his spring breeze

Chapter 601 Chen Bai II Chapter (13)

He Yao came out of the bathroom after taking a shower, and found Chen Bai sitting on the bed, not moving.

"Hey, what's wrong with you? Are you stupid."

Chen Bai looked over, his eyes were complicated, hiding some emotions that He Yao couldn't understand.

He Yao casually brushed his hair, played with his phone, and swiped the screen.

"Why, no one called me when I was in the shower."

"No."

"Oh." He Yao casually put the phone aside.

He lay down, crossed his legs, and started playing the game.

"Chen Bai, you don't play games? Play two games with me."

"No." Chen Bai answered simply and neatly.

"You are such a weirdo among men, you don't even play games." He Yao said with a smile.

Chen Bai also lay down, and sighed: "What's so interesting about games, why not just talk, talk and chat."

"You don't play games at night, how can you feel emotional, have a fever?"

He Yao put his hand on Chen Bai's forehead.

It's not hot, the temperature is quite normal.

Chen Bai shook his head.

Suddenly he turned sideways and hugged He Yao's waist.

"Xiao Yao, you are suffering too much."

He Yao froze for a moment, then hurriedly pushed him away, shaking the goosebumps on his arms.

"You're crazy, you."

"sorry."

From He Yao's angle, he couldn't see Chen Bai's expression clearly, but he could barely see his dark eyes hidden by eyelashes.

He Yao smiled, the kind of smile that can't laugh or cry: "Are you saying sorry to people all day long?"

"No, there are only two people, one is you, and the other—"

After speaking, Chen Bai paused.

He Yao raised his eyebrows: "Is it that cinnabar mole in your heart?"

Chen Bai nodded after a while.

He Yao was actually quite puzzled, he couldn't understand Chen Bai, a fool, he had never seen the cinnabar mole in Chen Bai's heart, and Chen Bai never let him see it, but curiosity killed the cat, He Yao really wanted to see it Who is the opponent.

He turned around and sighed: "Actually, you are 26, the boss is not young anymore, try to fall in love."

"I won't talk about it."

Chen Bai told the truth.

"Actually, I never knew how to get along with people."

He Yao said "Oh?"

Chen Bai's eyes became a little far away.

"You may not believe it if you say it, I am an abandoned person, a monster, I live in the depths of the ruins, I have seen killing and abandonment, and blood. But the man saved me, he said to me that later If I followed him, he would teach me to be sensible, but then he said to me, let me go."

"I can't imagine the days when I don't follow him. It's like a habit, and it's like... well, how to put it, it's like Westerners worship Jesus and Easterners believe in Buddhism. I believe in him."

"Faith?" He Yao asked back.

Chen Bai hummed.

"I don't know the value and significance of my existence. I don't know if I'm happy or not. I don't have those emotions. I don't know what else I can do besides doing things for him. He clearly teaches It gave me a lot of things, enough for me to make a living, but lingering on, without a goal, without any motivation to struggle, this is not the life I want.”

He Yao listened quietly to Chen Bai's words.

After hearing that Chen Bai paused, He Yao raised his eyebrows.

"and then?"

"Then, I met you, thank you, brother, for bringing me some extra joy."

additional……

additional?
Just an extra surprise?
The corners of He Yao's mouth twitched twice, "Oh, so I'm just redundant."

"Are you not happy?"

"Do you think I'll be happy? Who wants to be a substitute?"

"It's not what you said. The best way to forget someone is to shift your attention to another person."

"That's what I said, but I'm not asking you to use someone as a substitute and really open your heart."

He Yao said, sighed, and waved his hands.

"Forget it, I don't expect you, a fool, to understand. For you now, it's enough to live happily, and don't think about the rest. Maybe in the next second, we will die."

"Do you want to die?" Chen Bai asked suddenly.

He Yao was silent.

Time passed by minute by minute.

I don't know how long it has been, He Yao nodded.

"Thought. More than once."

"Don't die." Chen Bai held He Yao's hand, saying every word, "You must live well and don't die."

He Yao smiled: "Will you be sad if I die?"

"Yes." Without even thinking about it, Chen Bai said without hesitation, "I will be very sad, and I will cry miserably. Although you are usually angry, but--you don't want to die. okay?"

He Yao smiled again.

