Waiting for a long time, Captain
Chapter 14
Chapter 14
It was already five days later when he was transferred from the intensive care unit to the general ward.During this period, Lu Zhongnian woke up intermittently several times, calling Qin Wanfeng's name, and sometimes yelling at Gu Zeng, yelling at her to come back.
In the life that belonged to Lu Zhongnian, there were really only two women, Qin Wanfeng and Gu Zeng, who could make him remember all the time in the midst of suffering and never let go easily.
Qin Wanfeng said more than once that in his prayer, Gu Zeng was always the only one for many years.
When he was a child, he often said that he wanted to build her own amusement park, her own castle.
"My illness is the retribution for losing my temper all the time, and it is the reward for my charity work that you are all by my side." When Lu Niannian woke up, he saw clearly the two people beside him, and said so with a grin. Pale and vigorous.
Gu Zeng was so angry that he almost didn't want to talk to him, but he couldn't bear to make him angry again, so he accompanied Qin Wanfeng to talk to him, and soon he fell asleep again.
When the evening came, Qin Wanfeng was not there and went to the company.She pushed the door open and went in, and saw Lu Niannian sitting on the sofa looking out.Many people in the garden were whispering to each other, and a few people sat alone like him, with their backs lonely, and I don't know how long they had been sitting.
She walked over and looked at his face in the sunlight. She was very pale, and her chin was still a little green, but because of the poor blood color, the color of the green was also faded.The thick and colorful people walked through the gate of hell, and turned into a light ink painting.He turned his head slowly, looking her up and down.
"When you left Paris at 19, I thought you'd grown up, it's a good age, you should go out and have a look, there's no way to keep you stuck with me anymore. At that time, really I didn’t notice anything, until the person sent to Beijing reported that you were in a very bad state when you returned home, very bad, alcoholism, and depression, and spent most of the time in the hospital every week, hypnotized What is the purpose of the treatment? To forget me, or something else? I don’t know, I just can’t figure it out, and it’s very disturbing. You were so healthy in Paris, but why did you become like that when you returned to China? A just-adult girl Why is the child so capable of hiding things in his heart? Two years, two full years, just watching me and Wanfeng together, what are you thinking in your heart?" His voice was very low, and his speech was interrupted. I was thinking about words, but I still didn't have the energy.
Gu Zeng sat quietly on the bed and listened. What he just said, explained in medical terms, was a cowardice disease.Many people have a shadow because of one thing, and they will behave timidly in similar things from then on. The best explanation in the Chinese language is "Once bitten by a snake for ten years, they are afraid of well ropes".
At that time, she thought that even without Qin Wanfeng, he might like any other woman, but it would definitely not be her, he would not like her.The relationship between them is closer than flesh and blood, and no other impurities can be mixed.
Lu Quannian fumbled for something in his hospital gown, and quickly took out a photo.Show it to her, it's what she looked like when she was undergoing hypnotherapy in the hospital.
"There are a lot of similar photos sent to me. Those days were really terrible, and there was not a day when I didn't lose my temper. I really wanted to go to Beijing to bring you back, but I couldn't, dare not, and was afraid of hurting you again."
He knew it in his heart, and had communicated deeply with the doctor, knowing that her condition at that time was not suitable for returning to Paris.Because if he couldn't give her what she wanted, the damage would only last longer than he could imagine.
At that time, he had already met Qin Wanfeng, and he understood the cruelty of the word love, and also understood that he could not promise her, so he could only endure it and force himself to turn a blind eye.It was also during that time, during countless nights of fury when everything in the house was smashed, I had a deep faint.Woke up and was diagnosed with a heart attack, not doing well.
Originally speaking rationally, he could not marry Qin Wanfeng.But how to put it, sometimes many things cannot be explained with reason.Especially love, when he didn't want to get it, it was already deep into his blood.
Later, when he heard the news of her recovery, he slowly began to live a normal life as a college student, and his condition improved a little.
These were also relayed by Qin Wanfeng to Gu Zeng, and when she knew about it, she couldn't breathe.
When I hated him and complained about him, when I was sick in Beijing, he was also seriously ill in Paris, and the situation was worse than hers, but I never said it, never.
"In the past two years, I always think about our childhood. I am only eight years older than you, but why do I feel a round older than you?" He suddenly raised his head and smiled softly, sticking his fingertips on the photo, rubbing carefully Squeezing, "In the past ten years, I know that you have always understood. Although you are not dependent on each other, no one can replace those years. After my father passed away, for a long time, I only had you as my closest relative. You and Xiao Akatsuki is just as important to me.”
This is the first time Gu Zeng saw him so calm and vicissitudes.After uncovering the once romantic face, all he has left is his old body and a clean and simple heart.Some of the words he was trying to say were probably for the same purpose as Qin Wanfeng.
Gu Zeng hurriedly interrupted him: "I know that I'm fine now, really. I only have one wish, that is, you quickly take care of your health, have a baby with Sister Xiaoxiao, and take good care of the company. I don't know In the past, because of my relationship, you have been sad for so long. I don’t know that it was because of me that you were sick at first. I am really guilty. But we are family, and you are my dearest person. I know what to say It's all superfluous, so don't be like this, don't say something to make me cry."
Lu Zhongnian looked up at her, with deep eye sockets, some amber impurity eyes, swaying in the dusk, making it difficult to see clearly.
He looked at it for a long time, then chuckled: "I know, you will be fine, much better than I imagined."
