my old life

Chapter 1099 The Edge's Choice
Many times, I can find different things by empathizing, especially if I let the dumb look at the problem from my perspective, there are only two choices in front of me...either annexation or killing!
These are two extreme choices, and I have a lot of concerns in this choice but Dumb doesn't!

In fact, I knew very early on that the more the old monster tried, the more he wanted to win him over. As long as he didn't pierce the last layer of window paper, everyone would be fine.

It's just that I need to reconsider the pros and cons of this matter. The reminder given by the mute is very important. If I become the next Ye Lingyun, then the old monster Buddha will definitely strike first!

How to find a balance point that makes Buddha, old monsters trust and at the same time guarantees his own heart?This point is hard to catch, really hard...

"What the hell are you trying to tell me?" I couldn't help but lit a cigarette again, feeling smoke starting to rise in my throat!

"It's time to make a decision! The longer the time, the worse it will be for you!" The mute gave me a clear answer, but I was not ready yet.

Why don't I know what old monsters are planning, but I also have my own calculations. I am destined not to stay here for too long. If I lose to time once, I won't lose to time again!

If I didn't want to use the contacts of old monsters to deal with Chu County Dai Fei and the others, I think I would have left here long ago, but everything here is like a quagmire holding me back...

"It's hard to say, and there are still some things that haven't been done."

"No flaw is often the biggest flaw! You now have a big flaw!"

The mute gave me a series of gestures lightly. I remember that the old monster Buddha also said this, but I never really understood the essentials.

As if seeing my hesitation and indecision, the mute extinguished the cigarette in his hand and closed his eyes, as if he was about to start enjoying the massage.

In fact, I know he is giving me time to think, let me weigh the pros and cons to make a choice...

Time passed by every minute and every second, but I couldn't calm down and think about it, the touch of the massage would always distract me involuntarily...

Just like those things that keep happening around me, troubles come up again and again, constantly disrupting my original plans and goals, and even making me go further and further away!

"Boss, lie down and push the essential oil!"

"it is good!"

I unbuttoned my shirt and lay on the bed. At this moment, I was almost face to face with the mute, but I saw a different look in his eyes!

This change in eyes is very subtle, but it carries an extremely familiar feeling!This feeling is greed in the eyes of gamblers!

Before the essential oil is pushed back, you have to open your back left and right. For some reason, the rose essential oil smells so strong tonight that it makes me a little disgusted.

But looking at the mute is very enjoyable, and there is even a happy smile on his face, as if he has walked out of the dark dream in his heart...

I used to think that the mute would never touch women again in his life, but now he has a smile on his face that I have never seen before. To be honest, I am happy for him, and people will change.

My second uncle used to say that the only constant in the world is that everything is changing, including feelings and people's hearts...

etc!I suddenly understood!I see what all the confusion is about me!

When I was unable to make a choice for a long time, it was people's hearts and feelings that controlled my behavior and thoughts!It is because I care too much that it has become my weakness and flaw!

I think I have no flaws but I can't get rid of the control of the old monster Buddha, because I care too much about the hearts of the old people around me, just like the reaction when I learned that the old monster Buddha planned to win over soldiers... I can't tolerate others to win over the people around me!

Not just soldiers, fat foxes and mutes are the same to me, they are my most indispensable partners!
The more indispensable I am, the more precious they are, and the more precious I want to take care of them, unknowingly, the most beneficial helper around me has become my weakness and bondage!
This is something I haven't seen through before, but Old Monster Buddha must have seen through this!That's why he came to test me unscrupulously, and he even hooked me several times!
The old monster once said that there are not many young people who value love and righteousness now, and he also said that they value love and righteousness... Now it seems that he is just hooking me silently and making me stick to my inner thoughts!
Let me ask a person who does not recognize his own mistakes, how can others persuade him to change this mistake?

Everything in this world will change, but such a simple truth has been tying my hands and feet, preventing me from finding the best balance!
In fact, the real balance point is in my heart. I don't need to grasp other people's balance point and people's hearts, as long as I make a choice in my heart is enough!

If I am like a dumb person and abandon all the things that make me worry about and bind me, and let me choose again, then my eyes will suddenly become clear!
If I can boldly let go of the old thousand groups around me, then the Buddha and the old monsters will never be able to catch any of my flaws. Doing so also coincides with my idea of ​​going to Qilu alone!

In an instant, I jumped up from the bed, and I finally grasped the point that was bothering me so much, and finally let me find out how to break Dai Fei's group!Everything is only in my mind!

In fact, what the old monster Buddha wants is a change from me. As long as I can give him this change, he can be completely at ease. That is to give up the most precious feelings and hearts around him!

"Okay! You two go back!" I waved my hand to let the two beauties leave, and they froze in place, at a loss.

"If you are told to go, go! You too!" I said to the mute, and now I started to drive everyone out.

The mute glanced at me without saying a word, and flicked the button of his shirt lightly with his fingers. I could clearly understand the meaning of his gesture.

"It seems that you have made your choice, wish us luck!"

"Yes, wish us luck!"

The mute and I looked at each other, and we both knew what this choice was!
In a blink of an eye, I was the only one left in the room, and I couldn't wait to call the fat man and the fox, because some things make people become impatient once they are punctured!
As for the dumb, I don't need to say anything at all, he understands the truth more comprehensively than me, and can even explain me when I am confused!

Soon the fat man and the fox came to the room, and the fat man sniffed the air vigorously as soon as he arrived. He probably couldn't escape the smell of pushing back essential oil.

"What's the matter? Let us come here in such a hurry!" The fat man teased, his eyes deliberately swept the bed next to him.

"There is something I want to tell you tonight, about benefits." I said it seriously, indicating that I didn't mean to be joking now.

"Tell me, let's listen!" The fox looked at me with a smile. For some reason, I felt that this moment was really warm!

The fat man and the fox are people I have known for a long time, and they are also friends who have been together in the rivers and lakes, and they have feelings for each other.

"I'm going to go out for a while, and this time may be very long or very short." I said calmly, already thinking about the next plan in my heart.

"Are you alone?" Fox immediately sensed that something was wrong, and her expression became much more anxious.

"Yes! This matter can only be done by me!"

"What about the Buddha's side? We managed to keep this business, and Dai Fei..." The fat man looked at me with complicated eyes, and I knew what he was worried about.

"This business is not important. The important thing is that people like Dai Fei, it is relatively safe to stay here."

If I would not easily believe in Buddha and monsters before this, but after I really let go, I will have the confidence and choice!

"The old monster Buddha is very powerful and unpredictable!" Fox muttered, this is the key to my inner breakthrough!
"If he wants to give you money, you can take it, if he wants to win you over, then continue...it's no big deal."

I looked at them calmly, and didn't shy away from anything at this moment, because I had already broken through the barrier in my heart!
"Where are you going, Little Shackle? I always feel that you have something to hide from us."

"I'm going to do a very important thing. I don't know if I can come back, but I believe we can meet again!"

The fat man and the fox were instantly shocked when these words came out, but my heart was very calm. I lit a cigarette and quietly felt the changes in my heart.

I can even let go of the most precious old people's hearts and feelings, so what else can't I let go?What else can I be afraid of?

I've made up my mind to do things, I don't want to drag my friends into the water when I'm in real danger, and I don't want to trust anyone in times of danger!

(End of this chapter)