is!"

This time, it was this handsome young man named Lin Beifeng who stared wide-eyed in surprise.

"You are..." He pointed at me and Cheng Shanan.I ignored him and followed Cheng Shanan to the nurse.

"The patient is out of danger. Is there anyone else in his family? Go and pay the hospitalization fee." The nurse holding the record said.

"How much..." I asked.

"It's [-] yuan in total. Pay another [-] yuan in advance. Let's pay [-] yuan first." The nurse pointed to the long line of payment office not far away and said to us.

"I'll go home and get it." Cheng Shanan turned around and was about to leave.

"No need, I have some." It was Lin Beifeng who spoke, and Cheng Shanan and I turned our heads in surprise, only to see him pat the small girl's arm, and the girl took out a bag from a Li Ning bag on her shoulder. With a thick stack of RMB, I ran to the payment office.

"Lin Yuehe is my second uncle. Are you his students?" Lin Beifeng responded with kindness and a bright smile, and a misunderstanding was resolved.

Me, Cheng Shanan, Lin Beifeng, and Ye Weiyang, a girl as small and beautiful as a fresh peach, met each other very quickly and became friends.

Lin Yuehe's injury was not too serious, because the car that ran the red light had a long cut on his arm, causing excessive blood loss. After the blood transfusion and the wound was stitched up, he was fine again.

However, looking at Lin Yuehe lying unconscious on the hospital bed, I felt distressed and confused, and even imagined that if I help him find Alan and let them meet again, will he feel happy?
Accompanied him until dawn in the ward, and became more familiar with Lin Beifeng and Ye Weiyang. 16-year-old Lin Beifeng is the son of Lin Yuehe’s second brother. He is a native of Beijing. Not long ago, his parents who worked in a research institute were both transferred to Gansu for technical support. They were worried that the teaching conditions there would be poor, so they transferred him to Beijing. Go to school in the city where my uncle Lin Yuehe lives.

And Ye Weiyang, who has a beautiful appearance and a gentle temperament, can be seen from everyone's background. She was originally a distant cousin of Lin Yuehe, but she lived with Lin Beifeng across the wall since she was a child, and they can be regarded as childhood sweethearts.

"Beijing." I murmured, "How is Beijing?" Dad and that Ye Congling must be living well in Beijing.

"Nonsense, Beijing is much better than here! But Wei Young, why have you come to our small place?"

Wei Young pursed her lips and remained silent, but Lin Beifeng on the side laughed half-truthfully, "I guess someone has been secretly in love with me for a long time, and once I leave, he will definitely not come."

Cheng Shanan immediately fanned the flames and yelled: "Ah, so you two have that kind of relationship! Admiration!" After finishing speaking, he arched his hands at Lin Beifeng, squinted at me and said, "Look at him, I'm really envious of this old man..."

I knocked him on the forehead with a chestnut.Then I inadvertently noticed that Lin Beifeng's originally fair face was quietly red, and when his clear and quiet eyes touched the delicate and fresh body of Wei Young like a flower, it was like sparks igniting in the field, and there was a crackling in his ears.

Because Lin Yuehe is a loner, the four of us decided to take turns taking care of him.

After wearing pajamas all night, it was dawn, so I rushed home to change clothes.He glanced at the bedroom and the study room, but he didn't see Ning Qinglan, so he warmed up a bowl of porridge left over from the day before and drank it. When he went out, he happened to meet Ning Qinglan who had bought vegetables and breakfast.

"Go to school so early?"

"Well, preview your homework in advance! You have eaten breakfast, you can eat by yourself." I hurriedly responded and ran away.

It was not yet 07:30 when I arrived at the hospital, and the pink sunlight cast from the trees around the hospital and sprinkled on my face, making me feel warm and caring.

Taking care of the injured Lin Yuehe is a very happy thing.

Pushing open the door of the ward lightly, Ye Weiyang was not there, Cheng Shanan hadn't come yet, there was only a boy sleeping on Lin Yuehe's bedside.

"Go back and rest, I'll stay here." I gently patted him awake with my hand and whispered.

