My Master Jinyiwei

Chapter 104

"Heaven and earth are the reverse journey of all things; time and time are the passers-by of a hundred generations. And life is like a dream, how much joy?"

At that time, the stars were shining brightly, and the fire was burning in front of the case. The young man suddenly woke up, but his consciousness had not yet fully awakened. What he heard was Qingyue, a young girl next to him, reciting a book.

"Shen Yu! Shen Yu! Come out!"

"Brother Shen, sister Xu, come out and play."

"We caught a lot of fireflies!"

Shen Yu was lying on the desk, and looked up in a daze. The trees in front of the courtyard were lush, and there was a winding path stretching out, which was pitch black.A group of friends of the same age ran out from the bushes, and they ran towards this side. The soft moonlight shone on their young and beautiful cheeks as they ran, and there was a kind of cold beauty.They ran to the window, picked up small stones and smashed them, panting, laughing or making faces, tiptoe waving to this side, urging.

Shen Yu stretched her neck and looked out the window.

His hand clasped on the table was hit hard by the girl next to him holding a book.

"Everyone asked us to play..."

"Playing? Shen Xiaoyu, I have never seen a person as calm as you. Uncle will check your homework tomorrow. You slept all day, and you only read two pages at night and you are sleepy again. What will you do tomorrow? Do you still think about it?" Beaten by your uncle? Did you forget the lesson last time so quickly?"

"Tomorrow, you will accompany me and help me."

"Shen Xiaoyu, I can't stay with you forever."

The boy in front of the window propped his chin and yawned, arguing with the girl next to him, eager to go out and play with his friends.He turned his head to look at the girl sitting beside him, reading over and over again, hoping that he could remember it for a short time, the curtain was blown up and down by the wind, she was sitting in the lamplight, her black hair and snow skin were shining, her eyebrows were soft and soft , patiently, recited and recited over and over again.

"Heaven and earth are the reverse journey of all things; time and time are the passers-by of a hundred generations. And life is like a dream, how much joy?"

He listened to her repeating these words over and over again.

He stared blankly at her in a daze.

When he was young, he didn't feel the sadness and helplessness of this passage, but because he heard it repeatedly, because of the bright moonlight that night, and the female voice that kept chanting even in his sleep, he remembered this passage very well. clear.I don't remember whether I have passed my father's inspection, but I always remember this passage.And that girl.

After many years, when she was flipping through the book and accidentally read this statement again, the young Shen Yu was slightly shocked, and immediately thought of the scene of that year.In a trance, the years... In the past night, light and shadow converged, rising and falling, and the tide of time rushed towards him.He stood there in a daze, turning his head to look.

The curtain was blown up and down again by the wind, and the books placed on the desk turned a page in the wind.After the book case, there was no more that girl.

More than ten years have passed, and the girl who read to him has already left him.

Shen Yu sat in this familiar yet unfamiliar study room. There would never be another girl sitting next to him tirelessly, smiling and helping him write cheat sheets, and teaching him how not to be noticed by his elders.

In the early morning of the Shen residence, everything was proceeding in an orderly manner.Shen Yu just came back from court, and wandered lazily into his yard.He walked slowly, absent-mindedly, took a letter from his sleeve, and began to read it until he heard footsteps behind him.

"Eldest Young Master, Eldest Young Master!" The maid came after Fu Shu, the maid in front of Shen Yu's mother.Fu Shu glanced at the letter in his hand, smiled knowingly, and followed Shen Yu's pace, "Miss Xu's letter has arrived? Did Miss Xu say when she will come back?"

"No." Shen Yu quickly read the letter and replied lazily.

Fu Shu clearly saw that the eldest son's eyes fluctuated from the beginning to the lack of interest in the end.Her eyes became a little complicated, she opened her mouth, but closed it again.

It has been three years.

Always like this.

The eldest son has changed in his official affairs, he is active and serious, but emotionally, he has been slow, not only slow, sometimes he will go back a few steps.

Many times when seeing the eldest son, Fu Shu wanted to say something.But thinking of Madam, she abruptly held back her words.

