uncle don't kiss me

Chapter 77
I hate him cursing Lin Qiao like this, and said bitterly: "He won't die, he won't die! He still has Yan Jia, he still has his mother..."

The only regret is that he doesn't have me.

To him, Xiao Luoluo is probably just a stranger in the future world, right?

I turned my head away and let the tears slide down from the corners of my eyes. The crystal tears fell on the pillow and gradually wet that small area.

This time I shed tears, not because of worry, but because of my own love so as not to be sad.If the heart that loves him is a piece of white paper, then there must be traces of sadness on it that are the same as the pattern on the pillow.

Cheng Younan lowered his head and kissed my hair tenderly, "Lolo, I'm sorry, I shouldn't scare you with my words, Lin Qiao won't die. Even if he wants to die, I will let someone pull him back, you know Yes, I will do what I say!"

I couldn't help but smiled at him, the crying and laughing look must be funny in his eyes, "But, you forced me to be with Han Lixi, so I don't even have the qualifications to like him."

This night, it wasn't me who said those words, at least not the calm me I usually am.I just talked about my own words, and I didn't care about his feelings at all willfully.

Cheng Younan was bored, and said reluctantly: "From now on, I won't force you to be with Lixi."

I gripped the quilt tightly and indulged my willfulness, "But, so what? He still has Yan Jia, who he loves from the bottom of his heart... it has always been Yan Jia, and he doesn't love me. No matter how old you are Even his ability cannot decide who a man likes in his heart."

I looked at the ceiling, not sure if I was asking Cheng Younan or myself, "How can he like me more?"

Cheng Younan sighed, and only then did I realize that this willful and domineering man had been accommodating me for a long time, he held my hand tightly, "Lolo, I don't know, how can I make people who don't like me love me more?" A little bit, but I know that the way to make myself feel less heartbroken is to fall in love with someone else. Luoluo, look how good I am, Uncle Cheng! No better than Lin Qiao..."

I interrupted him: "I'm sleepy."

Turn around and turn your back to Cheng Younan.

He told me that the way to make myself feel less heartache is to fall in love with other people, but when I approached him, I found that my heartache hadn't been relieved by half.

I've tried it once, and I've been heartbroken, how can I try it again?

In the middle of the night, in my dream, I felt his fingers slide over my cheeks, and I seemed to hear him asking in a trance: "He is so good, can you love him so much?"

Early the next morning, I went to see Lin Qiao. Lin Qiao's mother was taking care of her in the ward, looking more and more haggard.Yan Jia was also there, and unexpectedly, she was no longer as confused as last night, she said to Aunt Lin: "Auntie, you go back to rest for a while, you have been guarding all night, I just watch him here .”

Mother Lin stood up with a tired face, "Then I'll go back first, and I'll be back soon."

After leaving the hospital, I took a taxi for Mama Lin. She stays in her hometown most of the time and only came here during the Chinese New Year. She is not very familiar with this place.

She doesn't quite remember my name and calls me "little girl", but she knows my dad.

I told her: My name is Lolo.

She said: "Lin Qiao's father died early, so he left me alone, pulling him and Yan Jia to grow up. When Lin Qiao was in school, if Teacher Xiao hadn't always supported him, he would not be where he is today. Later, Xiao The teacher was sick, and we couldn't help. Now that Lin Qiao has an accident, you still come to see her. Thank you very much. Your family is a good person."

Lin Qiao's mother is very old, she seems to be about ten years older than my mother, and there are still tears in the corners of her eyes, which makes me extremely sad.For a woman, the greatest pain is nothing more than the loss of a husband in middle age and a child in old age. Although Lin Qiao is not dead yet, she still needs a lot of heart to bear all this.

After sending Mama Lin to the car, and then back to the hospital, Yan Jia was sitting by the hospital bed, looking at Lin Qiao on the bed, but she was no longer as strong as before in front of Mama Lin. Followed by heartache.

She said, "Since you have forgiven me, why do you have to face all this?" She leaned against the bed and called him, "Lin Qiao, brother..."

Yes, she called him brother.

Yan Jia has no parents since she was very young, and has been living with Lin's mother. They grew up together. In this world, for her, he is the only family member. He loves her and loves her!
There are only two women in this world that he cares about, one is his mother and the other is Yan Jia.

She is like his sister, but more like her irreplaceable lover.They once agreed that they would always be together in this life.

Until she followed Cheng Younan for money, until he watched her follow others, she fell in love with that man's money, and fell in love with that man even more, but he was indifferent and merciless, when he was hurt, when he was sick, he was desperate The one who came to take care of her was still the elder brother who hated her because of her betrayal.

