I am Feng Jun

Chapter 734 734. This life is too difficult
Shen Nanzhu lay quietly on the bed, but her mind was a little chaotic.

Many broken images kept sweeping past, some were familiar and some were strange, like a nightmare that was about to disappear, but it was clamoring up at this moment.

The rainy night when she was young, the moment when the thunder pierced the sky, and the crying of the baby in the swaddling baby, was her lifelong nightmare. Ah Ci's indifference and ignorance of her in the following years, her fear and resistance to her intrusion that day, It also made her body feel chilly and sweaty.

However, apart from these, those extremely strange but extremely real scenes were like a nightmare, which made her deeply trapped in it, and was entangled tightly by the vines, making it difficult to escape.

Before the East Palace, she was full of anger, but tried to keep her tone down as much as possible, questioning the empress dowager in black clothes and golden crown with cold eyes.

"Your Highness! Do you really want to divorce Ah Ci?!"

The person on the opposite side looked at her, and with a hint of sarcasm in his ink pupils, he spoke in a cold voice.

"Why, isn't this what he wants? Gu agreed, what's your dissatisfaction, huh?"

"This is the marriage contract between His Majesty and Mother. If you break off the engagement, you can marry whoever you want, but how do you want Aji to deal with himself as a man!"

"Shen Nanzhu, this marriage contract was made by your mother at the beginning, and I agreed to it alone. Now it is your younger brother who wants to withdraw, and I also agreed to it. But what are you doing now?"

When the always gloomy imperial concubine seldom talked so much, Shen Nanzhu's questioning made her anger that had accumulated in her heart for decades spew out, and she finally had to vent it once.

"Your Shen family is really good. Do you think the world of the Mu Dynasty belongs to your family? Why is Gu's marriage always in your hands? Prime Minister Shen is not enough to have power in the government. Even you, Young Master Shen, want to control Gu !"

"Your Highness, be careful! I don't have such a heart, but this matter is harmful to Ah Ci's reputation!"

"Is his reputation a hindrance? Does he still have a reputation? Behavior, arrogance and domineering, causing trouble, isn't it just because of the power of your Shen family? Why, Prime Minister Shen taught Gu to obey the rules and be in awe, but he didn't teach you this To the daughter-in-law and son-in-law!"

Mu Yuanxi sneered, and spoke very seriously. Shen Nanzhu's hands hanging beside her were tightly clenched into fists in her eyes, and a sense of joy flashed across her deep black pupils, but she concealed it very well, except for herself. Outside, no one can spy.

"Shen Nanzhu, you are a minister, just keep your own duty. As for the others, don't have delusions, I will never give you any chance!"

Shen Nanzhu's eyes were immersed in the black figure who turned around and walked away. She walked slowly, and when she stepped back, her brows and eyes were a little tired.

As the young master of the Shen family, she felt that she had no less burden than Mu Yuanxi, and she also wanted to help her become a wise master, but her distrust and suspicion of the Shen family made her extremely tired.

Now that there is no turning back the divorce, when I returned home, I was exhausted after learning that my younger brother had run away from home.

He hurriedly sent someone to look for it, and rushed over in person after receiving the news, but what he saw was the smiling young man beside Yu Xiaoyao.

She had never seen him smile so much in front of her. In her memory, what her younger brother felt most about her was resistance and disgust. Even though he got better later, he still ran away from home.

You can see how annoying she is.

"A Ci, how about going home with my sister?"

She asked softly, making some humble pleas, expecting his affirmative answer, but he broke her heart with only four simple words.

"Is that also called home?"

That big and deserted, bound and oppressive place is just a mansion, never called home.

What he said was as it should be, without any hesitation.

For him, the Shen residence might be a nightmare, even for himself.

There was a dense pain in Shen Nanzhu's heart, and he couldn't say anything under his sincere eyes.

He would rather wander with a gangster than follow him home.

After annulling the marriage, he had no more scruples, and only left a sentence, "From now on, he will only be in the Shen family without him", before fleeing from her sight.

For a long time, she didn't see her brother whom she missed day and night. The tedious affairs and royal suspicion filled her days and nights. When she saw him again, she was on the cold snow mountain. .

Along with her are childhood sweetheart Ating and his second sister.

No, that was not his second sister, she poisoned Patriarch Xie and Xie Yaohua, held the entire Xie family in her hands, and then brought her and Ating here, telling them the truth.

The words "the orphan of the previous dynasty" kept echoing in her mind.

She was dazed and couldn't believe it, but Xie Meiting's family was ruined and her family was ruined, and her childhood sweetheart was an orphan from the previous dynasty, and she gradually went crazy.

The false commitment and comfort made her spend the first days on the snow mountain.

However, one day, this stubborn boy chose to avenge his dearest relatives in his own way.

The only thing he could hurt was her, so he chose her without any hesitation.

Just yesterday when he was still thinking about how to tell Ah Ci to let her take A Ting away, he poked a hole in his chest in the blink of an eye.

But what could she blame him for?
It was Xuanyao who killed his whole family and left him only because of her own reasons. She was from the previous dynasty, and she was an orphan from the previous dynasty, a descendant of Li Weixi, how could he not hate her.

She shouldn't have extravagant expectations, no, or in other words, she doesn't know him well enough.

How could he survive in the hands of the enemy after his whole family was killed?

The cool wind poured into the chest, Shen Nanzhu thought while shivering.

This life is too difficult, simply, so be it.

If I could die in his hands, I would have no regrets.

It's just a pity that she is still alive, but he is gone.

Hearing that it was suicide, he didn't want to linger in the enemy's camp. After stabbing her, he understood himself very simply, but he never thought that she was rescued.

She opened her eyes, wanted to laugh, wanted to cry, but couldn't control herself, they all said she was crazy, only she knew, she was sober, sober enough that she didn't want to have any reaction to the outside world, because then, maybe she wouldn't have to Get hurt again.

Her eyes were no longer focused, because no one deserved it, and only when Shen Ci came to look for her would she be worthy of attention.

She watched him feel her pulse, no longer resisting and disgusting as before, so she also grabbed his hand, talking about many old things incoherently.

He would listen, but he didn't react much, just as if he was listening to a story that had nothing to do with him. In the end, she would always smile foolishly, a little sad, and felt that in his opinion, these were just the stories of a lunatic. Just gibberish.

No one knew that at that time, she had already recalled the forgotten memories after the high fever that year. She was telling her guilt and regret, but no one could understand.

　Thank you Lingyan for the cute tip! (I forgot to add it today (#^.^#)
　　This chapter mainly explains some of the things in the previous life, related to Shen Nanzhu, this chapter is the only one, wake up tomorrow, and then return to Beijing!
　　
　
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