My Master Jinyiwei

Chapter 36

The appearance of Lu Mingshan disrupted the perfect status quo.At the beginning of the night, he only said to Liu Ling, "You misunderstood me", and stopped explaining, because Yue Ling had already stood up beside him.At the moment when the smile on his face was blank, when he looked again, Liu Ling's expression had become indifferent, and his eyes returned to sneering.She stopped talking to him, turned around and left, and when Lu Mingshan stepped forward, she left a sentence, "I'm waiting for your explanation, but before that, deal with your own affairs first."

What happened to Lu Mingshan was Yue Ling.

Lu Mingshan hesitated for a while, but still chased after Liu Ling, "I have to make things clear."

Shen Yan squatted in front of the cauldron with a sullen face.The hot water was boiling, and the vegetables were gradually scorching under his hands, but he remained motionless.Jin Yiwei was silent, no one dared to look at Shen Yan, dared to cast a sympathetic look at Shen Yan.

But this kind of tacit understanding that everyone knows makes it even more difficult for Shen Yan to maintain his calmness and rationality.

When had he been so humiliated?
The person who was chatting and laughing with him one moment ago, the next moment...

Shen Yan closed her eyes, covered her face with her hands, the veins in her hands were throbbing, and she finally let herself endure it.

Ye Yu knocked on the eaves, and the four-horned iron horses under the eaves clanged.The sound of wind and rain are entangled, and unknown serenades are sung together, sometimes big and sometimes small.The night was as dark as ink, and the air was smoky. The girl in white was holding her hair, her starry eyes were slightly raised, and she was lost in thought as she looked at the gray sky.It seems that there are mountains on all sides, and when you stretch out your palm, it seems that all phenomena and thousands of mountains can be grasped in an instant.But in fact, they are far away, and they can't be reached after a long journey.

Like her girly days that are gone.

Yue Ling and Lu Mingshan were childhood sweethearts.

At that time, she was a carefree and innocent little girl, and Lu Mingshan was not the current "Master Lu", "Master Lu", or "Lu Family".He was just a poor fatherless child born to a widow, and the whole village laughed at him and looked down on him.

Some people say that he looks like a little girl and is worthless, otherwise, how can there be a mole under the corner of the boy's eye?
It is said that he has a weird personality and cries at every turn, otherwise how could a boy have such a sensitive personality?

But Yue Ling really likes this little boy who always hides aside and doesn't speak.She thought he was so good-looking at first, how could she always be so shy?She was so pure in her mind, just to bring out a good-looking friend to play with her.

Lu Mingshan gradually let go and grew up, but he still only played with Yue Ling.

Later, one day, when Yue Ling came home, he overheard at the door that his lord was discussing the marriage with Lu Mingshan's mother.That year, Yue Ling was only twelve, and she didn't understand anything before, but at that moment, she felt that she had grown up and had girlish feelings, she would be shy and embarrassed, and would look at her brother Ming who blushed and could not speak .

The world is endless, the mountains are green and the water is blue, she and Lu Mingshan are still as good as ever.

Yue Ling thought happily: Mother said that after marriage, we will still be neighbors, so of course I can go home often.Brother Ming treats me so well, he must not be like some annoying men in the village who beat their wives, right?
She went to ask Lu Mingshan, her brother Ming was amused by her, bent over and kissed her delicate little face, "How dare I hit you? Sister Ling, I dare not even touch a single finger of yours."

She smiled shyly and sweetly in his arms, and hugged her little lover's neck, feeling that the flowers in May were all blooming for them.Is there anyone who treats her better than Lu Mingshan?there is none left.Must be gone.

Lu Mingshan rubbed her head, and couldn't help pinching the tip of her nose. After the little girl blushed, he smiled and said, "Sister Ling, don't worry, I will treat you well all my life, and I will never let you down. You will As innocent and pure as you are now...I like you very much."

"Okay, then I will always be like this." The girl seemed to understand, but she had already promised happily.

There was the sound of rain pouring in my ears, the sky suddenly brightened, and thunder and lightning flashed.The girl in white stood in front of the rain, as if standing in front of an abyss.She stares into the abyss, will she become a dragon one day?
The electric light shone on her face, her clothes were blown by the strong wind, and her side face was peaceful, almost eerie.Yue Ling's hand touched her lower abdomen unconsciously again, and then squeezed tightly again, causing her to wake up from her past memories.

Those times, short and beautiful, never come back again.

In the first few years, she was always obsessed with her teenage love.

Yue Ling was looking forward to Lu Mingshan, waiting for him to find her, and then she could tell him, "I know you will definitely come to me! I know you won't give up on me!"

