my old life

Chapter 1016
No matter how powerful the opponent is, I won't be able to back down, even if I shed blood!Just because I have a firm belief in my heart, that is to fight for the second uncle!

I have never forgotten my second uncle's teaching and kindness to me, and I have never forgotten my vows!It is cowardly to retreat without fighting against a powerful opponent. I will not let my second uncle fight alone!

At this moment, I finally understand why the second uncle goes to Qilu alone every time, why he goes to trouble with Fifth Master Zeng alone every time, because he knows that some things can only be done by himself!

He doesn't want to drag down his friends, and relying on his friends can't defeat those powerful opponents, so he chooses to be a lonely ghost, with the belief in revenge but always suppressed.

At this moment, I feel inexplicably sad for my second uncle, because I can feel the loneliness, and even more the feeling that he endured silently alone!
I can understand the mute's reluctance to be an enemy of someone who has the grace to teach, and I can also understand the reason why the opponent is strong, but no one understands my true belief!

The night was thick and I hurried to the villa of the Buddha and the old monster. At this moment, I did not do anything but a belief, only a belief that I must die!

I guess the dumb can see deception in my eyes, so can the old man!I will never learn the essence of quack thaumaturgy until I tear off the last layer of hypocrisy!
I never thought that I might die, let alone that I would not be able to come back... But now I really dare to die!

I am afraid of the fear and darkness brought about by death, I am afraid that I will not be able to see the morning glow and sunshine of tomorrow, but I am even more afraid that I will not be able to fight side by side with my second uncle!
No matter how powerful Yiye Laoqiantuan is, no matter how cruel Ye Lingyun is, when he really has the will to die, he will no longer be afraid!

It was already ten o'clock in the evening when I arrived at the villa of the old monster Buddha. When I entered the villa, I saw the old monster Buddha standing with his hands behind his back and looking up at the starry sky. He was wearing a dark black robe and looked very deep!

"Good evening old sir." I greeted respectfully, but got no response.

Old Monster Buddha just looked up at the starry night sky. I don't know what he was thinking, but I feel that the night sky tonight is really clear.

It has been a long time since I raised my head to look at the night sky in the sky. Every time I can feel the depth of the universe and my own insignificance, my heart will become more relaxed.

Time passed by every minute and every second, and the old monster Buddha seemed to be frozen in place. He kept looking at the sky without moving, as if he had forgotten the time...

"Do you know why people's eyes can see space beyond the earth?" Old Monster Buddha asked without turning his head. This question is very meaningful!

"I think it makes people feel small." This is what I think in my heart, and it is what I feel every time I look up at the night sky.

"That's right! What's the matter with you coming so late?" Old Monster Buddha stretched his neck, but he never looked back.

Suddenly I felt another layer of meaning in the old Buddha's strange words, just like asking me what I can get from looking at the night sky, so what can I get after he whipped my crutch today?
After touching my right arm, which was still aching, I suddenly understood!
"I want to learn this subject, and I want to become stronger!" I directly expressed my truest thoughts. From the day Buddha taught me, I knew it would be this course in the end!
"why?"

"Because the old man injured one of my arms today, when I bet against the old man for the first time, I have never seen your right hand hidden under the robe... I think this should be the learning method The premise of the door."

"Oh? You can really comprehend this far?" The old monster Buddha suddenly turned his head, his eyes seemed to be able to glow in the night!

"Before that, I didn't think about the purpose of the old man's slapping my arm, but just now I suddenly understood! That is, no matter what a person does, there must be a purpose... This is also the principle that the old man taught me to change the art. "

I lowered my head and said what I was thinking in my heart. In fact, I should have thought that it is impossible for the Buddha to hurt the hand of an old man, unless there is another reason!

"It's rare! It's rare! The old man is not wrong about you. If you practice hard for a few years, you will be able to achieve something!"

The old monster Buddha made no secret of his approval of me. In fact, I just realized it just now. It shows that the old monster Buddha is also testing my comprehension ability!

