Waiting for a long time, Captain

Chapter 24 The Lost Bravery

It was always difficult to fall asleep at night, and the things that happened these days were added together, making her suddenly frightened.When I turned on the light, I saw the time on the wall, it was two o'clock in the morning.

She suddenly wanted to drink.Her mouth seemed to be dry and cracked, and she was very thirsty. She went to the kitchen to find something to relieve her, thinking about what he was doing at this time?Already asleep?Still under inspection.

In the end, she took a bottle of mineral water. When she heard the sound, she turned her head to look. Lu Niannian also came out and asked her, "Can't sleep?"

"Ah."

Probably because of something, he could guess, "Today your mother told me that she met some old friends in the supermarket."

"Hmm." Her voice dropped.

"Did you say anything?"

"No."

"Really do not have?"

"What do you think you might say? I haven't seen them for so long."

"Okay." He came over and patted her on the head, "Rest early, I will return to Paris in two days, and I plan to take your mother there to live for a while."

"Can she get used to it?"

"It's the same as at home, you'll get used to it."

"Okay, okay." She answered twice, before Lu Zhongnian walked back.Before closing the door, he turned his head to look at her and saw her drinking water as if nothing had happened, he thought he was thinking too much.

The moment the door was closed, Gu Zeng sat in the shadow, couldn't force a smile, thought about many things, and didn't dare to cry out.

The next morning, it was raining outside, and she went to the cemetery alone, and had a long talk with her father.Before that, she called Cen Today, but it showed that there was no answer, and then transferred it to Lu Zhao, only to find out that he had just finished the operation and hadn't woken up yet.

Lu Zhao said: "The situation is not very good, the black spots in the eyes have become bigger." The sun in Yunnan is the brightest and scorching in winter, and he is still so stubborn that he must go there.Lu Zhao didn't want to say anything, and didn't intend to put pressure on her.

But in fact, Gu Zeng could guess that at that time he always walked with his eyes squinted and couldn't look directly at the sun.Sometimes because of her, because he wants to give her some special feelings, he becomes even harder.I really feel that her existence has caused him a burden, too much...

"I checked on the Internet. His situation requires professional escort and treatment, and he may be blind for a long time. He needs to put himself in a relatively relaxed environment wholeheartedly." And she is his best friend. Relaxed, uneasy, unsafe.

"Lu Zhao, if possible, please help him find an escort."

Lu Zhao's voice paused, and after a while, he said: "Okay." He comforted her, "But don't be discouraged, his current situation is really different from person to person. With similar radiation, blindness has been caused many years earlier, and it may become cancerous in the end, and some people have maintained low vision without getting worse."

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After hanging up the phone, it started to rain heavily, but she still stood in front of her father's tombstone with an umbrella, looking at his photo.Unlike my mother, my father's expression tends to be more direct and without barriers. He was a little strict when he was a child, but later he was all gentle.It is really a pampering upbringing for her, so she wants to make herself grow up healthier. For her parents who love her, she really only needs to make herself better, not cause trouble, and let them rest assured, is filial piety, right? ?She really always thought so.

It was really hard. When Lu was still at home, he chased after him every day, and he didn't care too much about the gossip in the school. After he left, he was always alone in the school for a long time, bowing his head and saying to himself Talk to yourself, endorse and eat, and don't socialize with other people.Although I don't like reading, I always force myself to digest, stuff my body like a duck, and do my homework seriously every day, just to make my parents happy.

Because I understand and cherish the kindness of their adoption, I made special efforts to make myself outstanding.Later, when I went to Paris, it was also a product of adolescence. While doing crazy things, I still maintained the image of a good girl in their eyes.I'm really tired, I'm about to collapse...

"Dad, do you blame me? It's not that I didn't answer your call, it's because my things were taken away." That child, a child, really couldn't help complaining.

"Did you leave because I was angry that I didn't come back to visit you and didn't come back for the New Year?"

……

"Dad, don't blame me. I know I was wrong. For so many years, I have chosen the wrong way of life, which has caused today's situation. I am really wrong."