Then, she began to hate him. Why did he not keep the promise he gave her?Why not come to her?
From then on, he would curse Lu Mingshan every day.Ingratitude, ruthless villain, death is not a pity... The result of not forgetting is to make oneself more painful.

Cursing and cursing, Yue Ling became numb, began to get used to life without Lu Mingshan, and began to painfully accept the arrangement given by fate.

She had forgotten him.Don't think about their past anymore, don't regard it as a precious memory anymore.What is Lu Mingshan?What is innocence?In order to live a better life, she can do anything.

Until Xu Shijin found her, until Xu Shijin asked her to use this past as a bargaining chip and return to Lu Mingshan's side.

Xu Shijin smiled, "Don't you want revenge? He just abandoned you for the sake of glory and wealth! What a cruel person, don't you want to teach him a lesson?"

Yue Ling thought about it.

So she reappears.

After disappearing for so long, after everyone didn't know or had forgotten her existence, she suddenly appeared in front of Lu Mingshan and was treated as a distinguished guest by Lu Mingshan.But in fact, what Yue Ling wanted was the treatment of a VIP?

It seems that time has never been missed for several years, and it has returned to the previous days.

He treated her tenderly, guiltily and affectionately.He put his hands on her shoulders, and tears fell on her cheeks.He murmured an apology, and said repeatedly, "I thought you were dead...I'm sorry...Sister Ling...it's my fault, I won't let you suffer anymore..."

But when he made such a promise, didn't he already have another fiancée?
His fiancée, Princess Changle, was originally a relative of the emperor. How could the Lu family be willing to let this great god suffer?

Even if he stayed in the other courtyard, Yue Ling often heard the quarrel between Lu Mingshan and his elders.Lu Mingshan wanted to keep her, but the Lu family did not agree.The Lu family also wanted to come to see her, give her some money, and ask her to disappear.Yue Ling wrote a letter to Xu Shijin with an indifferent face, telling her situation.Miss Xu's specious smile seemed to be felt through the paper, "Miss Yue, why do you care what other people think? You have already sacrificed once for Mr. Lu, do you want to sacrifice a second time? The second time, no There must be another me to help you out of the quagmire."

Yes.

Miss Xu is right.

All the pain and suffering in her life were brought to her by Lu Mingshan.

Why should she sacrifice again for him?

When the Lu family took advantage of Lu Mingshan's departure from the capital, Lu Mingshan's father personally came to warn Yue Ling, benevolent and majestic, asking her to let her son go.He said that Lu Mingshan and Princess Changle would get married in the coming year, and Lu Mingshan only felt guilty towards her, Yue Ling, and she really didn't need to regard guilt as love.

Ha ha.

Princess Changle is going to marry Lu Mingshan soon.

And many years ago, she, Yue Ling, was also Lu Mingshan's fiancée.She also had a time when she was about to marry Lu Mingshan.

Those long, distant things that I thought would be forgotten forever, now escaped from the abyss of memory, tormenting Yue Ling's nerves over and over again.They said that Princess Changle is innocent, Lu Mingshan is innocent, everything is a trick of fate.She shouldn't blame others for her misfortune.But even if they are innocent, she, Yue Ling, is also the most innocent one!

Why was she the one who was given up? !
Lu Mingshan, Lu Mingshan... This person, who made her heart ache just thinking of his name, became her lover again and returned to her side.But Yue Ling couldn't believe everything he said.

Many years ago, Yue Ling would simply trust Lu Mingshan, so he was deceived by him.

As for the current Yue Ling, she survived not by her innocence, simplicity, kindness and loveliness, but by her negative energy.She doesn't trust anyone, she only trusts herself.

There were footsteps coming from behind, Yue Ling turned around and saw Lu Mingshan's purple robe.He walked behind her and put a cloak over her.Yue Ling looked up and saw his tired expression.

Lu Mingshan looked at the girl in his arms, she looked coquettish and graceful, so she was still moving.He hugged her tightly, not wanting to let go.She leaned against him and asked softly, "The princess still refuses to forgive you?"

"Well, I've already explained that I can't leave you alone, she will still be my fiancee, but she just sneered. I said it sincerely, but she wanted to jump over and strangle me to death, that kind of cruelty... Fortunately, Shen The feast stopped me." Lu Mingshan was at a loss, and then asked the girl in his arms in a low voice, "Sister Ling, why can't she be as well-behaved as you, you are even willing to be a concubine for me, but she can't even accept it. For her sake, leave you alone again? I have already betrayed you once, and I don't want to make you sad again... But Ah Ling, Ah Ling, she doesn't understand at all."

