My Master Jinyiwei

Chapter 66

"Master Shen, can you do me a favor? You see, the princess has the highest status here, if you don't help her to greet her, who will greet her?"

"Master Shen, you are the only one who can sit at the same table with the Princess."

Being entangled by several subordinates, the groom was so drunk that he was unconscious, Shen Yan stood among the crowd and was asked for help.He reluctantly agreed, and when he turned around, he saw Princess Changle sitting quietly in front of the table, raised his hand, and rubbed the center of his brows, feeling a little stuffy in his chest, as if he was instantly overwhelmed by a heavy object.

There are many figures, the lights are dim, and the streamer is wandering.Amidst the excitement and congratulations, Shen Yan and Liu Ling sat at the same table.Luo Fan was exaggerating, taking advantage of the large number of people, he just found an opportunity to ask Mr. Shen to accompany the princess.After all, the princess's table was very empty, she sat there, and there was no one who was qualified to sit at the same table with her.

Shen Yan took a seat, right next to her.When his shadow came over, Liu Ling was a little nervous. She clenched her cold hands and tried several times before picking up the food in a normal manner. She ate with her head down, but she couldn't even taste the food.All Liu Ling's attention was on Shen Yan who was next to her. He put his hands on his lap and raised his hands as his clothes rubbed against each other.Every movement he made was under Liu Ling's downcast eyes.

Shen Yan didn't speak to her.

They are like two strangers, not even interested in talking to each other.

Liu Ling's hands holding the chopsticks trembled, extremely mechanical.She slowly raised her head and looked at him.The young man put down the cup in his hand, and the light shone on his slender neck. She saw his Adam's apple rolling, and swallowed the wine.

Shen Yan didn't eat, only drank.

Liu Ling was silent, and gently pushed the dish next to him in his direction.His arms were straight, but his eyes were straight, he didn't look down at her, and of course he didn't accept Liu Ling's kindness.

"Princess, I heard that you are leaving Beijing tomorrow?" The air here is too dull and embarrassing, and everyone around has noticed it.How could such a good wedding banquet be made like a funeral?Luo Fan and a few brothers immediately laughed to liven up the atmosphere, but at the same time they felt apprehensive, lest the princess would ignore them.

"Yeah." Although Liu Ling responded indifferently, she did respond after all.

Luo Fan was overjoyed, and finally found a topic, "Then tomorrow morning, a few brothers and I will go to the gate of the city to see off the Princess, shall we? Anyway, everyone is in trouble together." Turning to ask the young man who was pouring a glass of wine and drinking alone , winking, "Sir Shen, will you take a rest tomorrow? Do you want to see the princess off with your subordinates?"

Liu Ling looked over, and Shen Yan lowered her brows with a calm expression.Others talked enthusiastically with her, but he was not interested at all.

Liu Ling thought of the last words he said to her: Liu Ling, don't mess with me——I won't give you a second chance.

So, he doesn't want to talk to her anymore?
Liu Ling tilted her head and said in a low voice, "Master Shen is busy with affairs, so I may not have time to see you off, so don't bother."

Shen Yan's figure suddenly froze, his arms froze again, and the muscles on his face twisted.He vaguely thought of what Liu Ling had said to him. She said that she didn't want to love him anymore because he was always busy and had no time.

He remembered it perfectly.

A dull pain in the heart.

Stomach is also uncomfortable.

Liu Ling looked at his face, and he closed his eyes, not looking at her.So whether he was in pain, anger, or sadness, she couldn't tell at all.

The atmosphere started to get dull again.

A Jin Yiwei was anxious to find a topic, and laughed, "I heard that the princess is married? With that Yigu country...uh!" He was bumped hard by Luo Fan's back elbow, and the other party gave him a wink, making him pale instantly when he saw the princess look at Master Shen...

I can't stand this look anymore.

Shen Yan stood up abruptly, which shocked everyone and made way unconsciously.He said indifferently, "I have something to do, let me go."

Liu Ling then got up and watched him walk past her without looking back.Liu Ling wanted to catch up, but she moved two steps and stopped again. She sat down again, looking at the cold dishes on the table and the empty cup that was placed in front of Shen Yan before.She reached out to touch the glass he drank from before, and said silently, "Give me some more wine."

"Princess..." The maids who had been following behind yelled in disapproval, but did not stop them.