Lin Beifeng rubbed his sleepy eyes, brushed away a few strands of hair that blocked them, and smiled brightly at me: "You haven't slept all night, come on, take a rest here." He patted the other side empty suddenly, a wicked smile floated between his brows: "Cheng Shanan is your boyfriend?"

I froze for a moment, then frowned: "What are you talking about!"

He turned his head to the side and laughed for a while, then turned around and cleared his throat, and said in a neither high nor low voice: "What's so embarrassing? I've seen this kind of thing a lot. Tell me if you're okay, Mr. Lin." can not hear."

"Bah, it's not like that at all..." I was a little anxious.

"There's no need to explain, explaining is just covering up." He interrupted me, stood up with a hideous smile, stretched his waist, and said, "Then you stay here first, I'll go out and buy something to eat."

"I brought breakfast." I pointed to the bread on the table.

He shook his head, "Wei Young likes to eat tofu nao here, she will come over here soon, I have to buy it for her."

"Bah, you're just in love!" I whispered to his leaving back.

After Lin Beifeng left, I sat on the head of Lin Yuehe's bed and carefully put my hand on his forehead. I couldn't help twisting and twisting like a ball of hemp rope in my heart. I couldn't get rid of the lump that stuck in my throat: Lin Yuehe, how can you be happy.

There is a kind of person who is like this, who is not even happy when he smiles.

After he said those inexplicable words to me last night, he ran to drink again.When he was drunk and ready to go home, he was knocked down by a car running a red light late at night, and the perpetrator escaped.Ten minutes later, he was spotted by a passer-by and called the police, and Cheng Shanan happened to have a relative in the traffic police team, so he immediately learned that Lin Yuehe was injured, so he woke me up in the middle of the night.

If only Alan can make you happy, if she is in this city...then, I must help you find her.

It was the first time that I got so close to this man, I traced his facial features carefully with my fingers, and my heart trembled and ached.

I murmured to him: "Lin Yuehe, I am fifteen this year, you wait for me for three years, when I grow up, when I grow up, I will marry you, okay?"

The eyelashes under my fingertips trembled suddenly, and I was stunned for a moment. Before I could let go of my hand, I felt a violent cough from the person under me: "Bo... sand, Bo sand." He called to me.

"Yes, I am."

You know how excited you are when you hear the man you like call your name the first time you wake up.

He slowly opened his eyelids, and there was tiredness and tranquility in the black eyes.He raised his uninjured left hand and stroked the top of my head habitually: "Silly girl, I'm too old, and you can't wait..." It turned out that he heard what I said.

"No, you're not old at all!" I simply told him everything, and I grabbed his hand and said eagerly: "I know you dislike me for being disobedient, and I'm not a good student. I will change it in the future, and I will definitely change it. I won't cause you so much trouble anymore! Okay? Okay?"

"Silly girl." He smiled slightly, his eyes looked clear and distant at this time, and he looked at me tenderly: "Bosha, you are fine."

"As good as her..." He said this sentence very low, but it sounded like thunder to my ears.

I covered the corners of my eyes and burst into tears, my nose was blocked and my throat was blocked: "If I'm really good, why don't you want it...why don't you want it!"

I suddenly raised my head and stared at him with a lonely face: "Even you despise me as a humble and uneducated wild girl! Don't you? You only have that Alan in your heart..."

Regardless of the astonished expression on his face, I couldn't control my emotions and words like crazy, "Actually, what's so good about that Alan, isn't he just a model, isn't he just a crazy man with a husband and son who seduces you naked?" A woman?" My voice was getting higher and higher, so sharp that I couldn't even imagine it, "What's so good about her? It's worth you being single for her for so many years, and it's worth your madness and depravity for her even now. don't want…"

"To shut up!"

He stopped drinking with a cold sound, so sudden and violent.I stopped abruptly, turned around with tears in my eyes, and saw the young man standing at the door with a stern voice and a cold face. It was Lin Beifeng who had just bought Wang's tofu brain.

He put the lunch box heavily on the table, stared at me like a knife, and said, "You'd better not mention a word about Alan!"

(End of this chapter)