"That's right," Yue Ling smiled softly, and murmured, "Why can't the Princess be as obedient as I am? Brother Ming, you are a person who values ​​affection. You let me stay by your side, which proves your affection. County The Lord should be happy to have such a fiancé, she shouldn't be angry."

Lu Mingshan sighed, "She doesn't want all our beautiful past?"

Yue Ling's fingernails were covered with blood, and the hatred in her heart was nowhere to be heard, and she was yelling crazily——Lu Mingshan!We also used to live together!We have also sworn eachother!You used to hate me too!And how could you do this to me!How can you love two women at the same time? !
Her heart was cut like a knife, but there was a weak smile on her face, echoing his words.

Lu Mingshan suddenly asked, "Didn't I arrange for you to stay in Yejing? Why did you appear here?" His eyes were slow, and he had some doubts about her.

Yue Ling panicked all of a sudden, lowered her eyes, and bit her lip, fearing that Lu Mingshan would discover her secret.

But Lu Mingshan asked softly, "Is it my family? They have troubled you again... Sister Ling, I have wronged you."

Yue Ling calmed down, and blinked some tears in his eyes, "I have nowhere to go, thinking that you might come to the princess, so I tried to stay with the princess...Ming brother, you can't want me. You don't want me. In my case, all I have left is to die."

Lu Mingshan was moved and pity her with such tenderness, pity and shame.But her heart was bloody, and she kept shouting desperately—how could you do this to me!How can you love two women at the same time? !

When Yue Ling was in a bad mood, Liu Ling was also in a trance.She had already handed over the divorce certificate to the Lu family in Yejing, and they should have gotten the news.Lu Mingshan came here to change her mind.He told their past and told his last resort.But his last resort, his embarrassment, in Liu Ling's ears, is a merciless person's excuse for his selfish nature.

She wondered: she is really a vegetarian, how could she be attracted to such a person in the first place?Why didn't she see this man's true nature sooner?

Before Lu Mingshan came, Liu Ling would occasionally think of excuses for him.But not as powerful as him.

She has been sad for such a person for so long, because she can't get out because of such a person, she still needs to find someone to heal herself... Liu Ling feels embarrassed.

Sometimes she looked at Lu Mingshan, and when she got angry, she wanted to kill him!Let her stain disappear completely, no one knows.

There is nothing more embarrassing than this: the person she yearned for, the person who carried all her fantasies, let her down in such a way.

What made her regret was that Lu Mingshan had something important to do with Jin Yiwei, and she couldn't tell him to leave and not appear in front of her.

Along the way, Liu Ling never suppressed the emotion of "I really want to find someone to kill Lu Mingshan".

Liu Ling didn't even know how to face Shen Yan: she knew that he was enduring a more difficult situation than her.The past between her and Lu Mingshan, after all, was only known to the two of them. It was heard by others, but they had never seen it in person. They only knew that they were a pair of unmarried couples who were about to dissolve their engagement with Yue Ling.And what about Shen Yan?He was between Liu Ling and Lu Mingshan, like a third party.

So Shen Yan didn't come to see her at all.

When going out early in the morning, Liu Ling saw Lu Mingshan waiting outside again.He still tried to win back her heart, prepared a comfortable carriage and food for her, and repurchased silk and brocade clothes for her.When eating breakfast, Lu Mingshan was very surprised at Liu Ling's rough food, "A Ling, you are a dignified princess, how could Shen Yan treat you like this and let you eat such food? How could he not treat your princess like this? Do you keep your identity in mind?"

When he said this, Shen Yan was coming in for dinner with a group of Jin Yiwei.Jin Yiwei's expression was a little annoyed, but Shen Yan didn't raise his eyelids, pretending not to know, and sat on the other side with his subordinates.In fact, in order to reduce expenses, Liu Ling's poor state has lasted for a while, and even the maids who were aggrieved by the princess at first accepted it.

Liu Ling glanced at Lu Mingshan with a cold gaze, "Master Lu, I'm actually not as particular as you think."

"A Ling, you don't have to wrong yourself like this." Lu Mingshan sat down and served her dishes kindly, with a smile on the corner of his mouth, "You, you always think about others. I remember you once, when a carriage hit a beggar on the road, The beggar scratched your skirt and cried out in fright, but you got out of the car to comfort him and gave him new clothes..."

Shen Yan didn't listen, and ate with vegetables, his expression unchanged.

Jin Yiwei next to him couldn't listen anymore, "Master Shen, he said it to you on purpose..."

