Prosperous Tang Dynasty

Chapter 164 A Decision Made Long Ago
The confusion in his heart made Li Fei suddenly want to find someone to continue drinking and talking.

If Li Bai was still in Chang'an City, the first thing he thought of would be Li Bai.But Li Bai had already left Chang'an City, and the next person he thought of was Du Fu.This poem is not as good as Li Bai's, but he can be as famous as Li Bai's "poet sage".

Du Fu still lived in his small rented yard, waiting for the assignment of official positions.

But what is different from the history is that under Li Fei's repeated requests and funding, Du Fu just returned to his hometown some time ago and brought his wife, two sons and one daughter to Chang'an City.

Although life is still very hard, Du Fu has fame and fame after all. Although he is not yet assigned an official position, the court also has a certain amount of rice subsidies every month, which can at least hang the lives of his family. Li Fei feels that in this case, Du Fu's youngest son should not be starved to death two years later, which made Du Fu regret his life.

Du Fu came soon, still wearing his old but decent clothes with two patches.

"Come on, sit down!" Li Fei raised his hand to invite Du Fu to sit down.

In fact, both Li Fei and Li Bai had the idea of ​​subsidizing Du Fu a lot, so that Du Fu could live comfortably and live a little easier.It's just that Du Fu is too strong, he insists that he can survive without needing funding, and Du Fu is not willing to ask for even a penny of funding unless he is forced to.

Even when he was forced to do so, Du Fu only borrowed a few hundred Wen, and often within a few days, he tried his best to tighten his belt and returned it.

Li Fei admired Du Fu even more, Li Bai, in addition to Du Fu's talent and learning, there is also Du Fu's strength of character!Du Fu is also much more pragmatic than Li Bai.

"Du Fu dare not say that he has the appearance of a prime minister, but one of the six ministries, or one of the chief managers should be capable!" Li Fei poured a glass of wine for Du Fu and said with a smile.

Du Fu couldn't help being excited, but immediately shook his head with a wry smile and said, "Mr. Wu is serious. Du Fu wants to be a county magistrate, but he is not qualified. How dare he compare with one of the six departments or the head of a department."

Remembering that he had waited for so many years before it was his turn to be an official, Du Fu was already a little discouraged, how many political ambitions were suppressed in his heart, and suddenly felt bitter, not knowing where his future was, and what was more I don't know if my ambition will be realized.

Depressed in his heart, Du Fu was not polite to Li Fei, picked up his wine glass and drank half of it.

When Li Fei drank with Du Fu, he didn't have the graceful poems when he drank with Li Bai. Most of Wu's government could hear him singing and shouting. Drinking with Li Bai is more suitable for venting.Drinking with Du Fu is very peaceful, and it is more suitable for calming down and sorting out the chaos in the heart.

At least Li Feiyue chatted with Du Fu, the more the chaos in his heart gradually calmed down.

"It's not serious, at least in my Li Fei's eyes, if compared with Yang Guozhong, you are at least much stronger than Yang Guozhong, but—" Li Fei still has some chances when he said this.He shook his head with a smile, took a sip, and then continued: "In the early days of Kaiyuan, when the virtuous minister Zhang Jiuling was still in charge of the court, Du Fu's talents and learning should have already entered the court as an official, but after Li Linfu, plus Yang Guozhong, It's hard for a person like you, Du Fu, to do anything!"

"Wu Guogong can see it so thoroughly, Du Fu—" Du Fu was very excited, and his eyes were a little teary.It can be seen from Du Fu's poems of later generations that Du Fu has always known what the disease of the Tang court was, and he has always worried about the country and the people in his heart.

For a long time, Du Fu only dared to hide it in his heart. Others spoke lightly, unable to express it, and did not dare to express it casually.Unexpectedly, Li Fei said it directly at this moment, and Du Fu only had the feeling that he had found a confidant.

Li Fei waved his hand.

"I'm looking for Du Fu today. Apart from having a drink or two with me, I also want to seek Du Fu's ideas on some things." Li Fei was always confused and hesitant, between what he wanted to do and what he must do. wandering between.

Du Fu listened intently, and he also saw that Li Fei's thoughts today were a little different from usual. He felt that Li Fei seemed to just want a listener, and maybe he had already made his own decision in his heart.

"How should I put it - when you suddenly come from a familiar world to a strange world, and there is no way to go back, you can only stay in this strange world, the people in this strange world may have the same You have the same blood, but your thoughts and cognitions are too different, which makes you want to blend into this world, but you always find that there is always a slight difference, and you always feel that you are just a bystander, how can you say this—”

Du Fu frowned slightly. In fact, he didn't quite understand what Li Fei was going to say. He thought for a while and said, "Maybe it's because you have always had a repulsion deep in your heart, which made you stop thinking of yourself as that person from the bottom of your consciousness. People in the strange world should look at it, because I only put myself in the position of a bystander."

"Actually, I don't know too well." Li Fei smiled. In fact, he knew what was going on. He just wanted to find someone to listen to and let him speak out.

"There's one thing, um—you know where it's headed, you know it's going to wreak havoc on this strange world, and the people you care about will end badly because of it. You have The idea of ​​stopping, but knowing that the possibility of stopping is very low, and it is possible that in the process of you stopping, things will not be stopped, but you may be involved first, so should you stop it?"

"This——" Du Fu was stunned for a moment, and Li Fei made him a little confused. He thought for a while and didn't know how to answer Li Fei.Although Du Fu has justice, he is not a person who can put himself in it without any scruples with a word of righteousness.

"First look at the consequences of putting yourself in it. If you can bear the consequences and feel that it is worth it, then you should do it." Du Fu said hesitantly after a while.

"Well, that's not bad. This sentence is correct. In fact, that's what I think." Li Fei said a bunch of nonsense, but it was useless, he just wanted to say it.

"The possibility of stopping is very small, because it is difficult for you to change the stubborn thoughts of some stubborn people, but you have to try. After all, even if you can't stop it, it has not endangered your life, but it can make your conscience It’s passable. Even if things happen at last, you can at least tell yourself that I did my best!” Li Fei laughed.

It is impossible for Du Fu to know what Li Fei is talking about, only Li Fei himself knows.

Li Fei was talking about the Anshi Rebellion and the matter with his godmother Yang Guifei.

Although he knew that it was unlikely to stop it, and that it might affect him first and make him pay a certain price, Li Fei had already made a decision in his heart, and he had even thought up a whole set of plans.

I still have to try, at least to be worthy of my conscience, after all, the price is something he can bear.He has never been a good person and is quite selfish, but he also has his own bottom line of principles, which is the foundation of being a human being, not because he is cowardly watching things happen because he is afraid of paying the price and does not work hard at all.
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