Luo Fan and the other guards in Jinyi looked at each other with a heavy heart: What is this?
When Luo Fan finally found Shen Yan, Shen Yan was sitting by the corner of a room with three or four jugs of wine in hand.When Luo Fan touched it, the jug was empty.Look at Mr. Shen again, with one hand on his knee and one leg stretched out.He is tall and tall, sitting casually and casually.After drinking so much wine, his eyes are still clear, his pupils are dark, and he can't see the drunkenness.

However, when Mr. Shen was drunk, he never seemed to be drunk.

Luo Fan sat aside and sighed, "Lord Shen, are you sure you don't want to go back and take a look? You are here drinking to relieve your worries, and the princess is also drinking there... Many people went up to stop it, but they couldn't stop it. The princess loses her temper, crying and laughing, Mr. Shen, why don't you go and have a look?"

Shen Yan's drooping long eyelashes trembled slightly.

He looked up and looked at the bright moon in the sky.There is silver light pouring everywhere, the roof is silvery white, and it is as bright as falling frost.He sat quietly, watching the flowers and trees in the courtyard wither and the maple leaves blaze.Suddenly, under the blue-black sky, those things seemed to exist forever.

He thought of Liu Ling.

She looked at him coldly, and her white clothes flew like frost.

Shen Yan felt like having a headache, her shoulders drooped.

Open your eyes and close your eyes, it's all about that person.

The letter Xu Shijin wrote to him, what he saw with his own eyes... He was always thinking about her.

Shen Yan asked, "Xiao Luo, what kind of person do you think Liu Ling is?"

"Huh?" Luo Fan was taken aback for a moment, and replied cautiously, "A very beautiful girl?"

"anything else?"

"He has a bad temper, but he has a good heart."

"How do you know she has a good heart?"

"Of course, at the beginning, the subordinates had some opinions on the princess, and they were a little ignorant of the etiquette. The princess has never punished the subordinates."

"anything else?"

"Also, tonight," Luo Fan looked carefully at Shen Yan, "the Princess probably doesn't want to talk to us, right? But Mr. Shen, if you sit there, the Princess treats us as yours and is very polite to us." The subordinates could see that she was upset, but she didn't yell at them."

"Heh." Shen Yan smiled.The smile is faint, as light as smoke.

He was thinking about Liu Ling.

Xu Shijin told him everything, Xu Shijin asked him to think about Liu Ling's situation, Xu Shijin said that Liu Ling didn't do it on purpose, Xu Shijin wanted to use this to negotiate a deal with him...he didn't want to reply, he was too lazy to reply.He Shen Yan is cold and straightforward, and he is relentless.If you miss it, never look back.Lost, never regret.

Every time he heard news from Liu Ling, he didn't want to hear it.

He felt like a fool, being manipulated by her.

He bowed to her, gave her trust, and helped her unconditionally.

His pride and dignity did not allow him to look back.He gritted his teeth, he didn't want to take care of Liu Ling's affairs at all, he didn't want to hear about Liu Ling at all, and he didn't even want to meet Liu Ling.

He would never allow his dignity to be trampled on again and again for a woman.She loves as much as she wants, leaves as she wants, and doesn't want to... What does she think of him?
He didn't want to have anything to do with Liu Ling at all.

But Shen Yan thought about that girl all the time.

Shen Yan looked at the ice wheel hanging in the air and said softly, "Do you know what she likes?"

"..."

"She likes the buzz, she likes the crowd. She likes to dress up, show off, bicker. And she likes... me."

"Do you know what she hates?"

"..."

"She hates the hustle and bustle. She hates the crowds. She hates being groomed all day, getting new clothes and not being noticed, hating people seeing her possessions being taken. She hates me always ignoring her."

"She often dresses up brightly and changes her clothes more than a dozen times a day in front of me, just to attract my attention. Every gift I give her, she cherishes it like life, takes care of it carefully, and is reluctant to part with any of them. She will pretend to be wronged, pretend to be Angry, but she doesn't cry in front of me. In fact, who doesn't like to cry when she's so old? I always look at her, look at her, look at her..."

The clear moonlight shone on Shen Yan's eyes.Luo Fan looked at him, vaguely felt that there was water in his eyes, so bright and so dark.

"Master Shen..." Luo Fan didn't know what to say.

Shen Yan turned her head to the side, and smiled softly, the laughter was cold and filled with sadness.He jumped off the roof.

"Master Shen!" Luo Fan stood up and saw Shen Yan walking towards the noisy front hall.He was at a loss, and then sad.

Luo Fan thought, Mr. Shen must really like the Princess very much.

He never thought that Mr. Shen is deeply affectionate.