She was wet and didn't go home. She bought new clothes at the mall and changed, and then went to the hospital.The aisle was very quiet. She asked Cen about today's room at the nurse's desk, and the nurses gathered together and asked her about her relationship with the man in that ward.

"Just good friends," she said feebly.

Fortunately, Lu Zhao appeared in time, killing the urge of these little nurses to ask the truth.

"He seems to be particularly attractive to girls wherever he goes." When Gu Zeng said this, it was somewhat sour, and he felt very happy.

"Sometimes I feel that you are the only one suitable for him in this world, and no other girls are suitable."

"Why?" she speculated, "Because I had a similar experience with him? I mean grief, and some past."

"No," he thought for a while, before entering the door, "it's because you are all very warm people."

It is rare to meet a girl who has experienced so many things and is still very warm and beautiful. She is one of them.Lu Zhao said frankly that only such a girl is worthy of his good brother, but both of them have worked hard.But love is such a thing, when can it not be hard?
Gu Zeng went in to see Cen today. The anesthesia for the operation had not passed, and he hadn't woken up yet.His eyes were covered with a layer of gauze, and some sunlight shone on his cheeks, making his entire face look very fair.

She went to the bathroom and twisted a towel out, wiped his face, and exerted some strength on purpose, only then did the cheekbones show some signs of pink, and it was not as pure and pale as before.She put down the towel, a smile on her face.

"I just went to see my father in the cemetery. There are many emotions superimposed. I think of many things. The loss when I was a child and when I grew up, flashed clearly in my mind one by one like playing a movie. He bought me ice cream and took me Go to the amusement park, ride the Ferris wheel with me, study by myself in the evening when I am studying, no matter how late he will wait for me at the door, make supper for me, and secretly give me money behind my mother's back. When I go to Paris, it's all The pocket money he gave me has been saved, there are a lot... I can think of a lot, and I may not be able to talk about it for many days." The hand holding him was warm, she thought for a while, and then put it back In the quilt, just in the quilt, slowly cross your fingers with him.

"Sometimes I feel that I am too deliberate and too sensitive. It is just a sentence someone said, which may be unintentional, but I really hold it to my heart. I feel that I killed my father. It has been like this for so many years, but it is not She is too good at expressing, and when she can judge right from wrong, she always wants to use reason to convince herself, but you know, I have always been so cowardly." Letting go, and holding it again, she kept fiddling with it like a child playing his fingers.

"I really mind that because of my emotional negligence, I almost lost you in Yunnan. I also mind that my mobile phone and ID card were stolen, and I didn't see my father for the last time, and I didn't even say a word. He left with regret." This thorn, she will cherish it for the rest of her life.

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"Ah Cen, I'm sorry, I still can't be a brave girl." I don't know when the tears flowed down again, falling on the blue and white quilt.She rubbed her eyes slowly and pulled her hands out of the quilt.Looking at his peaceful sleeping face, resisting the soreness in his nose and eyes, he just wiped his eyes again and again.Finally, after convincing herself to make this decision several times, she stood up abruptly and walked to the door.

Tell yourself, look back at him again, just one look.

But just such a glance made him cry uncontrollably again.Thinking of what he once said to her in Paris: Sometimes someone cries, it doesn't mean he is sad, and some people laugh doesn't mean he must be happy.What we can see and hear in this world, even though the senses are very direct, is not necessarily the truth.You are like this, even if you are smiling, I still know that you are very sad.

At this moment, Mingming was blindfolded by the gauze, but he could clearly feel that he had woken up, opened his eyes, and followed her at an angle where he could turn his head slightly.She could already feel every look in his eyes, which could not be explained by science.

Slamming the door open, almost subconsciously, she escaped.From the moment he entered the elevator, he looked for his mobile phone and dialed Lu Zhongnian's number. After a few busy beeps, he was connected.

She didn't speak, and neither did he.Everyone was looking at this girl, she was very thin, so thin that people wanted to protect her, she was crying for a long time, but she was silent for a long time.

In the end, he only said one sentence: "I'm sorry, Cen..."