Qin Wanfeng told him about the miracle in Atlanta, and he was a little too handsome.He really wanted to recover quickly, drink a glass of wine, and have a good chat with that man.In the end, he still wanted to be greedy and keep her by his side, asking if she would stay.
Gu Zeng thought for a long time, and finally spread his hands together, walked up to him and hugged him: "Lu Zhongnian, I met a very good man in Beijing. He has a deep heart and a true love. I feel a lot from him. Something really warm, but it's not like what you gave me."
Because of some inescapable experiences, many people have to face the screening of fate to become better people or become vulnerable people.In order to make their lives stronger and more independent, some people will accept chicken soup for the soul to make themselves kind and peaceful, but some people do charity to repay the world, self-denial and observance of etiquette, but it is out of punishment for themselves.
She was feeling something, that the decade she felt belonged to Atlanta was not as simple as she could have imagined.
"I've worked hard for a long time to meet a man who won't distract me from thinking of you, so don't be overbearing."
The man told her when she was hypnotized that the more she couldn't extricate herself, the more she would be sober and calm.
During the first conversation at the Changhong control tower, he said softly, calm down, death is at your feet.
The chat window in the black room was probably the first private and direct conversation between them. There was no pleasantries. He asked: Do you believe in a predestined fate?
Later in Atlanta, it was hard not to admit the love affair. He walked in the rain with an umbrella, and the aroma of shredded tobacco was still in his fingertips, but he was able to talk to her frankly, "In the past, I always liked to use sharp and contradictory words to define love. Because it was too embarrassing for me at the time.”
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A few days ago, he came to this city suddenly, praised her in the small garden in the early morning, and then told her that in his opinion, the beauty of an oriental woman has only one characteristic.The more I experience the long darkness, the more I want to bring warmth to those around me.
"Standing at the elevator entrance of the hospital that day, he said he could see that I was sad, I dare not admit it, really... how selfish and cruel I was in the life of you and Xiaoxiao sister, I didn't know this until so late In fact, how embarrassed I am, I really hate myself, but I really dare not admit it, dare not confess to him, I can only pretend to be happy."
The inability to trust a person wholeheartedly, physically and spiritually, is also a sign of cowardice.Doctors say there is little cure for the disease, and some people suffer from it for the rest of their lives.
Yes, she was suffering from it.He was such a good person, but she couldn't confess to him, couldn't speak, couldn't face him.
She held her face, tears were forced back, "But even so, I still want to be with him, Lu Zhongnian, can you understand this feeling? No way, really no way, it can only be him, No one else can."
Lu Niannian patted her on the back: "I understand." He coughed lightly twice, "I understand, so stop talking and follow your heart."
Gu Zeng nodded, sniffed his nose and broke his tears into a smile: "I will come back to see you often, if you have time, you can also go back to your hometown to visit, I think my parents will welcome you very much, and cook a lot of Chinese dishes you like .We can drink and go for a walk, basking in the moonlight in the yard like old friends."
Lu Quannian narrowed his eyes slightly, and raised his lips: "You said that, it made me want to take care of my body and live a good life."
She let go of her hand and looked at him from a very close distance, so that she could see the fine lines at the corners of his eyes, as if it had really changed a lot.In such a place, how much effort does it take to maintain a family business that cannot be prying?
She tried to say: "When I was suffering from grief, I could always think of you in a white shirt. You were very handsome. Last time I went home and saw the photo hanging in the study, I was the ugliest in it. Before leaving this time, I have to re- Take a picture and take it back to show your parents."
"Okay." He chuckled, finally relieved, "Maybe there will be one more person in this photo."
"Ok?"
"The man you like very much."
Gu Zeng pursed his lips, blushing a little: "Let's talk about it after you recover from illness, Mr. Lu."
When she was going out, she happened to meet Qin Wanfeng who was rushing over. She took her hand, gestured to the man she was sitting at the end of the corridor reading a newspaper with her eyes, and laughed: "You know? When I walked downstairs, Hearing a bunch of little nurses talking about this handsome Chinese man on the 33rd floor is really too elegant. They even bet who can invite him to dinner tonight."
Qin Wanfeng rubbed her hand and said softly, "Don't give up the opportunity to those ignorant little girls."
Gu Zeng lowered his head in shame and responded.Saying goodbye to Qin Wanfeng, I just stood there and looked at him for a long time, my eyes became sour.
I didn't see him when I first came, I thought he went back to the hotel to rest.Counting the time it took him to return to Beijing from Atlanta, and then fly back from Beijing, at least one day and one night he didn't close his eyes.
"Are you tired?" She poured a glass of water from the hot water in the corner and handed it to him. When she sat next to him, she saw today's headline in the newspaper that Fan Bingbing is undoubtedly the brightest star in this year's fashion show, so she couldn't help asking , "Do you still read entertainment newspapers?"
Cen took the hot water today, put it on the window sill, quickly folded the newspaper, and said, "I didn't read it seriously, but I was a little bored."
She just remembered the question just now, and he avoided it.Feeling a little guilty, she asked him, "Do you want to eat?"
"it is good."
"What to eat?"
"I'm casual."
"Don't be random, it's difficult for me to choose. What do you want to eat? Western food or Chinese food?" She looked at him aggrieved.
Cen put his hand behind her shoulder today, gently hugged her and smiled: "Don't worry about it so much, if you don't mind, you can go back to the hotel with me, and I'll make it for you."