Shen Yu put away the letter, chuckled twice, to hide the irritability in his heart.After Xiaojin left three years ago, her whereabouts became a mystery. He sent people to follow her many times, but to no avail.Her letters also come without warning, sometimes once a month, sometimes every three months.In the letter, she didn't mention anything about her own situation, she only described the different styles of the world with him, and occasionally sent him some interesting things.

But his reply has always been muddy cows into the sea, without a trace.

He couldn't figure out what she was thinking, and wanted to find her in the past, but they had agreed back then, and he had already agreed to her.

What was she thinking?

Sometimes he thought that maybe she regretted it and didn't want to see him again.

In her letter, she treated him as a good friend.

But... In any case, he wanted to know about her situation.

"By the way, what are you doing here?" Shen Yu was thinking about his own affairs, turned his head abruptly, and asked strangely when he saw Fu Shu who had followed him all the way.In a big family like theirs, the master walked on the road, unless he took the initiative to ask, the passing maids and servants would only wait sideways, but they would not take the initiative to greet them.Generally, if you take the initiative to come over to say hello, there must be something wrong.

Only then did Fu Shu think of her own affairs, and smiled embarrassedly, "Madam has a visitor, and I want the Eldest Young Master to go and accompany her."

An impatient expression immediately appeared on Shen Yu's face, "Which girl did Mother choose for me again?" After a pause, he patted the maid on the shoulder, blinked and smiled, "Fushu, help me push her up." , just say that I went out and didn't come back." After speaking, he turned around and wanted to run away.

"My lord, my lord! It's not like this!" Fu Shu hurriedly stopped him, and said anxiously, "This time Madam really didn't like any girl, so I just asked you, lord, to entertain guests."

"Oh?" Shen Yu was curious, "Why do you want me to go?"

The two talked while walking.Shen Yucai learned from Fu Shu that what kind of guest is this?In the past, they lived in Pingzhou. Later, due to the war, some accidents happened. Mrs. Shen fled with her young child. On the way, she was rescued by her family.Later in Yejing, Mrs. Shen was still the wife of a big family. The family who saved her on the way gave some silver taels as a reward, so she didn't mention it.

Many years have passed, and the family lived in poverty, and they came to Yejing to seek a living.Thinking of Mrs. Shen in the past, she came to the door, calling it a visit, but actually asking for help.

In a big family like the Shen family, the roots are intertwined, and there are many clan relatives. It is normal for some poor relatives to help if they can, and they don't care about such small things.So when the family came to the door in a state of anxiety, the housekeeper asked someone to report it as soon as he heard it.When Mrs. Shen heard the old savior's family come to her door, she thought that she was the one who saved her, and it seemed that she was too heartless to only ask the juniors to accompany her.Always when she was bored, she would let the family come in and receive them herself.

The family name is Qian.Those who came were Grandma Qian, her son and daughter-in-law, and her grandson, Xiao Liuer.

Shen Yu said "ah", there is such a passage in memory.But he was too young at that time, and he was not very impressed.Hearing that there really didn't seem to be any girls in it, I breathed a sigh of relief.Wen Yan asked curiously, "Then why did you ask me to accompany the guests?"

Fu Shu glanced at him, and said in a strange tone, "Mr. Qian said, when his mother rescued our wife, he had a good time with you, calling you brother and brother. He was very interested, and asked if you were there. It happened that our wife seemed I can't talk any more, see if the hour is up, and when you come back, Eldest Young Master, let me invite you over quickly."

Shen Yu was stunned for a moment, then laughed for a while.

How could he ever call him a brother or brother when he was young? That Mr. Qian is really interesting.The mother-in-law was really speechless, so she called him to save the scene.

Shen Yu followed curiously.

This family, in Shen Yu's eyes, is the typical appearance of country people entering the city.But he didn't seem too nervous. When Shen Yu arrived, in the main room, he saw his mother's indifferent expression, and the old woman opposite was spitting.His mother sat far away from the old woman, watching the saliva spraying into the sky with lingering fear.