"Master Shen..." At the banquet, the Princess Lingxi Lingbi was holding a glass of wine, helpless, at a loss, saw Shen Yan coming back with sharp eyes, and suddenly had a backbone.

Shen Yan saw Liu Ling drinking by herself, drinking one cup after another.He walked up to her and sat down, but she didn't respond.She is already drunk.

Lingxi Lingbi wanted to ask Master Shen to persuade the Princess, but Shen Yan sat aside and started drinking too.The two women were speechless, they glanced at each other, but because of Master Shen's power, they dared not go over to persuade them anymore.

While Shen Yan was drinking, she suddenly felt a hand touch his leg under the table.He lowered his eyes for a look, then raised his eyelids, and looked at Liu Ling who was staggering from drinking next to him.The little girl lay there paralyzed, her cheeks were flushed, her eyes were moist, and she couldn't tell the difference between east, west, north, east, and west, and she looked stupid.

But her hand touched him under the table, the touch was light and soft, as sultry as the spring breeze.

Shen Yan felt strange.

Princess Changle is almost self-taught in this respect.

Shen Yan glanced at her, wanting to get up, so as not to be entangled with the drunkard.He was about to stand up, but his foot was stepped on, and it hurt.Looking down again, he was speechless for a moment, it turned out that Liu Ling leaned forward and stepped on his feet, stepping on him like a playful.

Shen Yan couldn't help scolding, "Liu Ling! Let go!" Not only the feet, but also the hands were taken away.

Liu Ling turned her head and looked at him, her eyes were as clear as rain, she seemed to recognize him after looking at him for a long time, she smiled lightly, "Master Shen, you finally talked to me..." She seemed to feel aggrieved, she blinked, The water mist filled the air and was about to drip in an instant.

She leaned over to him and murmured, "Why don't you talk to me? I'm leaving soon. Are you really ignoring me anymore?"

Shen Yan stared at her, it was hard to tell whether she was really drunk or pretending to be crazy by drinking.He couldn't see it, so he turned his head away.His legs, Liu Ling's hands fumbled up and down, as nimble as a little snake.Shen Yan's body was stiff, and he grabbed her hand under the table, not allowing her to move any more.

He finds it ridiculous: what is this?
He raised his head and told the maid, "She is drunk, take her back."

Shen Yan's order, Lingxi Lingbi and other women really dare not disobey.Although there were criticisms, he insisted on taking the princess away.Liu Ling didn't want to leave and made a fuss, but was finally taken away by Yang Ye and other guards who rushed over to prevent her from being ashamed again.Shen Yan sat in the same place from the beginning to the end, silently watching Liu Ling leave.Unconsciously, he picked up the chopsticks and picked up a chopsticks dish.

The maid who came to close the order was stunned for a moment, hesitated to speak, "Master Shen, what you took... are the chopsticks used by the Princess. May I change a pair for you?"

Did Liu Ling use chopsticks?
Shen Yanjing said for a long time, "No need." He took a bite of the dish, stared at the chopsticks in his hand, and showed a self-deprecating smile for a long time.

He lowered his head, feeling hopeless and sad.

What is he like?

No dignity.

The next day, when Liu Ling woke up, it was already afternoon.King Guangping was very dissatisfied with her delay, but at the request of the princess, he agreed to wait for Liu Ling until the afternoon.As soon as Liu Ling woke up, she was scolded by King Guangping to pack her luggage and prepare to leave.Liu Ling never listened to her father's words, and the two had a big quarrel.Liu Ling succeeded in getting Guangping Wang and his wife away, and then slowly packed her luggage.

In the evening, the servants packed up and left Yejing with Princess Changle.

I thought what I said last night was a joke, but Liu Ling didn't expect that she was actually in the outskirts of the city, and saw the Jinyi guards who came to see her off.A row of handsome men in flying fish suits stood there, the scenery was unique and very attractive.Luo Fan smiled and blessed her on behalf of everyone, wishing her peace and happiness.

Liu Ling's eyes were moist: she had never accepted kindness from outsiders.

Liu Ling wanted to express her kindness and talk to Jin Yiwei.When she looked up, she saw Shen Yan behind Jin Yiwei.He was giving Ma Shun Mao, with his back to Liu Ling.But that slender and straight figure stood like a sword piercing into the sky, how could Liu Ling misjudge it?
Surprised and delighted, she stared intently at the young man's back.

Sensing her gaze, Shen Yan turned her head and looked at Liu Ling.He didn't say anything, and he didn't come up. Seeing the Jinyi guards talking to Liu Ling one after another, he just glanced lightly and then looked away.

