My Master Jinyiwei

Chapter 39

In the evening, Liu Ling went to find Shen Yan again.

This has almost become her daily habit.

No matter how many words she has spoken to Shen Yan throughout the day, whether Shen Yan treats her well or not, every night when she rests, Liu Ling will change into new clothes with decals, yellow combs and new hair, dressed brightly and attractively, like a peacock, Go to Jin Yiwei, swaying gracefully, and flirt with Mr. Shen.

In the beginning, Jin Yiwei always stopped him, fearing that the princess would spy on the secrets and affect the business.After a long time, Mr. Shen got used to it, and they naturally got used to it too.

Shen Yan was busy with Jin Yiwei's affairs for nearly two hours.Liu Ling waited for him without any impatience, brushed her beautiful hair, and kept up with Shen Yan's pace, her clothes completely rumpled by the wind.

Shen Yan entered her room, and Liu Ling followed.Without looking at her, he picked up a peach from the fruit plate on the table and threw it behind him.Liu Ling was in a hurry to catch it, but fortunately, the direction and strength of the opponent's throw were too accurate, and the peach just landed in her arms.She was pleasantly surprised, "For me?"

Shen Yan said, "Of course not, it was just a shaking of the hand."

Liu Ling hugged Tao Zi tightly in her arms, watching Master Shen put down the thick curtain, turned to the screen and changed the medicine.

What an arrogant and coquettish person.

She smiled silently.

Liu Ling followed and walked in, took out the best healing medicine from her bosom and gave it to him, "I'll give you the medicine."

She saw him standing in front of the hanger, taking off his clothes, the bandage on his arm was oozing blood.She trembled, just looking at the blood-stained situation made her startled, but Shen Yan showed no expression at all, as if she was peeling off a piece of skin that did not belong to her, she lightly tore off the bandage that was stuck to the flesh and blood down.

Liu Ling helped him calmly, turning out the water wine and cotton wool.

The two were speechless for a while.

Liu Ling was in a state of confusion, she thought that her words and deeds in the afternoon had hurt Shen Yan.

When facing Lu Mingshan's matter, she tried her best to be calm, but it was inevitable that she would be impulsive.Shen Yan was there, but she agreed to go climbing with Lu Mingshan.Shen Yan didn't say a word at that time, like a stranger, he didn't intervene in the love-hate relationship between her, Lu Mingshan and Yue Ling at all.As soon as the play was over, he turned around and left.

Liu Ling must have a clear discussion with Lu Mingshan.She has never had the courage to discuss everything with Lu Mingshan face to face, and make a deal.When the matter came to the fore, she had to suppress her shameful bad temper and explain everything to Lu Mingshan.She can't just talk here - the situation here is completely under Jin Yiwei's control.Liu Ling didn't want Shen Yan to be more embarrassed.

Shen Yan is understandable.

So he wasn't involved at all.

Even when Yue Ling was hysterical at the beginning and asked Liu Ling to hand over the Lingbi, Shen Yan just watched from the sidelines, and had no intention of making decisions for Liu Ling at all.

But even if everything is clear in my heart, such emotions cannot be hidden, such as discomfort, discomfort, and anger.

Liu Ling laughed at herself again: it was indeed her fault that Mr. Shen was involved before everything was settled.

The wind came in through the window, shaking the candles, the two people in the room had their own thoughts, and the atmosphere was a little stiff.

"I was wrong, I'm sorry." Liu Ling said.

Shen Yan's complexion changed suddenly, he pushed Liu Ling away, got up and walked out, but before he could go out, he couldn't help but bent over and covered his mouth, and spat out a mouthful of blood.Let Liu Ling, who was following closely behind, see clearly.

"..." Liu Ling's face turned pale. She knew she was terrible, but she was already so bad that Lord Shen would feel nauseous just listening to her?
When Shen Yan looked back and saw Liu Ling's expression, she knew that she was thinking too much.He hesitated and was about to speak, but Liu Ling was faster than him.

She took a step forward and handed her clean plain veil to Mr. Shen to wipe off the blood.She lowered her head, with teardrops on her eyelashes, and murmured, "It's my fault that I hurt you so much. I didn't know that I was so bad and made you so angry... Shen Yan, it's better, it's better, we still... ..."

