My Master Jinyiwei

Chapter 79

The son of an important court official in Yejing got married, and the spectators were all well-known.Such a banquet was always a good opportunity for the crown prince to contact Xu Shijin, so Xu Shijin also went.She and the girls from the Xu family sat down with the wives, eating melon seeds, while the girls next to her were obedient and listened to the elders' instructions; Xu Shijin sat sideways, facing the window, and she could see all the male guests coming and going outside the window. Chu.

She also saw the prince appearing, and everyone greeted him.I also saw the officials making various excuses to talk to the prince.

Xu Shijin looked at it leisurely, and saw that among the crowd, the third master of the Lu family looked at the prince if he was surrounded by people.The third master got up, shook his clothes, and seemed to go out with his hands behind his back.

The Lu family and the prince?
Xu Shijin narrowed her eyes and stood up. When the girls in the room were chatting happily, she exited through another small door in the cabinet and hurried to the main hall.On the way, he stopped a maid who was carrying a plate, "The third master of the Lu family loves Mingqian Longjing very much, you go and bring a bowl to third master Lu."

The maid nodded suspiciously and left in response.

Xu Shijin walked through the courtyard trees to the corridor.She walked in a hurry, with her head down, and she "accidentally" bumped into Mr. Lu when turning a corner in the corridor.Xu Shijin hurriedly apologized, "Uncle, I'm sorry."

Seeing that it was Xu Shijin, Third Master Lu frowned.Their family has never been very angry with people surnamed Xu, and Xu Shijin hates this woman even more.He didn't want to talk to Xu Shijin at all, so with a snort, he wanted to walk around her.But Miss Xu has always been a very considerate person, stopped the third master, and still apologized.

"It's because I left too hastily. It's not Miss Xu's fault. Miss Xu, don't mind." Third Master Lu reluctantly opened his mouth.

At this moment, Xu Xing, a maid behind him, handed Mr. Lu new tea.The maid was about to speak, but Miss Xu laughed first and said, "Mingqian Longjing? Mr. Gu really has a heart." Mr. Gu is the father of today's groom.She smiled, "I would like to replace wine with tea to make amends to my uncle. But it seems that uncle has something important to do, why don't we put down the tea and talk about it later?"

"...Okay." Lu Sanye gave her a strange look, and this time he really left.

Seeing Mr. Lu leave, Xu Shijin put the teacup on the tea tray in the hand of the maid, with an indifferent expression, "This is Mr. Lu's tea. He loves this tea the most. Watch it carefully, don't wait for the tea to cool."

When Xu Shijin returned to the pavilion, he looked through the window and saw the maid waiting carefully holding a teacup.The prince who was like the stars holding the moon in the hall has disappeared.

Xu Shijin was thoughtful.

After a while, she seemed to pass by the maid unintentionally, and ordered, "It seems that Mr. Lu will not be back. The tea is cold, just pour it out."

The maid didn't know why, and didn't understand what the girl meant by going back and forth.

In fact, Xu Shijin just guessed that the Lu family and the prince were connected.But she didn't know the depth of cooperation.Just a cup of tea was used as a test, at least she learned that although the Lu family had been in contact with the prince for a long time, the cooperation between the two parties was not just a little bit.

Xu Shijin's lowered eyes were slightly cold: The Lu family?That's right, the crown prince is now extremely powerful, the Lu family judges the situation, and it is very possible for the whole family to move closer to the crown prince and seek asylum.What chilled her was that the prince knew that she was dealing with the Lu family before, and knew that the Xu family and the Lu family had a bad relationship, but still accepted the Lu family's nomination certificate.

She was stunned for a while: the prince is a more qualified politician than her.He is willing to cooperate with anyone who is beneficial to him.But she, Xu Shijin, couldn't do this. If she hated a person, she would hate him to the end. It was absolutely impossible for her to force herself to compromise.