"Shen Yan." Liu Ling walked towards him and stood behind him.

He turned and looked down at her.

He was calm and breezy, but she wasn't too excited to die.

Liu Ling saw Shen Yan raised her head slowly, his hand landed on her face, lightly brushed the hair flying from her cheek, and landed on her fair cheek.Liu Ling felt the temperature of his palm, which was dry and warm.

He looked at her quietly with black eyes.

At this moment, it seemed that their previous disputes did not exist.

Unlimited tenderness, infinite sadness.

Liu Ling wanted to relieve the embarrassment between them, "There are no bugs on my face anymore, right?"

Before Liu Ling got well with Shen Yan, every time Shen Yan was moved by her and wanted to touch her, he would tease her, saying that there were bugs in her hair and moths in her clothes.He was so bored that he never made it clear that he just wanted to touch her.

Shen Yan did not follow Liu Ling's words and laughed with her.

He said softly, "You have to take care of yourself."

"..." He was still willing to bless her!Liu Ling couldn't laugh, her eyes were wet all of a sudden, she stared at Shen Yan intently, and said "um" with difficulty, her voice hoarse.

"Don't despair about life, try your best to cure your illness, and don't let it go."

"...Okay." Tears began to well out of her eyes.She lowered her head, feeling her nose sore.

Shen Yan continued, "If you feel that life is difficult, think about your most precious thing and live for it. Don't push yourself to a dead end."

"My most precious thing is you." Liuling murmured without holding back.

Shen Yan looked at her, and slowly withdrew her hand."But we're done," he said.

Liu Ling watched him leave, his back was infinitely elongated in the dusk.Liu Ling's vision was blurred, and she felt that she would never see Shen Yan again.

This person is so good, the thought of losing him makes her die of pain.

Liu Ling had an idea, wanted to go back on his word, wanted to explain to him, wanted to get him back.

It doesn't matter whether other people live or die, she just wants Mr. Shen to come back.

But she knew it was impossible.

What could she do to win him?
Her life is a mess.

Liu Ling covered her eyes with her hands and allowed herself to tremble.

One evening, Liu Ling went to the palace to say goodbye, and when she came out, she met Princess Yi'an.Because of Qin Ning, Princess Yi'an knew about the separation of Liu Ling and Shen Yan, so she asked a few questions out of curiosity.

Princess Yi'an had a half-smile, "It's fine if we split up, but with your appearance and background, you are not worthy of a banquet."

It wasn't the first time that Liu Ling was said that she and Shen Yan were not compatible, but it was the first time that someone said it so directly.

Princess Ke Yi'an said again, "But I support you. I like to see people who don't match come together, blind everyone's eyes, and make everyone's plans come to nothing. If you need anything, just ask me .Your matter is difficult for you, but it is just a word for me. Maybe I am in a good mood and willing to help you?"

Liu Ling asked, "What should I do to be worthy of him?"

"Usually, what people hate, they will become that kind of person," the eldest princess laughed. "Starting today, go and bless you to become that hated person."

Princess Yi'an was just teasing, just gloating, just watching the fun.

But Liu Ling really thought in her heart, what can she do to stand with Shen Yan?

Does she still have that chance?
She thought no.

But vaguely hoping for a turnaround.

After returning to Jiangzhou, Liu Ling received a letter from Xu Shijin.Xu Shijin told her that she had told Shen Yan why Liu Ling regretted the marriage.

Liu Ling's heart was cold: According to the time, before she left Beijing, Shen Yan knew everything.He knew it well, but he still didn't say or do anything.

He must have been extremely disappointed in her.

So don't care about anything.

Thank you Xu Shijin for your kindness, but Liu Ling thought, Shen Yan is such a proud person, he bowed his head for her once, and he would never bow his head for her a second time.He gave her one chance, but he will never give her a second chance.He has already said that he is not hers.

What did she hope for?

Liu Ling stayed in the Guangping Prince's Mansion in Jiangzhou, standing in front of the window every day, staring at the lake in a daze.

Only Liu Runping in the family would come to play with her.After she agreed to Yi Guguo's marriage proposal, Liu Runping returned to Jiangzhou.A child of a few years old was injured before, and no one dared to let him stay with Liu Ling anymore, but he did his own way, and still liked to follow Liu Ling the most, calling "big sister" and "big sister" all day long .

He gave Liu Ling a stagnant life and brought some waves.