Stop it.

She made Shen Yan feel so uncomfortable.

He was so good to her.

Although she is selfish, she also knows that she should not hurt him, hurting him over and over again.

Since she and Shen Yan met, she did not do anything for Shen Yan, but Shen Yan endured her many times.

He should be proud, he should be cold, he should be dismissive.But for her, Shen Yan has already taken many steps back.

And she is a person abandoned by fate.

With her, there is always bad luck, hardship and bitterness.Even if she doesn't like Shen Yan, she shouldn't pull Chen Yan to accompany her to fall, let alone she likes Shen Yan.

If it's broken then, maybe Mr. Shen won't be in such a difficult situation like now.

But Liu Ling's throat was dry and hoarse, and those few words weighed as much as a thousand catties, it was difficult for her to say them.

Another thought whispered: If Shen Yan also leaves and doesn't accompany her anymore, maybe she really can't hold on any longer.

Liu Ling's tears fell down.

She cried silently, and the eyebrows on her face did not change a little.Shen Yan didn't look down at her, and really couldn't see that she was crying silently.

He looked at her for a long time, and finally sighed, holding her in his arms.His arm was injured, and he was a little tired from holding her, so he went to the bed and sat down, letting the girl sit on his lap, "How about us? You obviously don't want to, why do you want to say it? You don't even cry... You, me," he smiled helplessly, stretched out his fingertips, and gently wiped away the tears on her face, "what should I say?"

Liu Ling thought: How do I know what you should say?
Shen Yan pondered for a while, "Liu Ling, don't cry, you cry to the point where my heart is broken, and there is nothing I can do."

"..." Goosebumps trembled all over his body, and all of them popped out.Such an affectionate sentence can be recited by Mr. Shen calmly, like a soul-invigorating spell.

Liu Ling was frightened, her tears were withdrawn all of a sudden, and her sad emotions were infected a little bit.She stared at Shen Yan with wet eyes, and couldn't find the mood to cry anymore.

She didn't cry often, and he didn't comfort people much.Liu Ling was very adaptable, and Shen Yan was also very ordinary.It seems that somewhere, nothing is surprising.When the two of them are together, there is nothing to worry about.He doesn't mention her weaknesses, and she doesn't play the poor little girl who has to be coaxed and coaxed with sugar to laugh through tears.

"Stop crying?" Shen Yan understood.

Liu Ling hugged his neck without saying a word.Accustomed to putting on an arrogant iceberg face, she was unwilling to face Shen Yan with a weak and weak image.

Only then did Shen Yan speak slowly, "You were crying too fast just now, I didn't have time to say, in fact, I vomited blood because I didn't eat properly and caused stomach bleeding."

Liu Ling was stunned, and blinked, in Master Shen's see-through eyes, acting as if she had suddenly realized.She wanted to say something again, and then she heard Shen Yan continue to whisper, "Of course, it doesn't mean that you are crying for no reason - after all, it doesn't mean that my vomiting blood has nothing to do with you."

"..." Liu Ling felt that Shen Yan was playing tricks on her again.

True or false, she was always confused about Shen Meiren's true intentions.

But this time, she was not in a hurry to guess.

Liu Ling's wet tears wet Shen Yan's neck, and her warm breath sprayed on his neck.She frowned, worried and calm, "Shen Yan, I can cook for you every day, you can't always skip meals." Perhaps only her indifference to his teasing face can force Mr. Shen to condescend.

Shen Yan looked at her in surprise for a moment.

Liu Ling is a person who doesn't like talking too much, hates worrying about others, but likes to make trouble for herself.

She knew Shen Yan's bad habits, he was very picky about eating, and the result of being picky was that he didn't touch anything casually, anyway, it was rare to find something suitable for him outside.She mentioned it to Shen Yan twice, and after Shen Yan perfunctory twice, Liu Ling stopped talking.It was as if this problem didn't exist, since Shen Yan didn't take it seriously, Liu Ling didn't bother to care about him.