Why do you mind?
"are not you tired?"
"It's okay, it's not the time of war." He put her hands in front of his eyes, looked at them carefully one by one, and suddenly put her hands on his lips, kissed her lightly, and the smile faded away, "I just cried pass?"
"No, no." She wiped her eyes desperately.
Cen couldn't laugh or cry today, he took her restless hand and held it quietly.He looked at her with quiet eyes. At this moment on the quiet 33rd floor, it seemed that even the wind had stopped.
She heard his words, and her head was buzzing.
Until he repeated again: "Gu Zeng, don't lie to me, you will make me feel like a failure."
Long after Gu Zeng left, Qin Wanfeng was still chatting with Lu Niannian, chatting with each other.
"She looks really good now."
Qin Wanfeng peeled an apple, took a piece and handed it to Lu Zhongnian to eat, and said calmly: "Gu Zeng is too soft-tempered and too stubborn. When she is soft, everyone can see her goodness, a very warm girl. Child. But if you become stubborn, who can see her sadness and disguise?"
At this time, a woman with a sensitive mind can already sense some of Gu Zeng's timidity.
Lu Zhannian stopped talking, his brows furrowed into a ball.Neither he nor Qin Wanfeng expected that such an ordinary conversation would magnify many things in the future, revealing a terrifying appearance.
How many people were hysterical, how many people wept bitterly.
The hotel was not very far from the hospital, and it was difficult to get a taxi at this time. After discussing it, the two of them simply walked back and bought some vegetables on the way.This was the first time that Gu Zeng went to the supermarket with him, and it was still in a Chinese supermarket in Paris.
He spoke to her in Chinese, and the people next to her would not find it strange, at least they would not look back at them frequently.
"Did you miss home when you were in Paris?" He picked up a tomato and sniffed it close to his nose. Gu Zeng keenly realized that this might be the slight cleanliness he said before, and he would give up some because of some smells. vegetable.
She is not very sensitive to smells, and refuses him to pass the tomato to her nose.Pushing the shopping cart to answer the question he just asked: "There are many Chinese shops, grocery stores, restaurants, mobile phone stores, and insurance companies on the north side of Flanders Avenue. Sometimes I go there when I want to eat Chinese food. Then buy something, which can only ease the feeling of homesickness."
He nodded, focused on choosing fresh meat, and asked her sideways, "Do you like beef or mutton?"
Looking at the two plates of meat in his hand, Gu Zeng wanted to laugh, and pointed to one of them: "Beef, I like stewed beef brisket with carrots very much."
"it is good."
"If Changhong's wireless channel broadcasts your cooking one day, do you think it will be a sensation?"
"I think there might not be a day if you don't feel like sharing it with people."
With a pampering tone, Gu Zeng quickly turned around so that he would not see her suddenly flushed face.
When checking out, the cashier was a young man of Chinese descent. He glanced at Gu Zeng and Cen Today and raised his eyebrows unconsciously: "It's rare to see young couples with Chinese and Chinese together here."
Cen said today: "We are from Beijing, we don't live here."
"Beijing? What a coincidence, I'm also from Beijing." It happened that there were not many people in the store, and my brother happily chatted with them, talked a lot, and recommended them to go to District 3 and Meicheng, where Chinese people gather. If you want to buy fruit, there is the best deal.Finally, they forcibly took out a box of grapes from their shopping cart and put in a bag of eggs.
When Gu Zeng came out of the shop, he couldn't help joking: "I think there must be old acquaintances of him in District 3 and Meicheng, especially the fruit sellers."
Cen raised his eyebrows slightly today, took all the bags in her hand, held them in one hand, and put the other on her shoulder: "Obviously, the egg seller there may have had a dispute with him."
"Why can you chat for so long with someone you don't know?" She felt curious, feeling that he should not be very good at talking with people.
"I remember when I met you in Atlanta, I said that this is a Chinese etiquette." He added slowly, "Because living in a group with a very complex race, I can clearly feel my presence as a Chinese. , especially when others insult their country."
They were walking on the street, suddenly stopped to talk, and finally attracted the attention of others.
"I saw a little boy from China before, his face was swollen and he was besieged and yelled loudly that he was Chinese. The impact was very shocking to me. It is hard to say that it is not affected by others. , so in this age, always remember to be kind to others, especially the Chinese.”
Gu Zeng listened and nodded: "I think you should have experienced similar things before you became like this."
"Well, many comrades-in-arms in foreign countries in the army occasionally have disputes like this, and I have often blush with them."
"Do you lose your temper with people too?"
Cen laughed today: "I'm also a human being, it's unavoidable."
She changed her position, hugged his arm, and smiled creakingly: "I thought you had very good self-control, and you were very ascetic."
He said seriously: "Gu Zeng, I'm a man." After a pause, he added, "I quarrel with my comrades because some beliefs are not easy to be insulted."
"Besides the belief of loyalty to the country, is there anything else?" She suddenly became curious, "Is this your natural personality? Gentle and kind? Or is there something that influenced you to become what you are now?"
He fell into silence, and after a long, long time, he just smiled and said lightly: "When I was in the army, some comrades once saved my life."
Duplex hotels generally have a small kitchen, and there is a small glass greenhouse outside the balcony. Standing there, you can see the ancient castle on the coastline and a large lavender field.The city of Paris is called the "Flower City", which is really not too much.