Xu Shijin sat in a room surrounded by singing and singing, panicked. She thought a lot, and the more she thought about it, the more depressed she became, and the more she thought about it, the more she felt that she shouldn't come.

When Nuan Xiang entered the room, she whispered something in her ear, she got up, and left with Nuan Xiang.Someone from the prince contacted her, wanting her to meet and talk to her.When Xu Shijin entered the room, he saw Liu Wang'e in the open fire, with his crown on his belt, his hands on his forehead, and he looked at her with a smile.

Xu Shijin glanced around, and the maid was packing the tea sets.She seemed to have no intention of laughing and asked, "It turns out that I have no status in His Highness's heart, so you invited me here, and there were other guests before."

The prince laughed and stood up, "How can they compare with Xiao Jin? Gu is out of the palace tonight, but he is here for you, Xiao Jin." He didn't mention the previous guests at all, and he didn't mean to introduce Xu Shijin at all.

Xu Shijin knew in his heart that the guest who didn't want her to know was really the third master of the Lu family.

At this moment, her heart was really cold.

The prince put his hand on her shoulder, and said softly, "Does Xiaojin have nothing to say to Gu? You don't want to talk about the princess?"

Xu Shijin lowered his head and murmured, "What's there to talk about."

"What about the imperial court?"

Xu Shijin looked even paler, "That's nothing to talk about."

"..." The two were speechless for a while.

The prince looked at her coldly, his eyebrows raised, as if ice and snow were about to gather.But after a while, he still didn't reprimand him, only said softly, "It seems that Xiaojin is in a bad mood. Anyway, Gu can stay with Xiaojin, there is no need to say anything. Xiaojin, you have to trust Gu, if you don't want to I will never force you to do what you do."

Xu Shijin looked in the direction of the night window and remained silent.

Liu Wang stood behind her, looking at her black hair and jade body, but also speechless.

Xu Shijin thought: At the banquet tonight, she planned to tell His Highness her guess about Shen Yu, but she doesn't want to say it now.She has to keep her cards, she can't be so stupid.She felt selfish, and felt that her love was dying.Maybe love and power are involved on the same line, which is already complicated. From the beginning, she shouldn't ask for that pure emotion.

At the same time, Liu Wang was thinking: The Lu family agreed to join him, but they were worried about the Xu family, Xu Shijin, and him.The Lu family has a request, and the two sides cooperate. In order to show their sincerity, the Lu family will damage their tendons and pull out the biggest thorn in the Lu family for His Highness; but the prince also needs to do something, such as handing over Xu Shijin.The Lu family knew Xu Shijin's important position in the prince's place, so the cooperation between the two parties naturally had to be expressed.He didn't agree, because he didn't want to lose Xiaojin.Xiao Jin is not just a politician, he likes her in his heart.He wants to be alone with him, and walk to the heights of the empire together.Xu Shijin walked too fast, which made him feel uneasy from admiration and admiration.

Liu Wang noticed that the relationship between them became more and more impure.Miss Xu didn't trust him. He had many things and couldn't fully trust Xu Shijin.Everyone is right, he shouldn't have given Miss Xu such great authority in the first place.

If you are a lover, then love sincerely.If it is a subordinate, then use it without reservation.

Regarding Xu Shijin, Liu Wang became increasingly unclear about how he should treat her.She is a woman who is greedy, ambitious, and in love with power. For such a woman, it is okay to be a lover.A position like the crown princess...he really didn't want to give her that position.

The two are obviously standing under the same roof, but they have different dreams in their hearts, and each thinks of their own.Such love is already withering, and they both know it.

But among the lovers in the world, there are those who struggle so pitifully, and there are also those who are truly connected with each other.Standing in front of the turbulent waves, the turbulent waves hit the shore, and there was no cloud in the sky. They also arrived shoulder to shoulder, willing to go hand in hand.