But now, Liu Ling has actually changed her lifeless habit for him. Lingxi Lingbi mentioned to Shen Yan that the only thing Liu Ling has thought about for others after all these years is to rescue Lu Mingshan when he had a brain convulsion. back home.

She lives like a pool of stagnant water, she doesn't want people to expect anything from her, and she never expects others.

Now, she is changing her habit.For whom, it goes without saying.

Shen Yan felt a little uncomfortable.

Liu Ling always felt that she didn't pay anything for him, and she didn't do anything for him.She always apologized to him, but she had already paid a lot, but she didn't know it and didn't care.

Without warning, he changed the subject, "Liu Ling, do you like me?"

"I don't like you. I look for you every day to talk about my ideals in life? Do you think you are worthy?" Liu Ling's tone has always been not very pleasant.

"Then have you thought about how I feel when you and Lu Mingshan made an agreement in front of me in the afternoon?"

"……I was wrong."

"No, you're not wrong. You don't want me to be caught in the middle. You want to end this relationship with him completely. But you don't explain it to me. If you don't explain it, I will misunderstand it and think you still can't let it go. .Once a misunderstanding occurs, I will feel uncomfortable, and you will also fall into pain. And you must know that all tragedies often start from misunderstandings..."

"Well, you're right." Liu Ling was stunned, and when he looked down at her, she put on a clear and supportive look, but she was thinking in her heart: What nonsense is he talking about?It's a long story, I'm so sleepy, I don't quite understand it, and I feel a little sleepy after hearing it...

"So, my view of feelings is different from yours. We need to communicate again." Shen Yan made a conclusion, then pulled Liu Ling, who was almost hypnotized, to see off the guests, "It's getting late, let's continue the discussion when we have time , you go back first."

continue the discussion?When will we continue?

"..." Being pushed to the door, Liu Ling was silent for a long time, and raised her head expressionlessly, "After all, Mr. Shen just suggested that I should not have a 'meet' with Lu Mingshan tomorrow. Even if I have an appointment, I should still Mr. Shen makes an appointment first, and then it's his turn."

At this time, they had already walked to the door, opened the door, and their conversation was heard by the maid waiting outside.The maids looked at each other with unbelievably confused expressions: Mr. Shen and the princess' powerful brain circuits are not in the same world as them.I don't understand how the princess came to this conclusion at all, Master Shen still showed a tacit expression.

Shen Yan said indifferently, "I didn't say that." He closed the door.

Liu Ling retreated quickly, and was not knocked on the nose by Mr. Shen's door.Thinking of Shen Meiren's calm face, Liu Ling raised her eyebrows and turned back.

She thought she knew how to make Shen Meiren happy.

As for Lu Mingshan?
No appointment, no appointment.

Who cares if he is angry.

In the second half of the night, everything was extremely quiet, and Shen Yan was also falling asleep.He didn't sleep deeply. When he heard footsteps outside the door, he opened his eyes and got up as quickly as a night cat.After listening to it a few more times, his drowsiness completely dissipated, and he went to open the door. Seeing Liu Ling in the shape of a female ghost, he stretched out his hand to knock on his door.Seeing him take the initiative to open the door, Liu Ling was not particularly surprised.

"New female ghost, who are you going to scare to death by going out?" Shen Yan sighed and pulled her in.No wonder Shen Yan teased her, but it was actually Liu Ling with black hair and white clothes, holding a brocade box in her arms, and her face was as frosty as silver.She was too cold, and her eyes were dark and cold.It was foggy at night, and she was walking on the road, her white clothes fluttering, as if she was floating.

Shen Yan said that she is a "female ghost", which is very appropriate.

Liu Ling said, "I asked someone to inquire. After Yue Ling had a miscarriage, they only cared about raising Yue Ling's body. Yue Ling and Lu Mingshan were crying all the time. The one that was aborted... was thrown away like garbage at will. When Lingxi was found, it was already dirty. Since they don’t want it, I’ll ask someone to pick it up, find a suitable place, and bury the child who has nothing to do with them.”

"...Do you know that you are meddling in other people's business? Other parents don't care, but you care even more." Without lighting a candle, Shen Yan leaned against the door and talked to Liu Ling face to face in the clear light outside.He touched her little face, which was still cool from the outside.