Probably because she hadn't had a good rest for many days, she fell asleep after sitting on the rocking chair for a while.It was already late when I woke up, the orange light was shining on the top of my head, reflecting a half-bright figure not far away.
He was reading a book on the sofa, his back straight, and his movements of turning the pages were serious and meticulous.She rubbed her forehead and stood up from the chair. In one movement, he had already turned his head, and the book was closed.
"Why didn't you wake me up?"
"It's okay, I'm not hungry either."
The two of them got into the kitchen and brought out the dishes, three dishes and one soup, all of which she had said she liked.
"Well, it's delicious, much better than my cooking skills."
He ate very little, put down his chopsticks after a while, and answered her words: "I practiced it in the army."
"It seems that your comrades really like Chinese food." She looked up, saw the unavoidable tiredness on his face, and thought of the topic that never continued, about why he became such a gentle person now .Someone had saved his life before, he said.
Is it when you are on mission at the border?
Or something else, perhaps related to the person he likes?
In short, the conversation stopped awkwardly here.She buried her head in her meal, and he just kept looking at her like this, watching her eat quietly, and then sent her back to the hospital.
There was a night market next to the hotel where he was staying. When he went back, he passed by it. Several times, he was jostled by children playing roller skating and let go of his hand, and then pulled him up again.
Halfway through the walk, a little boy with blond hair and blue eyes gave her a branch of flowers, and she was surprised and delighted.
"Will any boys give you flowers when you were studying?" He was probably really sleepy, so he lit a cigarette and held it in his hand. things, or explore her past.
"It seems to have happened when I was young, but not so much during the two years in Paris. It feels like they might prefer romantic and beautiful girls. I am too conservative and ordinary." She looked up at him, worried about his body, "You How long has it been since you slept well?"
"Now? I'm in good condition. I'm not very sleepy. I just feel that walking with you under the light of this place is very slow, and I want to slow down."
He still changed the subject calmly.
Just now Xu Shen sent a text message, telling her that he came back from Atlanta, and only rested for an hour during the process, busy with sending luggage and explaining the itinerary, and then flew to Paris again.In this place, he stayed with her in the hospital for another two nights, during which time she even slept, but he didn't even close his eyes.
She looked around and saw a bench next to it, and asked tentatively, "Would you like to sit for a while?"
He lowered his head to look over, snuffed out the cigarette butt, and said, "Okay."
The people passing by were either in a hurry, or they were looking at their shopping lists. Few of them were like them, sitting on a bench covered with moonlight, quietly watching the bustling and lively night market.
"Do you want to buy anything?" He asked suddenly, turned to look at her, and pointed to an ice cream truck not far away, "Do you want to eat?"
"you want to eat?"
"Ok?"
"I'll go buy it." She jumped up, grabbed her wallet and ran over there.
Eating ice cream in winter is really... romantic.
The bearded man winked at her and asked her how many copies she would like to buy. She gestured for two copies and pointed to Cen Today who was not far away. them.
When Gu Zeng ran back with two servings of ice cream, he saw a boy sitting on the edge of the bench. He looked like he had just grown up and was a little immature.He probably looked back at her when he heard the voice, then smiled at her, and left with some embarrassment.
"Do you know that boy just now?" She took a sip of the pink ice cream, it was really cold to the bottom of her heart, and she couldn't help shivering.
Cen looked at her a little funny today: "I don't know him, he is sitting next to me, just inviting me."
"Invite you?" She paused, adjusted to the cold air in her mouth, and asked, "Invite you to their party?"
"Look over there." He put the ice cream on the chair, and pointed not far away, which was the direction where the boy ran over just now.A few other boys were gathered together, looking in their direction.
It felt a little weird, not quite a party.
"They are called Eastern European boys. Most of them have just come of age, and the oldest will not exceed 25 years old. They come from Poland, Russia, Romania and other countries, and entered here illegally." she.
Gu Zeng found that when the light is dim, he likes to squint slightly to look at her, just like at this moment.
"They wander around subway stations, night markets and other crowded places every day, and some will strike up a conversation and provide sexual services." He said the last few words very softly and slowly.
But she still directly imagined some not-so-good scenes, and looked at the place just now in surprise.Luckily the boys are gone.Then she looked at him again, blushing without any surprise.
"I thought it was just a normal party, a masquerade, or a masquerade, you know, the kids here are always fond of such dances, God..." She couldn't continue, and the ice cream melted a little, dripping on the back of her hand superior.
He chuckled: "Gu Zeng, this is not a good invitation." Reluctantly, he took out a tissue, wiped the back of her hand, looked at the ice cream that had hardly been touched, and motioned to her, "If you can, take out my ice cream. Eat this one too."
She was really on the verge of tears, "Captain Cen, can't you see that I'm flattering you?"
He rubbed the corners of her lips with his fingers, and smiled: "I'm not tired, it doesn't matter."
"But I want to please you."
"Really?" He turned around and took the melted ice cream into his hands, holding both of them between his fingers.The other hand supported her chin, looking at her shiny lips.
Just had ice cream and my lips look dewy and plump.
He couldn't help laughing: "To be honest, I prefer this kind of invitation." Before she could respond, he leaned down and pressed her lips, sucking them one after another.
The sweetness and coolness of the ice cream rushed into his mouth, and he really lifted his spirits.After a long time, he leaned into her ear and sighed softly: "Gu Zeng, this is the best way to please me."
Gu Zeng glared at him with a blushing face, and then took another look at the ice cream, um...it all melted.