"Go to sleep, sleepy."

"He Yao."

Facing He Yao's back, Chen Bai said a deep sentence: "We all have to live well."

When He Yao heard these words, he twitched the corner of his mouth, and quickly fell asleep.

……

Soon, He Yao and Chen Bai went back to Ningcheng. Their hands had almost recovered.

Song Ye found that after He Yao came back from a business trip, the smiles on his face increased.

But it was several days later than expected.

"By the way, what did you say to me on the phone?" He Yao asked carelessly.

Song Ye's face darkened.

"Your father, he passed away."

The moment the voice just fell, the indifference on He Yao's face dissipated.

"What did you say?"

It was rare for him to be so dignified and serious, but it was too late.

Song Ye sighed: "When I called you, he had already issued a notice of critical illness. I thought that you would come back early so that I could see him. Who knew that you came back so late, and he finally returned. Didn't wait for you."

He Yao didn't believe it.

He smiled and sneered, as if mocking himself: "You must be joking."

"Whether it's true or not, you can go to your elder brother Shen Sheng."

"I said that's not my elder brother!"

He Yao put both hands on the window sill, holding the edge of the window, his fingers tightened slowly.

The outside was covered with dark clouds, and there was not a ray of sunshine in sight. His mood was so depressed that he couldn't breathe.

"Parting" is not a big deal in He Yao's eyes, he doesn't care at all.

It was only at this moment that I realized that there are some things and some people, and it will be too late if you don't keep them.

died.

Just die.

"Go and see him, I can tell you the location of the cemetery." Song Ye patted He Yao's shoulder.

The hand was brushed away by He Yao.

He was gasping for breath, a little short of breath, "No."

After speaking, he staggered away.

……

But He Yao still went in the afternoon.

I drove there alone.

He didn't inform Chen Bai.

Didn't tell Song Ye either.

He just wants to be alone now.

If you want to take a look, just one look is enough.

But He Yao didn't expect that he would see that scene.

In front of the tombstone, Chen Bai knelt on the ground, facing Shen Sheng's direction, and bowed his head.

He Yao was startled.

Chen Bai's action echoed in his mind.

He always said he was stupid, because only a fool would bow to someone.

He Yao heard Chen Bai's voice and said, "He Yao suffers from depression, which seems to be quite serious."

"yes."

Shen Sheng couldn't tell what expression was on his face.

He just asked Chen Bai: "What are your feelings for He Yao now?"

"I--"

Chen Bai paused, and said, "He is my best brother."

"Chen Bai, let's go."

After Shen Sheng said this, he stood with his hands behind his back.

He never looked at Chen Bai again.

……

Chen Bai returned to He Yao's home and found He Yao sitting alone on the rattan chair, the balcony was not turned on.

A wind blew over and blew on his cheeks and hair, making him seem a little more vicissitudes and haggard for no reason.

At that moment, Chen Bai's heart ached.

"I'm back." He Yao spoke first, but his body didn't move.

"What's wrong with your voice?" Chen Bai was puzzled, that kind of voice seemed to be scratched by sand and stones, as if he had caught a cold.

"Your cinnabar mole is Shen Sheng, right?"

He Yao asked suddenly.

With his back to Chen Bai, he just shook the rattan chair like an old man dying.

Chen Bai frowned: "What's wrong with you?"

"Answer me, your cinnabar mole is Shen Sheng, right?"

"……Yes."

Obviously know this is the answer.

But He Yao's heart still hurt a little.

His eyes moved slightly, and his eyes became darker, "Tell me, what is your purpose for approaching me?"

"He Yao—"

"Don't call me by my name, if I ask you anything, just say it."

"..." Chen Bai was silent.

The deathly silence was so oppressive that it was hard to breathe.

"Don't tell me? Well, then I'll tell you for you."

"You were sent by Shen Sheng to monitor me. You can report to Shen Sheng about my every move. I said, you always persuade me to reconcile with Shen Sheng. You are so concerned about Shen Sheng's affairs. , when you see Shen Sheng, you will look twice more. Ha ha."

"It's not like this."

"Ah, by the way, I completely forgot that your mobile phone was given by Shen Sheng before, and you took it so happily, isn't it terribly flattering?" He Yao said to himself.

Chen Bai didn't like to see He Yao like this.

