my old life

Chapter 1196 I Hate My Infatuation

I lowered my head and smoked quietly, the blurry picture in front of my eyes kept flashing, eroding the last trace of strength in my heart bit by bit.

I think this kind of scene should be repeated every day. What I can't give others can give, no matter what purpose and reason, what can't be given just can't be given...

The cold wind in the dark night brought a bit of coolness, and this coolness seemed to be able to penetrate into the bones, and the hands that had never trembled in the face of countless dangers began to tremble slightly.

I think it’s okay to be alone, the feeling of tossing and turning in the middle of the night is always with me, maybe leaving you is also a kind of happiness, no one said that love must be necessary...

The eye circles were slightly sore, I rubbed my eyes and turned my head to leave, I think it was because I was too naive, and I was sad because I was too serious.

A lonely street lamp in the distance illuminates this unbearable night, as if a few words in the picture are still echoing in my ears, as if there is a bowl of steaming instant noodles...

At this moment, I asked myself what is the true meaning of life?Why do I feel heartache?Why do I cry?

I suddenly felt that I didn't even have the right to shed tears. Now I'm just a prodigal son on the run. After today, I don't know where tomorrow will be. How dare I hope for an ordinary life?

"Hey, that incomprehensible second uncle is still waiting for me, and my worry-free friends are still waiting for me to go back, let's go!"

I threw away my cigarette and turned to leave. I knew that nothing could stop me, and today I completely ruined my last escape route!
Before I left, I couldn't help but stop and stare back. How much I want to engrave this scene in my mind, how much I want time to stay at this moment...

Suddenly I had an urge, I wanted to rush back and knock on that door right now, beat that bastard named Du to death and hug Shiliu... But I knew I couldn't do that.

I don't care what will happen to that bastard surnamed Du, I just want to know what will happen after I embrace Shiliu?stay?Or tell her I can give her a future?
I rubbed my sore nose and drove away. I knew that there was not much time left for me. If I didn't leave, I might not be able to leave...

I opened the car window and threw the ceramic gun out, and took off the human skin mask by the way. Looking at the weeping human skin mask, I felt very uncomfortable.

If possible, I would like to persuade the mask not to cry, because crying flowers are not good-looking, how can a man cry?
In a blink of an eye, the car got on the expressway smoothly, and I stepped on the accelerator desperately to vent my unhappiness. Seeing everything that was getting faster and faster and blurred in front of me, I felt a little more comfortable.

It's just that I don't know if I can feel her tenderness again in my lifetime... Now it seems that everything has become a luxury.

Originally, she and I were not in the same world, no matter before or now, it hasn't changed!Even if I were given a chance to get her now, would I choose?
At this moment, I suddenly thought of my second uncle, of the woman he loved the most in his heart, and of his refusal to get married all these years...

In fact, once you miss something, you will miss it forever. Some people live in your heart for a lifetime. Once some tenderness appears, it will be engraved in your bones!
"Ah! Roar! I hate it!"

Shouting desperately, I just want to spit out the suffocation in my chest. There is a mass of stuff in my chest that makes me a little out of breath, and the depression makes me feel unprecedentedly heavy!
In the invisible, it seemed that there was a big invisible hand that forcibly tore off a shackle from my body. The pain was so painful that I couldn't bear it!

"Howl! Howl! Xiong Sanming, Xiongqi! Hahahaha!"

I laughed wildly and wiped my tears all the way, and the car left Shencheng at high speed. I knew that I would never forget everything that happened before, so let it be dusty in my heart forever!
Maybe what is not available in the world is the best, but I think the most painful thing in the world is that it was once within reach but passed by. If you give me another chance...

There is never any medicine for regret in the world. If I could have it, I would do my best to change it, but I can’t let go of the kindness of my second uncle...

Maybe the rivers and lakes and the ordinary are two worlds, maybe life always faces many painful choices, it may not be a good thing for me to get lost in this long dark night!
Maybe one day in the future, when I look back at my youth, I will find that the struggle and pain of youth are so heart-piercing, but maybe I will tell everything with a smile!

