Love is so close, you are so far

Chapter 36 The Love That You Can't Forget (2)
I asked Pang Xie'an and the details of the traffic accident, and Pang Xie was a little vague about some details, which made me even more suspicious.In order to solve the doubts in my heart, I went to Yunnan, and according to the information provided by Pang Xie, I found the traffic management department responsible for the traffic accident, but I did not find out the traffic accident there, nor did I find out about An He. name.

Anhe did not have a traffic accident in Yunnan! !

But why did Pang Xie say that he was dead? Besides, there was his urn in the cemetery. The old man also said that he was dead. An He rarely returned to his hometown once a year. The place was so closed, how could the old man know that something happened to him? , Is An He deliberately proving that he is dead...

There must be some secret here, the man I saw may be An He, and An He may not be dead.

An He may not be dead!
I seem to see a ray of light in the dark night, no matter what, I want to find the truth!
I wanted to confirm to Pang Xie that An He was not dead, but he insisted that An He was dead, and kept saying that he arranged the funeral.I couldn't get any results from Pang Xie, so I told Mi Yao my judgment. I thought she would be as surprised as I was after hearing my analysis, but there was nothing unusual on her face.I was puzzled, and asked her why she believed Pang Xie's words so much, and believed that An He was really dead.She didn't give me an answer, just gave me a silent back.

I still didn't give up, so I cheekily called Milan, and she was as sure as Pang Xie that An He died in a traffic accident in Yunnan.Although she gave me the answer, it wasn't the answer I was looking for, and I thought it was the wrong answer.

Even if everyone believes that An He is dead, I don't believe it. I believe in my feeling that An He is still alive in this world, or has been living in the same city as me, or is secretly watching me somewhere.Maybe those hallucinations I had were real.

I go to that intersection often and I look forward to seeing that face again.

I believe that as long as he is still alive, I will be able to find him.

But I have never found him. I think that if that person is really An He, he must have avoided me on purpose. He may have left Beijing, or he may have gone back.Therefore, I decided to go back to Wuping once. I want to find the answer and prove that An He is not dead, so that I will have the courage and confidence to continue searching. Bai Di left, and could not go to the United States with regret and Asiana.

Hana was very sad about my behavior. He didn't expect that after all these years, I still only have An He in my heart, and I still miss An He.In the face of his sadness and disappointment, I don't want to explain anything. In fact, he should have known it long ago. It's just that he is too self-willed, as self-willed as me. Everyone says that An He is dead, but I stubbornly believe that he is not dead.

After I bought the ticket back to Wuping, Hana sent me to the station, and asked me with red eyes if I would come back. The first time I saw him like this, I felt very sad, but I couldn't turn back.

Hana said I was too selfish.Yes, I am too selfish, there is no way, I can only accommodate An He alone in my heart.

However, I didn't get on the train because Mi Yao appeared and she took me to a place.

Mi Yao took me to an old house and rang the bell of a security door.

The inner door opened, and a man's face appeared in front of me.At that moment, I was stunned, I almost suffocated - because I saw that face, the face I saw at the intersection, the face I dreamed of, the face of An He!

The man was also stunned, hesitated for a moment, and immediately closed the door.

Mi Yao shouted: "Brother-in-law, open the door, open the door!"

There was no movement inside, so Mi Yao continued to ring the doorbell.

Mi Yao called him brother-in-law, is it An He?Anhe, I think about Anhe day and night!

It's Anhe!It's my Anhe!
I reacted and pounded on the door desperately, "Is that you? Anhe, is that you? You are not dead, are you really not dead? Why did you lie to me?...Anhe! Anhe! Open the door! Open the door!...You Why are you avoiding me? Open the door!... Please, open the door, do you know how much I miss you, please let me see you!..."

After a long time, the door finally opened, and An He appeared in front of me. His face was haggard and his body was emaciated, like a person recovering from a serious illness.

Tears flowed down my eyes, and I couldn't believe that the man in front of me was really the An He I missed day and night, the An He who came back from the dead, I stared at him and murmured: "An He, is it you? Really?" Is it you?"

An He looked at me, his eyes were so familiar and warm.

"Anhe! Have you forgotten me? I'm Xiaomei, why don't you speak? Anhe, is that you?"

An He finally nodded.

Surprised and happy, angry and hated, I landed my fist on An He and cried, "An He, why did you treat me like this? Why did you lie to me, why are you so ruthless? Do you know how painful I am? Do you know the feeling of dying, you don't consider my feelings at all, hiding here alone, why are you so selfish? I hate you, I hate you so much..."

An He bears my fist, "I'm sorry, Xiaomei, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to."

"You did it on purpose. You lied to me on purpose, tortured me on purpose, and tested me on purpose. You're afraid that I don't love you enough, right?"

"I trust you, trust you."

"Then why do you treat me like this and still avoid me? Do you know how painful I am? I regret that I promised you to live a good life. If I had known how painful it would be to live, I would rather die."

"Sorry, sorry, little eyebrow."

"I don't want to hear you say I'm sorry, tell me why? Why did you lie to me that you were dead? I'm so stupid to believe it."

"I'm sorry, little eyebrow."

"I said don't listen to you, I'm sorry, I want to know why!"

But no matter how I asked, An He refused to give me an answer.

It doesn't matter if you don't have an answer, as long as An He is still alive, as long as you can see An He, and hug An He, that's enough!
Really, enough is enough!Anhe, my Anhe, I can be close to you again!I can smell your breath again, I can feel your body temperature again, really, enough is enough!
I don't know when Mi Yao and Han Ya left, I only know that I am in An He's arms, and I want to enjoy every minute and every second with him.It was so good to see his face again, hear his voice, feel his heartbeat, touch his skin!
I will never leave him again, never let go of my hand, I will snuggle into his arms tightly, hold his hand tightly!
I had Ann bite me several times, which made me feel pain and convinced me that it was not a dream.Sometimes I cry loudly, sometimes I laugh loudly, whether crying or laughing, I am all because of joy, because of joy.

