Wealthy Poison Doctor's Wife

Chapter 243 263: Deep in Mind (21)

Han Zhen heard the secret from his ninth birthday, so he hid the ceramic bracelet at the bottom of his wardrobe, and at the same time, he hid the girl he wanted to grow up with in the deepest part of his heart.

He restrained himself from thinking of her, restrained himself from looking for her.

but.

I can't help myself.

The heart is involuntary, so the eyes are involuntary.

Every time he went out, his eyes would involuntarily look around, and when he saw a little girl about two years old, he would involuntarily move his legs.

He would walk over to see if that girl was the one in his heart.

In his dazzling eyes, hope was ignited again and again, and hope died again and again.

Until, that day.

His grandma was ill, probably because she was confused, she took Han Sile's hand and said a lot of words, one of which involved the secret, although she spoke illogically and couldn't speak clearly, but he understood it as soon as he heard it What's the meaning.

Han Sile didn't know that he already knew, and sent him out in a panic.

Without saying a word, like an ignorant child who doesn't know anything, he obeyed Han Sile's words and left the ward.

It's just that grandma's words are like a sharp knife, adding another knife to his original wound.

At that time, he was already twelve or thirteen years old, and he knew more things than when he was nine years old. Grandma's words made his stomach churn. How could there be such a sinister person in the world?
The madness of his grandmother and the ugly intentions of his mother made him feel that his blood was full of something called shame.

The sun was shining brightly outside, but he had a feeling that the world was dark.

Perhaps, only his world is dim.

On that day, he unexpectedly met the girl hidden in his heart.

In fact, he was the one who saw her first that day.

She was sitting in the backseat of a red car, the window was open, she didn't know what she was talking about, she clenched her fists, her face was full of righteous indignation, I haven't seen her in a few years, she looks much better than when she was a child, and she has also changed There were many, but he still recognized them at a glance.

Later she stopped talking and lay quietly on the car window, her eyes flickering around, her delicate white face was as pure and beautiful as an angel, her eyes were full of innocence that only a happy child would have and agile.

He quickly opened the car window, he wanted to shout: "Xixi!"

He also wanted to ask, which 'xi' is your name?
However, as soon as he opened his mouth, the words of grandma and the words of parents quarreling were like two sharp swords, cutting down mercilessly in his world.

His world is in disarray, his world is dark,
He felt that if he said anything to her, he would tarnish her beauty.

As for her, after turning her eyes around, she actually found him. He saw her pure and beautiful eyes bursting out with a lot of amazement and love. Brother, said to him: "Brother! My name is Zhai Xixi, what's your name?"

Obviously, she no longer remembered him.

This is normal, after all, she was still so young at the time.

The liking and amazement in her eyes made him very happy, and he wanted to smile back at her: "Long time no see, my name is Han Zhen."

But he didn't. With a cold face, he raised the car window to block her sight.

There was a flash of astonishment, a flash of bewilderment, and a flash of sadness on her face, and he felt even more uncomfortable than her.

after that.

They met once in the hospital, and she said she liked him and that she would marry him when she grew up.

They met once again in the Han family's mansion, and she gave him a jade pendant, saying it was a betrothal gift for him, and she urged him to never need to like others.

In fact, Zhai Xixi didn't know that after the time they were in the Han's mansion, they had a close contact again in the new summer.

It was also that close contact that made him finally understand why he wanted to stay away in his mind, but he had such a contradictory desire to get close to her and see her in his heart.

That year, he was 16 years old and Zhai Xixi was nine years old.

He hadn't seen her for nearly a year, and he longed to see her once in his heart. Finally, on a midsummer night, he sneaked into the villa area where the Zhai family villa is located. He didn't actually want to do anything, just If you want to be outside the villa, just take a look at her from a distance.

It was already dark by then.

He stood outside the fence for a long time, but he didn't see Zhai Xixi.

Just when he was about to leave, he actually saw Zhai Xixi coming out of the house, standing by the swimming pool, with his hands clasped to his chin, not knowing what he was doing.

The sky was dark, all the headlights in the villa were turned off, and only a few stations were dimly lit. Han Zhen was in a daze seeing her thin and vague shadow. When he recovered from the daze, he found that he was already standing inside the fence , I don't know when, he actually climbed over the fence and walked in the direction of Zhai Xixi.

When I got closer, I found that Zhai Xixi was actually making a wish. She muttered to the swimming pool and said a lot, but Han Zhen only heard five words clearly: "My wish is..."

He wanted to laugh at the time, did she use the swimming pool as a wishing pool?
In fact, he did laugh out loud.

Zhai Xixi was probably startled when she heard the movement. She shuddered and turned around suddenly. After seeing him, she exclaimed "Ah!" and subconsciously took a step back, only to fall into it with a 'plop'. In the pool.

Han Zhen's heart jumped out of his throat at that time, and he jumped down without thinking.

After he fished her up, she was already unconscious, just like the hot spring club that day.

He didn't know how to rescue her at that time, he just patted her on the back, he turned her upside down, trying to pour out the water, he was so panicked that he forgot to call for help, and after a long time of fidgeting, Zhai Xixi didn't slow down Angrily, Han Zhen became more and more anxious. He even thought about it. If she died, he would die with her.

In the end, I don't know if it was luck, Zhai Xixi finally vomited a mouthful of water with a 'wow', coughed violently several times, and took a breath.

Han Zhen hugged her, hugging her with lingering fear and joy.

He looked at her still suffocatingly beautiful little face under the dim floor lamp, and finally understood why he had such contradictory psychology. He clearly wanted to stay away, but couldn't help but want to get closer.

I also understood why I had the idea that if she died, he would follow her to die.

A 16-year-old boy, holding a nine-year-old girl in his arms, understands his heart. It turns out that he not only likes her, but also loves her.

What a childish love.

Ask the world, what is love, directly teach life and death?
The only thing that can make life and death go hand in hand is love.

But is he worthy?

If he's just an ordinary kid from an ordinary family, then he deserves it.

If he is just an illegitimate child, then he deserves it.

But he is not, he is not, he is a product that broke through the moral defense line in people's hearts, and his existence is a moral shame.

The moment Zhai Xixi was about to open his eyes, Han Zhen left her abruptly and ran away in a panic. When he climbed out of the fence, he even had his thigh pierced by the sharp point of the fence without feeling it.

It was only then that Han Zhen knew that there was another self living in his heart, that self, longing to get close to Zhai Xixi recklessly, even if it dragged her to hell.

That self is irrational and calm.

He has always suppressed that self in his heart, but recently, that self has dominated his will more and more, especially the more he gets in touch with Zhai Xixi, the more he feels that he can't control that self.

Jingle Bell!
The ringtone of the mobile phone brought Han Zhen back from memory to reality.

He took out his mobile phone from his trouser pocket, and the moment he saw the caller ID, the hand holding the mobile phone suddenly tightened, and his knuckles turned white.

(End of this chapter)