"Old man, I can't wait for a few years..."

"Some things can't be rushed, because you still lack one thing! One very important thing!"

"Then look now, do I have such a thing?" I raised my head and looked at him calmly, my heart was determined to die!

From the moment I decided to learn from Buddha, I no longer considered any principles and bottom line, nor how to defeat my opponent, let alone how to come back alive!

I think the old monster Buddha will be very happy to see my belief, because people who believe in death have nothing to fear!

"Can you tell me what made you look like this now? I don't believe you will suddenly have the will to die!"

Old monster Buddha saw through my thoughts with a single glance, and I am even more sure that he has the ability to read people's hearts!It must be the extremely evil itself!
"Because of hatred! Because of responsibility!" I replied without thinking. At this moment, I follow my heart in everything, without any hesitation or hesitation!
"Who do you hate? What is your responsibility?"

"I hate myself for being incompetent. My responsibility is to kill your former disciple Ye Lingyun!"

Without thinking about it, I tore off the last layer of hypocrisy, because I knew that nothing could be hidden from the eyes of the old monster Buddha. Although I don't know what kind of thaumaturgy it is, I can definitely penetrate people's inner thoughts!
"Why did you do this? Do you know Ye Lingyun?" Old Monster Buddha looked at me more and more curiously, and his eyes changed accordingly!

"For the love in my heart! And for the sake of Buddha Qianxiao!" I resolutely abandoned the principles I once insisted on. At this moment, the person I really think about in my heart is Shiliu!
I know that I abandoned principles and chose despicableness, and I also know that I gave up the last bottom line in my heart. What principles and bottom lines do I still talk about when I have an immortal heart?

Old Monster Buddha didn't speak but just stared straight at me, I looked at him with firm belief, time seemed to freeze at this moment!
"How do you plan to take revenge?"

"A person with the heart of death!"

"Put death to life? You have completely gone astray now, you can't learn anything now, go back..."

I was stunned by the old Buddha's words. Isn't it enough to have the heart of death?

"Old sir, I don't understand why!"

"Because you don't understand the truth of the dead sheep crossing the road, and you have a mortal heart but no single-minded and refined beliefs. You can only go to self-destruction like moths to the flame!"

"I'd rather die together!"

"The pain stems from anger at your own incompetence. Now you are only a little bit, just a little bit! Hey!"

After saying that, the old monster turned around and left, leaving me alone in the same place... Isn't it wrong to be willing to give up myself for the sake of the love in my heart?

What is a dead sheep?A harbinger of self-destruction?Why do I have the desire to die, but the Buddha and the old monster refuse to teach me?

I took out my mobile phone and quickly looked up the explanation of Crossroads of the Lost Sheep. After reading it, I was at a loss...

I have learned too many truths, and I have seen through many human beings and people's hearts, but I still can't give up the obsession in my heart!
This obsession is my feelings for my second uncle, a feeling that blood is thicker than water and transcends everything. All my beliefs were born because of my second uncle, but I abandoned myself at this moment.

The Buddha said that self-destruction is like moths flying into the flame, just like what I think in my heart now, I chose to destroy but did not choose to leave myself a retreat...

Looking at the sky full of stars, I fell into deep thought. Could it be that my mortal heart to fight for my second uncle just became my bondage?
Once my second uncle had no choice but to let me leave his side. From then on, I knew that I was his bondage and weakness, and he was also my bondage and weakness...

I think the old monster Buddha must have seen through the last obsession in my heart, the friendship that I have never let go of in my heart, how should I let go?

wrong!There is nothing in the world that can make people let go of the emotions in their hearts. People without emotions are like walking dead...

Time passed slowly, and the stars in the sky gradually disappeared, replaced by the dawn of dawn...

etc!I suddenly understood that the biggest obstacle in my heart was not my second uncle's feelings, but my anxiety to transcend time!
I finally understood what the old monster Buddha said I lacked, and that was my patience with time!
(End of this chapter)