(End of this chapter)
It was already five days later when he was transferred from the intensive care unit to the general ward.During this period, Lu Zhongnian woke up intermittently several times, calling Qin Wanfeng's name, and sometimes yelling at Gu Zeng, yelling at her to come back.
In the life that belonged to Lu Zhongnian, there were really only two women, Qin Wanfeng and Gu Zeng, who could make him remember all the time in the midst of suffering and never let go easily.
Qin Wanfeng said more than once that in his prayer, Gu Zeng was always the only one for many years.
When he was a child, he often said that he wanted to build her own amusement park, her own castle.
"My illness is the retribution for losing my temper all the time, and it is the reward for my charity work that you are all by my side." When Lu Niannian woke up, he saw clearly the two people beside him, and said so with a grin. Pale and vigorous.
Gu Zeng was so angry that he almost didn't want to talk to him, but he couldn't bear to make him angry again, so he accompanied Qin Wanfeng to talk to him, and soon he fell asleep again.
When the evening came, Qin Wanfeng was not there and went to the company.She pushed the door open and went in, and saw Lu Niannian sitting on the sofa looking out.Many people in the garden were whispering to each other, and a few people sat alone like him, with their backs lonely, and I don't know how long they had been sitting.
She walked over and looked at his face in the sunlight. She was very pale, and her chin was still a little green, but because of the poor blood color, the color of the green was also faded.The thick and colorful people walked through the gate of hell, and turned into a light ink painting.He turned his head slowly, looking her up and down.
"When you left Paris at 19, I thought you'd grown up, it's a good age, you should go out and have a look, there's no way to keep you stuck with me anymore. At that time, really I didn’t notice anything, until the person sent to Beijing reported that you were in a very bad state when you returned home, very bad, alcoholism, and depression, and spent most of the time in the hospital every week, hypnotized What is the purpose of the treatment? To forget me, or something else? I don’t know, I just can’t figure it out, and it’s very disturbing. You were so healthy in Paris, but why did you become like that when you returned to China? A just-adult girl Why is the child so capable of hiding things in his heart? Two years, two full years, just watching me and Wanfeng together, what are you thinking in your heart?" His voice was very low, and his speech was interrupted. I was thinking about words, but I still didn't have the energy.
Gu Zeng sat quietly on the bed and listened. What he just said, explained in medical terms, was a cowardice disease.Many people have a shadow because of one thing, and they will behave timidly in similar things from then on. The best explanation in the Chinese language is "Once bitten by a snake for ten years, they are afraid of well ropes".
At that time, she thought that even without Qin Wanfeng, he might like any other woman, but it would definitely not be her, he would not like her.The relationship between them is closer than flesh and blood, and no other impurities can be mixed.
Lu Quannian fumbled for something in his hospital gown, and quickly took out a photo.Show it to her, it's what she looked like when she was undergoing hypnotherapy in the hospital.
"There are a lot of similar photos sent to me. Those days were really terrible, and there was not a day when I didn't lose my temper. I really wanted to go to Beijing to bring you back, but I couldn't, dare not, and was afraid of hurting you again."
He knew it in his heart, and had communicated deeply with the doctor, knowing that her condition at that time was not suitable for returning to Paris.Because if he couldn't give her what she wanted, the damage would only last longer than he could imagine.
At that time, he had already met Qin Wanfeng, and he understood the cruelty of the word love, and also understood that he could not promise her, so he could only endure it and force himself to turn a blind eye.It was also during that time, during countless nights of fury when everything in the house was smashed, I had a deep faint.Woke up and was diagnosed with a heart attack, not doing well.
Originally speaking rationally, he could not marry Qin Wanfeng.But how to put it, sometimes many things cannot be explained with reason.Especially love, when he didn't want to get it, it was already deep into his blood.
Later, when he heard the news of her recovery, he slowly began to live a normal life as a college student, and his condition improved a little.
These were also relayed by Qin Wanfeng to Gu Zeng, and when she knew about it, she couldn't breathe.
When I hated him and complained about him, when I was sick in Beijing, he was also seriously ill in Paris, and the situation was worse than hers, but I never said it, never.
"In the past two years, I always think about our childhood. I am only eight years older than you, but why do I feel a round older than you?" He suddenly raised his head and smiled softly, sticking his fingertips on the photo, rubbing carefully Squeezing, "In the past ten years, I know that you have always understood. Although you are not dependent on each other, no one can replace those years. After my father passed away, for a long time, I only had you as my closest relative. You and Xiao Akatsuki is just as important to me.”
This is the first time Gu Zeng saw him so calm and vicissitudes.After uncovering the once romantic face, all he has left is his old body and a clean and simple heart.Some of the words he was trying to say were probably for the same purpose as Qin Wanfeng.
Gu Zeng hurriedly interrupted him: "I know that I'm fine now, really. I only have one wish, that is, you quickly take care of your health, have a baby with Sister Xiaoxiao, and take good care of the company. I don't know In the past, because of my relationship, you have been sad for so long. I don’t know that it was because of me that you were sick at first. I am really guilty. But we are family, and you are my dearest person. I know what to say It's all superfluous, so don't be like this, don't say something to make me cry."
Lu Zhongnian looked up at her, with deep eye sockets, some amber impurity eyes, swaying in the dusk, making it difficult to see clearly.
He looked at it for a long time, then chuckled: "I know, you will be fine, much better than I imagined."