After Gu Zeng slammed the door and left, Lu Zhao walked in.The person who was still under anesthesia before waking up was sitting at the window smoking a cigarette.

He made himself sit up, and then managed to find the clothes on the bedside table, which contained a lighter and cigarettes.It took me a while to get to the window.After opening it, he sat against the wall for a while, with the wind blowing in, the temperature was a little low, but it could make people awake.

An operation almost turned him into a cripple, but it took him a long time to do such a simple thing.

Lu Zhao was a little worried: "Your addiction to smoking again?"

"It was committed in Khartoum."

"After such a long time, Gu Zeng didn't find out?" He looked at the brand of this cigarette, which seemed to be from the southwest border.It didn't smell very good, but he still pulled out the root out of curiosity, held it in his hand and sucked it slowly.

"She noticed it, but she habitually didn't say it." Thinking of how many times she woke up at night, her subconscious action was to look for him, and then look to the window to see if he was smoking.Sometimes I want to tell him to stop smoking, but he always waits for her to say, but she doesn't.

"Maybe because I can understand the state of mind when I was drinking, so I always give me time."

"Have you reached the final place there?"

"No, not yet."

Lu Zhao felt a little regretful, and grinned: "What should we do now, your little girl ran away..."

He didn't speak, and when a cigarette burned his finger and felt the pain, his thoughts finally cleared up.He swore that this was the last cigarette in his life.

Gu Zeng's departure was hasty, and many people couldn't help but blame him when they thought about it.Xu Shen, and Qing Ya, they tried to contact Lu Zhongnian, including Gu Zeng's mother, but they couldn't find out where she went last.

Maybe at that time, I was really tired and scared, and I didn't even say goodbye, so I just left without hearing anything.

Both Xu Shen and Qingya cried for a long time, blaming her for being cruel and heartless.Later, at Gu Zeng's alma mater, he was guided by some old classmates to know some facts. About her life experience, almost all friends were jealous in an instant.When meeting a girl like this, even if she ever spoke ill of her, she would feel that she had sinned deeply.

After Cen left the hospital today, he went to Xie Fen to pick up Jianhu Zhimei and Cattelan who had been fostered by her before. For a long time, she was the one who asked, and he chose to answer.

For example, Xie Fen asked him about his future plans, and the answer was, he didn't know.

Xie Fen asked again: "Where is that girl?"

silence.

"What do you do with your flowers? I mean the ones at home."

"Take it home and raise it for my mother."

"That's fine, do you still want to go to Atlanta? Or other cities?"

Still silent.

"Are you planning to start a family?"

"It should have been."

"With Gu Zeng?"

……

"My last question, maybe you don't want to answer it, but of course I respect you. Your parents want to send you abroad for treatment. They don't know much about you, so they just blame Gu Zeng unilaterally for delaying you. The best treatment time."

"I still say the same thing. If you haven't experienced it personally, no one else has the right to criticize her, and you can't empathize with her."

If, when you were very young, you knew that you were only adopted, your parents would probably abandon you at any time, just like your biological parents. Therefore, at a very young age, you should learn to figure out each other’s thoughts, and be careful with your parents. Get along with each other, for fear of making them angry.You may have never quarreled with your parents, and you have no other children who have the confidence to establish a blood relationship with your parents. You have never tried to lose your temper with them, and you have never thought that you are completely spoiled and can make trouble for no reason.I just want to treat them desperately, always deliberately adapt to their emotions at every moment, and even cater to them.

You like someone very much, for many years, and you don't need any principles in your bones, but that person still doesn't like you.After you left your hometown, you fell ill and became seriously ill. For a long time, there was no one to talk to, so you could only suffer in silence.But you still work hard to treat, cooperate with the doctor, and want to be healthy.

After fate has imposed so much suffering on you, you have made yourself better than most people in this society, warm and kind, and loyal to the end.It was just because some relatives left later, some coincidence factors made you feel guilty and sad, so you wanted to escape for a while.

So, who would be willing not to give such waiting and tolerance?
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