Over at Xuan'an Pass, Shen Yan went out, waited all morning, and finally invited the doctor out of the army after lunch.Master Shen thinks that pregnancy is really simple.Invite the doctor to see if Liu Ling is pregnant, and then prescribe some medicine or supplements, and they will take care of the patient according to the doctor's instructions.You see, how simple it is, and it doesn't take much time at all.

But when he went back to the yard, Mrs. Peng was waiting with an embarrassed expression, and Liu Ling was not at home.

Mrs. Peng tried to pretend to be stupid, but under the intimidation of Shen Yan, she had no choice but to say, "Madam Shen said that she was in a good mood and was going out to buy something for the unborn baby. Madam Shen also said that Mr. Shen, please don't worry, she is followed. "Liu Ling refers to Yang Ye and other guards.

"..." Shen Yan felt really tired.

The doctor wanted to leave, "Master Shen, look, since Madam is not here, I will..."

Shen Yan glanced over.

The doctor shuddered and almost knelt down, "The villain is not leaving! The villain dare not leave, Mr. Shen, don't look at the villain with such eyes... The villain is timid."

"..." Master Shen supported his forehead with his hands, feeling even more tired.

He waited for two hours, and it was almost evening when his little lover came back from shopping with a lot of satisfaction.Liu Ling went into the main room and saw Mrs. Shen sitting in the high hall. When she got impatient with waiting, she brought the official work and began to make corrections.As soon as she entered, she felt that Shen Yan's situation was like a trial in three courts, quite scary.

"Master Shen," Yang Ye and others avoided Master Shen's cold stare, but Liu Ling looked natural, not soft-handed, and could calmly step forward, "I went out and bought some things for our children." When this topic was brought up, she became a little excited, "I didn't know before that there are so many things that children need..."

She wanted Shen Yan to experience the feelings of being a parent in advance, and pulled the cold-faced Master Shen off the altar, and went to the various items she bought, "Look, diapers, blankets, pacifiers, cotton..."

Shen Yan picked up a rattle and shook it twice. He looked up at her, "Let me remind you, whether you are pregnant or not has not been confirmed yet. Even if you are pregnant, you even buy toys for one to three years old now, as if you want It’s the same as staying here permanently. Your thinking is too wide, and I really don’t understand it. Can you explain it?”

When he spat out the word "explanation" lightly, Liu Ling recalled the lesson he gave her "spanking" last night, and her face turned red all of a sudden.

What is there to explain?Explaining and explaining, Shen Yan was going to beat her up again... Liu Ling still had this bit of self-knowledge.

Under Master Shen's warning eyes, Liu Ling was reserved and did not speak anymore.

The doctor Shen Yan invited finally had a place to use his skills.

But after entering the back room and inviting Liu Ling to take a seat, the old doctor came and went to check him, but there was still no sign of happy pulse.Shen Yan folded his arms to watch, the doctor lowered his head, wiped his hands over and over again, and wiped the sweat from his forehead again and again. In the end, he still said in a condescending way, "Before Madam... it must have just ruined my stomach, right?"

"Impossible!" Liu Ling objected, standing up abruptly.Her gloomy face chilled the air around her, and the doctor trembled even more.

Shen Yan stared blankly.

Liu Ling looked away and met Shen Yan straightly.The eyes of the two of them are exactly the same at this moment.

"Ms. Peng said she was pregnant... there's no way she wasn't, you need to get a diagnosis! If you can't get a diagnosis, be careful..." Liu Ling threatened with a cold face.

She threatened, and in the excessive silence in the room, her heart slowly sank to the bottom.She looked at the gifts she bought, piled up like a mountain.She was immersed in the excitement of pregnancy all day, but before the day was over, the dream was over.

"It's impossible for me not to be pregnant, your medical skills are not good..."

"Liu Ling, don't make trouble." Shen Yan stretched out his hand and stopped Liu Ling who was making trouble unreasonably.He turned his head and winked, telling the flustered Mrs. Peng to invite the doctor out.

That poor doctor, in the short term, he probably doesn't want to show his pulse anymore.