"Ah, ma'am, this is Shen Yu! After so many years, I almost can't recognize it!" Sitting in the lower seat, the man who was a little bored because his mother talked too vigorously, saw the noble young man walking outside the door, Immediately rushed forward enthusiastically.

According to his idea, they can hug each other and pat each other on the shoulder, express brotherhood and so on.At first, the man was afraid that he would not be able to do it, but seeing the flimsy appearance of the little boy who came in, wearing a spring shirt in winter, he felt that he alone was enough to deal with ten such young masters.In his heart, he laughed at the other party's helplessness, and greeted him affectionately.

But when he got close to the distance between the two of them, the other party stretched out his hand, stopped him, and smiled, "Mr. Qian."

Qian Moumou was a little dazed, and found that the young man who he thought was weak and unusable raised his arm, which made him unable to take a step forward.

He said helplessly, "Shen Yu, you won't forget me, right? We slept in the same bed when we were young. You can't forget your old friends when you get rich."

Shen Yu laughed unconsciously.

I find it very interesting.

What does it mean to forget old friends when you are developed?His family has always been like this, not to mention developed.old friend?Can't even talk about it.At most it's acquaintance.But the savior, it's understandable to be self-willed.

"Ah, Mr. Shen is really good-looking." Mrs. Shen stood up, and was about to call her son over to meet the guests, when the old lady who had been sitting next to her looked at Shen Yu, "He has beautiful features, just like those boys in our village who go out to study. "

Mrs. Shen laughed dryly, and was about to invite her son to see the guests again, when Granny Qian asked gossip again, "Why haven't you seen your daughter-in-law? I heard that in a family like yours, when the elders talk, the daughter-in-law has to stand upright Mrs. Shen, you can't be soft-hearted. It's not easy to be the mistress of a big family."

"..." The maids on the side were speechless, our wife was born in a famous family and grew up in a famous family, so you need to teach me the rules?
Mrs. Shen was very polite to her old benefactor, and explained, "When the elders talk, the daughter-in-law can only stand and so on... People like us don't have such rules. Besides, Shen Yu didn't marry a wife. I haven't enjoyed a day The mother-in-law's treatment." After speaking, she obviously resented and glared at her son.

Her son was watching them communicate with interest, so he had no conscience.

"Yeah, haven't you married yet?" Granny Qian became anxious, "If I remember correctly, Mr. Shen is the same age as my Dalang?" Although just looking at his face, Shen Yu looked ten years younger than her son. Next year, "My little grandson is five years old! Where's Little Six? Come and meet your Uncle Shen."

Uncle Shen or something...

The corner of Shen Yu's mouth twitched, and he instantly understood Cai Fushu's indescribable expression.

"Mrs. Qian, your grandson... went to play in the backyard, and someone followed him." Fu Shu said.She was embarrassed to tell the truth, because the child sneaked into the lady's room while he was young, and grabbed a lot of ornaments like gold hairpins and jade bracelets on the dressing table. When the maid saw it, he almost went crazy with fright.The maids haven't seen such an uneducated child for many years, so they can't say that they can't scold them, they can only coax him to play in the backyard.

A few maids whispered in the corridor: Madame is really busy.I invited a great Buddha for myself.Can only offer, can not beat and scold.Whoever let others have the reputation of saving lives is the first.In the beginning, if Madam let those wives and ladies entertain her, there wouldn't be so much trouble.

Of course, Mrs. Shen may also regret it now.

Because Granny Qian looked at Shen Yu with distaste, and at the same time said in a tone of kindness, "I'm almost thirty at this age. Except for those with physical defects, there is no one in our village who cannot marry a wife. Mr. Shen... …It’s too old. How about this, help people to the end, send Buddha to the west, I have a niece from afar, in her 20s this year, her husband died early, and she has been a widow for several years. But she is smart and capable, and Being able to bear hardships and stand hard work, it is barely, barely suitable for someone at Mr. Shen's age."

"..." Mrs. Shen was stunned.