Qin Wanfeng told him about the miracle in Atlanta, and he was a little too handsome.He really wanted to recover quickly, drink a glass of wine, and have a good chat with that man.In the end, he still wanted to be greedy and keep her by his side, asking if she would stay.
Gu Zeng thought for a long time, and finally spread his hands together, walked up to him and hugged him: "Lu Zhongnian, I met a very good man in Beijing. He has a deep heart and a true love. I feel a lot from him. Something really warm, but it's not like what you gave me."
Because of some inescapable experiences, many people have to face the screening of fate to become better people or become vulnerable people.In order to make their lives stronger and more independent, some people will accept chicken soup for the soul to make themselves kind and peaceful, but some people do charity to repay the world, self-denial and observance of etiquette, but it is out of punishment for themselves.
She was feeling something, that the decade she felt belonged to Atlanta was not as simple as she could have imagined.
"I've worked hard for a long time to meet a man who won't distract me from thinking of you, so don't be overbearing."
The man told her when she was hypnotized that the more she couldn't extricate herself, the more she would be sober and calm.
During the first conversation at the Changhong control tower, he said softly, calm down, death is at your feet.
The chat window in the black room was probably the first private and direct conversation between them. There was no pleasantries. He asked: Do you believe in a predestined fate?
Later in Atlanta, it was hard not to admit the love affair. He walked in the rain with an umbrella, and the aroma of shredded tobacco was still in his fingertips, but he was able to talk to her frankly, "In the past, I always liked to use sharp and contradictory words to define love. Because it was too embarrassing for me at the time.”
……
A few days ago, he came to this city suddenly, praised her in the small garden in the early morning, and then told her that in his opinion, the beauty of an oriental woman has only one characteristic.The more I experience the long darkness, the more I want to bring warmth to those around me.
"Standing at the elevator entrance of the hospital that day, he said he could see that I was sad, I dare not admit it, really... how selfish and cruel I was in the life of you and Xiaoxiao sister, I didn't know this until so late In fact, how embarrassed I am, I really hate myself, but I really dare not admit it, dare not confess to him, I can only pretend to be happy."
The inability to trust a person wholeheartedly, physically and spiritually, is also a sign of cowardice.Doctors say there is little cure for the disease, and some people suffer from it for the rest of their lives.
Yes, she was suffering from it.He was such a good person, but she couldn't confess to him, couldn't speak, couldn't face him.
She held her face, tears were forced back, "But even so, I still want to be with him, Lu Zhongnian, can you understand this feeling? No way, really no way, it can only be him, No one else can."
Lu Niannian patted her on the back: "I understand." He coughed lightly twice, "I understand, so stop talking and follow your heart."
Gu Zeng nodded, sniffed his nose and broke his tears into a smile: "I will come back to see you often, if you have time, you can also go back to your hometown to visit, I think my parents will welcome you very much, and cook a lot of Chinese dishes you like .We can drink and go for a walk, basking in the moonlight in the yard like old friends."
Lu Quannian narrowed his eyes slightly, and raised his lips: "You said that, it made me want to take care of my body and live a good life."
She let go of her hand and looked at him from a very close distance, so that she could see the fine lines at the corners of his eyes, as if it had really changed a lot.In such a place, how much effort does it take to maintain a family business that cannot be prying?
She tried to say: "When I was suffering from grief, I could always think of you in a white shirt. You were very handsome. Last time I went home and saw the photo hanging in the study, I was the ugliest in it. Before leaving this time, I have to re- Take a picture and take it back to show your parents."
"Okay." He chuckled, finally relieved, "Maybe there will be one more person in this photo."
"Ok?"
"The man you like very much."
Gu Zeng pursed his lips, blushing a little: "Let's talk about it after you recover from illness, Mr. Lu."
When she was going out, she happened to meet Qin Wanfeng who was rushing over. She took her hand, gestured to the man she was sitting at the end of the corridor reading a newspaper with her eyes, and laughed: "You know? When I walked downstairs, Hearing a bunch of little nurses talking about this handsome Chinese man on the 33rd floor is really too elegant. They even bet who can invite him to dinner tonight."
Qin Wanfeng rubbed her hand and said softly, "Don't give up the opportunity to those ignorant little girls."
Gu Zeng lowered his head in shame and responded.Saying goodbye to Qin Wanfeng, I just stood there and looked at him for a long time, my eyes became sour.
I didn't see him when I first came, I thought he went back to the hotel to rest.Counting the time it took him to return to Beijing from Atlanta, and then fly back from Beijing, at least one day and one night he didn't close his eyes.
"Are you tired?" She poured a glass of water from the hot water in the corner and handed it to him. When she sat next to him, she saw today's headline in the newspaper that Fan Bingbing is undoubtedly the brightest star in this year's fashion show, so she couldn't help asking , "Do you still read entertainment newspapers?"
Cen took the hot water today, put it on the window sill, quickly folded the newspaper, and said, "I didn't read it seriously, but I was a little bored."
She just remembered the question just now, and he avoided it.Feeling a little guilty, she asked him, "Do you want to eat?"
"it is good."
"What to eat?"
"I'm casual."
"Don't be random, it's difficult for me to choose. What do you want to eat? Western food or Chinese food?" She looked at him aggrieved.
Cen put his hand behind her shoulder today, gently hugged her and smiled: "Don't worry about it so much, if you don't mind, you can go back to the hotel with me, and I'll make it for you."
Why do you mind?