After everyone left, Liu Ling still wanted to chase her out, but she was held back by Shen Yan, who stretched out her hand and touched a few acupuncture points on her back, making her unable to move.With tears in her eyes, Liu Ling was hugged onto the bed by Lord Shen.He put her to sleep and covered her with a brocade quilt.Shen Yan wiped Liu Ling's wet long eyelashes with her fingertips, wiped them with two fingers, and it was full of water.

Shen Yan leaned over and touched her forehead, "We will have a baby, don't cry."

Liu Ling had tears in her eyes, of course she knew what Shen Yan meant.But the process from hope to disappointment was too miserable for her to bear.She sniffed, "Will you comfort me, Lord Shen?"

"Of course." Shen Yan stretched out her fingers to unlock her acupuncture points, the girl sat up, threw herself into his arms, and hugged his waist tightly.

Liu Ling asked, "It's okay if you don't feel sorry for me, you have to give me a reason. Why hasn't it been born yet, and why hasn't it reincarnated into me?"

"Hmm..." Shen Yan pondered, "It's as free and unfettered as the wind?"

"..."

Shen Yan looked down at her, "It doesn't have human thinking yet, its brain is not clear, and it doesn't know the beauty of your mother?"

"..."

"It was under a lot of psychological pressure when it thought of having a beautiful mother like you, so it decided to cultivate it from an early age. Is it such a character?"

"...Pfft!" Liu Ling couldn't stop being sad, and she fell into Shen Yan's arms with a smile.She doesn't want to act like she's violent, but she really wants to hit Shen Yan.Liu Ling whitened him, annoyed and laughed, "I hate it! I'm sad, do you want to spoil the atmosphere like this, can you stop making me laugh?"

What is he talking about!

Shen Yan smiled, touched her sweaty forehead hair, and said leisurely, "I'm seriously trying to give you a reason. Otherwise, if you look forward to it so much, why wouldn't it let you get what you want?"

Liu Ling rubbed against his chest, raised her head again, and kissed his chin, "You beat me yesterday, but speak for me today. Master Shen, you are so kind to me."

"I've always been nice to you," Shen Yan pulled her away, "So Liu Ling, don't stealthily rub your snot on me. Do you think I'm blind?"

"..." Liu Ling really couldn't be sad anymore.

With Shen Yan around, it doesn't feel sad to have no children.

Liu Ling may not be sad enough for a stick of incense, but she is alive and kicking again.In the evening, when the smoke was rising from every house, she was in a good mood, so she went forward actively and wanted to cook for Shen Yan.

In a small kitchen, Liu Ling was squatting in front of the cauldron, choking on the smoke, while studying the recipes she bought.

Shen Yan leaned against the lime wall next to him, admiring it quietly.

Liu Ling raised her head and saw Shen Yan with clear eyes amidst the few fireworks, standing leaning against the wall, with a very moving charm.In the remaining sunlight, Luo Luo is clear and sparse, which is really beautiful.

Liu Ling was fascinated.

Shen Yan glanced over, Liu Ling's face was reddened by the smoke, and she lowered her head as if nothing had happened.

Shen Yan showed a clear smile, "Go out for a stroll at night?"

"Okay," Liu Ling responded, and went happily, "We can look at the stars and the moon, talk about love, and spend an unforgettable night together."

"...You really know how to infer other things from one instance." Shen Yan was amused by her.

After dinner in the evening, the two of them went out as promised.Master Shen and Liu Ling's date is naturally different from others.The other lovers were flirting with each other on the street, Shen Yan hugged Liu Ling up to the roof, and looking away, most of Xuan'an Pass fell into their eyes.

The sky is high and the earth is wide, and the long flow is long.

Shen Yan told her that Xuan'an Pass was too unsafe to delay here any longer.If not expected, they will leave here and return to Beijing tomorrow.