"I dreamed of the child who died tragically." Liu Ling didn't change the subject, but went on, "He died innocently, in the gray world, he kept looking at me and crying."

"It's not your fault," Shen Yan said in a low voice, "Yue Ling is his mother. She knows her physical condition, but she argues with Lingbi. When did Lingbi become so powerful? A wave of her hand can kill her." Push people downstairs? Lingxi is also there, what did she say? Liu Ling, this is just Yue Ling's bad intentions, you don't have to take responsibility on yourself."

"I know," Liu Ling was still in a low mood, "but I couldn't sleep, so I had to take the child out to find a home for him. He was abandoned by his biological mother, and he just happened to meet me, the master who protects sinners. Bad luck. I don't care, let him rest in peace."

"So you came to find me?" Shen Yan put his arms around her, and his heart was pressed softly.

She always behaves unreasonably, but actually is soft-hearted intentionally or unintentionally.

Liu Ling in this regard, perhaps only those who are very close to her will know.

If Liu Ling is really as abominable as those people say, and deserves death, how can such simple-minded girls as Lingxi and Lingbi be loyal to her?No one is too blind to tell right from wrong, it just depends on whether you are willing to put your heart into it.

"You are a good girl, don't be sad." Shen Yan brushed her hair away and kissed her on the forehead.

He hugged the brocade box from her arms, knowing that it must be the sad child inside.Shen Yan was quiet for a moment, and under Liu Ling's gaze of "tell me what to do", she raised her head and frowned at her, "Liu Ling, let's climb the mountain and find a place for him to sleep peacefully, and watch the sunrise by the way?"

It was still early in the morning, and the two of them seemed to be out of their minds. One floated over like a ghost, and the other enthusiastically proposed to watch the sunrise.The ghost-like one raised his eyebrows, not afraid of being exposed by the sunlight, "Okay, let's go."

Shen Yan rubbed her hair as a reminder, "Your agreement with Lu Mingshan..."

"There is no specific time." Liu Ling didn't care at all.

Shen Yan looked at her and smiled.

Liu Ling looked at him presumptuously and directly, causing Shen Yan's expression to turn pale, and she couldn't keep laughing, "Let's go."

Both of them are activists. When they said they were going to climb a mountain, they prepared water bags and biscuits.Don't need anything else, the mountain climbing map is the atmosphere.

And no one knows about all this, Jin Yiwei can't find out Shen Yan's whereabouts, and the maids who were abandoned by the Changle Princess are still sitting in a brightly lit room drinking water and yawning: The Princess doesn't want them to follow, according to the Princess Her fault must be to go to Master Shen, thinking that they disturbed her being alone with Master Shen.Mr. Shen is such a stable person, he will definitely send the princess back safely.

They just didn't expect that such a trustworthy person as Shen Yan would take the initiative to abduct their princess to climb the mountain!
Liu Ling followed Shen Yan up the mountain road.

The road is not smooth, with potholes and bumps. Shen Yan often needs to support Liu Ling to take the next step.Sometimes there is only a narrow road, and the road spirals upwards, erratic as if stepping on the clouds, and the next step is not sure where the foothold will be.

They were not walking fast, and they were all looking at their surroundings.Liu Ling's purpose was to find a shelter for the child in the brocade box, and Shen Yan's purpose was... She guessed that he was used to scouting, and when he saw places he hadn't been to, he used to want to find out.

In fact, Shen Yan was looking to see if there were any traps and ambushes nearby.

Lu Mingshan wanted to take Liu Ling to climb the mountain, but he didn't trust Lu Mingshan.But Shen Yan didn't want to care about the affairs between Lu Mingshan and Liu Ling.He didn't express his opinion out of his respect for Liu Ling.But at the same time, he also wanted to protect Liu Ling's safety.

Shen Yan had always planned to come up the mountain in advance, and bringing Liu Ling here was just a temporary whim.

Halfway up the mountain, Liu Ling finally found a proper place to bury the brocade box.It was only then that they were dumbfounded to realize that they didn't bring shovels or anything like that to dig the soil.Liu Ling's eyes naturally looked at the Xiuchun knife on Shen Yan's waist.