Luo Fan even yelled to get up, "The surname Lu is too much, wait for me..."

"Sit down and eat." Shen Yan clapped his hands on the table, as if there was a wave settling down, Luo Fan's momentum suddenly pushed Luo Fan down to sit down.

His expression was normal, and the force with which he slapped the table was so sudden and violent that even Lu Mingshan and his subordinates beside him were startled. They almost thought that Mr. Shen was going to kill someone suddenly, and touched the sword at his waist, only to realize that Mr. Shen had just slapped him. table, and continued to eat.

How can anyone slap the table like they are going to kill someone with a knife? !

Mr. Shen is too... scary.

Liu Ling saw Lu Mingshan's forehead twitch on the opposite side, and then glanced at Shen Yan who was expressionless on the other table from the corner of her eye, and the corner of her mouth couldn't help twitching.

Liu Ling put down the bowls and chopsticks, and faced Lu Mingshan seriously, "Master Lu, it seems that you don't want to eat, and you want to settle the past with me. Well, then I'll tell you, the old me showed it, then They all lied to you."

"I'm really not kind. When I meet a beggar on the road, I don't have the kindness to give this or that. It's because you are by my side that I give it away."

Lu Mingshan was taken aback for a moment, his ears felt hot, and he forced a laugh, "Then you are also for me."

"But I won't force myself for you now." Liu Ling said calmly, "I don't mind the simple food, I don't mind the bumpy carriage that is about to fall apart, I actually don't mind many things, you don't know. Mr. Lu, I once Let you see the best side of me, if you don't want it, then there will be no more. Never will."

Lu Mingshan's face paled a little when she was talking.For a quarter of an hour, his heart seemed to have no heartbeat, and it was so empty.He still held some things tightly in his hands, but she had already let them go.Something was missing, but he couldn't see what it was.

He suddenly felt regret.

Liu Ling stood up and left the table, but was stopped by Lu Mingshan again.He said, "You should keep these things for use. I bought them for you one after another all the way back. If you don't use them, others can't afford them."

Those brocade clothes, jade and ivory carvings, Beijing embroidered palace blankets, silver decorations and cosmetics... are all so exquisite that only Liu Ling can afford them.

Liu Ling didn't even look at it, "I don't want it."

Lu Mingshan nodded, and said slowly, "That's right, our feelings cannot be measured by these vulgar things."

"..." Liu Ling turned around and seemed to see Shen Yan's face froze.

Liu Ling looked at Shen Yan and replied to Lu Mingshan, "No, you are wrong. I said no, because I thought you gave too little. Of course you are sorry for me... After so many years of emotional upheaval, how could such a little thing be enough? Compensation? We'd better settle the matter thoroughly."

Her words successfully made Lu Mingshan's face ugly and everyone in Jinyiwei smiled, but they failed to make Shen Meiren look up at her.

Is he blaming her?
Liu Ling thought about it indifferently for a while, and felt miserable for a while.

She spurned herself: such a dirty self is not worthy of Shen Yan.

That night, accompanied by a maid, Liu Ling went to look for Shen Yan with a lamp.Jin Yiwei said Master Shen was interrogating Yun Yi and had no time to talk to her for the time being.Liu Ling thought that he was not in the mood to deal with her, and she was very obedient and did not lose her temper.If Shen Yan doesn't see her, she just waits.

Liu Ling touched her cool cheek, secretly hating that now is not the time when it is snowing thousands of miles away, she can't let herself faint from the cold, and directly win the sympathy of Shen Meiren.No matter how big the misunderstanding and boredom are, one illness can solve a thousand worries.

Liu Ling raised her head, looked at the vast starry sky, and said nothing.

Squeak.

The door opened.

Liu Ling turned her head and saw Shen Yan wiped her hands with a towel, and pushed the door out.He raised his eyelids and saw Liu Ling waiting outside the door.When Liu Ling saw him, she just wanted to make a surprised expression, when Shen Yan's eyes moved away from her face, as if she was a ball of air.

Shen Yan told Jin Yiwei what to do next.

The expression on Liu Ling's face froze, if it wasn't for her fault, she really wanted to goug him out and eat him.

Shen Yan explained the tasks to his subordinates, while Liu Ling waited aside, unable to intervene for a long time.She didn't open her mouth until the person finished speaking, Shen Yan said to her, "Lu Mingshan has something to discuss with me, I don't have time, you go and play by yourself."

Go play by yourself? !
Was she waiting here all night just for this sentence? !
He would rather talk with Lu Mingshan than ignore her? !
People around retreated far away, and they could feel Princess Changle's emotions. After Mr. Shen said a word, they could hardly hold back and were about to explode.