"are not you tired?"
"It's okay, it's not the time of war." He put her hands in front of his eyes, looked at them carefully one by one, and suddenly put her hands on his lips, kissed her lightly, and the smile faded away, "I just cried pass?"
"No, no." She wiped her eyes desperately.
Cen couldn't laugh or cry today, he took her restless hand and held it quietly.He looked at her with quiet eyes. At this moment on the quiet 33rd floor, it seemed that even the wind had stopped.
She heard his words, and her head was buzzing.
Until he repeated again: "Gu Zeng, don't lie to me, you will make me feel like a failure."
Long after Gu Zeng left, Qin Wanfeng was still chatting with Lu Niannian, chatting with each other.
"She looks really good now."
Qin Wanfeng peeled an apple, took a piece and handed it to Lu Zhongnian to eat, and said calmly: "Gu Zeng is too soft-tempered and too stubborn. When she is soft, everyone can see her goodness, a very warm girl. Child. But if you become stubborn, who can see her sadness and disguise?"
At this time, a woman with a sensitive mind can already sense some of Gu Zeng's timidity.
Lu Zhannian stopped talking, his brows furrowed into a ball.Neither he nor Qin Wanfeng expected that such an ordinary conversation would magnify many things in the future, revealing a terrifying appearance.
How many people were hysterical, how many people wept bitterly.
The hotel was not very far from the hospital, and it was difficult to get a taxi at this time. After discussing it, the two of them simply walked back and bought some vegetables on the way.This was the first time that Gu Zeng went to the supermarket with him, and it was still in a Chinese supermarket in Paris.
He spoke to her in Chinese, and the people next to her would not find it strange, at least they would not look back at them frequently.
"Did you miss home when you were in Paris?" He picked up a tomato and sniffed it close to his nose. Gu Zeng keenly realized that this might be the slight cleanliness he said before, and he would give up some because of some smells. vegetable.
She is not very sensitive to smells, and refuses him to pass the tomato to her nose.Pushing the shopping cart to answer the question he just asked: "There are many Chinese shops, grocery stores, restaurants, mobile phone stores, and insurance companies on the north side of Flanders Avenue. Sometimes I go there when I want to eat Chinese food. Then buy something, which can only ease the feeling of homesickness."
He nodded, focused on choosing fresh meat, and asked her sideways, "Do you like beef or mutton?"
Looking at the two plates of meat in his hand, Gu Zeng wanted to laugh, and pointed to one of them: "Beef, I like stewed beef brisket with carrots very much."
"it is good."
"If Changhong's wireless channel broadcasts your cooking one day, do you think it will be a sensation?"
"I think there might not be a day if you don't feel like sharing it with people."
With a pampering tone, Gu Zeng quickly turned around so that he would not see her suddenly flushed face.
When checking out, the cashier was a young man of Chinese descent. He glanced at Gu Zeng and Cen Today and raised his eyebrows unconsciously: "It's rare to see young couples with Chinese and Chinese together here."
Cen said today: "We are from Beijing, we don't live here."
"Beijing? What a coincidence, I'm also from Beijing." It happened that there were not many people in the store, and my brother happily chatted with them, talked a lot, and recommended them to go to District 3 and Meicheng, where Chinese people gather. If you want to buy fruit, there is the best deal.Finally, they forcibly took out a box of grapes from their shopping cart and put in a bag of eggs.
When Gu Zeng came out of the shop, he couldn't help joking: "I think there must be old acquaintances of him in District 3 and Meicheng, especially the fruit sellers."
Cen raised his eyebrows slightly today, took all the bags in her hand, held them in one hand, and put the other on her shoulder: "Obviously, the egg seller there may have had a dispute with him."
"Why can you chat for so long with someone you don't know?" She felt curious, feeling that he should not be very good at talking with people.
"I remember when I met you in Atlanta, I said that this is a Chinese etiquette." He added slowly, "Because living in a group with a very complex race, I can clearly feel my presence as a Chinese. , especially when others insult their country."
They were walking on the street, suddenly stopped to talk, and finally attracted the attention of others.
"I saw a little boy from China before, his face was swollen and he was besieged and yelled loudly that he was Chinese. The impact was very shocking to me. It is hard to say that it is not affected by others. , so in this age, always remember to be kind to others, especially the Chinese.”
Gu Zeng listened and nodded: "I think you should have experienced similar things before you became like this."
"Well, many comrades-in-arms in foreign countries in the army occasionally have disputes like this, and I have often blush with them."
"Do you lose your temper with people too?"
Cen laughed today: "I'm also a human being, it's unavoidable."
She changed her position, hugged his arm, and smiled creakingly: "I thought you had very good self-control, and you were very ascetic."
He said seriously: "Gu Zeng, I'm a man." After a pause, he added, "I quarrel with my comrades because some beliefs are not easy to be insulted."
"Besides the belief of loyalty to the country, is there anything else?" She suddenly became curious, "Is this your natural personality? Gentle and kind? Or is there something that influenced you to become what you are now?"
He fell into silence, and after a long, long time, he just smiled and said lightly: "When I was in the army, some comrades once saved my life."
Duplex hotels generally have a small kitchen, and there is a small glass greenhouse outside the balcony. Standing there, you can see the ancient castle on the coastline and a large lavender field.The city of Paris is called the "Flower City", which is really not too much.
Probably because she hadn't had a good rest for many days, she fell asleep after sitting on the rocking chair for a while.It was already late when I woke up, the orange light was shining on the top of my head, reflecting a half-bright figure not far away.