Shen Yan's face was as black as ink: Did anyone use the Xiuchun knife to dig the soil?
Liu Ling sighed, squatted down, and dug the soil by herself.It wasn't long before she squatted down before her hands got soiled, Shen Yan pulled her away and squatted down by herself, his embroidered spring knife also came in handy.

Standing behind the young man, Liu Ling's eyes were bent, and her emotions were naturally revealed, making her fly towards his back.Fortunately, Shen Yan's foot was steady, and she was not knocked down by her stroke of genius.

Shen Yan said coolly, "Are you crazy again?"

"No," Liu Ling leaned forward and kissed him, her lips fell on his cheek, she didn't care about Master Shen's harsh words, "I think you are really kind."

"I've always been good." Shen Yan was not very moved by her flattery.

Liu Ling couldn't help wanting to kiss him even more, so she leaned on his back, held his face in her hands and kissed him indiscriminately, and deliberately splashed her saliva on his face.

Shen Yan's hands were full of dirt, and he couldn't bear it anymore, "If you do this again, I will throw you down."

"You are reluctant." Liu Ling smiled and hugged him even tighter.

After settling the child down, Liu Ling seemed to breathe a sigh of relief, and Shen Yan could clearly feel that she was much more relaxed.The sky is no longer as dark as it was just now, and there is a faint light of dawn, disturbing the green sea across the vast distance between the sky and the earth.

There is a lot of fog, shuttle in the boundless green sea, listen to unknown insects and birds, and watch unknown flowers bloom and leaves fall.Everything is in a vigorous and cool color, taking a breath, the internal organs also feel moist and gentle, very comfortable.They walk here, in this green and gray place.The faint clear light shone, and the stars and the moon were far away. Shen Yan took her hand, passed the wind through the curtain, and walked straight towards the place where the sun rose.

People can't help but think of such a beautiful word "eternal".

Liu Ling doesn't believe in "eternity", but such a word still makes her feel hot.

"Master Shen, from now on, every time we turn a corner, let's talk about our feelings, okay?"

Without waiting for Shen Yan to refuse, she took a quick step forward and turned onto the path that just appeared.She looked back at him with a dazed and peaceful expression, "Shen Yan, I believe that every encounter is predestined."

"Love at first sight?" Shen Yan followed her, "You fell in love with me at first sight?"

"No, I don't believe in love at first sight. Love at first sight is all about faces. I'm not such a superficial person."

Shen Yan didn't want to talk about her: Are you not shallow enough?

Liu Ling pretended not to notice his indifference, "Love is not maintained by beautiful encounters."

Shen Yan stopped laughing, and he listened to her continue.Liu Ling was not joking, she was telling him about her emotional world seriously, no one had ever really entered into her world, and now she is willing to tell him.

She told him a lot.

She felt that meeting was destined, but love had to be managed.Meeting just means that God has given you this opportunity, whether you want it in the future, whether you are willing to go on, depends on yourself.It is very pitiful to wait for love to come without fighting for it.

Shen Yan didn't speak, and listened to her quietly.Occasionally, the road was not going well, she was tripped, and he reached out to help her.Even so, she only needs his support, and doesn't like him teaching her how to walk or how to climb mountains.Shen Yan thought, Liu Ling should be a very confident person, she should be full of hope in life, she should be high-spirited.In fact, she was a gray person, trembling, covered in wind, frost and dust.

He still wanted to hear more from her, but he had already reached the next corner.Liu Ling shut up and listened to Shen Yan.

Shen Yan thought for a while, "Emotional view? I think that when two people get along, one should not always give. Always give, this is unequal."

Liu Ling was stunned, "Isn't it good to keep giving? I like him, I am willing to do everything for him, help him bear everything, and give without complaint or regret. Why is it unequal? ​​Not good?"

"When I was your age, I thought so too. Giving and sacrificing seem to be praiseworthy qualities. But now I feel that only one party is like this, but it's just paranoid. It's the biggest harm to love and feelings. "

Shen Yan looked indifferent.

However, Liu Ling has just discovered the tip of the iceberg of his world.

"Who did you love?" she asked.