She really lived like stagnant water, she was getting more and more depressed day by day, watching the clouds roll and the clouds calm down, she didn't even know where the days ended.

No one contacted her, no one looked for her.She seems to have been forgotten.

Liu Ling thought: After a long time, she will forget about Shen Yan, right?
Forget it.

In November, Liu Ling suddenly received a letter from Xu Shijin.Xu Shijin asked her in the letter: Ah Ling, Shen Yan has been to Jiangzhou and Guangping Palace, have you met him?
Liu Ling looked at the letter and stood there feeling disappointed.

Shen Yan has been to Jiangzhou?Been to Quang Binh Palace?
She has no idea!
Liu Ling got angry, took the letter, rushed out of the courtyard, and asked King Guangping, "Did Shen Yan come here? Why didn't you tell me?!"

King Guangping became furious, "Why should I tell you?! Mr. Shen is talking about business with this king, what does it have to do with you? You are the one who was promised to marry, don't forget your identity, don't cause any scandals for me !" He called someone up, "Take the princess down to rest! Don't let her come out!"

Liu Ling sneered, and glanced at her father: she can go wherever she wants, and do whatever she wants, her father don't try to stop her!
Life has unknowns and doubts, as if there is motivation.

Liu Ling wrote to ask Xu Shijin why Shen Banquet came to Jiangzhou and whether it was related to her.

Through the letter, Liu Ling seemed to be able to see Xu Shijin's casual smile: Master Shen and I have negotiated a big deal, where should we start... Ah Ling, as long as you know that he regrets it, that's fine.

Shen Yan regretted it?
How could he regret it?
Hasn't he always said the same thing?

Liu Ling was at a loss, not knowing what happened.She held the letter and read it over and over again.Xu Shijin didn't tell her clearly, she could only guess.Ms. Xu has a lot of scheming, and it is absolutely impossible to do good deeds unconditionally.She must have negotiated a big deal with Shen Yan, a deal that is not very good for Shen Yan.

Shen Yan...is it for her?

He said he would never give her a second chance.

He said there was nothing more to do between the two of them.

He also said that he never wanted to see her again.

But he regretted it again.

Liu Ling wanted to ask clearly, but she didn't know where to start or whom to ask.

She wanted to write a letter to Shen Yan, but she sat at the desk for several days, still not knowing what to write and where to start.

Should it start from the love affair between her and Shen Yan, or from the night they separated, or talk about the deal between Shen Yan and Xu Shijin, or ask him why he regrets it, and will he see her again?

Is he still willing to love her?
During this period, Liu Ling had several disputes with King Guangping.She wanted to know when Shen Yan came to the palace, whether she was mentioned, and what he talked about with the prince.Guangping Wang sneered, his face was ugly, and he said he had no comment.

In the end, Liu Ling still had nothing to say.She put a blank piece of paper in an envelope, and after sending the letter, she waited every day, feeling uneasy.He was afraid of receiving Shen Yan's reply, and also afraid that he would not understand her letter, so he simply ignored her.

Master Shen still ignores her?
Does he know the thousands of words she can't say?Do you know that she has regretted it, she wants to tell him everything, and wants to beg him?

Just give her a word.

Liu Ling did not wait for Shen Yan's reply.The first thing she waited for was him.

It was already the twelfth lunar month, Liu Runping was mischievous and dragged his sister to the street to buy some fun things.The child ran all the way down the street without a trace, Liu Ling was annoyed by him, and chased him all the way, but couldn't catch up.Her servants were not in a hurry to follow. The Princess only had some energy when she was with the young master. Everyone hoped that the Princess would be happier.

It was in this crowd of people that Liu Ling saw Shen Yan.

Liu Runping took what he wanted, but didn't pay for it, leaving Liu Ling annoyed, and followed behind to pay the vendor.Liu Ling turned her head unconsciously and saw the figure of Shen Yan in the crowd.

She froze for a moment.

Chuxue fell silently, landing on his eyebrows and shoulders.

When she saw him, she became dizzy all of a sudden.As if the snowflakes are dancing, time has been mottled.Ahead is a future with no hope in sight, and her lover standing on the boundary between darkness and light, her unswerving love that will never die.

Vaguely, Liu Ling "felt cold when Haoge was frenzied; saw the abyss in the sky; saw nothing in the eyes of all; was saved from hopelessness."

The snow fell bigger and bigger, flying between the sky and the earth, and fell on them.

"A hair full of frost and snow can be regarded as a white head."

(End of this chapter)