He was reading a book on the sofa, his back straight, and his movements of turning the pages were serious and meticulous.She rubbed her forehead and stood up from the chair. In one movement, he had already turned his head, and the book was closed.
"Why didn't you wake me up?"
"It's okay, I'm not hungry either."
The two of them got into the kitchen and brought out the dishes, three dishes and one soup, all of which she had said she liked.
"Well, it's delicious, much better than my cooking skills."
He ate very little, put down his chopsticks after a while, and answered her words: "I practiced it in the army."
"It seems that your comrades really like Chinese food." She looked up, saw the unavoidable tiredness on his face, and thought of the topic that never continued, about why he became such a gentle person now .Someone had saved his life before, he said.
Is it when you are on mission at the border?
Or something else, perhaps related to the person he likes?
In short, the conversation stopped awkwardly here.She buried her head in her meal, and he just kept looking at her like this, watching her eat quietly, and then sent her back to the hospital.
There was a night market next to the hotel where he was staying. When he went back, he passed by it. Several times, he was jostled by children playing roller skating and let go of his hand, and then pulled him up again.
Halfway through the walk, a little boy with blond hair and blue eyes gave her a branch of flowers, and she was surprised and delighted.
"Will any boys give you flowers when you were studying?" He was probably really sleepy, so he lit a cigarette and held it in his hand. things, or explore her past.
"It seems to have happened when I was young, but not so much during the two years in Paris. It feels like they might prefer romantic and beautiful girls. I am too conservative and ordinary." She looked up at him, worried about his body, "You How long has it been since you slept well?"
"Now? I'm in good condition. I'm not very sleepy. I just feel that walking with you under the light of this place is very slow, and I want to slow down."
He still changed the subject calmly.
Just now Xu Shen sent a text message, telling her that he came back from Atlanta, and only rested for an hour during the process, busy with sending luggage and explaining the itinerary, and then flew to Paris again.In this place, he stayed with her in the hospital for another two nights, during which time she even slept, but he didn't even close his eyes.
She looked around and saw a bench next to it, and asked tentatively, "Would you like to sit for a while?"
He lowered his head to look over, snuffed out the cigarette butt, and said, "Okay."
The people passing by were either in a hurry, or they were looking at their shopping lists. Few of them were like them, sitting on a bench covered with moonlight, quietly watching the bustling and lively night market.
"Do you want to buy anything?" He asked suddenly, turned to look at her, and pointed to an ice cream truck not far away, "Do you want to eat?"
"you want to eat?"
"Ok?"
"I'll go buy it." She jumped up, grabbed her wallet and ran over there.
Eating ice cream in winter is really... romantic.
The bearded man winked at her and asked her how many copies she would like to buy. She gestured for two copies and pointed to Cen Today who was not far away. them.
When Gu Zeng ran back with two servings of ice cream, he saw a boy sitting on the edge of the bench. He looked like he had just grown up and was a little immature.He probably looked back at her when he heard the voice, then smiled at her, and left with some embarrassment.
"Do you know that boy just now?" She took a sip of the pink ice cream, it was really cold to the bottom of her heart, and she couldn't help shivering.
Cen looked at her a little funny today: "I don't know him, he is sitting next to me, just inviting me."
"Invite you?" She paused, adjusted to the cold air in her mouth, and asked, "Invite you to their party?"
"Look over there." He put the ice cream on the chair, and pointed not far away, which was the direction where the boy ran over just now.A few other boys were gathered together, looking in their direction.
It felt a little weird, not quite a party.
"They are called Eastern European boys. Most of them have just come of age, and the oldest will not exceed 25 years old. They come from Poland, Russia, Romania and other countries, and entered here illegally." she.
Gu Zeng found that when the light is dim, he likes to squint slightly to look at her, just like at this moment.
"They wander around subway stations, night markets and other crowded places every day, and some will strike up a conversation and provide sexual services." He said the last few words very softly and slowly.
But she still directly imagined some not-so-good scenes, and looked at the place just now in surprise.Luckily the boys are gone.Then she looked at him again, blushing without any surprise.
"I thought it was just a normal party, a masquerade, or a masquerade, you know, the kids here are always fond of such dances, God..." She couldn't continue, and the ice cream melted a little, dripping on the back of her hand superior.
He chuckled: "Gu Zeng, this is not a good invitation." Reluctantly, he took out a tissue, wiped the back of her hand, looked at the ice cream that had hardly been touched, and motioned to her, "If you can, take out my ice cream. Eat this one too."
She was really on the verge of tears, "Captain Cen, can't you see that I'm flattering you?"
He rubbed the corners of her lips with his fingers, and smiled: "I'm not tired, it doesn't matter."
"But I want to please you."
"Really?" He turned around and took the melted ice cream into his hands, holding both of them between his fingers.The other hand supported her chin, looking at her shiny lips.
Just had ice cream and my lips look dewy and plump.
He couldn't help laughing: "To be honest, I prefer this kind of invitation." Before she could respond, he leaned down and pressed her lips, sucking them one after another.
The sweetness and coolness of the ice cream rushed into his mouth, and he really lifted his spirits.After a long time, he leaned into her ear and sighed softly: "Gu Zeng, this is the best way to please me."
Gu Zeng glared at him with a blushing face, and then took another look at the ice cream, um...it all melted.
(End of this chapter)
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