She had a feeling of fantasy for a moment, was the other party talking about her son Shen Yu?Is Shen Yu an existence so disliked by others?He can only be matched with a village widow...

"Hahaha." Shen Yu was amused again.

Mrs. Shen turned her head and stared at her.

Although she has disliked Shen Yu for so many years, she has always chosen a wife from a famous family.Of course, under normal circumstances, men are married in their twenties.But when I was older, everyone didn't say that I would not like it.There are still many people who like her Shen Yu.

This family is so unlovable.

Madam Shen's face paled, even if she was said to disrespect the savior, she was not interested in letting Shen Yu greet him.

She said to Shen Yu, "The little girl of the Tang family is getting married in these two days, right? She calls you Big Brother Shen, and you can afford it. Go to the Tang family and see if there is anything that can help. Don't hang around in front of me all the time."

"Yes." Shen Yu backed out of the door with a smile, knowing that his mother was becoming ashamed from anger.

What can he do for the Tang family's wedding?Mrs. Shen just used this to let him go out.Such a wonderful family, Mrs. Shen didn't plan to let Shen Yu entertain her.Hmph, I despise her son... Even if her son became a monk, he would never marry a village widow!

No, no, no, Shen Yu won't become a monk... She can't think about it.

Shen Yu followed Mrs. Shen's wishes, and it happened that the Shen family was going to send a congratulatory gift to the Tang family, so he simply took the name card and went to have a look by himself.After so many years, all the former friends have started their own families and careers, but he is the only one who is still dangling.Maybe waiting for someone, maybe not waiting.But no matter what, if he wants to have that possibility, he must first get the right to speak in the family.

Only in this way can Xiao Jin come back.

Shen Yu was a little lost in thought, and he inadvertently thought of Xiao Jin.As always, he didn't really miss her particularly.But, she lives in his mind, and she comes out to shake it from time to time.

"Brother Shen, you're here." Miss Tang's soft voice reminded him when he came back to his senses.

Shen Yu lowered his eyes and looked at the girl who led the way herself.Miss Tang was his mother's chosen sleepy daughter-in-law, and she also had some affection for him, so she obeyed Mrs. Shen's arrangement and waited for him for two years.But two years later, Miss Tang gave up and chose to follow the arrangement of her family to get married.

When saying goodbye to him, Miss Tang once said, "Brother Shen, the happiest among us is Sister Xu."

"You've been waiting for her, and no one else can do it except her." Miss Tang smiled weakly, "And what about her? She left so heartlessly and never looked back. I envy her, hate her, and admire her. "

"Brother Shen, you are amazing. Waiting for someone who may never look back, waiting for a hope that can't be seen at all. I tried, but I can't do it. I hope one day, you can tell me what it is like How do you feel? Is it worth it?"

Shen Yu smiled, but did not answer Miss Tang.

what kind of feeling?
He just waited for more than ten years for her to kiss him.

The rest, how can it be counted.

When people in Yejing mentioned Xiao Jin, they always had this complex tone of admiration and slight annoyance.She once disturbed the whole situation in Yejing, and was not discovered at first, but as time went by, everyone saw the flaws left by Xiaojin.No one likes a scheming person like Xiao Jin, Shen's family also said, fortunately, Shen's family never confronted Ms. Xu.Someone had secretly discussed that Shen Yu and Xu Shijin divorced back then, and according to the Shen family's attitude towards Miss Xu, that girl should have held grudges against the Shen family, but she let the Shen family go so easily, it is inconceivable.This kind of rumor once spread in the Shen family, but was stopped by Shen Yu's mother, and the person who spread the rumor was severely punished, and they were not allowed to say such unfounded words again.

Shen Yu heard his parents discuss Xiao Jin in private.

His father said, "This girl, it's a pity. If the Xu family treated her well, or if the crown prince believed her, Yejing would not be what it is now."

His mother said angrily, "So what? No matter how capable she is, if she makes my son unable to marry, I will not forgive her."

"You, you just have a good mouth. Didn't you cry when Xiaojin had an accident that year? I don't think you can force Yu'er..."

