What kind of bad thoughts can a drama host have?

Chapter 70: Shen Huaili's Extra Story (End)
Song Rourou returned home.

Between me and her, Lu Mingshen chose Song Rourou without hesitation.

It turned out that I was just a stand-in.

The truth is like a sharp knife, piercing a heart to pieces.

In the six months after I broke up with Lu Mingshen, I lived in a muddle-headed way. My scandals kept leaking out on the Internet, and netizens were clamoring for me to get out of the entertainment circle.

Facts have proved that I am nothing without Lu Mingshen.

He was hacked to the point of ruin and lost all resources.

In order to get a role as the second female lead, I tried my best to dress up and go to the reception.

I was more unlucky, I was drugged and sent to the investor's bed, I resisted desperately and escaped, and met Lu Mingshen again.

I spent that night in the hotel with him.

"What happened last night was an accident, I don't want Rourou to know."

The deep and pleasant male voice was slightly hoarse.

I lay flat on the quilt and turned my head to look at Lu Mingshen.

"You should know what to say and what not to say." Lu Mingshen pushed a card in front of me.

I took that card and paid for it after sleeping, the usual operation of the domineering president in the novel.

I felt a little uncomfortable, I stroked the raised part of the card, and waited for the other person to finish buttoning the shirt in a decent manner, and I pulled out a standard smile: "Okay, I understand, Mr. Lu."

Lu Mingshen turned his head to look at me, his eyes seemed to imply complex emotions, and I looked at him too.

I realized that he no longer needed to see me smile like this.

Suddenly, this smile could no longer be maintained.

I suddenly felt a strong emotion, grabbed the quilt, and asked him unwillingly with red eyes:

"Lu Mingshen, have you never loved me?" After asking, I regretted a little.

The man pursed his thin lips tightly and remained silent.

"We've been together for three years, and you don't have any feelings for me? Is there nothing real about your kindness to me?" I was crying and my voice was trembling.

"Shen Huaili, it's important to recognize your identity. You are just Rourou's substitute."

Lu Mingshen answered very simply, without any hesitation, looking at me like looking at a piece of garbage.

I just realized I still have pain.

The sharp pain is like a needle stuck in the heart, not severe, but long and deep, as if it will never end.

I sat up abruptly, wiped away my tears, my clothes were too torn to wear, so I had to grab the bathrobe scattered on the carpet and put it on, before rushing out the door with bare feet.

He ran all the way to the hotel elevator, only to stop when he heard no footsteps behind him.

I slam against the wall.

I just cried.

I cried so loudly, it was embarrassing, I know.

People who passed by looked at me with strange eyes. Like me, I was only wearing a bathrobe, barefoot, and my hair was messy. No one would think it was normal.

But I really can't help it.
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Later, I got pregnant by accident and successfully married Lu Mingshen.

But I didn't protect my child well. I had a miscarriage, which was caused by Song Rourou.

Not only did Lu Mingshen not blame that woman, but he also blindly blamed me for being careless.

Those hot and sincere loves ended at the moment when the child was lost, and at the moment when he protected Song Rourou indiscriminately.

Desperate, but so.

I was humbled to the dust for him, and all my energy seemed to be consumed in this long and fruitless love-hate entanglement with Lu Mingshen.

The love that keeps me going now has been squandered by him.
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After the miscarriage, I suffered from depression, severe self-abuse and suicidal tendencies.

But no one noticed.

Because I look like a normal person.

He did what he had to do, was quiet most of the time, and didn't seem to have any signs of suicide.

There will even be a smile on his face, but he will never speak again.

One day I finally couldn't hold it anymore and I cut my wrist.

The knife cut through the flesh, but I laughed.

Whether it is this man or this relationship, there is nothing to miss.

In a daze, I heard footsteps, it was Lu Mingshen who came back, he was calling me, I was picked up by someone, I struggled to open my eyes.

Seeing his always calm eyes full of panic and panic.

My blood stained his white shirt red.

He tightly strangled my waist, and his voice rang in my ears, almost screaming: "Shen Huaili, you said that you would never leave me! How dare you die!"

Lu Mingshen's eyes didn't show any flamboyance in the usual way, he was helpless like a fragile child.

I couldn't hear the words behind, but I knew he still fell in love with me after all.

The story is not long, the face was red when we met for the first time, and the eyes were red when we saw each other again.

Heartbeat stopped.

Goodbye, Lu Mingshen.

If there is a next life, I will never like you again.

　Why I wrote this episode, I don’t know~
　　
　
(End of this chapter)