For the first time, I found that driving fast and disregarding my life and safety can be so exciting. For the first time, I fell in love with the feeling of walking around on the verge of death!
I have stepped on the accelerator to the bottom, and the other cars on the highway have been thrown behind by me one by one, maybe because I want to escape in embarrassment as soon as possible...

It is a long road from Shencheng to Qilu, I occasionally slow down the speed and take a break, but most of the time I drive desperately, desperately wanting to return to that land full of hatred!

I left in a hurry and didn't have time to tell Su Yurong, I didn't have time to meet the genius, but I don't regret all the decisions I made!
After refueling twice on the road, the long dark night finally subsided, and the dark sky gradually brightened, as if with a new rebirth and hope!

After I got off the expressway, I found a hotel nearby and checked in. I fell asleep as soon as I entered the door. I didn't want to keep myself awake, because the pain was really hard...

It was already afternoon when I woke up, feeling my whole body was sore, I dragged my tired body and made a cup of instant noodles to fill my stomach.

After taking a shower, I started to be in a daze. I lit cigarettes one after another. I kept thinking about the next plan. If I want to have a nightmare, I must fool everyone!

I took out the human skin mask and stared at it for a long time. This empty mask seemed to attract me with a magical power, and I remembered what the eight-faced ghost once said in my mind.

He said that the real camouflage without flaws is to put all the masks on the face and never take them off easily, otherwise you won't be able to deceive others!
Looking at the empty mask is like seeing yourself at the moment. The empty eyes have no brilliance, no pity, no hope, and no trace of emotion.

I put down my mask and turned my head to go out. I bought some things in a nearby shopping mall, and then went straight to a nearby Internet cafe.

In Internet cafes, I keep looking for people who look my age and the most important thing is not to be too ugly!

Although men don't look at their looks to look at their strength, sometimes it's easier to do things with a better appearance. After all, the public's aesthetic concept is there, and it's always right to look pleasing to the eye!
After searching for a long time, I found a young man in the same grade and appearance on the second floor of the Internet cafe. He was playing games with headphones and his nose looked similar from the side!

In fact, the height of the bridge of the nose is the criterion for my choice, otherwise it will not look like it no matter how disguised it is!
I secretly wrote down his machine number, turned around and went back to the bar on the first floor to buy cigarettes and water, and charged 100 yuan to his number by the way.

After mentioning the machine number, the network administrator quickly recharged the money, and I went straight to the second floor with cigarettes and drinks.

I know that there will be a small prompt window for charging money in Internet cafes. I guess that kid is also confused now. How could someone charge him money when he is so good?
In fact, my real purpose does not lie in other things, I just want to 'borrow' his ID card, only real things will not show flaws!

I want to pretend to be him, and turn into him completely with his ID card!Then live in Qilu with a brand new identity and appearance, truly becoming a nightmare for opponents!

I walked over and put the drink in front of him, and patted him on the shoulder hard, and he was instantly startled!
"Hey friend, just now I recharged money by mistake, and accidentally charged it into your card."

"Ah?" He took off his earphones and looked at me straight, I thought he wouldn't want to die, would he?

"Just now the network administrator made a mistake in charging [-]. He asked me to come up and talk to you, otherwise I will freeze it for you."

"Really? I didn't see it?" He immediately pretended to check the balance, and I waited patiently beside him.

"It's really two hundred more, but I didn't bring that much money today!"

"It's okay, I don't need you to pay me back, it's just..."

"Who said I'm going to pay you back? Who told you to attack me?" He put on an unreasonable look, and a group of people rushed past me in an instant!

"You ask the network administrator to freeze it for me? My brother knows the boss here! Anyway, I didn't ask you to rush, so you can do whatever you want!"

"Damn it! I have a bad temper!" Without saying a word, I wanted to show my pistol and point the black muzzle at him directly!
I know that no matter how much I say today, it will be futile. Sometimes he won't know how many eyes Ma Wangye has unless he shows the guy in his hand!

(End of this chapter)