He would rather He Yao rush over, scold him, and beat him up violently, so that he can vent more.

"You went to the cemetery today, didn't you? To see your father, didn't you?"

"What's none of your business?" He Yao finally looked over with sharp eyes.

What a pile of ashes it was.

Chen Bai is very confused now.

He licked the corner of his mouth and explained: "My relationship with you has nothing to do with Shen Sheng, it's just because you are my best friend."

"Friend?" He Yao muttered these two words, smiling sarcasticly, "I also thought that we were friends, friends who had nothing to hide from each other, I relied on you, I felt at ease, it turns out that this peace of mind is still ridiculous after all. "

He knew a long time ago that he couldn't rely on one person.

Because dependence is addictive, he can't.

However, when he was very dependent on Chen Bai, he learned the truth.

He Yao closed his eyes.

The ashes in his eyes were like death, hidden by him.

Opening his eyes again, he just waved his hand indifferently: "Go, you can really go completely this time."

Chen Bai's eyes hurt: "Really, that's not the case."

"Then what do you say? You are Shen Sheng's man, you come to approach me, what do you make me think?"

"sorry."

"I don't want to hear these three words. Enough is enough. It's really annoying. Do you understand? Get out of here and don't let me see you again."

He didn't want to say this word. Rolling away would always hurt people more than leaving.

Chen Bai took a breath: "Do you want to hear the truth?"

He Yao glanced at him.

Chen Bai thought for a while, and then said: "I was the one who kidnapped you at the age of 16. If you have to ask me for a reason, then I approach you, and I'm here to atone."

If he said that, he would feel better.

But—boom.

At that moment, the originally weak fortress in his heart completely collapsed and turned into ruins, leaving no smoke behind.

Chen Bai knelt down on one knee in front of He Yao.

"My kindness to you is true, He Yao, you trust me."

"..."

However, He Yao's tears flowed down, and the two strings were crystal clear to the extreme.

Chen Bai was surprised.

He Yao's slender joints tightened little by little, like sand that couldn't be grasped, and his whole body lost strength.

"You might as well not tell me about it, you have to say it."

"He Yao—"

"Go away. You can really go this time."

……

After Chen Bai moved away, He Yao forced himself to return to his original life.

He is still the bohemian He Yao.

In the hospital, only 16 patients are received every month. Usually, he jokes with Song Ye and flirts with his sister.

But one thing has changed.

He Yao seldom went to spend time and drink before.

Now after work at night, there is nothing to do, so I drag Song Ye to the bar, to the nightclub, and anyone who comes is welcome.

But when others were emotional, he lazily walked away, saying that it was boring and boring.

Song Ye didn't know what happened to him.

Asked him, he didn't say anything.

But Song Ye is not a fool, it's not that he didn't see it, Chen Bai is gone.

Chen Bai is no longer He Yao's assistant.

He Yao never mentioned this person again.

Song Ye didn't know which tendon was cramping today. While drinking at the bar, he watched He Yao who was drinking, and asked, "What's the matter with you and Chen Bai?"

Snapped.

The transparent glass was pinched in the palm of He Yao's hand, and his body was smashed to pieces.

The shattered glass shards pierced He Yao's palm, and the scarlet taste of blood spread, but he didn't feel the pain, his eyes were sharp and murderous, and he shot it: "If you want to die, just say it!" .”

Song Ye: "..."

He hurriedly dragged He Yao to bandage him, but He Yao refused to leave.

Song Ye was about to kneel to him: "It's my fault, I won't mention these two words in the future, you can go and bandage it, okay?"

He Yao didn't move at all.

The anxious Song Ye wanted to knock him out and transport him away.

He Yao held the cup in his hand, turned it casually, and then made a call.

It's Li Sheng's call.

"I'm in the Royal Guild Hall, my hand is injured, oh yes, you can take some Lysip and Zoloft by the way, I'm useless."

Song Ye was taken aback.

Lysip and Zoloft, these two medicines...

It is a medicine to fight depression, Song Ye knows it.

Song Ye stared at He Yao meaningfully.

He Yao just raised his eyebrows and smiled unobtrusively: "Why, I'm ugly?"

"He Yao, don't scare me, okay?"

How could He Yao suffer from depression?

Song Ye didn't believe it.

(End of this chapter)