Sadness begins with your name

Chapter 18 Mixed with Tears and Sweet Scars
That night, I didn't go to the hospital to accompany Ye Weiyang as usual, because I had a fever.

Nested in the quilt, sweating all over, in the head like a group of little people in a meeting, or a feast, singing, dancing, making noise, vaguely saw a very good-looking boy playing The piano, another girl in a white floor-length dress swayed her arms lightly to the rhythm of the piano, dancing wonderfully.

In my hazy consciousness, I knew they were Lin Beifeng and Ye Weiyang.

They are so well matched that in the dream, they all go to the banquet of my soul like a prince and princess.

In fact, I didn't know that in my ignorant young life, Lin Yuehe, who I thought I loved so much, had gradually gone away, and was replaced by another young man in white clothes who was as handsome as a lotus.

And it wasn't until I was in my twenties that I had a real love and pain that I realized the deep meaning of the sentence I saw in "The Peony Pavilion": Love doesn't know where it starts, but it goes deeper and deeper.

In this life, I will regard this sentence as the motto of love.

In some bleak dreams, he sang a song abruptly, with tears in his eyes, but he got up and called her: "Little aunt."

The dream was suddenly interrupted.

Touching the sweat on my forehead, I felt very ridiculous for this absurd dream, but my heart slowly turned from bitterness to warmth.

Thanks to Lin Yuehe for allowing him to have such a kinship relationship with her.

The next day, I went to school alive and well.

Seats were being adjusted in the class, and Weiyang's belongings at the same table were gone. I asked my classmates in surprise, "What's going on?"

"You're lucky!" The girl winked at me, and when I turned around, I saw Lin Beifeng walking towards me expressionlessly holding his textbook bag.

"What's going on?" I asked repeatedly.

He tidied up his things and said, "Wei Young's sister-in-law came to see her and insisted that she recuperate for a while. So she asked me to take good care of you."

"So she let us sit at the same table?"

"Ah."

I'm speechless.

When he was in class, he was very serious, and the faint scent of green grass on his body was faintly discernible.I looked out the window, and saw that the leaves of the sycamore tree had fallen one by one, but the warmth in my heart came up little by little.

Anyway, I don't hate Lin Beifeng as much as I imagined.

Weiyang's sister-in-law looks a little older than I imagined, but of course she is still beautiful. For a woman in her forties, the hair on both sides of her temples is all white.I heard from Wei Young that it was because she had a daughter who married a man in his 40s at a young age, which led to her divorce and the family broke up.Because of this, Auntie Weiyang turned white all night.

Inexplicably, I thought of Ye Congling, the girl who destroyed my family and took away my father.However, how can there be such a coincidence in the world, not to mention what a lovely girl Wei Young is, how can she and that vixen be sisters!

After relaxing my vigilance, I became intimate with Sister Weiyang. She praised my beautiful eyes and said they were as clean as crystals. Ye Weiyang tilted her head with a smile and said to Lin Beifeng: "Look, even Sister-in-law said that !"

"How do you two feel sitting at the same table?" Wei Young put on a very serious expression.

I looked at Lin Beifeng, he pretended not to hear, and was busy talking to my sister-in-law, Wei Young pulled me to the balcony of the ward, and asked with a smile: "Don't be embarrassed, is he alright?"

"Cut, what do you want to do." I smiled and pushed her, Wei Young shook the baggy hospital gown and said with a clear face: "I think you probably already like him."

"Bah, bah, bah." I blushed and felt annoyed, covered her mouth and said, "Don't talk nonsense, he treats you like a pearl and a diamond, obviously he likes you!"

She giggled, leaning against my arms tremblingly: "What a mess, I said earlier that he is my eldest nephew...it's impossible for us."

"Besides," she rested her chin on my shoulder so that I couldn't see her expression clearly when she said these words: "I don't have puppy love."

"I don't have puppy love either." I foolishly followed.

She raised her face and scratched my nose: "Why are you so cute? However, he is not bad, you can cultivate it first."

Blinking her eyes mischievously, she ran back to the room in a hurry, clinging to her aunt's body and acting coquettishly.

This girl, to be honest, I don't understand her a bit.

But she was so stupid, a little bit caught in a young love fairy tale she described.

However, the stroke with the thickest ink and color was painted by myself.And this stroke, many years later, condensed into a youthful scar mixed with tears and sweetness.

Autumn always disappears without knowing it. When the first winter snow falls, Ning Qinglan’s novel is coming to an end, but the relationship between Lin Beifeng and I is exactly as Wei Young predicted and expected They gradually became harmonious.

He helped me a lot, both in study and in life.

I have to get up on time every day, because at seven o'clock, Lin Beifeng will wait for me at the door on time.At a quarter past seven, we each ride our bikes, or sometimes he drives me, sometimes he drives Ye Weiyang, and sometimes Weiyang drives me.In short, the three of them are very close, in Wei Young's words, they are like a family of brothers and sisters.

For questions that I did wrong or didn’t know how to do, if I go to him, I will definitely get the clearest problem-solving ideas and the rules of answering such questions next time.

He is a rare all-rounder in the class. He is excellent in English, Mathematics and English. Weiyang's English is the strongest, and I am not good at Chinese, but everything else is a mess.

In the last test before the end of the term, I rarely entered the top [-] in the class, which meant that I had the possibility of entering the first high school in the city.