"How can I do that? How can I do that?! I'm doing it for his own good. Besides, if Xiaojin really wanted to, she would have come back long ago. Could it be that if she doesn't come back, my son will have to wait for her forever? Why don't you say she doesn't?" Come back? Just because you can’t get along in Yejing? There’s always a way.”

"Hey……"

Everyone was talking, but Shen Yu didn't want to hear it anymore.

Shen Yu thought, for many years, people in Yejing had different voices, but they blamed Xiaojin, saying that she was the one who made the world worse.However, she is the one he loves the most in this world.

This feeling, whether others understand it or not, is not worth talking about.

He wants to find her and bring her back.

Walking in the garden with Miss Tang, Shen Yu heard a gentle drumbeat, and was attracted to stop, and listened.He stopped, and Miss Tang also stopped. The sound came from a yard, drifting along the flowing water, and the rustling flowers and leaves floated on the water and passed under their feet.

"It's our family's troupe," Miss Tang introduced with a smile, "Singing shadow puppets. They've been practicing for the past two days, and they plan...well, it will be useful at that time." Miss Tang blushed when she mentioned her marriage.

"Shadow puppetry?" Shen Yu's eyes lit up, "Xiao Jin likes to play these...let's go and see."

Miss Tang froze for a moment before following Shen Yu's footsteps.

She felt empty for a moment, a little helpless: Sister Xu was everywhere, even if she wasn't around, Brother Shen still thought of her.Shadow puppetry...Brother Shen wants to learn it, so let's teach it to sister Xu when the time comes.

Brother Shen likes sister Xu so much, but why doesn't sister Xu come back?What kind of difficulty can make her give up on someone who likes her so much?In front of your lover, are other issues really important?

How can we not be envious and resentful?
Miss Tang packed up her mood and led Shen Yu to listen to an opera in the theater garden.When they arrived, the crowd was arguing.Upon questioning, it turned out that the troupe master sang a play, but everyone didn't like this kind of play, and wanted him to change it, but the troupe master was so stubborn that he refused to change it.

"What is he going to play?" Shen Yu asked curiously.

"Let's spend the full moon." Miss Tang standing behind him said.

Shen Yu looked back at her in surprise.

Everyone nodded in unison, "That's right! Miss Tang, the class leader is going to sing this song! You can persuade him..."

"What's wrong? Isn't this play bad?" The old man who was sitting on the side without saying a word got up, "Thinking about this play, it made our team popular and won the eyes of the nobles. But now that you are popular, you will forget your origin... ..."

"Uncle Peng, the play is very good. But I have listened to it for so many years, so I should change it to something else?" Miss Tang patiently persuaded.

Seeing that it was the hostess's girl who was speaking, old man Peng turned his head and remained silent.

Seeing Miss Tang's support, the rest of the team rushed over excitedly, "Young lady is right! Miss Tang, we all worked together to make up a play. Listen to it. If it works, let's practice this..."

Miss Tang nodded with a smile, then blinked at Shen Yu who was next to her, and looked at the angry old man Peng.

Shen Yu understood what she meant, so she went over to help deal with this little conflict.Of course, professionals should be responsible for this, but just in time, there is no loss in helping a group.He coughed and went to old man Peng.Old man Peng was silent, and when the crowd surrounded Miss Tang, he walked slowly to the backstage.Shen Yu went with him.

Old man Peng sat down and pulled out a delicate wooden figurine from the wooden box.What Shen Yu originally wanted to say, such as "harmony makes money", shrank back suddenly, his eyes lit up, "It's really delicate! Can you teach me?"

Old man Peng ignored him, and manipulated the villain with trembling hands, pasting it with a white cloth.Shen Yu squatted beside him, watching intently...

After Miss Tang finished her affairs, she heard the low sound of opera, came to watch, and saw Shen Yu and old man Peng sitting together, watching old man Peng manipulating the puppets, performing a scene of joys and sorrows.Mr. Shen watched so intently, completely fascinated by the old man's demeanor.