Shen Yan didn't respond to this. After he finished talking to her, he realized that the matter was over, looked in a direction, and walked away.

Liu Ling threw the lamp in her hand to the maid beside her, and followed.

Jin Yiwei and all the maids hurriedly lowered their heads and pretended to be busy, not daring to disturb the two quarreling.

"Shen Yan, I have something to tell you."

"Say."

"..." Can't you not walk so fast?Walking so fast, she is a weak woman, how can she catch up?Race him?Did she win?
Liu Ling stopped decisively, stood up with folded arms, and said coldly, "Shen Yan, are you going to break with me?"

He stopped abruptly and looked at her through the dark night.Of course, Liu Ling couldn't fail to see the coldness in those eyes.

Liu Ling waited for his reply, but Shen Yan did not speak.Waiting and waiting, Liu Ling couldn't hold her breath, and once the mood of waiting dissipated, she began to think about it.

She stared at Shen Yan obsessively: Mr. Shen's eyebrows were pressed down, his eyes were deep and dark, his nose was straight, and his lips were cold and thin.His eyelashes are so long and curled up, I don't know how many there are... Why is his face so ugly?

Liu Ling came back to her senses, and heard Shen Yan's unpredictable question, "What do you want to say?"

"Shen Yan, don't be angry with me," Liu Ling lowered her head and muttered to herself softly, "I'm very uncomfortable, my heart hurts like being squeezed. I'm sorry for making you laugh at me. But I don't have the energy Comfort you because I'm also upset, hurt, and watched. I close my eyes and I can see the same story for so many years repeating itself. It makes me even more unbearable. You annoy me, but don't ignore it I, I'm already very..."

Her thin body shivered in the wind.Her voice was calm and her emotions were stable, but her body reacted faster than her consciousness.She was trembling and her face was as white as a ghost, but she didn't know it.

"What do you want?" Shen Yan interrupted her.

"I think," the cold wind surged, and Liu Ling raised her dazed, water-stained eyes. The wind choked her so hard that she couldn't cough, but she still finished the sentence in a trembling voice, "I, I want something nice."

Shen Yan nodded and said to her, "I see, you can go back."

"..." Liu Ling was a little dazed, she looked carefully at Shen Yan's face, and felt that he didn't seem to be annoying her anymore, so she turned around in doubt.

"Wait, I'll see you off." Shen Yan said again.

Liu Ling made sure in a daze: Shen Meiren really seems to be angry with her?
No one spoke all the way.

Liu Ling uneasily denied herself, and Shen Yan was also thinking about the conversation with Lu Mingshan earlier.

The young master smiled and said, "Master Shen, do you think that Ah Ling really likes you? Haven't you noticed that you and I are very similar in certain moments? The scar you have now is the same as mine. Dao Lei mole, the location is exactly the same. Mrs. Shen, who do you think Ah Ling is thinking about when she is looking at you?"

Shen Yan's face was slightly pale, and his figure was hidden in the darkness, so that the other party could not see his expression, and could only hear his low voice, "What do you mean by telling me this?"

"Master Shen, you have known A Ling not long ago. You don't know that she is very capricious sometimes. She is a little girl with an unstable temperament, and it will be over after playing. What is your relationship with her? What is the relationship between her and me? What's the relationship? It's because Ah Ling loves me so much that she found you, you and I both know that."

Shen Yan said annoyedly, "What on earth are you going to say?"

"Master Shen, you don't like my A-Ling that much, why don't you get together and get together, can you let A-Ling go?"

Shen Yan was silent for a long time.

When the other party thought it was possible, Shen Yan raised his head and smiled, seemingly indifferently, but his tone was determined, "I really won't let go."

"……you!"

Now, Shen Yan was thinking, how similar is he to Lu Mingshan, that made Liu Ling's heart flutter at the first sight of him, and his stalking at the second?
Liu Ling was depressed.

Dark emotions were devouring her, and she couldn't see those beautiful things, so life was very difficult.

When she arrived at the house and entered the door, she was not even in the mood to say goodbye to Shen Yan.

Her shoulders were suddenly held down by the person behind her, and in doubt, she was turned over and leaned against the door wall.Shen Yan didn't speak, just leaned over and held her in his arms, and in the dim light, he kissed the corner of her mouth.She leaned back, her body was leaning against the wall, her head was crushed without warning.The cold moonlight rippling in Shen Yan's eyes, he is still so charming.

--what do you want?
- I want something beautiful.

--I see.

So, he kissed her.

(End of this chapter)