Shen Yan smiled, "No."

"Who ever loved you?"

"No."

"...Then who did you do this for, but let the other party suffer." Liu Ling thought.

Shen Yan didn't deny it, but stopped Liu Ling before she wanted to ask, "Are we going to discuss my relationship history?"

Liu Ling stopped talking.He didn't discuss her and Lu Mingshan's past with him, and she didn't discuss his past with him either.This is respect for each other.Many things are not suitable for face-to-face discussion, which is embarrassing.

Liu Ling understood a little bit, she wanted to pay for Shen Yan, and Shen Yan saw this, so she made it clear to her.

That's fine.

Love is a matter of two people, and they should be open and honest.

As Shen Yan said, she and Shen Yan took completely different paths, and their worlds seemed to have no intersection at all.It seems that Shen Yan intends to develop in Jinyiwei for a long time. If so, his personnel relationship needs to be simple and clear.It is best for him not to touch anything related to conflicts of interest.However, the personnel entanglement on Liu Ling's side is very complicated.

In fact, the front was completely dark, and Liu Ling walked on bravely. She didn't see any so-called hope.

But looking at Shen Yan beside her, and seeing his calm profile, Liu Ling thought again: Forget it, being with him is already an extravagant wish, and I don't want any more hopes.

Just keep walking in the dark.

There is always the moment when you reach the top, and there is always the moment when the sun bursts out.

Shen Yan and Liu Ling stood at the highest point of the mountain and took a step forward. The sea of ​​clouds was surging and the flying fog filled the air.Rolling in, like the tide of time, there is no bottom to the eye.

The red sun is submerged on the edge of the sea of ​​clouds.It was pushed up by huge energy, and the light of the day gradually dyed the whole sky red.Fiery red, flaming red, intense red, wrapped around the red sun, broke through the clouds.

Liu Ling gazed at the direction of the rising sun with fascination, "Shen Yan, meeting is destined, but falling in love is not. It is my hard work."

The clouds and mist rolled around her feet, and she couldn't see anything underneath. She couldn't bear the temptation and wanted to move forward.

Shen Yan said, "Does this charm of having nothing under your feet fascinate you?"

Liu Ling didn't speak.They all know the answer.

She waited for Shen Yan to criticize her, like everyone else.But what attracted her to Shen Yan was precisely his uniqueness and incomparable beauty.

Shen Yan grabbed her wrist and led her forward, "Come with me."

"Shen Yan?"

"Follow me."

There was an abyss ahead, and he led her forward.He took her hand and made her forget the fascination of death.He seemed to bring her down, and she trusted him unconditionally.

He took her from the abyss to an unknown world where Yunfei, Sunrise and everything she liked were there.Even in the bottomless void beneath his feet, he took her through——

The two sat next to each other on the edge of the cliff, and it was very windy here.She was warmed by the fingertips held by him, and her chest felt thumping.They sat and looked ahead, watching the clouds roll up and the sun rise, and let their feet dangle on the edge of the cliff.

The sun flew completely out of that cloud, and it was magnificent.In an instant, the golden light illuminated the sky and the earth, and the entire mountain cloud was shrouded in its vastness, so solemn that it was speechless.

In the early morning, birds flew out from among the pines, flapped their wings, and flew towards the direction of the sun.

Liu Ling turned her head to look at Shen Yan's golden eyebrows, "From now on, every time a bird flies higher than us, I will give you a kiss."

The first bird flies by.

She leaned forward and kissed the corner of his mouth.

Eyes saw the second flying towards the golden light.

He backed away a little, and leaned forward to kiss again.

A loud bird song awakened the entire mountain forest, the sound of flapping wings filled the sky, and countless birds rushed upwards.

The birds chase the sun, and the world sinks.

Liu Ling and Shen Yan's lips and teeth were intertwined, and they didn't know each other.He supported the ground with one hand, and hugged her waist with the other.She leaned forward, lifted his chin with her hand, and kissed him forgetfully.

The bottom is the abyss, and the red sun is rising above the head.And they're so close.

At this time, Lu Mingshan was waiting for the appointment with the princess, his expression was extremely ugly under the eyes of everyone.

(End of this chapter)