Thinking of being able to enter a key high school with Weiyang...Lin Beifeng, I couldn't help being a little excited, and always felt that I should say something to him, express something.

When the first snow fell, under Ye Weiyang's call, the three of us came to the playground after school.

From dawn to dusk, the snow kept falling, dancing in the air like white butterflies.Wei Young and I ran and laughed, and we joined forces to smash snowballs onto Lin Beifeng's body until it got dark, and he turned into a veritable "snowman".

"The most poisonous woman's heart, you two stinky girls will freeze me to death!" He patted the snow on his body, but looked at us and laughed.

At that moment, at that moment.

The young man's smile bewitched people's hearts.

The night is the background, and between the snow-white sky and the earth, a boy stands tall and tall on the snow, with black hair and a young and handsome face.His talking eyes looked faintly in a certain direction, like shining stars in the snow.

In a daze, I even felt that this person was destined to become the catastrophe of my life.

After the snowball fight, the three of them were exhausted, Wei Young dragged me to eat hot pot, and said to Lin Beifeng, "Do you dare to take us to drink?"

He thought for a while, and looked at her with doting eyes: "Of course, as long as you dare to go!"

In "Water Margin", "Wow, a bowl of wine between life and death" sang loyalty and pride, and in "Su Muzhe", "wine enters the heart of sorrow, turns into tears of lovesickness" sang lovesickness.And the first glass of wine in my life was full of throbbing, uneasiness, expectation, and sweetness.

When eating in the small tavern called "Lin Ji", Lin Beifeng pulled out a chair and motioned for me to sit in it, while Wei Young sat opposite.

It's just a small detail, but I magnify it and think about it wildly.

After ordering a spicy fish pot and a bottle of local specialty shochu, the three of them began to drink loudly.

The first glass of wine entered my throat, it was so hot that I just wanted to spit it out, but Lin Beifeng tilted his head to look at me like a supervisor and said, "Drink it. Warm your stomach."

I drank it obediently, and a hot stream flowed down my throat. In an instant, my face was on fire.

The smell of snow outside the curtain is still there, the hot pot indoors is fragrant, and the smell of alcohol makes the complexions of the three teenagers all pink and tender.

I held my feverish cheek and looked at it. Lin Beifeng's side profile was extremely beautiful, with slender and thick eyelashes, a straight and perfect nose bridge, and cute lips that were slightly pursed when he smiled.

My heart seemed to be blocked by something, and I couldn't bear it. I wanted to stand up, but the moment I moved, I fell on Lin Beifeng's body.

He grabbed me, and the pink-faced Wei Young asked with concern: "Are you all right, Sha?"

I shook my head, moved the chair and went out, asked the direction of the toilet, and walked there unsteadily.

"Sha, I'll help you."

"Wei Young, sit down, I have something to tell you..." He grabbed her arm.

The head seemed to weigh hundreds of catties, but in my vague consciousness, I could probably guess what he was going to say to her.With a wry smile, I staggered towards the bathroom alone.

After several cups, the boy was still not drunk, but his clear eyes seemed a bit blurred.He grabbed the girl he had been in love with for more than ten years, as if he could no longer restrain his emotions at the moment: "Wei Young, I have something for you."

He opened a small blue velvet box, and inside was a shiny ring with a small rosebud on the ring.

"It was left to me by my grandmother before she passed away. She said that Ye Ye is a good girl, and Xiao Feng will definitely marry her back home." When he said this, he lowered his head slightly, but his eyes were firmly fixed on her eyes .

And the drunkenness in Wei Young's eyes was swept away in an instant, she looked at him, still smiling softly and half-truly: "We are only so old, after ten years, you promise you will still leave this ring to me ?”

His tone was a little anxious, but with a clang: "Of course I promise! It doesn't matter ten years, or 20 years! Because of Weiyang, I...I have always..."

"Sand!" Ye Weiyang suddenly stood up and waved at me, her expression of joy made me wonder how long she hadn't seen me.

I waved my hand, returned to my seat and sat down.

Lin Beifeng beside him was silent for a long time.

"Eat first, I'll go to the bathroom." She gave me a very bright smile, and her eyes flicked over Beifeng.

After she left, the atmosphere suddenly became unusually silent and awkward.Lin Beifeng didn't speak all the time, he just poured himself a glass of wine, and his left hand was tightly clenched into a fist and placed under the table.

I didn't want to eat or drink anymore, my head was dizzy, and I said to him with my tongue out: "Don't drink, eat... eat some food."

He clumsily picked up a piece of fish from the pot and dropped it before it was placed on his plate. The soup splashed on his face. Lin Beifeng seemed to be a little angry. He put down his cup and yelled at me with red eyes: " what's wrong with you!"

Tears immediately overflowed my eyes. I could stand being criticized by thousands of people, but I couldn't stand being pointed at by my lover. At this moment, the little boy Lin Beifeng didn't understand at all.

"I just…"

"It's just what, idiot, don't drink if you don't know how to drink, do you know that girls will make a fool of themselves when they get drunk!" Because he got into trouble with Wei Young, he took it out on me, and I felt aggrieved.After staring at him for a few moments, he suddenly picked up the wine bottle on the table and poured a full glass, raised his head and drank it all, and then said to him, "What's so great about you?"

I pointed to his nose, tears streaming down my face:

"Lin Beifeng. You're just relying on it. I like you..."

(End of this chapter)