Under the starlight, Shen Yan finished a few words, "...That's it. Is there anything precious you want? Get it together tonight."

Liu Ling thought for a while, then shook her head, "I don't have anything precious."

Shen Yan said, "Think again. If you leave here, there will be no chance to come back in the short term."

"My most precious thing is you." Liu Ling raised her eyes and looked at him coldly, "Aren't you going back to Beijing with me? You go back to Beijing with me, I don't care about anything else."

Shen Yan turned her head to the side and didn't speak for a long time.He held the hand on her shoulder, but it tightened a bit.Liu Ling did not ignore this change.

Liu Ling raised her head and looked at the sparse starlight in the sky.She said softly, "Master Shen, in fact, I really want a child."

Shen Yan didn't speak.

Liu Ling went on to say, "When I was very young, I also had a happy family. My parents loved me, and I could be willful or act like a baby. The good times didn't last long, and I lost all of these. I don't have a mother." , also like no father, I have never experienced the love of my parents. My mother is not a qualified mother, she is weak and incompetent, just because of a ridiculous reason, she jumped into the lake. My father is also not qualified, he betrayed For my mother, in order to cover up his feelings, in order to maintain the good image of him and his current wife, let me be a scapegoat. I have been a scapegoat for him for so many years, and he never felt that it was his fault. "

"I often think that my parents really can't choose one thing. I was so strong when I was a child, but they can also be driven crazy by them to become what I am now. Mr. Shen, I could...but it will never be possible. The scar will always exist, and it will follow me until I die." This is her heart disease.Her dead mother, a phantom, followed her for years and years, tempting her to die.She knew it was all fake, but there was nothing she could do.There is no way to be sick, and there is no way to be cured.

She knew that this disease would follow her for the rest of her life. It was an invisible wound, and if she was caught off guard, it would jump out and bite her hard.

"So I want a child. Because I know what kind of parents hate the most, I will not treat my child like that. I will never be weak and show the cruelty of the world to him prematurely. I will not Heartless, I left him alone to fight alone. I want to love my husband, and my husband also loves me. We have a happy family and a happy marriage. My child can feel the love between parents. He is under my care Next, grow up healthy, lively, happy, and happy. He can be a man or a woman at will, what kind of character he can be, what he likes and dislikes. I just want him to be a healthy person. Whether it is physical or psychological. "

Shen Yan looked, and the starlight was reflected in Liu Ling's eyes.Her eyes are as beautiful as the Milky Way in the sky, hope and brilliance dance in her eyes.Those beautiful, glorious, and extravagant things are all in her eyes.

This girl sitting in the starlight, she is so beautiful.

Shen Yan unconsciously reached out and touched her cheek.He said, "Liu Ling."

"Ok?"

"Don't you want a strict father and loving mother? I agree." Shen Yan said.

Liu Ling was stunned for a long time, then slowly smiled.She didn't know what to say, didn't know what language to use.Shen Meiren seemed to be careless, and she seemed to say it casually, but she could fully feel his youthful feelings.She likes him very much, and she can't meet anyone she likes more.

Sitting under the starlight, the two propped their chins and talked about their future children.What is that kid supposed to be, what are they going to do to him.What to do when he is sad, what to do when he is angry, what to do when he doubts about life... Both Liu Ling and Shen Yan took it out and said casually.Exchange views with each other and seek common ground while reserving differences.

They are all frank and natural, discussing children who do not yet exist, but they all seem to have children.

Love needs to be discussed, and both parties need to agree with each other.It can't be exactly the same, but stumbling, walking side by side, no one takes a step back, no one regards themselves as the biggest sacrifice and dedication, this is the long-term love, and it can go on for a longer time.

Liu Ling understands more and more what Shen Yan told her at the beginning: Love is not about giving blindly, nor is it about taking blindly.Any unconditional dedication and request are harmful to love itself.

They want to walk together, supporting each other.This life with each other is perfect.It is already so perfect, so it is not so incomprehensible that there are some shortcomings in other places.