Only then did she know that she was good, so she made up her mind to cut off the relationship with that man and return to him. The so-called love has no comparison. You never know who is the person you love the most in this world.

At this time Cheng Younan came, he didn't just stand at the door like me, but walked in and said to Yan Jia: "I have something to tell you."

Then, they went out.

I don't know what he has to say to him, I only know that he created a chance for me to be alone with Lin Qiao.I was finally able to go in and have a look at Lin Qiao. He was lying on the hospital bed with no blood on his face. I sat in front of the bed and didn't even dare to touch his fingers, for fear that he would hurt if I touched him.

When I saw him, it was like seeing my father lying on the hospital bed a few years ago. I came to see him every day, but I still couldn't keep my dearest father.

And now, the person I love the most, he is lying here...

I closed my eyes with only one thought in my mind: he will wake up!
yes, right?
He will definitely wake up well and appear in front of me in a healthy state—when he firmly believes in something in his heart, his whole body seems to have courage.

Time in the hospital seems to stand still.Because, he obviously felt that he had passed through several worlds, but he showed no sign of waking up.

After Yan Jia came back, she quietly found a seat and sat down. She didn't tell me that this was her seat and I was not allowed to sit, nor did she tell me that this was her man and I was not allowed to touch it.

She looked at me for a long time, and then smiled, her voice was gentle and guilt-ridden, "You must really hate me for taking him away from you, right?"

I didn't expect her to say such words suddenly. After a brief accident, bitterness welled up in her heart, "What do you mean you took him away from me? He was always by your side, didn't he? His heart was never from yours. I've left him before, no matter how humble I am in loving him, it won't surpass your position in his heart..."

"Lolo." This was the first time she called me by my name, "I'm sorry, I know you love him. I also know that I am not good enough for him, but he is not as indifferent as me, nor is he Like me, for the sake of money, the relationship of more than ten years can be erased so easily... As long as you live, I will be with him for as long as possible. Even if he no longer has love for me, I am still his dearest person I admit that I am with Cheng Younan, and I want to go back to Lin Qiao only after being hurt by him. I also know how selfish I am, but what can I do? You know, Cheng Younan is bound to win you, I don’t want to I saw you with Lin Qiao, because I was afraid to see him being robbed of the people around him again."

Her words moved me a little, but after thinking about it carefully, it's not the case.

"You said that Cheng Younan is bound to win me? Why do you say that? I'm not you, I won't sell myself for money, don't imagine me like you!" I looked at this shameless woman with some dissatisfaction , Look at the ridiculous reasons and excuses she made for herself, "Don't say it as if you are doing it for his own good! If you were, you wouldn't have left him for money in the first place."

A contemptuous smile appeared on the corner of Yan Jia's mouth, but the corners of her eyes slid down, winding down from her pretty cheeks, leaving a tear trail, "Forget it, Luo Luo, I know Cheng Younan better than you. I'm with him I was younger than you and more energetic than you before, otherwise he would not have taken me seriously. He is such a man, what he pursues is not a certain woman, but...a shadow that never caters to him. He will try With the most gentle gesture, slowly break your wings, and put you in his cage... until gradually, even you don't know when that proud self became the one who tried to please him gone."

What she said made me unable to speak for a long time. In those eyes, I seemed to see the future of me. If Cheng Younan and I continued...

Didn't I ever have a crush on him?
If I hadn't seen him with Xinran with my own eyes that day, if it hadn't been for a misunderstanding about that matter, then how would I be different from Yan Jia?
Walking out of the ward, I felt that my whole being was hollowed out, by Yan Jia's words, and also by the self that I almost turned into Yan Jia.I found a random place to sit down and looked at myself vaguely reflected on the floor under my feet.

Cheng Younan came over and sat down, looked at me, and asked, "Have you seen him?"

I nodded.

He put his hand on my head tenderly and said, "Lolo, seeing you so sad for him, I really want to hide you so that you can never see him again."

This sentence reminds me of Yan Jia's sentence: He will try to use the most gentle gesture to slowly break your wings and put you in his cage...

I couldn't believe it when I looked at this man who was gentle on the surface but could never see the bottom of his heart, "Cheng Younan, what kind of person are you?"

For his own selfish desires, he ruined the happiness of others, but he himself didn't seem to know it at all.He could even take it for granted in front of Yan Jia and Lin Qiao, he could snatch Lin Qiao's women one after another without feeling guilty at all.

He was the one who did the wrong thing, but someone else avoided him.

"What kind of person I am, you just need to get to know it slowly." He looked at me and arranged for the next thing, "I'm going to a meeting, and I'll send you back before the meeting."

(End of this chapter)