I am Feng Jun

Chapter 841 Chapter 840. I thought I knew you well enough

These days, Shen Ci often dreams about things that are very vague in his memory, such as battlefields, gunpowder smoke, and disasters.

When he woke up, he thought back, maybe it was the past life he had forgotten, and most of it was not as different as what Mu Yuanxi said.

Retirement, confrontation, enemy, calculation, conspiracy.

The broken memories gradually became complete, and Shen Ci would occasionally think——
What if Mu Yuanxi didn't make a move when the explosives ignited that day, but let Yu Xiaoyao use the white silk to pull him out.

No then.

Mu Yuanxi will die, but he will live.

In that life, he might mourn her fall in the days to come, but there would be no more.

The young man who didn't recognize his state of mind at that time was pushed out again, so it is impossible for him to have such affection today.

Fortunately, when the flames ignited, she only hesitated for a second before resolutely pulling him into her arms.

Even if he dies, he must die with him.

Kill each other and love each other.

Feng Yang didn't know all of this, he only heard Shen Ci's extremely solemn answer, the lingering sound kept echoing in his mind, and a deep sense of unwillingness rose from the bottom of his heart.

"Have the determination to be with you even if it is death? Do you think I don't have it?"

Almost roaring, pulling back Shen Ci's deep thoughts, chuckling in his cold voice, and meeting his eyes burning with anger and desire.

"If you and I are in an extremely dangerous situation, there are only three choices, you die and I live, I die and you live, or you and I die together, which one do you choose?"

"Of course it keeps you alive!"

Feng Yang blurted out almost without thinking, among the three choices, two will let him die, and he will definitely choose the one that keeps him alive, even at the cost of his own death.

"Haha, look, you are like this, you are all like this." Only she is different.

A cool laugh overflowed from Shen Ci's voice, and he raised his hand to press his eyelids, as if he was suppressing the hostility in his eyes.

Feng Yang noticed that he seemed dissatisfied with this answer.

But how could it be!
"Only she will choose to die with me."

Shen Ci's voice was very soft, brushing the tips of his ears like a feather, but hitting his heart like a heavy hammer.

Feng Yang saw that he was looking at him with that kind of indifferent eyes, and continued to speak.

"You chose my dad that way back then. He saved Xiao Ya'er and asked me to take Xiao Ya'er out first. Then the two of them died, and we lived."

"Do you think I don't understand the guilt in Xiao Ya'er's heart? She bears the lives of two people, and she is her adoptive parents. You also know how crazy and self-abuse she was at the beginning!"

"But now, I want you to choose, you still choose to replace me with yourself. Have you ever thought about how it will feel after I survive?"

"You left me alone, so what is the meaning of my life! Bearing your love and your will? Which of us is cruel, huh?"

The person being questioned was replaced by Feng Yang. In Shen Ci's calm and indifferent voice, Feng Yang froze in place, feeling a little at a loss.

He never thought that Uncle Shen's choice back then would make him have such an idea.

Feng Yang knew that he hated, but he only thought that Shen Ci hated the culprit, so after Shen Ci sent him to prison, he thought the matter was over.

Even if he wants to vent his anger afterwards, it's fine, just go.

Because he could often hear Shen Ci's words of comfort to Shen Ya, Feng Yang didn't even know that he was still complaining about Uncle Shen's choice back then.

"Shen Ci."

Feng Yang spoke hoarsely, his eyes were full of coolness, the words he said were fluffy and powerless.

"I thought I knew you well enough"

But in the end, it's just what you think.

After more than 20 years of getting along, he knows everything about Shen Ci and has participated in almost all of his life. However, after only two years of absence, he can't take the lead at all.

"Understand? No, no one understands me better than her."

Shen Ci sighed softly, undoubtedly another sharp knife pierced Feng Yang's heart.

After a brief moment of guilt, the pain in his heart rose again.

"Shen Ci, Shen Ci, in terms of cruelty, no one can compare to you. You are afraid of being abandoned, so you don't know what you are doing now?"

Shen Ci frowned, and panic flashed across Feng Yang's eyes, as if in the end, the matter still had to come back to the fact that his brother had an unsophisticated affection for him, and he couldn't avoid it.

"No matter what you think, I love you! And now, the person I love is going to abandon me so unscrupulously. Tell me, isn't this cruel?"

Shen Ci curled his fingertips slightly, thinking that there must be some problem with his logic, but in Feng Yang's mournful tone, he couldn't find the problem for a while.

He didn't want to abandon Yangzi, ah, it's not that he didn't want to, he was going to find his wife, so he had to say goodbye to him, but it was just a simple farewell between friends, or between brothers Each side of the world.

But in Feng Yang's world, there are relatives, friends, and everything more than him, so why must he be the only one now!
Shen Ci couldn't figure it out, he felt confused that Yang Zi would like him.

"No, why did you fall in love with me? Is it because we have been together for too long, so you have an illusion?"

Although Shen Ci was horrified and bewildered, he didn't have any particularly heavy emotions. He was devoted to his daughter-in-law until death.

Peach blossoms or something, don't care about the relationship between men and women, you can pinch them all by yourself!

"Even if you have different orientations, you can't stick to the people around you, you should go out more, maybe you will meet someone more suitable!"

Shen Ci was thinking about how to untie him, but Feng Yang's left hand that was propped on the coffee table slowly clenched into a fist, and when Shen Ci was muttering, it slammed on the coffee table with a loud bang.

Shen Ci's voice stopped abruptly, and the sadness in Feng Yang's eyes was replaced by gloomy coldness.

This man can really talk!
Illusion, go out more, more suitable people.

Every word is more heartbreaking, so after talking for a long time, Shen Ci still remained indifferent.

Even when he exposed the dark things he had done, Shen Ci didn't even ask a question.

Perhaps Lu Yan and Wen Lecheng were not important in his life, they were just passers-by.

And he tried his best to drive the passer-by out, but in the end it was of no use at all.

He himself seemed to be a passerby, but he stayed longer than Lu Yan.

Indifference, fickleness, Feng Yang should have known about him long ago, but when it came to him, he couldn't accept it at all.

Shen Ci's indifference to things that go against his will is shocking.

Blame him?He was reluctant, so in the end, Feng Yang could only blame himself for not being able to enter the bottom of his heart and occupy the most important part.

(End of this chapter)