Although Liu Ling was not pregnant, Shen Yan's letter of marriage proposal was sent out as she wished.Mrs. Shen in the middle of the capital rarely received a letter from her son. After thinking about it for a few days, she drove into the palace and asked His Majesty for a marriage.After several months of working together, Mrs. Shen has already accepted the matter of Shen Yan and Liu Ling.When Liu Ling got married and Shen Yan walked together, Mrs. Shen was so desperate: she was really afraid that her son would just leave like that and never look back.

Fortunately, they have a chance to turn around.

If Shen Yan does not marry Liu Ling again, even Mrs. Shen can't stand it.

Mrs. Shen was sitting in the carriage. When she got to the palace gate, she lifted the curtain and saw a figure. She stopped the car and greeted with a smile, "Xiao Jin?"

Miss Xu, who had just come out of the palace and was about to board the carriage, saw Mrs. Shen.She was speechless for a while, because of her regretful marriage back then, she has always been ashamed to face the elders of Shen's parents.She didn't expect Mrs. Shen to be in such a happy mood that she would take the initiative to talk to her.She hesitated for a moment, stepped forward, and smiled, "Is Mrs. Shen going to the palace?"

Mrs. Shen also got out of the carriage.Knowing the friendship between Xu Shijin and Liu Ling, she told Xu Shijin the good news first, "It's not a big deal, he wants to marry Princess Anhe at the banquet. I will enter the palace and ask His Majesty to give me a marriage, which is also a good sign. Xiao What is Jin Jingong doing?"

Xu Shijin didn't speak, and was momentarily stunned.I was at a loss, but also happy for my friend, and with a sense of relief like a heavy burden.

The last step between Liu Ling and Shen Yan was calculated by her, and she brought it to Liu Ling.

Going around and around, at the very beginning, everything Xu Shijin did was to facilitate Liu Ling and Shen Yan.She wants her friend to be happy and to get that not easy happiness.For this reason, even if you are not so happy, it doesn't matter.

"Are they getting married?" Xu Shijin asked with a soft smile.

Mrs. Shen nodded with a smile, and hesitated again, "Xiao Jin, although I shouldn't say this, last time Shen Yu accidentally mentioned that you and His Royal Highness the Crown Prince... are you really going to take this step?" She frowned, Worryingly said, "You're all grown up, and you each have your own decisions, so I can't say anything. But after all, I saw you when I was young, and I can't help but advise you to think about it."

"Did Mr. Shen say something?" Xu Shijin asked, frowning, "Why did he mention me?"

Mrs. Shen looked embarrassed, "He said this unintentionally. Xiaojin, don't mind..."

"Did he say it when he was drunk?" Xu Shijin asked clearly.

Mrs. Shen simply shut up.

Xu Shijin turned his head and looked at the palace gate behind him.She looked for a long time, saw the countless roads behind her, and saw the road ahead.She saw her youth and her pale present.So many figures flashing back and forth, so many schemes, so many involuntary——

Xu Shijin's body trembled and her shoulders drooped. After a long time, she suddenly smiled softly, "Madam, I know you care about me. In fact, you worry too much. Your Highness is Your Highness, and I am me. I have never had anything to do with Your Highness. Your Highness must The Crown Princess is here, and I entered the palace just to congratulate, nothing else."

"Ah..." Mrs. Shen was surprised.

Miss Xu lowered her eyes and smiled gracefully.

She turned her head again and looked deeply at the closed palace gate behind her——

Even Ah Ling had a good result, so why is she still struggling?
She lives in a poisoned love.In this love, she is not even a spare tire.She was moved wherever there was a need.Wronged and pitiful, the truth is cruel.She had already seen it clearly, but she just didn't want to wake up.Where is love so selfless?It does not have a vast sea and sky where birds can fly, and more, it may be an abyss.

Xu Shijin suddenly didn't want to go on.

(End of this chapter)