Miss Tang was speechless.

Shen Yu suddenly turned around and said to her, "I think your family should sing such a good show! I think it sounds very good."

"...Brother Shen, you seem to be on the wrong side." Miss Tang supported her forehead.

"But it's really good. I don't think I could get a better copy of this play."

"Yes, very good." Miss Tang said quietly, "But this play has been performed in Yejing for decades, and everyone is tired of listening to it. No one wants to hear it anymore."

"..." Shen Yu was taken aback, his face paled, "I haven't heard of it."

Miss Tang looked at him strangely, you used to fight dogs every day, why haven't you heard of it?

He said, "I actually don't like listening to dramas."

Miss Tang nodded in understanding, that's why.

But in the next sentence, Shen Yu said, "But I should have heard of it."

Miss Tang wanted to ask why, but seeing Shen Yu's face, she didn't want to ask.She guessed the answer, it must have something to do with sister Xu.She smiled, "This play was originally created by this troupe. For so many years, I have only sung this play. If Brother Shen has never heard of it, if you like it, come and listen to it at our house." She turned her eyes to old man Peng. , with a complicated expression, "I think, even if he can't go on stage, Uncle Pember will continue to sing like this every day."

Shen Yu really came to Tang's house every day, just to listen to the whole play.

He doesn't like listening to opera, but Xu Shijin likes it.When she was a child, she often took him to listen together.But he was always sleeping, and he never tried to like things that he wasn't interested in.During those years with Xu Shijin, Shen Yu did not know how many such moments he missed.

Although Xu Shijin said a few words about him, but next time, he will still look for him.She likes it, but she doesn't talk about it.

If she doesn't tell, he will never know.

In this way, too much was missed between them.

Shen Yu came every day to listen to the old man Peng's performance of this shadow play.The ups and downs of the story, the ups and downs, are really good.If this play is very famous, Xiao Jin must have brought him to listen to it when he was a child.It's just that he forgot.

At sunset on the third day, Shen Yu finally heard the ending of the story.

The story is about a man and a woman who wandered through the rivers and lakes when they were young, met, fell in love, misunderstood, and betrayed.The last one is about the night when the master got married, the girl came to him and killed his fiancée.All misunderstandings were resolved with everyone's help.It turned out that the fiancée was the source of all misunderstandings.The man regretted and was moved, married the girl, and the two loved each other forever.

The story is pretty cliche.But what everyone likes is this kind of happy ending.

When Shen Yu squatted in the corner and listened to the play, Miss Tang was curious about how well he heard it, so she came to watch and caught up with the ending.

Leaning against the wall, listening in a daze, the afterglow was shining, the young man raised his head and said to her, "What a story."

Miss Tang suddenly became interested in gossiping with him, she squatted down, "Brother Shen, do you remember the name of the hero in this play?"

"Peng Qi," he said, and then, "ah."

Shen Yu turned his head and looked at the old man who was bending over and silently collecting props under the setting sun.

Miss Tang nodded, "Uncle Peng's original name was Peng Qi."

"So, it's his story?" Shen Yu became more interested, "He and his wife's experience is quite legendary."

Miss Tang shook her head, "The heroine in the play is called Chen Wu. I heard that Uncle Peng's old lover is called Chen Wu."

"..." Shen Yu was stunned, his mind went blank, "But, but..."

"Chen Wu died a long time ago," Miss Tang said. "In reality, on the night of getting married, he was killed by that vicious fiancee with a sword. Uncle Peng only found out later. The misunderstanding was also long after Chen Wu died. , it was untied."

"..." Shen Yu's heart seemed to be pulled hard.

"His lover was killed a long time ago, so in the play, he let his lover kill him with a sword. He was unwilling and angry. He has been singing for so many years. But that person is long gone. He just It’s just deceiving yourself.”

That person is long gone.

He was killed long ago.

He was just kidding himself.

Shen Yu stood up with a pale face, there was a string in her mind, and suddenly, it collapsed like that.