An He didn't cry or laugh, but there were tears in his eyes, and he refused to let them fall. He was so stubborn, no matter how sad or happy, he refused to cry and laugh like me, but only hugged me tightly. Holding me, biting my hair, kissing my lips, kissing every inch of my skin, his kiss is still as sweet as it was five years ago, making people feel happy.

That night I snuggled into An He's arms all night, and his embrace was still generous and warm, making people reluctant to leave.

I kept looking at Anhe with my eyes open, and I was afraid that Anhe would disappear as soon as I closed my eyes.The feeling of snuggling in his arms is really good, it’s hard to describe in words, I hope I can snuggle with him like that for the rest of my life, no, this life is not enough, and I will have to snuggle with him in the next life, the next life.I don't know why I am so attached to him, I think maybe my previous life, the previous life, was An He's lover, that's why I can't bear him so much, I can't bear to leave him for a second.

"Anhe."

"Ah."

"Anhe."

"what happened?"

"It's nothing, I just want to call you by your name, do you know how many times I called you when I was alone?"

An He was speechless, holding my hand in his.

"An He, I really miss the feeling of being held in your hand, but in the past five years, every time I want to give my hand to you, it's always empty."

An He held my hand tightly, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to."

"I know you didn't mean it. You still love me and love me as before. It hasn't changed at all, right?"

"Yes, I have always loved you and loved you very much."

"Why did you lie to me that you were dead? Why?"

"I'll tell you later, okay?"

"Okay then, tell me how you got here in the past five years?"

"Thinking of you coming over."

"Why don't you come to me, do you know how sad I am?"

"I know, I'm sorry."

"Are you so cruel?"

"I'm sorry, little eyebrow."

"You don't have to say sorry, you know, you can't escape, as long as you live in my heart, you can't escape."

"Hmm..." His voice was a little choked up.

"An He, look, I've been wearing it all the time and never took it off. I just rely on it, relying on the memory of you." I picked up "Moon Goddess".

"Little fool, you little fool..." An He hugged me tightly in his arms.

I shed tears, not because of sadness, but because of joy.

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Hana no longer forced me to do anything, and retreated sadly.

I know I was cruel to him, but I can't do anything, I can only pretend to be peaceful.

Hana asked me if I would have fallen in love with him if he had met me first.I don't know, maybe I will, maybe I won't, in short, I met An He first and fell in love with him.

Mi Yao told me I was sorry, but I didn't blame her, although my life would have been different if she hadn't concealed this fact all these years, but all of this is not important anymore, she finally brought me In front of An He, I am grateful to her.

I naively thought that the love marathon between An He and I was over here, and we would finally be together happily after going through hardships like the couple in the movie.However, movies are movies after all, and life is life after all. An He let go of my hand again and left me behind.

That day when I returned to An He's residence from school, I felt strange as soon as I entered the door. The already empty house seemed to be even more empty. I suddenly had an ominous feeling in my heart. I called An He several times, but no one responded. .

I ran to the bedroom, and a piece of white paper on the bedside table came into my eyes. It was An He's handwriting——

Little Eyebrow:

Please forgive me for leaving without saying goodbye.

Xiaomei, I am not the peace I used to be. I have nothing. I can’t give you love, I can’t give you a home, I can’t give you any security. I can’t give you anything except poverty.Although I used to and even now want you to live happily, but I can't do anything.I can't find any words to express the guilt in my heart except to say sorry to you. I hope you don't hate me. I really didn't mean to treat you like this. I just hope you can be happier.

Xiaomei, I am very sorry that I have not been able to give you what you want. Now that someone can replace me and give you everything you want, there is no need for me to be a stumbling block on your road to happiness.Although I really want to be with you and love you very much, but love should not be too selfish. To love someone is to hope that she will have a better life, right?I believe you will forgive me.

Don't look for me, you can't find me, I have already left Beijing.You have to believe that this is the best way I love you.

I hope you don't blame me, don't hate me, I have loved you with all my heart, and I will love you deeply as always, in this life, I will never fall in love with anyone except you.

Don't cry, you know I don't like the way you cry, you look beautiful when you smile.

Xiaomei, meeting you and falling in love with you is the happiest thing in my life, thank you very much, thank you for giving me so much happiness, and thank you for loving me for so many years.

Over the years, I know your pain and sorrow, I never thought of doing this to you, this is not my original intention, I'm sorry, Xiaomei.Although I know your pain and sorrow, I can't give you joy and happiness, so I have to hide behind you and watch you from a distance.I believe you will be fine, because you are a strong girl, because you promised me that you will live strong and optimistic, don't forget your promise.

Don't reject Hana, I believe he is the one sent by heaven to love you for me, with him by your side, I feel at ease.Mi Yao said that he would take you to the United States, go there, you will live a brand new life, there will be no pain, no tears, not even memories, everything will be new, and you will be very happy.You don't have to remember me, you just need to live the life in front of you.If you live well, I will be at ease, and I will be gratified.

You really don't want to be sad anymore, we still have the next life.Remember my words, I said that I will wait for you in the next life, I will never talk to other women when you are not here, I will wait until you, I will recognize you, your fallen leaf has always been in the palm of my hand.So, don't worry, live your life well.In the next life, I will never leave you again. I will always stay by your side, listening to you play the piano, watching the sunset and sunrise with you, and watching the autumn leaves with you.

(End of this chapter)