He turned around abruptly and went out of the courtyard.He left Tang's house and rushed to Shen's house.

The hunched old man Peng in the setting sun, the loving white-headed wife in the play, and the long-dead lover in reality...all in his head, tormenting him.

He rode back to the mansion, and hurried to his courtyard, a layer of sweat broke out on his forehead, which made him feel cold all over.He bumped into a person suddenly, and the other person called out "big son" in horror, and hid something behind him.If it wasn't for this action, Shen Yu wouldn't have stopped.

He stopped and saw that it was Fushu.

Fu Shu's eyes flustered, and he forced a smile, "That little Liu'er is the grandson of Madam's savior. He was naughty and rummaged through my things. I was just coming back..."

"Bring it here." Shen Yu stretched out his hand expressionlessly, not listening to her far-fetched explanation.

Fu Shu's eyes flickered, and after Shen Yu said it again, he remained silent, and took out a letter from behind.

Shen Yu glanced at the words "Xu Shijin" on the envelope.

His face turned pale: Why is her letter at Fushu's?what is the problem?What are they hiding from him...

He quickly opened the letter, making various conjectures, followed by the white paper flying out of the envelope, and froze.

The white paper was a little wrinkled under the sun, but there was no word on it.

Fu Shu knelt down, gritted his teeth and said, "My lord, let me tell you the truth. Three years ago, Miss Xu sent a lot of letters. She seems to have agreed with Madam that every once in a while, Madam will find a way to send I will hand over a letter to you. But in fact, the real letter that Ms. Xu sent back in three years was detained by the wife. The wife said that there were not many letters in the first place. If you don’t worry about it, you don’t need to read it... "

"Xin, bring everything." Shen Yu shook Xin's hand, trembling slightly.

What the hell was she talking to him about?
What is she trying to say?
What was written in those letters that he was not allowed to see?
He seems to be able to hear her unique gentle tone - "Shen Xiaoyu, let me tell you..."

Shen Xiaoyu, let me tell you, Mr. Chang has tried many ways to detoxify me, but the effect is not very good.We are still working on it and hope for a good result.How about you?How are you doing in Yejing?How are you and your parents?They are old, and you have only one son, you have to be considerate of them, don't be willful.Do you have a girl you want to marry, do you want to get married?If anything, don't wait for me.Means nothing.

Shen Xiaoyu, don't always hang out in the street at night, don't always eat cold food.In government affairs, you have to be smarter, know how to protect yourself, and don't let yourself fall into the trap of others.

Shen Xiaoyu, you are a very good person, you will be loved by the heavens, and you will live a happy life.Your family is harmonious, your career is satisfactory, and your health is satisfactory.You live a simple and clean life, and you must continue to do so.Don't listen to others, just be yourself.

Shen Xiaoyu, you will find what you like to do, devote yourself to it, and bring yourself fun.You will have a real social circle, with friends, relatives, and lovers.If you like to do something, you can have someone with you.But don't go to the brothel, don't let the people who love you misunderstand.You should be better off.Of course, you can do whatever you like.It's okay if you don't listen to me.

Shen Xiaoyu, in fact, I don't think of you often, nor do I really want to see you.But yesterday I had a dream, and I dreamed of you again.In the dream, I kiss you, you smile at me, and you tell me that you are still where you are.

Shen Xiaoyu, I want to see you so much, to see your changes, even to say a few words, even to ask if you are okay.But I can't.I don't think I'm getting better.

Shen Xiaoyu...

In the end, she sent him a blank paper with nothing to say.

The husband of heaven and earth is the reverse journey of all things;But life is like a dream, how can you be happy?

"Life is like an adversary journey, and I am also a pedestrian." In this adversity journey, some people are born broad, while others are born narrow.Difficult to go up, big waves to rush down, struggling to support.

Time reincarnation, that girl, the last letter, not a single word.

But from the crumpled letter, he saw her silently shed tears.

"Xiao Jin..." Shen Yu sat on a pile of letter papers with a pale face, and buried her head in a murmur.

The more love, the more desolate.

(End of this chapter)